Oh em gee
I'm sosososososoo sorry I've not posted in a while!
I've been in so much pain/so busy filming youtube videos and various other tasks!
I should be post a lot more for the next 6 weeks seeing as it's SSUUMMMMMMEERRRRR!
anyway, enough with my rambles an on with the story ...

He slammed the door shut behind him, as the sunlight hit his face, removing the dark shadows revealing a disgruntled Bitters. 'I'm sorry I'm late!' He apologized 'there was an incident in the lobby!'. My heart beat slowed down. I sighed a sigh of relief and closed my eyes briefly and looked down at Jo, who was still gripping onto my hand. 'Tell me later' she whispered, before turning back around, facing the crowd of people.

As the day went on, everything was a success. Nothing was wrong. I forgot my troubles & I was surrounded by the love of my family and friends. Before I knew it, it was 6pm, and the party was still happening. Even though throughout the room, I could see so many people who has encountered great pain throughout their lives, no one cared. Everyone was here to celebrate, and be happy, even if it was such a short period of time, I knew this was something everyone would remember.

As I stood in the kitchen by the oven, admiring the view of smiling, happy, and fun-filled faces, a small boy approached me. 'Hello Kendall' He whispered dragging me down to his level. His blonde floppy hair fell in front of his green eyes, and reminded me of myself. I smiled slightly, looking down at my little cousin. 'Hey Shane! what's wrong?' I asked, slightly concerned. If there was one thing I knew about my cousin, it was that he was really shy, and he only spoke to me if he needed to. As he listened, he looked down at his sneakers, and then moving his toes in his shoes in sync with each other as he muttered 'it's so unfair, Kendall ..'. 'Shane?' I asked, except this time, I really was concerned. Very concerned. Even though he's shy, he'll tell you what's wrong quicker than a fly sticks to a lollypop. But this was different, it was almost as if he couldn't tell me ... like he was afraid.

'Shane?' I repeated, until his head arose and from under his blonde floppy mane of hair, his green eyes was now slightly bloodshot and red, as a tear silent fell down his cheek. 'Mommy sick' he sniffled, burying his head into my shoulder, as my arms wrapped around him. I know he's my cousin, and I know I've not seen him in awhile, but part of me felt like I did when ever I was little & I would see something hurt Katie, except this time I can't go and face up to the bullies who had said mean things about my sister. This is when reality hit me. Even though I had been though so much, too much in fact for someone my age, there are so many other people in the world who are facing many different problems, and a lot are more closer to home than you think.

Moments past, and the small boy unwound himself from my arms and looked into my eyes. His was glistening, and I knew I had to help him, despite what was happening in my life, I knew he was too young to be going through this. 'Don't worry' I advised 'I'm here for you ... where ever here is!'. The little boys lips curled slightly, showing an innocent smile 'Thank you, Kendall' he whispered, 'you're my favourite cousin'. A smile grew on my face, covering the pain underneath me, as the little boy ran away to his Mother across the room.

Then I snapped back into reality. My phone buzzed in my pocket, drawing me back to the pain. I shot up, my back hovering against the oven, which was turned off behind me. I slowly slid it out & stared at the call iD. A name wasn't displayed, but I knew the number. I knew it all too well. As the numbers ran through my mind, the conversations we had still ran through my mind. The angry tone of this voice. The threats he placed in my unforgiving mind. The pain he caused. The nights I spent as a child, watching my Mom cry. The days I spent growing up, as my baby sister asked 'Where's Daddy?' to my Mom. I hit the glowing red telephone on the right side of the keypad, telling my phone to ignore the call. Ignore the heartache. Ignore the pain. Ignore the memories. Ignore the childhood. Ignore the man.

I breathed in, and out repeatedly, similarly to how I did this morning, telling myself that I could deal with this even thought I really couldn't. My Mom knew what he was capable of, she even told me to talk to her about it, but how could I tell her he was coming today? Today of all days?

Most people don't realize why my Mom's birthday is such a happy day for her. It's the day she escaped the wrath of the man. He may have left pain and suffering behind, but the pain and suffering which he left on my Mom's skin was more important. Her birthday may have been the end of a marriage, the end of a relationship, but it was also the end of the beating. The physical pain he left on her.

The thing my brothers don't know, is what the man did. They know he's hurt us, but they don't know about the scars he left on my Mom. The emotional pain was more than enough for woman with two young children to deal with, but turning up home every night drunk, and beating her because she was never there, was never the one, it just wasn't right. He may have left, but the night he left my Mom cried. When he slammed the door shut she cried with joy. The tears slipped down her cheeks as the realization hit her that he may have cheated on her, yet she was free from the pain, she was free from hiding the blue and purple marks he left on her body, and she was free to leave the house when ever she wanted. She didn't have another child to look after. A weight was lifted off her shoulders that night. A weight of torment and abuse. But little does she know years later, it was dumped back onto mine ...

WHAT DO YOU THINK?
DID YOU THINK IT WAS 'THE MAN'?
Hahahahahaa:D
Ahh I love tormenting you!
So tell me what you think of the chapter/story so far & I should be updating this story sosososo soon!
I might not be able to upadte until Saturday, as I'm going shopping tomorrow, indoor skydiving on thursday, and a gig on Friday night!:D
exciting much!
anyway, I hope you all like it!:D
(MWAH)