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EPOV

I was so pissed as I pulled out of my parents driveway. Was she really that blind?

I drove around for a while rethinking everything that had been said. Why would she think I didn't want Carson? I had basically been acting as his dad for the past six months. If anything she was the one who stopped us from having a relationship.

I somehow ended up in front of my house. I hadn't moved in here yet even though I had the keys for almost three weeks and the improvements I wanted done were finished I hadn't wanted to decorate it, hoping Bella and I would do it together. I decided to call Jasper.

"Hey man what's up?" he asked

"You busy?"

"Nah, you need something?"

"Could you meet me at my house. I need someone to talk to right now."

"Sure no problem. Give me ten minutes."

While I waited I headed inside. I went to Carson's room, the only one I had decorated. I wanted it to be a surprise for him the first time he came over. I looked over the toys he hadn't yet had a chance to play with and ended up sitting on the floor. Before I knew it I heard Jasper call out for me.

I went downstairs.

"No offence but you look even worse than the last time I saw you. What's going on?"

I told him everything that happened this afternoon.

"I don't understand how she could think I don't want him." I finished my story.

"Think about it E. Her mom upped and left her. Jacob just told you guys he was leaving and instead of being happy about the fact you go off on him, as though you're trying to change his mind. Probably to her it sounded like you wanted Jacob to hang around, meaning you would never really be Carson's dad. It probably sounded to her like you didn't want the job."

"I didn't mean it like that though. I just felt so angry at the fact he could just turn his back on that amazing little boy like he was nothing. If anything the minute we left her fathers place I was thinking how quickly we could get it finalized so that I could adopt him. Don't say anything to Ali but I proposed to her. The day after the kidnapping." I admitted.

"Why haven't you guys said anything?" he asked.

"We wanted a quiet wedding once my divorce is final. We were going to organize everything before mom or Ali had a chance to arrange a huge event. But how could she think I would want to marry her but not take on Carson?"

"I don't know E. Maybe you should talk to her and I mean talk this time. If things go well maybe suggest she talk to a shrink or something. I went after my parents divorce and it helped me sort through things in my mind you know."

"Maybe you're right. I suppose speaking to someone couldn't do any harm."

"Am I ever anything else?" he smirked.

"Well if you're done being an ass you can get the fuck out of my house," I grinned at him.

We both walked to the front door.

"Seriously thanks man. I thought of going to Emmett's but you know how that would've gone." I rolled my eyes.

"Any time. Now go sort your shit out."

I flipped him off and got in my car. I headed back to my parents so that I could change before I went to see her but when I got there her car was outside. Surely she hadn't waited all this time.

"Mom? Dad?" I called as I walked in the front door.

"In the living room," my dad called back.

"Why is Bella's car here?" I asked.

"She was too upset to drive. I took her home. I need to take her car home when your mother gets back. You calmed down?" he asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Yeah. I'm going to go talk to her. Try to straighten things out. I'll take her car. If I need picked up I'll call you."

"Okay.

I decided against changing and just headed over there. If I was lucky I would catch Carson before he went to bed. I pulled up outside and turned off the engine. I got out and walked to the front door. It swung open before I had a chance to knock.

"Can I come in?" I asked her quietly.

Just looking at her broke my heart. Her face was chalk white but her eyes were all puffy and red.

"Sure." she answered shakily.

I followed her inside to the living room. She sat on the chair and I took a seat on the couch. We were silent for a few minutes me staring at her, her staring at the floor.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you earlier. I shouldn't have done that." I started.

"Me too. I just wanted to talk. I didn't mean for things to escalate."

"Bella, I want to understand why you thought I didn't want Carson. I've told you time and time again that I think of him as mine. Why didn't you just talk to me?" I asked.

I knew what Jasper had said but I wanted to hear it from her perspective.

"I don't know. I just, the way you spoke when you shouted at Jake was as though you wanted him to stay in Carson's life. I thought that you had changed your mind. You know, if Jacob was around you wouldn't have to be. I couldn't talk to you because I knew if you finished things I'd never survive."

"Okay. But why would I have gone looking at things for our wedding day with you that day if I had decided I didn't want to be around? I mean, had I gave you any other signs that I didn't want to be with you? Be a dad to Carson?"

"No. I don't know why I thought the way I did. I mean Angela saw it differently to me, as did Rosalie. I think that I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Our relationship and Carson have been the two things keeping me going throughout all the other shit and I guess I got it in my head that at some point it would turn to crap too." she said quietly.

She still hadn't looked at me.

"Can I ask why you said those things to Jacob?" she finally looked up.

"He just made me so angry. Carson is the most amazing little boy I've ever met and for him to toss his aside like trash just pissed me off. I couldn't understand how he could turn his back and walk away as if he meant nothing. Like having another kid was a replacement for him. By the time we left your dad's I was already thinking about how I would be able to adopt him now."

"Really?" she asked, her eyes full of hope.

"Yeah." I confirmed.

"And then I go and mess everything up. I've hated this last month. And poor Carson, he's asked for you everyday. Rosalie came over yesterday and his eyes lit up because he thought you would be with her. He's missed you so much." she sniffed.

"I've missed him too. And I've missed you."

"Even after all I've put you through?" she whispered through her tears.

"Of course." I went over and knelt in front of her, "Look at me."

I lifted her chin until her eyes met mine.

"You are it for me. There will never be anyone else who can take your place in my life. You are my heart, my other half. Carson is mine, regardless of the sperm donor who helped create him. I want you Isabella Swan for the rest of my life."

She stared into my eyes for a second as though she was reading what was in them.

"Can you forgive me?" she asked in a small voice.

"On two conditions. In future if you doubt something I've said or done you come and talk to me. You can't shut me out. I can't take it if you shut me out. The other is that you speak to a counsellor. I think you need someone to deal with everything you've gone through these past few months." I whispered.

"I promise. Never again. And if you think it'll help I'll speak to someone." she whispered back.

I pulled her to me, holding her as tightly as I could. We sat like that for I don't know how long, me kneeling on the floor with her in my lap as we clung to each other. She kept whispering her love for me and saying sorry over and over. I whispered my love in return and stroked her hair and face, reaquainting myself with her.

Her phone rang and we ignored it. The third time she looked up.

"I'd better get that in case something is wrong with Carson." she stood up.

"Where is he?" I asked.

"Over at Rosalie's. Speak of the devil."

"Hey Rose," she answered putting the phone on speaker.

"What the hell Bella? I thought you were calling Angela? I just spoke to her and she said she hasn't heard from her. Are you sitting over there by yourself? I'm coming over." Rose was in mama bear mode.

"No Rosalie it's fine. And I'm not alone." she smiled shyly at me.

I took her hand and placed a soft kiss on the back and returned her smile.

"Who's with you?" she demanded.

"Hey Rose," I spoke up.

"Edward?"

"Yeah. How's my boy?" I asked.

Bella beamed at me.

"He's fine daddy. I'll take care of him. You two sort your shit out before I come over there and smack your heads together. I'll call in the morning. Goodnight."

"Night Rose." I answered and ended the call.

I turned to Bella.

"So, obviously we still have some stuff to talk about but I am starving. You hungry?" I asked her.

"Yeah. I haven't had much of an appetite." she admitted.

"Me neither. I'll call for some food, then we'll talk okay?" she nodded.

I called for a pizza and we settled on the couch while we waited. We sat quietly just enjoying being together again. She was snuggled into my side with her arms wrapped around me. I had one arm around her back and the other stroking her hair.

Once the pizza came we sat on the floor at the coffee table with some beers eating. Once we were done I cleared my throat.

"So obviously we still need to talk about things. I need to know that you trust me enough not to run every time we have a disagreement or you misconstrue something that I've said. Before everything I'd never have thought that would be something you would do."

"I don't know what got into me. I think I thought that if my own mother could leave me and if Jacob could leave his own son then what was keeping you here. I think that when my mom left, I didn't deal with it. I concentrated on my dad and pushed my feelings aside. Even after the kidnapping besides making sure Carson was okay I just pushed it to the back of my mind. The whole thing with Jacob just brought everything crashing down."

"So, what did you think about the papers?" I asked bluntly.

"I think that I'd be ecstatic if Carson was officially yours, ours. According to Billy Jacob was planning on going to a lawyer just after new years. I haven't seen or spoken to any of them but I will. What about the wedding? Do you still want to go ahead with it?" she asked.

"I want to be married to you as soon as possible. If you wanted to go to Vegas tonight I'd be on the first flight. I am, however, aware what you've never done this before so I want to do whatever you want, as long as it's small."

"You still want to get married? I thought you'd want to wait, make sure things were going ot be okay between us."

"Bella, the one thing I've wanted all along is for you and Carson to be officially mine. As much as I do think you need to see someone to sort everything out I can't help but be selfish and put my wants first. I just want to get married. I think it will make us stronger, not that I think we wouldn't cope without it. Look at it as a fresh start for us all. Once we're married and Jacob has taken care of his side of the paperwork we'll get to work on making my son officially mine. Now what were you thinking in terms of the wedding?"

She looked thoughtful.

"What if we have it in your parents back garden? We could rent a gazebo and Luciana sometimes hires Leah out to decorate for functions and she always does a great job. If we stick to April it won't be too cold. We'll hire a caterer and we can have a notary come and do the ceremony. Your mom and Alice will flip but it's our day." she shrugged.

"I think that sounds great but how about this. We do what you said but we have it sooner. We can put up the marquee my mom was going to use for Carson's party and hire some heaters for it. I spoke to my lawyer on Friday. Everything looks like it's going ahead with the divorce for next week. Apparently Giuliana's lawyer told her there's no way around the prenup so she'd be better to let it go through or it'll just end up costing her. We could be married as soon as we can get everything arranged."

"Okay. How about February twenty sixth?" she asked.

"Sounds good. Why that date?" I asked.

"It was my gamma and grampaws anniversary. It would be nice to have the same one. I want to tell everyone though. I don't want to have to hide it any more."

"That would be best considering Jasper kind of knows," I admitted.

"How does he know?" she asked.

"I was talking to him earlier today and it kind of slipped out. Told him not to tell Ali though. He won't, he'll just act surprised. How about we tell everyone at Sunday dinner at my parents tomorrow? We can invite your dad and then everyone, well almost everyone, will find out at the same time."

"Sounds good," she yawned. "I know it's early but I'm exhausted. I think I need to go to bed."

"Do you want me to go? I can call my dad." I asked, unsure if she'd want me to stay.

"The only thing I want is you in my bed. I haven't slept properly since the night before Seattle. Will you stay with me?" she asked coyly.

"Until you send me away?" I answered.

I stood and pulled her to her feet,

"In that case you'll always be here," she answered and pulled me down to her lips.

Soon after we were wrapped around each other as we drifted off into a peaceful sleep. Everything was as it should be.

So Edward's forgiven Bella for her reaction to his outburst and we have wedding bells ahead. \everything should run smoothly now, right?

Also, been toying with some ideas for a sequel, would any of you read it or should I just wrap everything up in this?

As always characters not mine!