A/N: Ok, here's the part you've all been waiting for, the sex! LOL! Hopefully I've done it justice, I always dread writing these parts fearing I won't convey their love well enough. And thank you so much for all the reviews so far. They keep me going! I often don't write fics this long but knowing people want me to continue makes me keep trying to come up with ways to do so.
This was certainly not the way Jane had envisioned her night turning out and they had a lot to talk about, but right now all she wanted to do was show Maura how much she loved her, how much she needed her. Automatically assuming the role of the aggressor Jane ordered Jo Friday from her comfortable resting spot on the bed and carefully lay the Medical Examiner down before straightening back up to look at her.
Jane tried hard to suppress a whimper but failed. Maura looked achingly beautiful lying there; honey brown hair fell behind her as she looked up at Jane. Her hazel eyes were a darker green than the taller woman had ever seen them and filled with a desire that made her swallow and her legs feel weak. Now that the moment she had dreamed of was actually here she was frozen and indecisive. Not about whether she wanted Maura, there was no question of that, but as to whether or not she could please her. She'd never made love with a woman before and while she could figure out what she was supposed to do easily enough the thought of doing something wrong and ruining their first time together plagued her.
Maura could see the want in Jane's gaze but she also saw hesitation and understood without needing words. Taking the lead she spoke. "Take off your shirt Jane."
Jane swallowed at Maura's husky tone, never having heard the woman's voice so low and in command before. The thought suddenly went through her mind that she didn't know what she was getting into... and it thrilled her. Gripping her t-shirt she quickly pulled it over her head and tossed it on the floor; Maura grinned at her eagerness. Her breathing hitched when Maura moved toward her from her reclining position on the bed. There was a predatory look in her eyes that made the detective tingle with anticipation. Gracefully Maura stood up and started to softly run her hands over Jane's stomach causing her abdominal muscles to contract. Their gazes locked as each started to breath a bit faster, Maura leaned in as if to kiss Jane but at the last minute her right hand went to the taller woman's neck and pulled her down a couple inches so she could suck Jane's earlobe.
Jane hissed through clenched teeth, "Jesus, Maura." She was surprised as her voice came out deeper than she could ever recall hearing it and noticed Maura shiver as her breath moved over her exposed neck. Jane started to move her head to kiss the M.E but then soft lips were moving down her neck, over her collar bone and then she felt a tongue sliding down making its way between her breasts until her bra hindered its progress.
"Oh god," Jane groaned leaning her head back before looking down at a seductively smiling Maura who was reaching behind her to unclasp the offending garment. When it fell lose and the honey brunette slid it down her arms she was expecting to feel hands or even a mouth on her breasts but instead Maura continued her trail, licking between them, down her abdomen, over her belly button until she was again stopped by clothing. Kneeling in front of Jane she unbuttoned the jeans, pulled the zip down and stripped them off, tossing them behind her.
"You have no idea what you're doing to me," Jane mumbled, her voice thick with desire.
"Oh, I think I do," Maura replied teasingly and then moved to nuzzle Jane through her cotton underwear before sliding those off too.
Standing up in front of the now nearly panting woman Maura instructed her, "Undress me."
Jane willed herself not to fuck this up as she moved shaking hands toward the buttons on Maura's blouse. The smaller woman took the detective's shaking ones in her own, squeezing gently before taking each one and lovingly kissing the scars there. Afterward she caught Jane's gaze and told her, "Anything you want to do I want you to do. Everything about you turns me on, every part of you." Then she leaned forward and captured slightly parted lips with her own, slipping inside and affirming her declaration with the passionate kiss. When she pulled away Jane's hands were no longer shaking.
Jane resumed unbuttoning her friend's blouse, eyes growing darker with need. When they were all undone she let it fall open, taking in the expensive silk bra, fitted perfectly to accentuate already perfect breasts. "Jesus, you're so beautiful it's painful."
"I hope not so painful as to hinder your ability to continue," Maura teased.
"No, not that painful," Jane confirmed with a smirk.
As she was about to move to slide the blouse off smooth shoulders Maura did it for her and then stepped back. "Now sit on the bed and watch."
Gulping Jane did as she was told.
Slowly Maura reached behind herself and the taller woman heard the sound of a zip, then Maura started to slowly slide her skirt down and Jane licked her lips in anticipation. Soon matching panties were revealed; Maura kicked the skirt off to the side of the room. Reaching behind her back she unclasped her bra and let it fall to the floor while taking a few steps closer to the captivated woman sitting on the bed.
"Now watch this part very closely Jane."
The detective nodded as she sat captivated by the show in front of her. It was all she could do to stop herself from grabbing this entirely too sexy woman and throwing her to the bed to ravish her. Instead she said, "Don't worry, you have my undivided attention."
Maura smiled seductively and then turned around to face the wall. Jane only had a moment to wonder what she was doing before the petite woman slid her thumbs under the side of her panties and with excruciating slowness started to pull them down, bending over as she did so. Jane felt her mouth water as inch by inch Maura's perfect flesh was revealed to her hungry eyes. She really thought she might explode at any moment if she wasn't soon permitted to touch the M.E.
Still moving slowly Maura stood up, taking the two short steps to put her directly in front of Jane. Raising her right leg, heel still on, she carefully placed it between Jane's breasts and pushed her back onto the bed.
"Oh my fucking god," Jane groaned as she fell back. She had no idea Maura was so... dominating and she loved it!
"Now lay in the centre of the bed," Maura commanded. Jane complied without question.
Feeling the bed shift she moved her head to watch as Maura placed her hand on the foot of the bed, boosting herself to stand on the mattress and walk to stand over Jane. Crouching down Jane could feel Maura's heat against her stomach as the woman almost, but not quite, sat on her. Jane tried to remember to breath as she stared at Maura, her eyes heavy with desire and lust.
"See anything you like?" Maura asked innocently.
"You have no idea." Jane responded, her voice gravelly with need, "But you're about to find out."
Moving swiftly Jane sat up, shifting Maura underneath her. The Medical Examiner let out a surprised squeal soon quieted by the Detective's mouth covering her own. Jane wasted no time in delving her tongue into Maura's mouth kissing her demandingly while grabbing her arms, using her right hand to hold them pinned above the smaller woman's head. Wanting to make sure Maura was ok with her level of aggression Jane started to pull back to look in the woman's eyes, but when Maura's legs wrapped around her torso, roughly pulling her against the M.E. she instinctively knew her lover was more than ok with this. Resuming the heated kiss, she let her left hand caress Maura's body, sliding down touch the side of her breast; Maura moaned into her mouth. Trailing her fingers slowly toward an erect nipple Jane held it between two fingers and pinched softly before moving her hand away. Maura pulled away from the kiss, gasping with delight and gripping Jane more tightly with her legs.
"Yes, Jane, please, touch me, any way you want, please," she begged, her voice breathy. Then she raised her head and bit Jane's neck, sucking hard while her tongue licked. Jane groaned in appreciation and let her hand continue its journey. Next she trailed her fingers down her friend's side, over her hip and to her thigh where she raked her nails upward until she reached wet heat. Maura continued to suck her neck until she quickly slipped one finger through the russet haired woman's wetness. Maura gasped, pulling away from Jane's neck and throwing her head back onto the pillow.
"Oh God, Jane!" Her voice was deep with need and she moved her trapped wrists under Jane's hand. Thinking Maura had enough of her pinning her to the bed Jane started to let go, but was stopped with, "No. Don't let go." Jane caught Maura's gaze and it left no doubt what she wanted. Smirking knowingly Jane brought her left hand between their gazes and put the finger that had swept through Maura to her lips where she slowly licked it before putting it into her mouth and sucking on it.
Maura groaned and squirmed underneath her with yearning. "No more teasing Jane, please, I need you now."
Jane kissed her once more and let go of her wrists before moving down the trembling woman's body to her breasts where she licked around the nipple before sucking it into her mouth. Maura gasped and mumbled 'fuck yes' when she held the nipple between her teeth and flicked it with her tongue while her left hand played with the nipple of the other. Minutes later she continued downward, kissing soft flesh as she went, both hands still on Maura's breasts.
Maura loosened her legs around Jane's torso as the taller woman continued moving down. Taking advantage of more mobility Jane slid further down the soft, sweet smelling body until she reached her destination. Breathing in deeply as she smelled Maura's desire she felt her head swim as though it were floating. Shaking off the feeling she concentrated on what she wanted to do. Without warning or a bracing soft touch she swept her tongue through Maura and growled low in her throat at the taste. The M.E. screamed and jumped in surprise.
"Oh my God, Jane!" she exclaimed, slamming her head down against the pillow.
However Jane knew how much she'd enjoyed it when she felt hands on the back of head, firmly urging her to continue. More slowly this time she licked Maura, delighting in the feel of the wet heat against her tongue. She continued to lick up and down the damp flesh while Maura moaned her approval and tangled her fingers in her hair. Sliding her tongue lower to the source of the wetness she firmly licked around the opening before slipping her tongue inside as far as she could manage.
"Ohhhh yesssss," Maura breathed out above her as she moved her tongue around.
After a while she brought her left hand down to caress her lover's thigh before sliding one finger inside with her tongue causing Maura to thrust against her and yell out something the detective couldn't quite make out. Sliding her tongue out she licked up to her friend's clit, which she knew must be throbbing with need. As soon as her tongue touched it Maura yelled out again and nearly flew off the bed. Jane held onto her tightly with her free hand as her tongue started slow circles around her clit. When Jane pushed a second finger inside Maura the aroused woman shifted her hips and spread her legs further as she thrust against Jane's hand and mouth.
Jane started circling the clit faster and when she pushed a third finger inside she sucked the aching flesh into her mouth, her tongue flicking over it firmly.
"Oh fuck, Jane! Yes, Yes! You feel so good! Don't stop!" Maura yelled, thrusting faster and harder against her.
Jane felt her own clit throbbing at the woman's words as she continued her ministrations. She alternated between slow and deep and fast, quick thrusts while her tongue and lips continued to pleasure Maura's clit. When Maura again wrapped her legs around her, panting and thrusting, mumbling unintelligible things and Jane felt hot muscles start to contract against her fingers she knew Maura was coming. Moments later the honey brunette's body stiffened for long seconds before she screamed out her pleasure and thrust against Jane faster than before. As she started to come down Jane slowed her thrusts and her tongue, prolonging Maura's pleasure as much as possible. When finally the woman stilled, panting to catch her breath, Jane reluctantly withdrew her fingers and kissed her centre before moving up the spent, trembling body.
Slowly Jane kissed her way back up, placing a gentle kiss against soft lips before she drew the blanket around them and wrapped Maura in her arms. The smaller woman snuggled into Jane, sighing with satisfaction. The two women lay silently side by side for a few minutes as Jane stared at Maura, thinking how much she loved this woman, how much Maura was a part of her. She couldn't say the exact moment it had happened, it had been a gradual thing, so gradual that it took the detective a while to figure out it had even happened. It just seemed so natural. It simply couldn't be any other way. Without Maura she was lost, part of her was missing, but with her she felt at peace and everything just felt right.
Jane watched as Maura's eye lids fluttered open, her hazel eyes warm with contentment and love; Jane would happily drown in that gaze forever.
"Hey," Jane husked out softly.
Maura smiled at her, a smile Jane knew was only for her; a lover's smile.
"That was incredible, Jane. You're incredible. I've never felt so loved or cared for during sex." Maura frowned.
Noticing Jane asked, "What's wrong?"
"Sex doesn't seem an adequate enough term for what we just did," Maura replied.
Jane laughed softly, "How about 'making love'?"
Maura's face brightened with another smile, "Yes that sounds perfect."
Jane smiled and leaned in, kissing her lover softly. "I love you Maura and I want to spend the rest of my life making you feel that good."
Maura smiled, "And I feel the same and it's about time I show you just how much."
Jane was caught off guard when she suddenly had Maura on top of her, kissing her senseless and then the M.E. proceeded to show her in great detail just how much she loved her.
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Maura Isles woke up with her head pillowed beneath soft breasts. For a moment she was disorientated but then memories of last night came flooding back to her. Jane had been amazing, not just as a lover, though she certainly was that, but in forgiving her. She knew she still had to explain things, but she no longer felt any trepidation about doing so. Knowing Jane loved her made everything seem easier and she felt happier than she could ever remember feeling in her life.
As much as she wanted to curl up and snuggle against the lanky form beside her, her bladder was screaming for attention. Begrudgingly she slipped from between the blankets and made her way to the toilet in the hallway. She almost yelled in surprise when she felt something cold and wet against her leg, but then the same thing whimpered softly and Maura relaxed, realizing it was Jo Friday.
"Shhh," she whispered to the small terrier, "your mother's still asleep. I'll take you out when I finish," she explained, slipping into the bathroom.
When she re-emerged two minutes later Jo was sitting outside the bathroom door waiting. "Ok, girl let me put on some clothes and I'll take you out."
As soon as Jo heard the word 'out' she was up and running to the front door in excitement, though thankfully she kept quiet. Maura threw on a pair of Jane's sweat pants, a Boston P.D. sweatshirt and her heels. She knew she looked ridiculous with the heels on but all Jane's shoes were too big for her. Quietly she made her way to the front door, which was quite a feat in her heels and walked Jo outside.
Jane yawned and rolled over to cuddle against Maura but her hands fell on empty sheets. She froze and her body grew cold as dread built up inside her. Sitting up in the dark she called out for Maura. No answer. Jumping out of bed she sprinted to the bathroom. No Maura. Racing into the living room she hit the lights and looked around. No Maura.
Oh God. No. This can't be happening. She said she loved me, she said she wanted this. She said she wanted to be with me.
Just as Jane thought she might throw up her front door opened and Jo Friday came running in followed by Maura.
Maura was about to admonish Jo to be quiet again when she noticed the lights on and she had purposely kept them turned off so as not to disturb Jane. Looking toward the couch she saw Jane standing there.
"Jesus, Maura, don't ever do that to me again!" Jane shouted, walking to the confused woman and wrapping her in a tight hug.
Maura returned the embrace but asked, "I don't understand Jane, what did I do? I only took Jo out to relieve herself."
Jane let out a deep sigh and released her friend, running her hand through her hair. "When I woke up and you weren't there I thought," Jane stopped, feeling a bit foolish now at how insecure she had been.
"You thought…" Maura encouraged.
Jane looked at her, "I thought you'd-." Jane motioned toward the door once before shrugging her shoulders. "Nevermind," she finished, turning away and walking toward the fridge.
After a moment Maura realized what had happened. When Jane woke up and saw she wasn't there she'd though her friend had left her. Maura felt terrible for making this strong, proud woman feel so insecure.
"Oh Jane, I'm sorry, I thought you were asleep. If I thought you were going to wake up I wouldn't have left, or at least I would have left a note."
"S'ok," Jane mumbled, opening the fridge and grabbing a beer. "You want something to drink?"
"It's not ok, Jane. How I've made you feel is most certainly not ok. We need to talk."
"Now?" Jane asked, looking at the clock on the wall that told her it was 4am.
"I know it's late… or early depending on how you look at it, but yes, now."
Jane poured a glass of wine for Maura since she hadn't answered her question and made her way to the couch where the M.E. was now sitting. Placing the two drinks on the coffee table she sat down next to the honey brunette.
Maura turned to face Jane and took her hand in her own. "I'm so sorry for making you feel that way, Jane." Jane shrugged but didn't make eye contact. "Look at me, Jane." Maura said softly but forcefully. Slowly Jane raised her head and their gazes met. "I love you. I love you more than I thought I was capable of loving anyone and I have all along. I told you last night, I was scared and then when we talked in my office and you told me it had been a mistake that made me more afraid."
"I thought it's what you wanted so I tried to make it easier to-."
Maura placed her finger against Jane's lips, "You don't have to explain, I do. You were only reacting to what I did that night at the Hub."
Jane kissed Maura's finger before moving it. "That's no excuse, Maura. I said some horrible things to you and I didn't mean them. I should have realized you were scared, but I was too wrapped up in my own hurt feelings to look beyond them."
"Ok," Maura conceded, "we both made mistakes, but I still want to explain to you about my fear." Jane nodded and Maura continued. "When I was in college I met a woman, her name was Victoria and she and I were friends and lovers." Jane's eyebrows rose nearly to her hairline in surprise.
"Wow. That explains your…knowledge of lesbian sex," Jane smirked.
Maura blushed, "I have had experience, yes, but," Maura added, her tone serious, "it was never like it was with you last night. I never knew I could feel so much."
Jane gave her a lop-sided smile, "Me either," she whispered, remembering how wonderful it felt to have Maura writhing against her. Moving forward she pressed her lips to Maura's, deepening the kiss immediately which the other woman returned, wrapping her arms around her.
"Jane, wait!" Maura gasped out, pulling back and trying to control her need to make love to Jane again. "As much as I would like nothing better than to take you back to bed I need to explain."
Jane bit back her desire and nodded her understanding so Maura took a sip of her wine and continued.
"Victoria and I were together for almost a year. We were talking about moving out of the dorms and getting an apartment together. Then one day I went to over to her room to see her and she was gone. Just gone. There was no note, no message and I never heard from her again." Maura took a deep breath and sighed, Jane squeezed her hand in support. "I was devastated, I loved her and when she left without a word I didn't handle it very well. I couldn't eat or sleep, all I did was study. I had no idea someone could feel so much pain. So that's when I decided I wouldn't see women romantically ever again. The connection I formed with Victoria was so much deeper than any connection I've ever been able to form with a man. For whatever reason I just don't get that emotionally invested in men so I decided they were safer, I could protect my heart if I was only with them. I may not have felt fulfilled in any capacity but I was safe and that's all I cared about."
Maura glanced up from her glass of wine and looked at Jane, the sympathetic gaze from deep brown eyes caused her to tear up, but she continued.
"So when I realized I was in love with you, I told myself it could never happen, that being your best friend would have to be good enough. When you kissed me that night and I realized you felt the same way about me I was so conflicted. Part of me was so happy, but the other part of me was terrified. I didn't want to risk going through that pain again because I think to lose you would hurt me even more than losing Victoria did." Holding Jane's gaze Maura took Jane's hands again before going on. "But I don't care anymore Jane. I love you and I want to be with you. I know you can't promise me forever, that's unrealistic, but I want to be with you for as long as you'll have me and I promise you that my fears will never interfere in what I feel for you again."
Maura pressed against Jane's hand as the dark brunette wiped a tear from her cheek.
"I'm not Victoria, Maura and I would never leave you like that. I will never leave you. You're everything I want and need. There's no one I could ever love more than I love you."
"Oh Jane," Maura whispered before bridging the distance between them and pressing their lips together. The kiss quickly intensified from soft and gentle to aroused and demanding.
Both women stood from the couch without breaking contact, wrapping around each other as they stumbled to the bedroom. The sun was coming up before either one got to sleep again.
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Jane stretched languidly in the rays of sun peeking through her bedroom curtains and curled contently against the still sleeping form next to her. Breathing in deeply of Maura's sweet smelling hair she sighed with contentment. She felt beyond good, even the sore muscles she had felt good, especially considering how she got them. Maura certainly was an animal in bed. Jane grinned as she remembered the energy and enthusiasm the Doctor exhibited last night multiple times. There was no way anything could ruin Jane Rizzoli's good mood today.
Starting to fall back asleep Jane groaned in irritation when she heard a knock on the door. Ignoring it she assumed whoever it was would go away when she didn't answer. Unfortunately they kept knocking.
"You sure you don't want to get that?" Maura mumbled, still half asleep.
"Nah, they'll go away eventually. Nothing could move me from this spot." Jane replied, squeezing the smaller woman gently.
"Jane Rizzoli if you don't open this door in twenty seconds I'm using my key!"
Jane's eyes snapped open and she was out of bed like a shot.
"It's my Ma!" She hissed to an amused Medical Examiner who turned around to watch Jane.
The Detective was pulling on the same sweats Maura had worn early that morning and was struggling frantically to get a t-shirt over her head when they both heard the key turning the lock.
"Don't just lay there, Maura!" Jane exclaimed. "Put some clothes on!"
"Do you want to hide our relationship?" Maura asked, lowering her head, hurt.
"What? Maura, of course not!" Jane replied, rushing to her side with some pants and a t-shirt. Sitting next to the still naked woman Jane placed two fingers under the M.E.'s chin raising her head to meet her gaze. "Anyone in their right mind would be proud to have you as a girlfriend; I just don't think my Ma needs to see this!" She said, motioning around the room.
Smiling at the sentiment, not to mention panic still on Jane's face that looked entirely too cute, Maura took the offered clothes but had no time to put them on as Angela Rizzoli threw open the bedroom door.
"It's twelve in the afternoon Jane! What are you still doing-." Her admonishment died on her tongue as she took in the sight of her daughter sitting next to a very naked Doctor Maura Isles.
"Ma!" Jane exclaimed looking like a deer caught in headlights, as Maura pulled the covers tightly around herself, though she did it more for Jane's sake the her own. "Jesus Christ, Ma! You can't just come barging in here! We had this conversation once before!"
Angela stood frozen for a moment as she looked around the room noticing the scattered clothes. Then she looked between her daughter and the Doctor a few times as she came to some conclusion in her mind.
"Took you two long enough." She grinned before turning around, "I'll be in the kitchen waiting Janie, I'll make you two some breakfast," she threw over her shoulder as she shut the door behind her.
Jane fell back onto the bed. "Oh my God. I can't believe that just happened." She groaned, throwing her arm over her eyes.
"I find her comment most interesting. Your mother is obviously a very astute woman to have seen the attraction between us."
Jane peeked from under her arm and glared at Maura. "Really Maura? Really?"
Maura just smiled before kissing Jane quickly on the lips then got up and headed for the shower leaving Jane to lay there in mortification.
A/N: Hope you all enjoyed it! I considered stopping here… but then that would leave too many questions unanswered, so I will try to keep going with it if I can figure out where I want to take it. Which currently I'm not sure about and my muse is failing me.