Rated M of course ;D I don't own anything in here. Review? Please?
**NOTE: The love scene at the end isn't as smutty as it is tender and loving. I think it came out really good if you read close between the lines ;D
Loveyoualways21, thanks for your ideas always :D
***THIS DEALS WITH RAPE, SO IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THIS ONE-SHOT, PLEASE DO NOT READ****
FIRST TIMES, REALLY.
Kendall Knight ran through the halls of Los Angeles International Hospital, with tears in his eyes. His heart beat out of his chest as his feet carried him through the white hallways, past nurses, doctors, expectant mothers and car crash victims.
Though he'd been running since he stepped in the parking lot, which was nearly five minutes ago, Kendall wasn't tired. And even if he had been tired, he wouldn't have stopped running. Not now.
His hands and body shook tremendously as he got closer to the last room on the right side, where she was. Kendall sprinted the few extra yards to where her doorway was, and as he finally got to it he looked inside.
Kendall was horrified by what he saw.
There she was, beaten and bruised to a pulp, peacefully sleeping with a confused, sad, tear stricken look on her face. Kendall's entire heart dropped, and he tried to blink his tears away, one falling down his cheek. He took a few steps into the hospital room, trying to ignore all the beeping of nearby machines and concentrate on his beat, and battered girlfriend.
Jo didn't even look like herself. She had a busted lip, a bruise on her cheek, stitches above her eyebrow and what killed Kendall the most, a bruise on her neck. More tears fell from his eyes, looking at what some sick fuck had done to his girlfriend. Why? Why Jo?
Kendall did everything he possibly could not to break down, as he took the seat next to her, occupied previously by her father, and sat down shakily. Kendall couldn't even stand anymore his legs were so shaky. Mr. Taylor was downstairs talking to some doctor's about his daughter's condition. He had made the call to Kendall just twenty minutes ago.
Kendall had been in the middle of recording when his phone went off in his pocket, causing the whole song to be ruined. Gustavo of course had a fit, but when Kendall looked at the number, he didn't recognize it. Thinking it was a wrong number, they started the song over, only to be interrupted again by the sound indicating Kendall had a voicemail. Gustavo nearly had to walk out of the room, before Kelly told Kendall to take the call outside. Kendall sighed and walked out of Rocque Records into the dark night, trying to realize why they were here so late in the first place.
Kendall listened to his voicemail, and didn't recognize the person who had left the message at first, then realizing it was Jo's father telling Kendall to call him back. He thought it was strange that his girlfriend's father would be calling him. He called Mr. Taylor back, and only after two rings, he picked up. Kendall asked what was wrong, the man sounding distressed and upset on the other end the phone. And then Mr. Taylor told him.
"Kendall, J-Jo w-was raped," he spoke out softly, trying his best to keep his cool.
And twenty minutes later, Kendall Knight sat next to his sleeping girlfriend, tears streaking down his face.
He reached out to touch Jo's cold, limp hand, and gently massaged it between his two hands, looking at her face with such anger, and frustration. This was not fair. Why Jo? Jo had never done anything wrong to anyone.
There were so many things that angered Kendall. The first was the fact that some sicko had beaten and bruised his girlfriend, second of all, this man, had touched her when she didn't want to be touched, beyond her own will. And finally third of all, this anonymous person, whoever he might be, took one thing from Jo that Kendall would never forgive him for. Jo's scars would heal, and eventually her emotional state would be okay again, but nothing could ever give Jo back what had been so harshly taken from her. The one thing Kendall had hoped to hold closely and dearly in his heart.
Jo's virginity.
The couple hadn't even had their first times with each other yet, something they had talked about and were planning to give up to each other in the near future. Jo had even begun a birth control pill regimen to prepare for it. They were waiting for the right moment, when things would just happen. But now, Kendall Knight wouldn't be Jo's first, and it killed him inside.
Jo began to stir a bit, Kendall's hands touching hers lightly as her breathing got heavier. She squeezed Kendall's hand back, still half asleep, and suddenly snapped it away from his, leaving the boy confused, and upset.
"Stop it," Jo muttered out in her sleep, her breathing getting even heavier.
"Jo," Kendall whispered heart wrenchingly, going to try to grab her hand again but Jo began to get violently inclined. She pushed Kendall away from the hospital bed, eyes still half closed, beginning to cry, her chest falling and rising. She opened her eyes and looked at Kendall for a brief second and screamed at him.
"Get off of me! Leave me alone!" she cried hopelessly, as Kendall stood in the corner defeated and confused. "Don't touch me!" she screamed.
"Babe, it's me," Kendall spoke softly with a scared, shaky voice.
"Get away from me!" she screamed, as she cried into her hands in the hospital bed. Mr. Taylor ran into the room, hearing the commotion from down the hall and his face dropped a bit.
"Josephine," he said worriedly, running to his daughter's bedside, leaning down as he smoothed down her hair gently, and she looked at him. "It's alright, honey, it's alright," he spoke softly, in his calmest voice ever. Kendall stood behind Jo's father with his hands in his pockets, tears streaming down his face. He didn't even want to think about what Jo had gone through the past four hours, the fact that she had been scared of him really set him off. He felt horrible, and guilty about all of this.
"Daddy," she cried hopelessly into him, as he took his daughter into his arms, and allowed her to cry into his chest. Kendall licked his lips awkwardly and began to slowly walk out of the room, not being able to handle all of this. He was sixteen, and here he was, in a hospital with his girlfriend who had been brutally raped and assaulted. Kendall leaned against the hospital wall outside and sunk down to the floor, and started to silently sob in his hands.
He should've been there to walk Jo from the studio to her car, but no, he had goofed off earlier in the day, so he couldn't go to Jo's New Town High shoot because he had to stay at Rocque Records. He wasn't there to protect his loving, beautiful, innocent girlfriend and look what had happened. Kendall cried harder into his hands, his entire body racking with small, silent sobs, when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up and saw Jo's father there, tears in his eyes.
"It's not you, Kendall. The doctors said she's in shock, and that any man is going to scare her right now. She was scared of me at first," he said softly. Kendall wiped his eyes, ashamed to be crying, and he swallowed hard, his whole body shaking.
"I'm s-sorry, Mr. Taylor. I'm sorry I couldn't pr-protect her," Kendall cried out, his lower lip quivering. Kendall took fistfuls of his hair in his hands, and let out another small sob as Mr. Taylor kneeled down to him with a shaky voice, and rested a hand on his shoulder tightly.
"This isn't your fault, son," he spoke gently. "I don't know why this happened, but it did. And we can't change it." Kendall nodded, looking the older man in the eyes. "Jo is strong, and she will get through this, but if she needs anyone right now, it's you, kid," he spoke, swallowing hard. "She loves you more than I could imagine, Kendall. You just have to be patient," he said. Kendall nodded Mr. Taylor offered his hand out. Kendall took it, and Jo's father pulled him up to his feet, as Kendall tried to regain his composure.
"Just give her a few moments to take everything in," he said. Kendall nodded, sticking his hands in his pocket as he followed her father back in the room. He looked back at Jo who looked absolutely miserable and emotionally exhausted. Kendall wanted nothing more than to kiss her lips, knowing the last man who had wasn't him. He balled his fists up in his pockets and bit his lower lip, trying to be less angry as Jo locked eyes with him.
"Sweetheart, Kendall's here," Mr. Taylor said softly, stepping aside and allowing Kendall to come into full view. Jo looked at him with a sad, stressed, and ashamed face.
"K-Kendall, I'm s-sorry, I'm so s-sorry," Jo cried helplessly in her hospital bed, Kendall coming to her side quickly. He kneeled down as Jo immediately touched his strong arms, making sure he was real, and cried into his chest. Kendall kissed her blonde hair gently, allowing his arms to gradually come around her as she sobbed into him. Mr. Taylor slowly stepped outside, allowing the two teens some privacy in knowing his daughter was in good hands.
"Don't apologize, babe. Please, this is not your fault," he whispered into her ear, never wanting to let her go. She was in his arms. Where she belonged.
"I—I feel so dirty, and used," Jo cried into him, fisting his shirt furiously as Kendall breathed heavily, his anger rising up again. "I didn't want to, b-but he m-made me, he m-made me, Kendall, you h-have to b-believe me," Jo sobbed. Warm tears fell from Kendall's eyes, and he held his shaking girlfriend close to him, not wanting to scare her, knowing she was still sensitive and scared.
"I know, babe. I know. Don't worry, alright? He's never coming near you again," Kendall spoke softly into her hair, swallowing hard, his own voice quivering. Tears fell on Jo's hospital gown as she sobbed into him, and he soothingly rubbed her back. "You're safe with me, Jo. I promise, baby girl. I promise," Kendall said into her ear, giving her cheek a light kiss.
Kendall licked his lips and held Jo tight to him, as her breathing slowed down a bit, and she pulled away from his chest. For the first time, she looked Kendall in the eyes and softly smiled a bit, as he pushed the stray hair from her face. He wanted nothing more than to place a soft, gentle, loving kiss on her lips, but he was afraid it might stir up memories.
"I love you so much," Jo cried out, her eyes red, swollen and puffy. Kendall looked at her, his hand gently touching her face, Jo sinking into it. Kendall couldn't resist himself. He needed Jo to know that he was his, and only his. That no one would ever touch her again. He leaned into her lips, and pressed the simplest, softest kiss to them, before pulling away afraid. Jo looked at him, tears rolling down her cheeks, as Kendall pulled her into his chest again and he embraced her tightly.
"I'm never going to let anything happen to you again. I promise."
It had been nearly six months since Jo's rape, and everything was just starting to get back to normal. Of course it had been a media blitz, but luckily, Jo handled it well, only because she had her boyfriend by her side. Her attacker had been caught and put in jail effortlessly, some 26 year old wannabe who feasted on young Hollywood girls. Jo had been tested for any diseases, and everything came back perfectly fine. Jo was physically fine as well, and just a month after everything she started coming out to the pool again, talking with friends, spending time with Kendall. However mentally, Jo was still recuperating.
She had been woken up with nightmares of the man many a times, calling Kendall at 3 AM crying, asking him to sing her to sleep over the phone which he did gladly. Kendall Knight had dedicated most of his time to making his girlfriend feel safe again, and no matter how many times he had asked her to tell him what happened, she refused. She hadn't told anyone what had happened in the dark parking lot.
While Jo loved Kendall dearly, and appreciated everything he'd done with her, the physical part of their relationship had been put to a dead stop. Kendall wanted nothing more than to have sex with his girlfriend, but he knew that that could take another few months or so until she finally fully recovered, and he wouldn't dare bring it up to her. He wanted to show her how she was his, and that he'd never hurt her or be rough with her. It was something Kendall felt horribly guilty even thinking about after all Jo had been through. The two hadn't even done more than deep kiss the past few months, and Kendall was starting to get sexually frustrated with himself. It was something his mind told him was wrong, but his body told him was alright. Kendall was all mixed up inside, and had been ever since he got that phone call.
Jo and Kendall sat on his bed listening to music from his iPod, just talking about random things, their hands gently brushing over each other every so often, Kendall sneaking quick kisses on Jo's cheek. Jo leaned back on his chest a bit, as she sat up straight, causing dismay to Kendall's face from the loss of her warmth. She had been acting a bit weird all day, and Kendall didn't know why.
"Kendall, c-can I ask you something?" she said in a small voice. Kendall nodded and sat up straight with a thin lipped expression, taking the remote to the music console and turning it down a bit. He put it down and looked at his girlfriend's sad eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asked softly, reaching his hand out to touch Jo's now perfectly healed face. Jo sighed and licked her lips, looking down at his blue and white comforter.
"D-do you…look at me differently since everything happened?" she asked softly, her voice scared. Kendall looked at her and immediately nodded no, moving a bit closer to her concerned by her sad demeanor.
"What do you mean?" he asked. Jo sighed deeply, not being able to look in her boyfriend's eyes. She wanted so hard not to cry, but she knew that it was inevitable. She had been dying to ask Kendall this question for weeks, and she had finally gotten the courage up to do it, knowing she needed an answer.
"I-I mean, I'm n-not…I'm n-not a virgin anymore," she spoke softly, tears falling down her cheeks. Kendall didn't miss a beat in taking her hand in his and rubbing it softly and comfortingly, as if he wanted to transfer all the sadness Jo felt from her to him.
"Hey, you listen to me," he said softly. Jo looked up at him with tears falling down her face, Kendall taking his hand and wiping them away with his thumb.
"You are still a virgin to me, babe. What happened doesn't count, alright?" he spoke to her, pressing his lips to her cheek softly. Her face tensed up a bit, and she swallowed hard, biting her lower lip shamefully as silence hung between them.
"I w-wanted my first time to be with you, K-Kendall," Jo cried out, tears leaking from her eyes. Kendall wrapped Jo up in an immediate hug, shushing her and running his hands through her hair as she softly cried into him.
"I know, baby girl. I know. But when we do get there, I promise, I'll make it extra special for you," Kendall said softly in her ear. Jo looked up at him and bit her lower lip, her eyes red and a bit puffy already.
"C-can I tell you what happened?" she said softly and afraid. Kendall's heart stopped and he licked his lips. He had wanted to hear this story so many times in the past six months, but never got to it. Now, having it front of him, he wasn't sure he could handle it.
"Of course," he spoke. He brought Jo into his arms, and hugged her tightly as she snuggled against him. He held her hand tightly and kissed her forehead, tipping her chin up to him. "And I'm right here, okay?" he said. Jo nodded and took a deep sigh, closing her eyes.
"I-I was walking out of the studio, and all the security guards were in the front of the lot. But I left through the back cause it was closer," she said. Kendall nodded, and moved his hand to her back, slowly rubbing it soothingly in time with his tender strokes on her hand.
"Okay," he said.
"A-and I was going to my car, because my driver was sick and I had to drive to set, a-and I started hearing foot steps behind me. B-but I ignored them, and started walking faster. I figured it was just a security guard," she said softly. Kendall nodded. "A-and then I felt someone behind me, and I-I heard breathing, and I was almost at my car, w-when he turned me around and pushed me down behind it, and I hit my head," Jo said, tears beginning to come from her eyes.
Kendall's insides were burning at the story, and he wanted nothing more than to go to jail, and beat the shit out of the guy who did this to her. Jo continued.
"H-he told me if I screamed, that h-he would kill me. A-and then h-he…" Jo trailed off, taking deep heavy breaths as Kendall kissed her forehead easily.
"It's alright, take a second," he whispered, wiping her tears away. Jo swallowed hard and mustered up the courage to tell the rest of the story.
"H-he pulled down his pants, and his boxers," Jo said, swallowing hard. "A-and he pushed my skirt all the way up," Jo trembled out, her body starting to shake as she held onto Kendall tightly. Kendall's eyes were closed, and he didn't want to hear anymore, but he knew that Jo needed to tell him. He tried to keep his cool and take deep breaths, as Jo was silent.
"I-it hurt so bad, Kendall," she cried out into him, as tears started to well up in his own eyes. He bit his lower lip white from frustration as Jo cried into him. "H-he told me I was t-tight, and that I-I felt so good," Jo cried into him hysterically. Kendall really couldn't bear to hear anymore of this, and he prayed that Jo would stop. "I-I felt so wrong after, a-and I was bleeding, a-and…" but she couldn't continue as she let out a hysterical cry into Kendall's shirt.
"I wish I could've protected you, baby. I'm sorry I wasn't there like I promised I would be," Kendall spoke out softly into her ear, as Jo shook her head no, looking up into Kendall's watery eyes. "I'll never forgive myself."
"It's not your fault, Kendall. Please. It's no one's fault. I'm—I'm j-just so sorry this h-happened. I'm s-so sorry," she cried out into him. Kendall held Jo tighter than ever before, knowing how hard it must've been for her to tell him that story.
"Everything's okay, Josephine. Everything's alright," Kendall spoke softly in her ear, tears running down both of their faces. The two lovers were locked in an air-tight embrace, gently breathing in sync, calming themselves down. "I love you."
About a month or so later, Kendall and Jo sat on her queen size bed, cuddling into one another gently. Kendall kissed the top of her hair, and held her close to him, as they watched a movie on the screen in front of them, rain pattering outside on the windows. Jo looked at up at him with a small smirk, the gleam in her twinkling as he chuckled and raised his eyebrow at her.
Jo, with no hesitation, pulled Kendall's face into hers, and crashed her lips onto his. Kendall, surprised at Jo's dominance, complied easily when she nibbled on his lower lip, asking for permission to kiss him deeper. Kendall easily obliged and opened his lips, Jo's hand snaking to the back of his neck, as she turned her body to his and kissed him deeply.
Kendall was surprised, and also afraid. It had been seven months since Jo was raped, but he still didn't know exactly where his boundaries were with her. He firmly planted his hand on the small of her back, hesitant if he should go further down, but Jo answered his question as she took his hand and rested it on his backside. Kendall broke from the kiss surprised with a cocked eyebrow as Jo giggled and smiled, leaning back up to him. She forcefully kissed his lips, her tongue running along the roof of his mouth, making the boy go weak in the knees. She moaned sweetly into the kiss, and Kendall could feel himself hardening up, as she grounded her body into his. This is where they had left off seven months ago.
Kendall's other hand, which rested on her bare thigh moved up cautiously and slowly to the hem of her fabric shorts, with no complaints from Jo. Jo's hands moved gradually down to the hem of Kendall's shirt, still arching her head and taking control in the kiss as her fingers gently rubbed the soft, tight skin above his boxer line. Kendall softly moaned into the kiss, trying so hard to control himself with Jo, as she traced the faint outlines of his hipbones and six pack. Kendall shuddered and sighed deeply, as Jo pushed Kendall's hand upward more, so that his hand was under shorts.
He was nervous as could be. He didn't know why Jo was doing this, if she was ready to do anything with him, if he could make sure he didn't hurt her. He didn't want to hurt her. Not like that sicko had.
Kendall quickly broke from the kiss, sliding his hand down Jo's thigh as she looked at him confused and upset.
"M-maybe we should uh—just watch the movie," Kendall spoke wearily, his half erection straining through his jeans. He bit his lip and looked away from Jo nervously, her whole entire face dropping. Jo bit her lip and looked down silently, feeling self-conscious and awkward.
"You don't wanna…kiss?" Jo asked him with big brown innocent eyes. Kendall looked at her and his dropped and he sighed deeply.
"I—I just don't know if I can…control…myself if we're kissing like that," Kendall said softly, biting his lower lip. "I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable." Jo swallowed hard and looked up at him, holding his hands loosely.
"What if I told you that you could lose control?" Jo asked in a shy voice. Kendall looked at her surprised, and licked his lips unsure, as she guided his hand by her breast. Kendall closed his eyes and snuck his hand away.
"I don't think so, babe," Kendall said softly. Jo looked at him with sad eyes, which were beginning to water up.
"You do see me differently, don't you?" she asked. Kendall looked at her with wide green eyes and shook his head no.
"No. Not at all, Jo. I told you," he said. Jo shook her head at him and bit her lower lip.
"Then why don't you want to touch me? I figured you'd be so eager and willing since we haven't been any sort of intimate since everything, but I—I feel like you're disgusted by me," Jo said, tears getting caught in her throat. Kendall immediately threw his arms around her and hugged her feeling stupid and foolish for his actions.
"No, that's not it at all, baby. I just—I wanna make sure you're ready for something like this. Ready for…me," he spoke softly embarrassed, pushing loose strands of hair from her face.
Jo sighed deeply and looked up in his eyes. "I am, Kendall. I have to put the past behind me, and—I know that you'll make my first time special," Jo whispered with a small smile. Kendall looked at her with a wide grin and held her hand tightly.
"You're really ready to do this?" he asked her softly. Jo nodded and smiled up at him, pressing her lips lightly to his. Kendall nibbled on Jo's bottom lip, as she parted hers, and allowed him total entrance and domination. Kendall skillfully maneuvered his way on top of her as Jo breathed heavily. Kendall parted from her for a second as he stared into her eyes.
"Just tell me if you want me to stop, okay?" Kendall asked her. Jo nodded, and slung her hands around his neck as he went to her cheek. He gently nipped, sucked and licked down her jaw line to her neck, where he settled at her pulse point. He remembered the bruise that the attacker had given Jo, and he hesitated a bit. He got an idea, and slowly began to kiss the crook of her neck lightly, as Jo sighed, squirming a bit under him. Kendall leaned on his forearms above her as he slowly licked at her neck, making sure she knew he was being tender.
After treating her neck, his hands moved to the hem of her shorts. He slowly slid them down her tan legs, making sure to kiss her thighs gently, as the blue shorts fell at her ankles. He took them off her feet and moved back up to her tan stomach, where he pushed her shirt up a bit, and began to softly and slowly kiss her abdomen. Jo sighed a bit shakily, her hands in Kendall's hair as he kissed her delicate hipbones, and nibbled on them a bit.
He moved up to Jo's face, deciding whether or not to strip her of her shirt. Kendall leaned down to kiss her lips softly, and mumbled against them.
"Should I take this off?" he asked her, playing with the thin fabric between his fingers. Jo nodded and Kendall nodded, biting his lip. He pushed her hands up a bit, and Jo helped him maneuver the shirt off her body, throwing it to the side as her hair fell freely behind her. Kendall smiled at her comfortingly, and touched her face gently.
"You're beautiful," he spoke out softly.
Jo smiled, her hands shaking a bit at the nape of his neck. Kendall smiled at her and sat up a bit, deciding to strip off his shirt. He threw it across the room with a smile as Jo looked up at him. As he came over her, her hands immediately went to his chest, where her warm palms rubbed down his abdomen, making the boy sigh. He then kneeled on the bed, and quickly undid his jeans, taking them off completely and kicking them to the floor. He then laid next to Jo, both of them clad in their underclothes, and touched her chin softly. Jo looked in Kendall's eyes, and softly leaned into kiss his lips, her hand snaking around his back, pushing him into her. The boy grunted at the feeling of his hardened length against Jo's body, and hoped she wasn't freaking out.
Kendall, in a swift move, came on top of Jo, resting on his forearms as the shaking girl beneath him smiled. Kendall frowned a bit, as he touched her face gently, and she swallowed hard.
"You're shaking, baby. Are you nervous?" he asked her softly. Jo nodded no with a smile, obviously lying for his sake.
"Excited," she whispered gently. Kendall smiled and leaned down, gently grazing lips with hers as she sighed deeply, licking her lips.
Kendall smiled and looked at her, terrified to make the next move. This is where things were going to get nerve wracking for both of them. Jo's attacker hadn't stripped her of her clothes, but he had harshly and violently had his way with her, something Kendall wasn't exactly sure how to do so gently.
He lightly went to her boyshorts and looked up at her nervously, with pleading green eyes. Jo nodded as he slowly slid them down her legs to her feet, where she swiftly kicked them off. Jo's grip on Kendall's hand got a bit tighter as he looked in her eyes, and she squirmed a bit nervous. Kendall leaned down to her lips and kissed them tenderly, her entire body shaking under him.
Kendall quickly scurried out of his boxers, and kicked them to the side of the bed as Jo looked at his body in awe, a bit nervously. He rested on top of her nervously, Jo swallowing hard, and her eyes not leaving Kendall's. He licked his lips nervously, and smiled at her, pushing the blonde hair back from her face, and leaning down, kissing her lips tenderly.
"I won't do anything until you say it's okay, alright?" he spoke to her softly. Jo nodded as Kendall leaned down and caught her in a passionate lip lock. The two began deeply, kissing, Kendall's length twitching with excitement in between Jo's legs. They had been kissing deeply for a few minutes, when Jo pulled away, her hands on Kendall's back and she smiled nervously up at him.
"I'm ready, Kendall."
Kendall looked at her and nodded, swallowing hard. He looked down between both of their legs, and positioned himself at Jo's entrance. Her thighs shook nervously, Kendall slowly bringing his lips down and kissing the insides of each of them, and then coming back to her face. He slowly began to navigate himself inside of her, as she closed her eyes tightly. Kendall looked down at her, resting on his forearms again, as he kissed her lips gently and eased in a bit more. He wasn't in far enough for Jo to really feel him yet and he was terrified at what her reaction was going to be. He gently thrust into her and Jo squeaked a bit, Kendall's heart beating against his chest.
She sighed deeply, her breathing heavy and labored as she tightened her grip in Kendall's hand. Kendall trailed soft kisses down to her lips, her eyes closed tightly in fear, her body shaking under his.
"You can open your eyes, baby girl. It's just me," Kendall whispered softly. Jo licked her lips, her breathing heavy as she didn't listen to Kendall, refusing to open her eyes. Kendall frowned and softly went to her ear, and brushed the blonde hair away from her face.
"I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever, I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven," Kendall sang softly in her ear. Jo's eyes then immediately opened, as Kendall kissed her cheek gently, and then moved his face over hers. Jo looked at him with a small smile as he leaned down and kissed her nose gently. Jo breathed heavily, and tried her best to calm down a bit as Kendall lay patiently inside her, waiting for her word. Jo's hands shakily touched the nape of Kendall's neck, playing with his frayed locks of hair as she looked up into his eyes.
"Alright," she said softly.
Kendall licked his lips, and rested his forehead against hers, his nose touching hers. Kendall slowly pulled out and moved back in as Jo let out a labored breath their foreheads still attached. Jo looked up into Kendall's eyes and nodded, as he nodded. He continued to slowly and easily glide in and out of her as Jo let out a few whimpers, her breathing heavy as their foreheads still remained connected, Kendall staring into her eyes intently. His body moved with hers, both lovers staring into each other's eyes intimately, Kendall placing soft kisses on Jo's lips every so often as all that was heard was heavy breathing, and the pattering of rain on the window.
Kendall did his best to suppress his moans, even though being inside Jo felt amazing. He could tell he wasn't going to last long, and Jo's pleasure wasn't his main focus right now. It was making her feel comfortable. Kendall bit his lip and let out a small moan, closing his eyes for the first time since they had started, hanging his head a bit as Jo placed a soft kiss on his forehead. He swallowed hard as he moved a bit slower in and out of her, as Jo let out a small moan of pleasure, her hands rubbing Kendall's lower back gently. All was silent for a few seconds, Kendall and Jo looking into each other's eyes. Kendall then reached the point of no return, in which his body shook a bit, and leaned his forehead against Jo's letting out small labored breaths, his hands squeezing her thighs gently as his eyes closed.
"Nghh…" Kendall moaned out quietly as he possibly could as he felt himself come inside of his girlfriend. He opened his eyes a few seconds later, and Jo, who hadn't felt much pleasure smiled shyly at him, Kendall breathing heavily, his hand immediately going to her face, tracing the contours of it. He leaned in and pecked her lips lightly, resting his forehead against hers all breathy and a bit sweaty.
"Are you alright, babe?" Kendall asked. Jo nodded and leaned up, pressing her lips against Kendall's once more, her shaking hands rubbing his back gently. Kendall smiled as Jo wiped his sweaty bangs from his eyes, pulling his stubbly chin in to her lips, kissing the corners of his mouth gently in gratitude. The two lovers parted and stared into each other's eyes, both swallowing hard. This is what they had been waiting for. To the connection they deserved back, to get Jo emotionally and physically over her attack, for Kendall to be able to know his girlfriend's comfort. This is where they belonged, and it was perfection.
"Thanks for being my first time, Jo," Kendall whispered out with a soft kiss to her lips. Jo smiled and looked up at Kendall, with near tears in her eyes.
"I could say the same, Kendall."