Rated M of course ;D I don't own anything in here. Review? Please?
**NOTE: So I got some reviews and PM's that were like "What if Jo was pregnant?" So I decided to make a fluffy/smutty one shot of just that. I hope you all enjoy and leave awesome feedback :D I had fun writing this. Kendall is SUCH a good daddy :D
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DREAMS
They say things that happen in heat of the moment aren't always worth…the heat of the moment.
And Kendall Knight never believed that, until he experienced it firsthand.
It was a sunny day outside, and Kendall and Jo sat on the couch of 2J watching a movie. Due to both of their hectic schedules, neither of the pair wanted to go outside to the Palm Woods pool. It was crowded, noisy and chaotic, something they did not want to deal with. They had both woken up late from Kendall's strenuous dance rehearsals, and Jo's long days on set, and decided since everyone was already out and about, they could cuddle up and relax, watching a movie together. Even though the air conditioning was bursting in the apartment, Kendall and Jo still sat scantily clad on the couch, him in just a pair of jeans and a thin t-shirt, Jo in a barely there tank top and cut off denim shorts. She cuddled into him, and rested her head on his chest, as his hand rubbed the small of her back gently.
The two had been watching whatever movie Jo had picked up from her DVD collection silently, Kendall actually surprised he somewhat enjoyed the horrible chick flick. They sat in silence, chuckling and talking ever so often as different parts of the movie played out, their hands encased in one another gently.
Suddenly, on the screen, the two main characters began to kiss each other, caught in quite an erotic lip lock, with a close up view. Kendall and Jo still sat in silence as the lip lock on screen intensified, and the camera began to zoom out, to the two lovers taking off their clothes. Jo shifted a bit awkwardly on the couch letting out a small giggle as Kendall licked his lips and shifted on the couch as well. After a few seconds, the couple on the screen had begun to make love, a bunch of bare skin and human anatomy at the viewer's eyes.
Kendall shifted in his seat a bit, starting to get uncomfortable. He was indeed a teenage boy, and had seen a bit of porn in his time, thanks to James of course, but he began to get the same feeling he'd get when he watched it, which he hadn't in a long time. He didn't need to when he had a healthy, sexual relationship with Jo.
Jo looked up at Kendall with a small smirk, and he looked down at her with a cocked eyebrow and a nervous stare. Jo could tell he was uncomfortable, her hand resting on his thigh which constantly moved.
"What's the matter?" she asked him with a knowing grin. Kendall bit his lip and looked down at her, sucking his teeth in slyly.
"I'm fine," he lied out with a nervous chuckle, his eyes going back to the movie. He had to admit, even for an R rated movie, the love scene playing out in front of him was quite graphic and audible. Kendall closed his eyes and took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down, when he felt himself began to tighten up in his jeans.
"Fuck," he mumbled quietly under his breath, as he tried to situate himself on the couch better to conceal his growing problem. Jo chuckled, and rested her hand on his upper thigh, gently rubbing small circles into it as he sighed out loud awkwardly.
Kendall was terrified to let Jo know that this stupid love scene was turning him on. Why did she even pick this movie in the first place? Kendall watched as the scene continued to unfold, wondering why it was so goddamn long in the first place. Jo's hand inconspicuously went to the button of his jeans, and she unbuttoned them slightly as Kendall looked down at her in surprise and worry.
She didn't say anything, but lean up to his neck, and gently begin to nibble on his pulse point. Kendall's eyes closed and he sighed heavily as she began to suckle his neck, her hand dipping into the warm confines of his boxers. Jo's hand tugged out her boyfriend's erection from his boxers, as she surrounded it with her hands, Kendall letting out a large sigh of relief. Jo gently began to pump him, her lips still at his neck, as both lovers heard a key in the door.
Kendall and Jo shakily and immediately separated, Jo turning off the movie completely, as Kendall hurriedly fixed himself, his eyes worried as Logan, Carlos and James walked through the door fiestily.
"I hate that the pool is always so crowded when it's hot," Carlos grumbled out miserably, walking over to the orange couch. Kendall quickly took a pillow to cover up the work that Jo had done, as he flopped next to the couple, who looked a bit out of breath. Logan sighed and sat down next to Carlos, James following suit as they looked at Kendall and Jo with odd glances.
"What were you two doing?" James asked with a raised eyebrow and a small smirk, looking at the nervous couple, Kendall with a pillow on his lap.
"Just uh-hanging out," Kendall responded nervously with a smirk. He swallowed hard and bit his lower lip nodding his head, Carlos and Logan not catching on to what James so obviously knew.
"We were actually gonna listen to some music in your room, right Kendall?" Jo said nervously with a grin on her face. Kendall looked back at her with a confused expression cocking his eyebrow at her before turning back to the guys.
"Uh yeah, let's go do that," Kendall spoke nervously, as Jo quickly pulled him up from the couch, Kendall doing his best to try to conceal his horrible hard on, while walking with it across the apartment. James, Logan and Carlos stared confused, but shook their heads as they continued complaining about the pool.
The second Kendall and Jo walked into his and Logan's room, the door was locked.
"We gotta do this fast," Jo spoke rushedly, going to her jeans and unbuttoning them. She pulled them down her legs, and kicked them aside as Kendall watched in awe at his girlfriends rush. His eyes went wide as she let down her hair a bit, and then went to her hips. She quickly, and skillfully stripped her bottoms off, leaving her lower half completely bare as Kendall swallowed hard and nodded. He pushed his jeans down to his knees, and then followed suit with his boxers, allowing himself to stick out. Jo grabbed Kendall's hand, and pulled him towards her, so she was sandwiched between him and the wall, his length rubbing up against her thigh gently. Kendall breathed heavily as he brought one of Jo's legs up to his waist and locked it around him as the two lovers breathed heavily into each other's faces.
"I didn't know that just one love scene could make you excited," Jo said with a sly grin, as Kendall chuckled and pecked his girlfriend's lips sweetly.
In what seemed like an instant, Kendall's lips were on hers, one arm holding her thigh, the other leaning against the wall, as he moved his hips against hers. Jo's hand rested at his lower back, pushing and regulating his thrusts, as both of their bodies moved in sync, their lips messily kissing each other.
"How long has it been Jo, you're so tight," Kendall spoke playfully in her ear with a soft, gruff whisper, his breaths panting as he exerted himself strainfully. Jo sighed out loud and bucked into him powerfully, making sure the pleasure was going both ways.
Jo looked up the ceiling with her eyes closed, as she let out a soft moan, Kendall kissing her vibrating throat and pushing her hair away, as her entire body moved up and down on him.
"A few weeks?" she spoke softly, allowing her head to rest back on the door with closed eyes. Kendall swallowed hard and hung his head, using his weight against the door to get some leverage, as Jo's legs began to spread wider. The motions continued for a few minutes, just heavy breathing and sweet whispers in each other's ears filling the silence.
"Kendalll…" she moaned out softly, as he went to her neck and ravenously sucked it. She held onto his hips tightly as they began to near the end, Jo's body sliding up and down the door as he went harder.
"It's gonna…it's gonna be good, baby girl, I can feel it," he whispered between heavy pants in her ear, as he threw caution to the wind and started erratically bucking into her.
Only a few seconds later did both lovers reach their high points as Jo bit on Kendall's shoulder, her hands taking fistfuls of his hair. He bit his lower lip in ecstasy; eyes closed as his shoulders rapidly rose and fell in time as he let out a long moan, his thighs nearly shaking from all the pleasure as he came inside her. Jo, almost going weak at the knees tugged on Kendall's hair powerfully, desperately trying her best not to fall as her thighs rubbed against his roughly.
Jo and Kendall slowly dropped to the floor, still attached as Jo cuddled into him, and he rubbed her back soothingly, chuckling and breathing heavily. He placed a soft kiss to her blonde locks, his length now limp inside of her, but refusing to pull out just yet.
"That was…wow," he spoke softly. Jo nodded into him and swallowed hard, her breathing still a bit labored, resting on his chest.
There was something on Jo's mind that was bothering her, and she just didn't know what it was.
A month and a half later.
Jo and Kendall sat on the edge of tub in the bathroom of 2J, looking at the little white stick in Jo's shaking hands. Tears came out of Jo's eyes non-stop, as she cuddled into Kendall, her whole entire body shaking with fear, crying into his chest like someone had died. Luckily no one was home in 2J to hear her.
Jo Taylor, pregnant at sixteen.
"How did this happen?" Jo cried into Kendall's shirt, as the teenage boy held her, his own body shaking a bit. Here he was, finally living a dream he never realized he wanted until he got here and now it was all about to come crashing down on him, along with his girlfriend's dreams.
"I-I don't know, babe. D-did you forget to take your birth control?" Kendall asked her with a dry, shaky voice. Jo looked up at him and bit her lip, tears pouring down her face as she shrugged helplessly. That could be the only reason how this could happen, seeing as the couple had never used a condom, knowing they were both virgins from the start, and STD free.
"I g-guess, I must've," Jo cried out horrified. "I-I'm so sorry, K-Kendall, I should've p-paid more attention. I'm s-sorry," she cried into him devastated, her throat full of tears. Kendall gently eased him and Jo off the tub onto the floor, where she collapsed into his warm, embracing arms in hysterics on the cold tile floor.
"I'm n-not ready to b-be a mother. W-what about m-my show? W-what about y-your band? T-this is all m-my fault," Jo barely got out, her eyes swollen beyond belief. She hadn't stopped crying since she had told Kendall she might be pregnant a half an hour ago. But might wasn't in the equation anymore. Jo was pregnant, and Kendall was the father.
She had missed her period this month, and had felt a little nauseous. Looking in her birth control pill box, she noticed that one Wednesday, a pill was remaining after a month. Shit.
"Don't leave me, p-please don't l-leave me, I'm s-so sorry," she bawled into him, taking fistfuls of his shirt, her entire body convulsing with each cry. Kendall licked his lips, and blinked his eyes, trying his hardest not to cry at the fact that his life and teen years had just effectively ended. He was going to be a father.
"I'm right here, Jo. I'm not going anywhere, alright? I love you. I love you so much, babe," Kendall spoke wearily into her blonde hair, a tear leaking out the side of his eye. He quickly wiped it away and swallowed the lump in his throat. "This isn't your fault, okay? This is both of our faults," Kendall spoke softly, trying to ease his girlfriend's horrible cries by rubbing her back soothingly. Kendall swallowed hard and closed his eyes tightly, taking a deep sigh.
"Listen, Jo," he started off softly. "This is your choice, babe. And whatever you want to do…I'm gonna support you 100%, no matter what," he whispered into her hair, hoping she wouldn't say the 'A' word he had dreaded from the moment they had found out. Jo nodded into his chest, as Kendall took her shaking hands in his shaking hands, holding them gently.
"I'm n-not getting an a-a-abortion, I c-could never," Jo spoke softly looking up at Kendall with furrowed eyebrows. Kendall smiled and sighed in a bit of relief, touching Jo's face softly.
"Good. I don't want that either," he whispered softly. Jo smiled up at him small-ly and swallowed hard, as he softly pressed his lips to hers in a chaste kiss. She cuddled into Kendall again, holding her stomach and shaking her head.
"I'm sorry," she whispered out softly. Kendall held her tightly and rested his head on hers, sneaking a kiss on her forehead, holding her as tight as he possibly could.
"Me too."
"So what is soimportant that you had to sit me down at the dining room table, Kendall?" Mrs. Knight asked with a raised eyebrow, sitting down across from her son.
Kendall had to tell his mother Jo was pregnant.
Since the two had found out three days ago, he had told no one. He'd spent the last three days at Jo's apartment, holding her hair back when she got morning sickness, singing her to sleep when her cries kept her awake, and making sure she had everything she needed to stay somewhat positive about this. Kendall was absolutely exhausted just taking care of his pregnant girlfriend, and he had no possible idea how he was going to do this when he had Jo, a baby, and a career.
Kendall sat down the table across from his mother with a sad, defeated look in his eyes. Mrs. Knight's eyes seemed to understand that something was severely wrong, as she reached out for Kendall's clammy hand across the table. He looked up at his mother, his bangs over his face, his brows furrowed, as a tear sneaked down his cheek.
"Sweetheart, what's going on?" Mrs. Knight asked in horror, her heart beating against her chest. Kendall licked his lips, tugging on his lower one with his teeth as he took a shaky breath.
He didn't know how he was going to tell her. He would've had Jo by his side, like he did when she told her father, who was beyond furious and nearly chased Kendall out of the house. Fortunately, Jo had calmed her father down the point where his blood pressure was reasonable, and had told Kendall to leave, as she talked to him by herself. All that left Kendall to do was to tell his mother that she was going to be a grandmother. He sighed deeply and thinned out his lips, his heart dropping into his stomach.
"Mom, Jo's p-pregnant," Kendall barely got out. Mrs. Knight looked at her son in absolute horror, her entire face dropping to the ground with a horrible expression, squeezing his hand tightly.
"W-what?" she asked in disbelief. Kendall's entire face tensed up and he looked away from his mother, not being able to look her in the eyes, tears flowing down his cheeks. He didn't want to break down, or disappoint his mother, but he had to. There was no other way. If Jo was going to have this baby, things were going to change, and he was going to have to be honest with his mother.
"I'm sorry," he whispered, as he buried his face in his hands and began to softly cry, his back starting to expand with each sob. "Mom, I'm so sorry. It just happened, a-and Jo forgot to take her birth control pill and-and I-I don't know what to do," Kendall said, breaking down with no problem. "I just I d-don't know what to do." His hands went through his blonde hair tightly and tears leaked down his face.
Mrs. Knight had only seen her strong willed son really break down once in front of her, when his father left. But seeing Kendall this distraught, she had no reaction except to feel bad for her son. She hadn't even been positive that Jo and Kendall had been having a sexual relationship, even though after nearly eight months, she could assume the worst. While she was fuming inside, and disappointed, here Kendall was, in need of her help. What could a mother do? Yell at him till she was blue in the face, or comfort him like the mother she wanted to be.
"What am I going to do?" Kendall cried in his hands miserably. After being so strong for Jo the past few days, he needed to break down. Mrs. Knight looked at him in awe, her heart beating fast against her chest as she swallowed, still in shock. Her son was going to be a father. She was going to be a grandmother. Kendall was no longer a little boy. He was a man.
"I'm sorry, I'm so fuckin' sorry," he cried in his hands loudly, as Mrs. Knight rushed up from the table, and came to the other side. Kendall stood up from his chair with red, swollen eyes, and the second he was close enough, fell into his mother's arms.
Mrs. Knight was crying as well, tears down her face, as she embraced Kendall as close as she possibly could, rubbing his back as he cried into her, cried the past three days he'd been bottling up inside.
"It's okay baby," Mrs. Knight spoke softly, not knowing what else to say.
"I'm not r-ready to be a f-father, I shouldn't have s-started anything with Jo, I'm s-so sor-ry, mom," Kendall cried into her small frame, as Mrs. Knight held him tightly to her. "I'm sorry I disappointed you."
"We'll figure this out, alright? And I'm here for you guys," she said with a sharp pain in her throat. She was angry and disappointed at him and his girlfriend for not being responsible, but right now, she had to put all of that out of the way, and concentrate on her son, and letting him know no matter what he did, that she'd always love him.
Kendall parted from her, his face tear stricken, eyes red and swollen as Mrs. Knight wiped his tears away with her hand and he bit his lower lip.
"I love you, Kendall."
Five Months Later
After dealing with a paparazzi blitz when the news came out, Jo losing her spot on New Town High, and Kendall coming under national scrutiny for impregnating his girlfriend, the two teens were torn at the seams from all the horrible happenings of the past five months. Kendall and Jo had no idea what to do.
While still trying to stay as much in Big Time Rush as he could, everyone could see that Kendall was definitely lacking in his singing and dancing abilities, staying up till three in the morning some nights with Jo, as she cried into him, massaging her lower back when it ached and telling her it was all going to be right when he had no idea about how anything was truthfully going to turn out.
The two never even had a comfortable moment with each other, where they actually appreciated the small little baby of their growing inside Jo. Her stomach was definitely noticeable since she had hit the six month mark, and truthfully, she wasn't handling it well. Neither Jo nor Kendall were handling it well, and that was what killed them the most.
They had traced back the date of conception to when the two watched that movie with that goddamn long love scene. If Jo had picked another movie, none of this would have ever happened. Kendall found it easier to blame other people for the pregnancy, rather than himself. But it didn't make it any easier on either of the two.
Not to mention while very sympathetic and supportive, Mrs. Knight and Katie had not looked at Kendall the same since he'd told them. They were both quite standoffish to the boy, and Mrs. Knight couldn't help but thinking that her son was ruining his life, and all the dreams he had worked so hard for.
Kendall knocked on the door of Jo's apartment with tired, saggy green eyes. Since he hadn't seen his pregnant girlfriend in nearly two days, especially since Jo didn't leave the apartment anymore, he figured he'd spend the night here, with her father gone on business of course.
Jo opened the door with sad, solemn, and a small smile on her lips when she saw Kendall at the door. He took a deep breath and looked at how she filled out the maternity shirt she had bought, her skin glowing, and her hair radiant as ever. Kendall had to admit, pregnancy had made her even more beautiful.
"Hey babe," he said softly and quietly, leaning down to her lips, and pecking them gently. He rested his hand on her tummy, and gave it a soft rub. He then kissed her forehead in the hallway, as she leaned into him the best she could for being six months along, and hugged him tight.
Kendall walked in the apartment, and sighed, throwing down his pillow and blanket on the couch, where he usually slept when he came over. Jo's single bed wasn't nearly big enough for the two of them, and if they dare even go in her father's room, nervous about what could possibly happen if he found out. He already despised Kendall for knocking his daughter up, but Mr. John Taylor had to admit, the boy was doing everything he promised he'd do, and he saw it. Mr. Taylor had actually given Kendall a handshake the other day when he walked in the apartment at twelve midnight to spend time with Jo, the first somewhat moderately friendly contact the two had since the news broke. Five months later.
Exhausted from a long day of dance rehearsals, harmonies, and wardrobe change, Kendall was ready to crash, but he knew he wouldn't be able to sleep on Jo's couch. As much as he wanted to sleep in her apartment, he couldn't help but think that something was going to terribly wrong with Jo or the baby, or that he'd go to sleep, and wake up, and this would be all some sort of horrible nightmare.
Kendall and Jo sat side by side on the couch, Kendall slinging his arm around her, and holding her to him to tightly, as he planted a kiss on her forehead.
"You feeling okay?" he asked her softly without any emotion in his voice. Jo nodded and sighed gently.
"Just a bit of a backache, nothing new," she told him softly, her words seeming upset and stressed. Kendall looked at her and sighed deeply, only imagining what was going through his girlfriend's head. True, they were on the same boat with expecting a child, but Jo was actually expecting a child. She was going to have to go through another three, four months of this, and then endure a painful birth. Kendall couldn't help but feel sorry for his young, once slim girlfriend, as he reached out and touched her hair gently.
Jo sighed and stared straight ahead, not having much thought in spending time with Kendall, knowing they were both absolutely exhausted all the time, and that neither of them had even been able to muster up a kiss or any bit of affection lately. Kendall sighed and leaned over to Jo, holding her in a gentle embrace, kissing her forehead tenderly.
"You know I love you, right?" Kendall spoke gently into her ear, Jo nodding along. He kissed her hair once more, slipping his hand on hers, which rested on her belly. Kendall began to gently rub her stomach, something she had never really seen him do much of, when he suddenly pulled his hand away. Kendall's eyes lit up and he swallowed hard as Jo chuckled tiredly at him.
"What's the matter?" she asked. Kendall looked at her in awe, letting out a small chuckle.
"It…it moved," Kendall spoke softly. Jo nodded and felt around her stomach, biting her lower lip, holding back a smile.
"I know. It's been kicking for a few days now," Jo said with a small, pained smile on her face. Kendall swallowed hard and looked at Jo in awe.
"Really?" he asked. Jo nodded, taking Kendall's hand tiredly, and placing it on her stomach, and moving it around. Kendall felt tiny kicks on his palm, his girlfriend's hand over his and he smiled widely. Jo looked at him, and he looked insanely happy and proud for once.
"That's…that's really…our baby?" he spoke softly, almost as if he didn't believe Jo was actually pregnant. She nodded and tried her best to rearrange herself back on the couch, shifting awkwardly as she sighed deeply.
"That's it," she said with a small, uncomfortable chuckle. Kendall tried to shift himself to her liking, as she rested down on his chest, both their hands over her stomach. In the past five months, Jo and Kendall hadn't really gotten a chance like this, to spend time together quietly, where both their eyes were open. Kendall also hadn't really realized that Jo was carrying a baby in her stomach, and that this was all super real. The couple had been so busy dealing with all the negatives about the pregnancy that they hadn't even focused on the positives.
"Have you—thought of any names?" Kendall asked Jo, his lips against her temple, eyes closed softly. Jo sighed deeply, and chuckled a bit nodding her head.
"Yeah. You?" she asked. Kendall swallowed hard and nodded no, his lips still against her temple.
"Not really. Tell me yours," he said in a whisper, Jo's hand tightening over his own. She sighed deeply.
"I like Jack for a boy. And Brittany for a girl," Jo said with a small smile, arching her head up to look at Kendall. Kendall smiled at her with a small smirk and ran his fingers through her hair.
"Jack Taylor, Brittany Taylor," Kendall spoke softly, staring into Jo's eyes. Jo nodded her head no and gave Kendall a small smile. "I like them."
"Jack Taylor-Knight, and Brittany Taylor-Knight," Jo spoke. Kendall looked at her with an odd, surprised face and licked his lips.
"Babe, you don't have to do that. We're—we're not married, and…"
"I don't care, Kendall. You're the baby's father, and he or she should carry your last name as well as mine," she said in a small whisper, smiling genuinely up at her boyfriend. Kendall leaned down and slowly pecked her lips, brushing the hair away from her face. He pulled away a bit, but ultimately leaned back down and passionately kissed Jo, something he hadn't done in legitimately four months. His and Jo's lips moved together perfectly, as their tongues danced together, his hand rubbing her stomach gently. The parted with two small smiles, and leaned their foreheads against each other.
"That's very sweet of you," he spoke out with a smile. Jo nodded, swooping his chin to her lips, and kissing the corner of his mouth delicately and tenderly.
Jo sighed and looked at Kendall with a smile, something she couldn't control in their private time together. Her hands rubbed through his and she swallowed hard, looking up into his tired, stressful, upset green eyes.
"Kendall," she said softly. Kendall looked at her a bit concerned, hoping that she wasn't going to drop some big bombshell on him, he'd had enough of that the past year.
"Yeah?"
Jo sighed and smiled, her eyes getting watery. "Thank you so much, for everything you've been doing for me, babe," she spoke out, a small tear going down her cheek. Kendall chuckled and softly wiped it away as Jo took a deep, shaky breath in.
"I just, I know it must be hard between me, and the guys, your mom and Katie, and the band, but, y-you really are the only reason I'm getting through this, and I-I wake up every day wondering if this is real, a-and when I do, I get upset, but then I realize t-that I have you," Jo got out softly through a small barrage of tears.
Kendall looked at his tired, pregnant girlfriend in awe and couldn't help but smile at her.
"And that makes everything better," she whispered out. Kendall leaned down and kissed her forehead gently, feeling the small kick of his child under his palm as he sighed deeply, feeling as comfortable as ever right where he was.
"I love you, Jo."
Four Months Later
Kendall stared through the plate glass nursery window, his eyes locked on the beautiful baby girl two rows back, and three spots over from the center.
Baby Taylor-Knight.
Jo and Kendall hadn't given her a name yet, seeing as she was born only an hour ago. Kendall stared at the little girl whose life was in his hands now. He was responsible for how she grew up, and what she became in the world. He felt three hands on his shoulders and turned around, wiping the small tears from his eyes.
"How you doin' buddy?" Carlos asked with a sympathetic, yet happy smile. Kendall licked his lips and nodded his head, sticking his hands in his pockets.
"I'm alright," Kendall spoke warily, everything not even setting in on him yet.
James smiled sympathetically, as did Logan.
"Have you given her a name yet?" James asked. Kendall looked down and nodded his head no, pushing the bangs from his face and sighing.
"N-not yet. I haven't even really gotten to hold her," Kendall said softly. It was true. After the baby was born, she had been escalated right back to the nursery, Jo and Kendall barely getting time to spend with her.
"How's Jo?" Logan asked. Kendall sighed.
"She's alright," he spoke softly, and to the point. He looked around at his friends, biting his lower lip with his teeth as he sighed.
"I'm—I'm sorry guys. I'm sorry for slacking everywhere lately, and I'm going to try my hardest to put all my effort into the band while still being this "family man" and I'm—" but Logan cut him off.
"Kendall. It's alright. We're all going to take a little break from the band. No recordings, tours, concerts, or anything like that for two months. Gustavo said he didn't want see our faces at Rocque Records, especially since our album is doing great now," Logan spoke with a side smile. Kendall looked at him and chuckled a bit.
"Okay," Kendall said. James, Carlos and Logan all looked at each other and then back at Kendall.
"I know you're young and all, but, you're a father, dude," James said with a sly smile. Kendall smirked and all the boys chuckled. "You have a daughter, and she is so lucky to have a dad like you, Kendall."
Kendall sighed deeply and looked around at his friends, who were all smiling brightly, not a hint of judgment or disdain in their faces. He then turned back around, and looked at the beautiful baby girl he could call his daughter, complete with blonde hair, and defined dark eyebrows. He sighed deeply and closed his eyes, knowing everything would be alright.
Three Days Later
Kendall walked into Jo's apartment, not even bothering to knock with a small smile on his face. It was around 10 and he had just woken up, gotten showered and dressed and was heading over to Jo's apartment with a bag of bagels and a carton of orange juice. He walked in and shut the door behind him in quite a chipper mood, quite excited to see his beautiful baby girl, and his beautiful girlfriend. He had fallen in love with the small little baby the second he had laid eyes on her. As soon as he entered the door however, he heard raucous cries and soft whimpers.
"Jo?" Kendall asked from the living room, walking into the kitchen as he shut the door behind him. He saw Jo in the center of the kitchen in her pajamas, the baby on her shoulder as red as could be, tears streaming down Jo's face as she tried her best to comfort the screaming baby girl. Kendall immediately put down the bag of breakfast and orange juice carton on the counter with a concerned face.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly, approaching the two.
"She's crying, Kendall. What do you think is wrong?" Jo snapped back at him, her own face covered with tears. Jo kissed the baby's soft blonde hair and slowly rocked her own body, trying to get her to calm down. Kendall licked his lips and swallowed hard. Jo looked like she hadn't slept in weeks, never the less days. Her hair was tied back in a messy bun, bags under her red, swollen eyes.
"Is she tired? Hungry? Needs to be changed?" Kendall asked eagerly, trying his best to keep the mood from taking a total downfall. Jo looked back at him with an evil look on her face.
"I don't know, Kendall. She's never cried like this before. Not that you would know her cries. I'm the one who wakes up with her every night," Jo snapped back at him with an attitude. Kendall seemed a bit surprised at Jo's reaction and his heart beat faster.
"I'm sorry babe. I've been trying to catch up on my sleep the past two nights, you know I can't sleep on your couch every night," Kendall spoke softly, nearing Jo. She just shook her head and sighed deeply, the baby's cries getting louder.
"Oh yeah sure. You can just stay here for the good stuff, while I have to change her, and feed her, and stay up with her until 3:00 in the morning until she gets to sleep. I can't do this alone anymore," Jo cried helplessly along with her daughter.
Kendall frowned, and instantly felt like the worst father, and boyfriend in the world. He had promised Jo he was going to be there ever since this whole thing started months ago, and he needed to stand by his promise. He had stayed here the first night and the baby had slept the entire night basically, but apparently, it was a fluke now.
"This is not easy, Kendall. I'm tired, I'm—I'm sore, I feel dirty and disgusting, and—and I'm so tired," she repeated the last one, tears streaming down her face. "And then you come in here, in the best mood ever, and I—I just—I can't do this. I'm a horrible mother, I—I don't know what I'm doing," she cried violently, pulling at her hair with one hand, as the baby continued to bawl on her shoulder.
"I'm going to sleep here tonight, alright? You need a good night's sleep, and just to relax, okay?" Kendall spoke softly; making sure his words weren't too condescending towards her.
Jo seemed to ignore him, and just kept going on and on.
"I can't do this. I can't do this, Kendall. Why did this happen to us? We can't be parents," she cried helplessly, even harder than her daughter in her arms. "We're kidding ourselves here. We don't even live together!"
Kendall leaned down and hugged Jo tightly, knowing that no amount of fighting was going to help. He had already spent all last night crying, in a horrible mix of emotions from the birth of his daughter. He was sad, angry, and upset, and then quickly changed to lucky, happy and delighted. Last night had been rough for him, and definitely rough for Jo.
The family embrace was coupled by sweet kisses of Jo's hair. She looked up at Kendall as he pulled away from her a bit, and softly maneuvered the small, tiny baby dressed in pink out of his girlfriend's tired arms. He grunted playfully, and kissed her small head of hair gently.
"Hi, lovebug," Kendall whispered in the baby's ear, making sure he was holding her the way he was taught by his mother, one hand supporting her head, the other under her bottom as her tiny legs dangled against his chest. He sighed deeply and held the baby close to him as Jo looked on, not being able to not smile at the sight.
Kendall with the baby in his hands, acting like he had been a natural father all along kissed Jo's hair gently. He figured he had been well prepared when Katie was born and he was six years old, and had done his fair share of getting her to sleep, especially when his mom was passed out cold.
"I brought some breakfast for you," Kendall spoke softly, as the baby's cries began to die down with his soothing touch on her back. Jo raked her hands through her hair and looked at the bag on the counter. She hadn't really eaten in a day, and the sound of food was pretty good. She was overstressed, and knew Kendall was doing all he possibly and humanly could for her and their daughter since the day she had found out she was pregnant. She instantly felt horrible and looked up at him with watery, wet eyes.
"I'm—I'm sorry, Kendall. I didn't mean—," but Kendall cut her off with a soft peck on the forehead, the baby still resting on his shoulder, her cries dying down.
"Tell me you're sorry later. Go eat. You must be starving," he said softly. Jo smiled at him and went over to the bag to take out a bagel to eat. She slowly turned her head around and looked at Kendall standing there, in skinny jeans and Vans, holding their precious baby girl in his arms, and softly singing to her.
"I know a girl. She puts the color, inside of my world. And she's just like a maze, where all of the walls all continually change," Kendall sung softly to the baby, swaying his body in time with the song, the baby's heavy breaths coming slower and slower.
As Jo watched the father and daughter combination swayed softly to the music Kendall sang, Jo's heart burst.
This wasn't the most ideal situation for Kendall and Jo to be living. With both of their dreams being on hold, they had sacrifices to make. And they were going to have to work at it every day, knowing that this wasn't going to be easy. But as Jo thought about all of her dreams of fame and fortune, and how they were most likely gone for good, she couldn't help but look at the dream standing in front of her, right in her own kitchen.
The dream she didn't think could get much better.
