Summary: Wow… why don't you already know the summary?? Sasuke and Naruto fought again and Sasuke gets sick, so Naruto brings him back to Konoha, in the hopes that he'll want to stay.
Warning: Yaoi (SasuNaru), cursing, and maybe suggestive stuff later on… spoilers and OOCness… Confused and Upset Naruto and a very very obnoxious Kyuubi… poor Naruto…
Disclaimer: If I owned Naruto he and Sasuke would have gotten together ages ago… Way to be slow Masashi Kishimoto…
Chapter 9: But If You Take What's Yours….
It wasn't until he felt a wave of complete pain wash over him that Naruto stopped running.
He leaned back against a wall, not knowing, or caring, where he was. He put his face towards the sky and let the steady beat of rain fall onto his face and cool him off.
He wasn't sure how much of the water on his face was rain, sweat, or even tears, but he could guess…
How could I…? Sasuke's my best friend I couldn't… why would I… we're both guys…
Naruto felt exhausted from the running in his mind, as opposed to the running he'd just finished physically doing. He squinted towards the sky and glared at the sky, as though that would some how release the anger he had towards himself.
He couldn't understand why he would say that… why he would 'want' Sasuke in any way other than as a best friend.
He was confused and lost and he had a distinct feeling that something other than what he said was hurting him.
He couldn't place what it could possibly be…
You sure do know how to fuck up a relationship kit…
"Shut up Kyuubi, I don't need this…"
Naruto tried to think again about what it was that really was bothering him about what he had said.
You really can be quite the idiot kit, why do you talk in your sleep anyway?
"I told you to shut up Kyuubi, I don't want to hear it right now, I'm trying to think…"
What is there to think about kit?
"Sasuke! What I said to him! What I'm going to do about it! Trust me Kyuubi the list goes on and on!"
Just go back and tell him you were being stupid and didn't know what you were saying!
Naruto blinked and didn't respond right away. Was that actually true?… did he want to take it back?
Kit…? Kit you weren't serious… Kit you're an even bigger idiot than I originally thought…
"I thought I told you to shut up Kyuubi…" Naruto said with an annoyed sigh.
Kit just tell me; did you mean what you said in your sleep?
"No… Yes… Well… I sorta don't really know…" Naruto said akwardly, rubbing his left hand on the back of his head. "I wish I didn't… but I actually feel like maybe I did mean it… and it doesn't really make me feel awful in any way…"
Then what are you so damn upset about?
"I don't know Kyuubi, that's what I'm trying to figure out!" Naruto said, growing more and more irked with the fox demon.
He continued to stare at the sky, despite the rain now cascading into his eyes. "I don't know…" he repeated quietly, more to himself than to Kyuubi.
Do you wish Sasuke felt the same?
It seemed so out of the blue and it took Naruto a few seconds to register what Kyuubi had asked.
"Wish that… Sasuke!? Wanting Me??" Naruto felt stunned and then with a pang deep in his chest he realized that was it.
That was what was bothering him. "Kyuubi I…"
Yes Kit?
Naruto looked at the ground by his feet. He shifted from his sitting position and felt another wave of pain wash over him.
"Kyuubi I… I think I'm upset because…"
Get on with it Kit… Kyuubi growled impatiently.
"I think I wanted Sasuke to… I think I was upset because he didn't want… because he was upset and…"
Naruto buried his face in his arms and began to shake violently.
"Kyuubi I think I… I think I'm in love with Sasuke…."
….
Sasuke felt like kicking himself a million times over. He felt so stupid. He should've kept his mouth shut and everything would have been fine. A simple "I can't believe you talk in your sleep" would have sufficed but NO! he had to open his fat ass mouth and tell Naruto what he'd said.
He also felt like he should've been more sensative to Naruto's feelings and looked at him when he said it, to show it actually didn't bother him at all… Instead he had turned around and acted like he hated Naruto.
He felt so guilty and stupid and he just hated himself for constantly hurting Naruto. He felt like he couldn't have inflicted any physical damage worse than this.
"Damnit, I'm such an idiot…"
He looked out the window in Naruto's bedroom towards the rain and couldn't help but think of Naruto sufferin out there.
"Damnit!" he shouted again as he heard it echo slightly off the walls.
He walked over to the bedside table and noticed the face down picture frame again. He knew Naruto would probably hate him even more if he knew what it was but curiosity got the better of him.
"Damnit Naruto… why are you such a nice idiot…?" Sasuke blinked back tears as he stared at his and Naruto's faces in the picture frames outside of the Ramen bar.
Naruto's grin was wide and his hair was as messy as it had ever been. His bright orange seemed to radiate outside the picture and it was in great contrast to Sasuke's blue shirt and sour expression.
He couldn't believe his eyes were watering but he'd be damned if he let them fall so he held them back. He found his fingers tracing the image of Naruto and he felt angry with both himself and Naruto.
"Idiot… I left you… I betrayed you… and you still kept a picture of me by you every night… dobe…"
"You should've taken everything that was mine and made it yours, the respect, the honor… I didn't need it… you threw everything away that was yours just for me… dobe…"
Sasuke slammed the picture down and heard the glass break but he didn't bother to pick it up again.
"Dobe…" he whispered as he imagined Naruto, upset in the rain, because of him, all because of him. "I feel like such an idiot…"
He touched his hand to a piece of glass that had moved away from the frame and he stared at it intently. "an idiot…"
He leaned his head down onto the cold table and continued to stroke the glass. "Idiot…"
He closed his eyes and saw Naruto's face grinning up at him from the picture. "Idiot…"
And for once since his family was murdered Sasuke began to cry.
Sorry it took so long I was in North Carolina for CCC for a week so yeah… here u go… fair warning I can't update again for another like week and a half or so because I'm going to Latvia for a family reunion…. So sorry again guys I feel really really bad…
And uh yeah, Naruto has come to an important realization thanks to Kyuubi (I knew I liked Kyuubi :P) and Sasuke thinks he's an idiot… so yeah… now we just have to wait and see when Sasuke figures out both his and Naruto's feelings… oh the suspense!! Anyway hope you liked the chapter (I actually liked Naruto's part… but not really Sasuke's…. oh well….
Thanks to my reviewers and all the people who've favorited and alerted:
Shashuko the Paisley Maiden – I shall keep writing, and I'm very happy you enjoyed it, yeah Sasuke is an idiot, and I like to make things awkward, people tend to grow smarter from it! :)
Heihachi-Katayama – Well you've found it now, welcome to the crew, glad you like it! :)
Freexflyer – yay you're one of my favorite reviewers… but shh let's keep it between us ;) and you very much are a kind and true reviewer. Sweet I took a totally different road that wasn't even mentioned, 'cause I'm just cool like that ;)