Omg, it's been less than 24 hours I think, & yet I'm posting again! BOOM!
Now this chapter is slightly different!
I've been watching submarine & it really inspired me to do something different & mix it up!
I've forced myself to write this chapter!
I had open a slideshow from the BTR concert I went to, reviews all of you lovely people had sent me, my iPod on low playing the BTR album, and the massive poster thing everyone in the UK special edition got with my name on (just so I was inspired & it forced to me to work!)
well ... I hope you like it!:D

I lay in the room. My eyes was shut tight. I knew what was coming. I've know this was coming for a while.

My world was filled with darkness. But I was aware of everything around me. One thing I knew was that this was defiantly not home. Or at least the place I've been calling home for the past 3 months. I could feel a hard, cold slab underneath me. I guessed I was in a bed. I knew it wasn't my bed, because my bed is soft, but I could tell it was something which many people before me have slept on.

The more I thought, the more my head began to throb. I tried to move. I couldn't. I tried to open my eyes. I couldn't. It's like every part of my body was tied down, but I was awake, and unable to do anything. I tried to talk. I couldn't. I felt so claustrophobic in my own body. It's like I was just a very tiny person, trapped inside my head, controlling my whole body by pulling levers, yet they had all jammed.

Even though I was trapped, it's like my other senses had multiplied by the loss of my sight temporarily, meaning I could hear what people in the room was saying. I heard the echo someone crying, and I knew that cry all too well. It was my Mom. As soon as her sadness had made it's way into my ears, swarming around my head, I felt tear drops on my left arm, slowly trickling down to my hand.

I could feel another hand touch mine on the right side of my body. This hand was smaller than most, and had a soft touch. Their hand rubbed mine, as I lay paralyzed in my own body, unable to communicate with the outside world. The person left me a message, like it was an answer machine. They simple breathed into my ear and whispered 'Get well soon, Big Brother ... I love you.' as tears started to fall onto my cheek as well, like tiny droplets of salty rain.

As the tear drops continued to flow from my family's eyes, my Mom whispered 'Why did you do it, Kendall?' expecting me to reply, yet continued to cry into my left arm, almost shaking me out of my reality, and into theirs. Wait ... what did I do? Was it accident? I didn't mean to fall! ... actually ... I don't even remember falling ... I hope someone can tell me.

My thought process was cut off by the rivers of tears stopping, and the hands which has fixated on my arms being released, and taken to an unknown destination. As the sound of feet slowly got further away, and the sound of a door slammed shut, silence fell up on me. I was alone. I couldn't do anything for myself. What if I spent forever like this? What if I lay in this mysterious location forever, not aging, and then I awoke one day, to find out that everyone had forgotten about me.

My thought process was cut short by a noise. A mysterious noise. It took me a while to recognize it, but it was the same one which belongs to a door. The door which my family must have exited from. Then came the sound of feet. Many feet. Feet which was loud. I knew this sound. This sound was my 3 best friends, or brothers as I like to call them. They're there for me, I always know they've got my back, but something didn't feel right. I then heard light thuds, which I guessed was them sitting down in random locations about the still unknown surroundings which I lay in.

Then came another sound. An irregular sound. A sound I rarely heard. A clicking sound. Yet it wasn't clicking, it was more of tapping. It was an un even tapping noise, which grew closer, and closer to me. It eventually stopped, followed by an even lighter thud, which I heard was closer to my feet, than my head. I wish I could have just peered open my eyes, and see who or what was near to my bed.

I then heard one of my brothers mutter 'I never thought he would have done that.' It was a James mutter. He was always the one to break awkward silences, but normally with something about himself, or people who he thinks are 'hot' located around the Palm Wood's, or the general Los Angeles area, but something wasn't right.

Through out the last 3 people I've heard, my ears had detected sadness, and a mysterious hint of something else. Not being able to see, or open my eyes for that matter, had made it difficult for me to detect emotions, but my brain had finally clicked, and matched the tone and pitch with a feeling. That's when I realized there was sadness, but to the untrained (and unable to see) eye, there was also a hint of disappointment, which had also been thrown into the voice box to be disguised as sadness or despair.

The words James had just once said was now being replayed through out my mind. What have I done? My Mom seemed disappointed in me too ... unless. They know. They know the secret I've been hiding. I should have told Jo when I could, instead of ending up here, where ever here is!

Back in reality, Carlos spoke 'I know, I wish I could turn back time and stop him.' Then from his direction same some shuffling, and a sigh. I'm still unsure whilst there was a shuffle, but it's not like I can ask them why due to my brain deciding my lips don't work. But they know. They now know one of the darkest secrets I've been trying to keep for years. I wanted to jump out of my shell of a body & scream, or cry, or just do something.

That's when I heard it. A whisper from near my feet. A feminine whisper. A Jo whisper. She whispered 'I should have stopped him.' before sniffing loudly, echoing around the now obviously enclosed space. No other words was heard. They knew. They knew the secret. I heard words, which tried to form sentences in my head, but nothing stuck. I was slowly fading. Fading away like I had previously done before. Except this time, it was just the sound of my head throbbing, and the sound of the people around me slowly disappearing which made me realize this.

Everything was silent.

So, what do YOU think Kendall has done?
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Did you like the way I wrote this chapter?
what do you think will happen next?
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