Rated M like usual ;) I owe y'all a very smutty chapter. I don't own anything in here. Review? Please?
BETTER BOYFRIEND
Kendall was not used to this feeling again.
He almost couldn't bring himself to do it.
But he had no choice. Jo's picture didn't work.
Kendall sat in the comfortable, blue desk chair in his room, the bright computer screen near hurting his eyes in the pitch black. He looked over at James' empty bed, thanking God the brunette had decided to spend the night with one his conquests, instead of coming home, leaving Kendall alone. Mrs. Knight and Katie had gone back to Minnesota for the first time since leaving three years ago, seeing as that the boys were now old enough to stay in the apartment alone, and they were all taking advantage of it. Carlos and Logan were probably beyond fast asleep at this point, seeing as it was already 3:44 am and they had been out all night roaming the streets of Los Angeles, looking for a good time. Kendall sighed and bit his lip awkwardly, looking at the computer screen that seemed to mock him.
He wished Jo wasn't shooting on location in New York City, so he could have her here, instead of having to depend on this stupid computer screen to keep him sane. It had been two weeks since Jo had gone, two weeks since he had last kissed and touched her. Kendall didn't see much in not having Jo around for a few weeks, thinking he'd be able to handle it, but now, he couldn't have been more wrong. He hadn't had a good release since the day he left, and it was killing him.
He took a deep breath, and awkwardly held the mouse, clicking into his favorites. Biting his lower lip ashamed, he scrolled down to the last folder, which was definitely password protected. The folder was named "Prospective Music" but Kendall knew better about what was inside it. He double clicked on the folder, and sighed as the small box to open it popped up. There was a small message with an asterisk that Kendall hadn't seen before with a yes and no button and he read it with a furrowed brow.
*You have not visited this folder in 10 months and 14 days. Do you wish to continue?
"Fuckin' guilt trip," Kendall muttered out to the screen, pushing his bangs back a bit, as he pressed the YES button on the message powerfully and annoyed. Kendall's eyes suddenly went to the favorites bar, and he looked at the lists of websites that began to pop up on the side. His eyes went wide, not realizing how many there had been since he had gotten to Los Angeles. Feeling his face get hot, and checking over his back to make sure nobody was there, he bit his lip and hovered his mouse over some of the names, deciding which one would be the fastest, and easiest. With a deep sigh, he clicked the button on top, organizing the sites by the number of times he had viewed them, and deciding that the first one would probably be the best. Taking a deep breath in, and looking behind his shoulder again in the dark, he clicked on the link, brining him the website that he had visited so many times.
Upon seeing the homepage, and the decadent pictures of naked women, Kendall's eyes immediately closed with shame, and he sighed annoyed and upset with himself. He wished that he didn't have to do this, but nothing was working right now, not even Jo's picture, which made him ever more frustrated. He sighed deeply, trying to get rid of every ounce of shame, and guilt that was bored inside of his head and redirected his eyes to the screen, locking on the center woman, who seemed absolutely flawless. As much as Kendall knew that the pictures were ridiculously photo shopped, her long, dark, curly tresses hanging over two beautifully smooth breasts, a toned stomach and impeccable legs seemed to slowly wash away his guilt. There was a video underneath her, in which big red words "PLAY ME!" were on the button, as Kendall took not a second guess, and clicked the link.
A large window popped up on his computer, and some swanky, obviously bad eighties music came on, as the video began to play. Kendall swallowed hard, and went to the speaker of his computer, lowering the volume a bit with a shaky hand, making sure not to wake Carlos or Logan. Kendall shifted a bit uncomfortable in the chair, feeling the very beginning of his arousal start to creep up on him. He breathed out shakily, as the video zoomed in on this girl, brushing her beautiful black hair in a mirror, wearing a thin sheet of fabric as a robe, hanging open so you could see the beginnings of her breasts. Kendall watched anxiously, waiting for some kind of reaction from the video, breathing shakily. Suddenly, the camera switched to a sluttily dressed delivery girl, in tight blue shorts, high blue socks, long flowing blonde hair, and a barely there white top, with her chest falling out of it. Kendall immediately sucked in a harsh breath of air, his mind going insane at what was about to happen.
Only ten minutes later, the delivery girl, who had seemingly come to the wrong house, and the beautiful raven haired beauty were tongue kissing each other, and touching each other intimately. Kendall's right hand was dipped into his plaid boxers, slowly stroking himself as he looked on at the computer helpless, his insides feeling guilty about what he was doing. He almost felt like he was cheating on Jo watching this, but Kendall couldn't help himself.
The video went on for another ten minutes, with the two girls doing virtually everything they possibly could to each other. Kendall was leaned back the entire time, his hand roughly stroking himself, and twisting around his length. His eyes remained on the image of the two girls pleasing each other, as his hand moved faster, sweat starting to coat his brow. Short, desperate moans caught in Kendall's throat, as his thumb took one long, agonizing stroke down the underside of his member, using the dampness leaking from his tip as a lubricant. His legs were spread in the chair, his muscles tensing as he bit his lower lip white, waves of pleasure starting to travel to his groin. His muscles started to tense, as the girls moans travelled through Kendall's ears, piercing them with pleasure. The video only had about ten seconds left, and the two women who were furiously rubbing up against one another had almost reached their heights, Kendall not too far behind. He let out a long moan, working himself even harder, his hand moving at the fastest pace it possibly could. He watched as the last final seconds of the video played out, his swollen and throbbing length in his hand as he let out a loud, guttural moan, sending thick spurts of his release onto his hand, his abdomen convulsing with each sweet release. A smile spread on Kendall's face as he tenderly worked himself through his orgasm, his eyes closed, his breathing heavy, sweat glistening his clenched jaw and collarbone.
"Fuuuck," he whispered to himself in sweet paradise, his hand moving slower and slower around himself, finally coming to a stop around his now limp and wet member. His breathing still heavy, he looked at the computer screen and the video's Replay button, swallowing hard and instantly feeling ashamed again. He had never had a serious girlfriend before, and now since he had Jo, he'd never really even bothered to look at the porn on his computer, and had almost forgotten about it since he and Jo had started having sex nearly ten months ago. His chest still heaving up and down, his mind a clouded mess, he swallowed hard and looked down at his now soaked boxers, his hand still surrounding himself. He shakily got up from the chair, removing his hand and wiping it on a dirty shirt on the floor, his knees threatening to buckle from the intense pleasure he had come in contact with. Kendall searched in his drawer for a new pair of boxers, and he tiptoed to the connecting bathroom the four boys shared, hoping that no one was in there. Luckily the light was off as Kendall closed the door behind him, and began to clean himself up.
When he got back into his room, throwing the dirty clothes in the hamper, making a mental note to do the wash, he shut down his computer, and laid on the bed, a feeling of guilt hanging over him like a black rain cloud. He looked over at the clock and saw that it was now nearly 4 am, and he still hadn't gotten to sleep. The loud fan that hung in the room clicked as Kendall rested with his hands behind his heads, a frown spread across his face. He laid on his side, and took a deep breath, looking over at the picture of Jo that rested on his nightstand. It was as if his beautiful girlfriend had watched the entire thing unfold tonight, and Kendall's heart beat faster with shame. He had tried his hardest to please himself to her picture, and not resort to the dirty things that were in his computer, but it was hard to do when the only pictures he had of his girlfriend were ones where she was covered up from head to toe, or pictures in which she looked pure as could be. As much as Kendall had tried to get them to work, they just didn't, and he did feel horrible about it, but there was nothing he could do. He needed his release…he just wished he didn't feel so goddamn guilty about it.
Kendall leaned over to the picture of Jo, and picked up his cell phone with a sigh, shakily going through all the contacts until he got to Jo's name, which had a small heart beside it. Seeing as it was nearly seven in New York, he figured she'd be up, and he had the strongest desire to talk to her, seeing as the two hadn't had the time to talk between their busy schedules. Kendall pressed the call button and sighed, tapping his fingers on the frame of his bed nervously, praying that Jo would answer.
"Hello?" he heard on the other end of the phone, in a groggy, tired voice. Kendall's heart instantly fell, knowing he had woken Jo up and that she needed all the sleep she could get right now. Now he felt doubly as horrible.
"Oh, I'm sorry babe, I thought you might've been awake, I-I'll call you back later," Kendall spoke instantly, getting ready to hang the phone back on the hook.
"No, baby it's alright, my alarm was set for 7:15 anyway," Jo said through a powerful yawn, Kendall smiling at the sound of her voice. "Wait a second, isn't it like 4 o'clock there?" she asked again, rustling in her sheets.
"Yeah, I uh—couldn't sleep," Kendall spoke out with a chuckle as Jo's face fell a bit concerned, as she rubbed the sleep from her eyes.
"Something wrong?" Jo asked in a quiet, solemn voice, furrowing her brows at Kendall's whimsical words. Kendall sighed deeply and scratched the back of his head, his lips turned upside down in a frown.
"I-I miss you, babe," Kendall spoke out rather pathetically, biting his lower lip upset as he stared into the dark abyss that was his and James' room. "I-I just needed to hear your voice." Jo sat up in the bright, white room in New York, her eyes going to the big windows of her hotel room and she held the phone closer to her ear.
"What's wrong, baby? You sound upset," Jo asked him, as Kendall swallowed hard, pushing his bangs back on his still sticky forehead. He shifted uncomfortably in his bed and sighed, holding the phone close to his ear, wondering if he should tell Jo about what he had done tonight.
It was weird for Kendall. He wouldn't have felt so bad if Jo had been gone for three months and he was doing that, but it was the fact that he couldn't get off to a picture of her that made Kendall so annoyed. She was his girlfriend for God's sake, and they had a very healthy and pleasing sex life. Kendall had heard of couples whose marriages had suffered due to extreme porn addiction, or where the husband had become so reliant on the videos, he didn't even want to make love to his wife anymore. It had Kendall's mind spinning, as his thoughts went in five hundred and eight different directions. He swallowed hard and didn't answer her, as Jo became even more concerned about her boyfriend's weird behavior. He couldn't end up like that, no way.
"I-I masturbated," Kendall cracked out with a small, pathetic chuckle swallowing hard as the awkward words came from his mouth. Jo was silent and quite confused at his statement, as he let out a long sigh, worried at what she would say.
"Did you…break yourself while doing it or something?" Jo asked with a small confused chuckle, as Kendall sat up in his bed, his heart beating fast at her reaction.
"W-what?...No! I-I watched porn on my computer, and-and I haven't done it since we've been together, and I forgot about it since we've been having sex, and-and I'm sorry, babe, I just-your picture wasn't working for me, and I was so frustrated, and I miss you so much, and I'm sorry," Kendall spoke out nervously.
"Kendall, relax," Jo said softly, sitting up incredibly confused unto why he was calling her to tell her this. Jo didn't understand the least bit, but Kendall had to tell her this for his own reasons. "I-I don't understand, why do you think I'd be mad at you?" she asked him softly. Kendall sighed and ran his hands through his hair, feeling absolutely exhausted and stupid for calling Jo over something that was making him sound like a complete jackass.
"I don't know…I just, I didn't think it would be so hard being away from you…sexually, and I-I couldn't get off to any pictures of you, and I felt like a horrible boyfriend having to watch porn, and now I just sound like a jackass calling you and telling you all this," Kendall ended with a nervous chuckle, wiping the drowse from his eyes. Jo chuckled lightly and comfortingly on the other end of the phone, lying down in the bed with a sigh.
"You don't sound like a jackass, just a bit like a girl," Jo giggled out, causing Kendall to groan in reveled embarrassment, letting out a small laugh himself. "And I think it's sweet that you felt guilty, baby, and I know it's hard with the distance, but I expected you to be doing that while I was gone anyway," Jo spoke out with a laugh. Kendall sat up in bed with a smirk on, surprised at his girlfriend's words.
"W-what? You expected it?" Kendall asked her confused, beyond confused by Jo's words. She chuckled and nodded.
"Well, yeah. I mean, didn't you expect it from me too?" Jo asked Kendall quizzically and beyond dumbfounded. His eyes got wide and he swallowed hard, silence on the line intoxicatingly wonderful for each party. Was Jo saying what he thought she was saying? "Kendall?"
"W-wait, hold on. You're telling me, t-that you…you," he stuttered out in disbelief as Jo chuckled entertained by her boyfriend's doubts of her.
"What? You think you're the only one who touches themselves," Jo snickered out with a bashful smile on her face. Kendall swallowed hard and sat up in bed a bit, with a huge smile plastered across his face, in disbelief of his girlfriend's words.
"And how come you've never told me this before?" he asked her slyly, licking his lips at the thought of his girlfriend's actions. Jo chuckled and shrugged sitting up against her headboard, picking at the white sheets she was engulfed in.
"I don't know…it's kinda a private matter…although you don't seem to think so," Jo chuckled as Kendall smiled. He sighed deeply, and had begun to feel a slight tingle between his legs, looking down at it with a sly smile. He rearranged himself in bed and snickered over the phone, his breathing picking up a bit.
"I'd…I'd love to see that," Kendall spoke out with a nervous chuckle, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly. Jo smiled on the other end of the phone, blushing profusely as she sat back in bed, the soft melody of Kendall's speaking voice turning the gears in her head.
"Oh, would you now?" Jo said. Kendall nodded, and ran his hands through his hair, swallowing hard, his blood pumping from just the sweet visual of it.
"Yeah, that'd be…incredibly sexy," Kendall spoke out nervously, his breaths catching in his throat. Jo chuckled again and sighed, pausing for a moment and smiled.
"Well, would…listening to me do it be good enough for now?" Jo asked devilishly. Kendall's mouth fell open and his brows furrowed with extreme confusion and disbelief. His heart started pumping as he sat himself totally erect on the bed, staring out the window of his room as if Jo was playing some sort of sick prank on him.
"Seriously?" he asked like a little boy.
"Jeez, don't get so excited there, Knight," Jo laughed out. Kendall chuckled nervously, ignoring the joke Jo had made, setting his sights on the impending pleasure that was about to come over the phone.
"You…you'd really do that, for me?" he asked.
"Well, it's not just for you, baby. I mean, it'd be nice to get a release as well," Jo said in her sexiest, more seductive voice. Kendall swallowed hard and nodded, the feeling between his legs getting stronger, just with Jo's sexy talk.
"Okay," Kendall said nervously, but excited. Jo sighed deeply, and closed her eyes, allowing her hand to trail to the waistline of her pajama shorts, and slowly sneaked it under. Kendall was beginning to get a bit confused at the silence on the other end of the line, but he heard a soft moan from Jo and his eyes went wide.
"I'm pretending they are your fingers, baby," Jo said in a soft, breathy voice. Kendall listened intently on the phone, holding it closer to his ear trying to hear perfectly every moan, and breath pass through his girlfriend's lips. "Talk to me, Kendall, like you usually do," Jo begged, as she sighed loudly, her fingers moving faster. Kendall's mind was in frenzy, hearing the soft moans escape Jo's lips. It only took him a few moments to realize that they were pretty much having phone sex, and Kendall had no clue what to do.
"I—I uh, do you like that?" Kendall asked softly, trying to put his most seductive voice into Jo's head.
"Mhmm," Jo moaned out, a bit strained now. Kendall looked down at the tent forming in his boxers and sighed, licking his lip, trying to get more into the mood.
"H-how does it make you feel, baby girl?" he asked in a sly, sexy, confident voice.
"So good, baby, it feels good," Jo responded back, a bit breathy. Kendall bit his lower lip, racking his brain trying to remember all the things he would say to Jo when they were in the act. It seemed so different now that he was on the phone and not whispering into Jo's ear. He swallowed hard and looked down at his pants in which the fabric was straining against his erection, giving him painful shivers up and down his body.
"B-babe, I'm g-getting ahead of myself," Kendall whispered to her softly, licking his lips and biting at them, trying to get the intense pleasure to stop.
"Then let's do it together baby, I-I don't think I'm gonna last much longer anyway," Jo got out between a few heavy pants, her voice straining. Kendall closed his eyes tightly, his girlfriend's soft moans on the phone going right to his groin, tingling in pleasure as he sighed deeply. Seeing as Jo was able to do this on the phone with him, he felt he could too, and especially since this problem wasn't going away anytime soon.
Kendall laid his hand on his abdomen, and slowly slid it down the waistline of his boxers. He quickly jutted his hand underneath the fabric, his fingers immediately wrapping around his swollen, throbbing length. With just the slightest touch, Kendall moaned loudly into the phone, Jo's breathing still heavy.
"Fuck, I miss you," Kendall muttered out to her, beginning to work himself quite avidly. Jo sighed deeply, and Kendall could tell by the absolute tension in her voice, and the heavy breaths that passed her lips she more than halfway there.
"I miss your fingers baby, and I miss your palms, and how you always know how to rub," Jo got out desperately, losing control of the censor button in her speech. She moaned louder into the phone, letting out soft whimpers into Kendall's ears. Kendall, who had started well after her, was now caught up just by the sounds coming out of her mouth. He stroked the underside of his shaft with his thumb, the agonizing pressure making his mouth water, his throat dry, and his hips buck up. He surrounded his fingers tightly around himself, and thrust up into them, losing his breath quickly.
"My hand isn't as warm as your delicious, tight body is, Jo," Kendall moaned out loudly, thrusting violently into his fist again. Knowing he wouldn't last long at all from this point on, Kendall moaned loudly into the phone as he brought his fingers up to rest at his tip, kneading the sensitive skin, making him shiver. "Baby, I need your mouth on my dick," he moaned out loudly, making Jo's breaths begin to enter the last stage.
"K-Kendall, I'm so close baby, I'm so close," she groaned out, moving her fingers faster. She let out a few staccato breaths, and she began to reach the final few seconds of her height. "I'm gonna—I'm gonna," Jo whispered out softly, before maxing herself out and letting out a loud moan, that was music to Kendall's ears. He moved his hand faster, wanting nothing more for than to somewhat finish together, as she breathed heavily into the phone, whispering his name over and over again.
With a few strokes from base to tip, Kendall's abdomen convulsed and he sweetly released, powerfully into his own hand, his entire body shaking as he moaned out Jo's name. As both lover's calmed down from their releases, Jo smiled over the phone and chuckled, Kendall still calming himself down.
"Do you feel like a better boyfriend now, baby?" Jo asked, swallowing hard, and wiping the bit of sweat from her forehead.
Kendall smiled over the phone, bringing his hand from his boxers, immediately wiping it off on another distressed shirt that lay next to his bed. He sighed deeply, and nestled more into the phone, looking up at Jo's picture proudly, no longer ashamed, and no longer having to rely on a computer to feel good again.
"Yes, I do. Thanks babe," he whispered. "And we will be doing this again," Kendall said with a chuckle.