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04: So Sick
I have been laying on my bed for the last four hours staring out the window, just thinking about Bella and Edward. They seemed to be a lot like each other from what I can tell. Bella doesn't like people seeing her blush meanwhile Edward hates it when people see him cry.
My heart was beating fast as I thought about the night I'd go out with Bella, to a movie. I have no idea what we're going to watch but it should be fun. I want it to be a nice movie because I want to see many more with her. I felt like a monster! Edward, I love Edward Cullen, I love Edward Anthony Cullen but I'm going to go out with Bella Swan...my neighbor.
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
I reached over and answered my phone, "Hello?"
"Baby! Hey, how are you? I miss you." a pang of guilt struck me.
My heart began to race all over again, "I'm good...you?" I mumbled.
Uh oh, DAMN! Jasper, why the hell did you use that voice? Now he is going to tell there is something wrong.
"You don't sound to good, what's wrong?" he asked, his voice laced with worry.
I looked around and coughed, "Just a bit sick." I said.
"Sick? Damn, I'm so sorry. It's my fault for leaving you outside for so long! I'll be over in a few." before I could say anything, he hung up.
I sniffled and sighed, I really do feel sick though.
My iHome turned on and let my music play Goodbye by Secondhand Serenade.
It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way
And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Its time to say goodbye
Goodbye
Bye
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong
Take my hand away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong
I hadn't really paid any attention to Edward when he let himself in, walking over to the bed to hold onto me. A few tears fell as I realized how much I would hurt Edward when I told him I had a date Friday night. The song continued on repeat.
"Jasper...you are incredibly warm." Edward murmured, putting his hand on my forehead.
He hissed, "Damn! You're hot." he gasped.
"Ha...thanks..." I mumbled, trying to joke with him.
He turned me over but I kept my eyes on the window beside my iHome, a freedom I wanted so far from my reach but still so close. Sharp and deadly. My tears continued to fall, "Baby? What hurts, why are you crying?" he asked worriedly.
"Edward...I want to say goodbye..." I choked out and he pulled me into his arms.
He began to rub my arms as I shivered, "No goodbye! I don't want to say goodbye, Jasper. Don't talk like that." he cried.
Rose and Emmett poked their heads into the room, "What's wrong?" Rose asked.
"He's sick and now he's talking about saying goodbye?" Edward said frantically.
The two ran over and Rose checked my temperature, "He's way too hot! We need to get him to the hospital now." she said.
Emmett lifted me up and Edward wiped away some tears, "Oh Jasper..." he whispered.
"I'll drive him to the hospital, you two follow." Emmett said and made his way out of the house.
The cold hit my cheeks and I gasped, "C-cold..." I choked out.
That's when I saw Bella out of the corner of my eye, she dropped her bag and watched as Emmett put me in his Jeep. Rose was answering her questions, her question.
Was I ok?
Did I need anything?
Rose seemed to know her.
"You can come to the hospital with me, Bella. I don't know what's wrong with him yet." she said as she pulled Bella into Edward's car.
Edward's grip tightened on the wheel and I knew he didn't like Bella being in his car, "Ugh...Emmett? I don't feel so great..." I mumbled.
"I know, man. We're going to take you to the hospital." and he sped off down the street with Edward's silver Volvo behind us.
I watched as the trees and houses became a blur in my vision, not because of the speed but because of my tears. I want to just die now. I know that I probably will if they don't take me to the hospital and don't give me anything to treat me, I want that.
Why was I so suicidal all of a sudden?
Why did that really matter anyways? I want to die because I'm hurting the people I love.
I froze and my eyes widened, love? No way! I barely know Bella.
My stomach was hurting and I moaned in pain, "Emmett..." I called.
"Just close your eyes and don't think about it, Jazz." he said to me.
Death seemed so scary now and I didn't want to die anymore, I want to be selfish and have them in my life the same way. I want them all in my life; Emmett, Rose, Edward, and Bella! All of them.
I love them all...I love Bella even though I barely know her but what can I say? I believe in love at first sight.
The car pulled to a stop and Emmett carried me out of the car, walking towards the hospital. People were watching as he carried me inside with the others following after us.
"Hey! I need this guy-" Edward cut Emmett off, "Get my father, Dr. Cullen out now!" he demanded.
The woman at the desk nodded furiously and called for Edward's father, just a few moments later he came walking down the hall and saw us all standing there. Well I was in Emmett's arms.
"Edward, what happened?" Carlisle asked him.
He nodded towards me and Carlisle's eyes widened, "Oh god...follow me! There's no time to get anyone to carry him into a room." he ordered.
Emmett was the only one allowed to go because he was the one carrying me, Rose was holding onto Edward tightly and he was holding her with an arm around her waist.
They disappeared from my vision and I was set on a bed in a white room, "Emmett...what..." I could barely speak.
Carlisle nodded, "Thanks." he said to him as he called for assistance.
Two nurses came into the room and they began to take off my shirt, my pants, and my socks.
"It's so cold!" I yelped.
They ignored me and left me in my boxers. Carlisle began to cover me with a few blankets that did nothing to shield me from the cold, I wanted to cry and I did but silently. I let the tears fall.
"Jasper, I need you to calm down. You're raising your heart rate which isn't good at all." Carlisle said, trying to help calm me down.
I was fucking cold!
"I fucking freezing!" I shouted.
Carlisle grabbed something and stabbed me with it, my eyes began to shut as I struggled to fight it. I don't want to sleep. No sleep, sleep is bad...very bad for me.
"E-Edward..." I whispered before everything went black.
My name is MAT!
I live in a FLAT!
I got a good BACK!
And a caddilac or cadalac? I don't know.
Lol. I suck at spelling car names.
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-Mat