Suite Life On Deck

Bailey Belle

I DO NOT OWN SLOD OR ANY OTHER CHARACTERS

Bailey just looked out into the open seas. Just sitting their allowing him to drift away. There was no possible way to have the take in the sight of her. She yelled. No response. She felt her heart shatter once again in her chest. Now she just sat their on the edge of the dock looking into the harbor...the boat gone...the only thing left was just the memory of it. She felt powerless. She felt like she was just a spec of dust ignored. Ignored...just liked she was so many times in her home town. People didn't understand her and now she was letting go of the one person in her life, that did. This wasn't just about him anymore...it was about the both of them. Maddie shined some light on her to make her realize, but now time passed by.

She just sat their watching the water...him not even in sight...thinking about all the errors she made in those three years...she lied to him repeatedly...she lied to him about kissing Zack...she lied to him about her occupation...she lied to him about how her and Zack first met...and now this...All those secrets she would ensconce from him, he wouldn't know.. She was not able to rewind the hands of time so she was stuck like this. In the position where all her hope ran out. Disappeared like magic. He was faithful to her and what was she? She was a disappointment. The image of Cody burned her brain. All that guilt that she had, just got larger in quantities. She felt overwhelmed. She didn't know how to cope with all of this. There was no solution. When he got back...things would not be the same as they were in the past. Who was she fooling? She kept convincing herself things would work out correctly and when Cody would return, things would function just like it did before, but it wasn't. Cody would be ashamed to call her his significant other. Knocked up and unmarried...Moose was right...she was worthless...that's all she would ever be. She made problems...how could Cody bare her presence for three years?

" Bailey, did you tell him?" She heard a voice from behind her, but she kept silent. She didn't want to think. Thinking made her feel even worst about herself. If she was 'brilliant' why couldn't she see what she had right in front of her? Why couldn't see she that someone understand her and would accept her no matter what situation? She was clueless.

"Bailey?" The voice said again. She refused to respond. She could only fight the tears left for so long. Maddie and London then came next to her and sat down. Bailey wouldn't redirect her attention from them.

"You didn't tell him, didn't you?" London said and Bailey just nodded answering. She tried to think of concepts other than Cody, but she was not able to let herself do it. Cody could never be erased...not even for a second...He was always there in her heart. Bailey let herself cry now...London and Maddie wrapped their arms around her allowing Bailey to cry into their shoulders. Bailey felt like they did not understand the loss she was experiencing. It was far more complicated than they could imagine.

"Oh, Bailey..." Maddie and London responded simultaneously holding onto her trying to make her calm down. Their attempts were sweet, but it couldn't heal her heart. She felt broken and there was no possible cure.

" I saw the boat...I yelled...he didn't see me...he is going to hate me so much...he will never want me...When he gets back..." Bailey sobs cut her off as she kept thinking of all the different possibilities. London and Maddie were unhappy with their friends new uncharacteristically behavior. Bailey was the confident and strong one. Behind that though, she was weak. She wouldn't dare show it afraid of getting bruised from life again. Right now, her guard was down though.

"Bailey, he loves you...that wont change...the way he talks about you, should make you realize that. The way he looks at you is like you're the only person in the room with him. That can't change." Maddie said now rubbing her back.

"That can change in six months...when he comes back, he would probably forget who I am." Bailey was so morose. She was in love for the first time in her life and she was going to lose it. Lose it all because she wasn't honest. Trust and honesty was a large concept in their relationship. She broke that over and over again without a single thought. It made her question why Cody would even want to be with her...Maddie and London pulled away from the hug and the coldness came back.

"Bailey, I tried forgetting about you, it doesn't work. That is something I put a lot of effort into too!" London said slightly offending and making Bailey comforted and laugh a bit. London was not wise with words-or anything, but the point was, she was trying. That meant a lot to her.

"Why don't we go have a girls night? Get your mind off Cody..."Maddie suggested. That name hit her once again. It wasn't like they were broken up, they both loved each other deeply, but the situation felt like it was. Six months without him...

" You know what, I would rather just go home right now...if that is okay..." Bailey said mumbling. She wanted to relax. She felt this amount of pressure on her shoulders. She had to take on several big tasks.

" You would rather be crying instead of getting the opportunity to think of any different subjects? I know this is a difficult event to deal with, but it is unhealthy to just avoid all humanity!" Maddie said, but Bailey didn't want to. She was not going to force herself to do something that would just make her more miserable.

"Maddie, I stick by what I said this time, I just need time to think...to clear my mind for a little while." Bailey said and Maddie knew not to disagree with her any longer.

"Okay...how are you going to tell Ms. Martin about you carrying his child? We will be there for support if you would need our assistance." Maddie offered and then Bailey realized she would have to face Ms. Martin. The woman who was so kind to her who would not allow anything bad to happen to her precious children. The reason why Ms. Martin enjoyed having Bailey's company around because she was a positive influence to Cody and a concrete support system. Bailey groaned.

"That topic has not crossed my mind once. Thank you for reminding me of that. Now I really want Cody beside me...I can just imagine the ridicule from her I would receive..."

"Are you planning on informing her of this today or would you rather delay that event too?" Bailey huffed in frustration as she came to a decision.

"Maddie, there was a reason I did not tell Cody in the first place, I didn't want to be selfish with him. Yes, I am going to delay confronting Ms. Martin about it because today, I think she has been through enough...You can not disagree with me on that." Bailey said getting up wiping away the last of her tears from her face. Not informing Ms. Martin because the lost of both of her boys was one reason why she ignored to tell her, the other was to make her think that she did not know. If Ms. Martin thought she knew about the child and let Cody still go off, she would be very enraged. She just had to keep lying and hiding things. That was not the life she wished to live, but sometimes, it's just too late.

" That is an understandable reason." Maddie and London got off the grown and smoothed out their dresses getting all the wrinkles out.

"I'm going to go, but thank you so much. I really appreciate it..."

"Bailey, you do not have to thank us, we are your friends." Maddie said looking Bailey in the eyes and the message was sent to Bailey.

"I know, but still, thank you, I can really count on you two..." Bailey then went off and hours passed. She spent the rest of the day in her room curled up in her blankets crying. Taking in the smell of Cody that he left behind that remained. The more she thought about him, the more it hurt. She did not expect it would be this difficult to let him go. She would make it through though...

The next week passed by and Bailey wasn't acting the usually. She tried her hardest to put on a smile though. Anyone could see through it though. It was almost customary for Bailey to have a smile on her face, but in this new one, their was a change. It wasn't the one everyone saw everyday. In her eyes you could see the sadness that wouldn't end.

Bailey now headed down to see Ms. Martin. Ms. Martin's attitude has changed also. She lost both her boys and when she would hear their names she would break down crying. She would enter their room and just sit there. Observing everything taking in the old memories that once existed. That was the only thing that remained of them left. Most of the rooms were empty except for a few objects. Bailey had not entered the Martin house since Cody's departure. It just flooded her mind with memories. Memories she loved, but they were unwanted. When she thought of them, they were agonizing. Bailey entered the house and she witnessed Ms. Martin on a chair in the corner knitting in the darkness. You could hear her soft weeps.

"Ms. Martin, it is , Bailey, Bailey Pickett." The weeping immediately stopped and now she was sniffling.

"Oh, yes, I recognized your voice, please, come in." Ms. Martin said trying to sound upbeat. The charade was not working though.

"Would you mind if I open the window? It is pretty dark in here." Bailey said walking over to the window and Ms. Martin nodded ensuring her that she could. Sunlight streamed in through the window lighting the room. Fresh air came in gusts through the window.

"Please, Bailey, take a seat." Ms. Martin pointed to one across the room and Bailey took it without hesitation. There was a large amount of distance between the two of them so it comforted her. That way she could make an easy escape when she blows her top. "What is the reason you have came by and gave me the amazing opportunity to see your face once again?" Ms. Martin was always nice to Bailey. She just hoped this new news would give her excitement instead of indignation.

"Um...Well, there was something I recently discovered and I thought it would be appropriate for you to know..." Bailey said starting off her task. She just wanted to get this moment over with. Get the feeling of apprehension out of her veins. "The thing is-Wow, this is harder than I thought it would be..." Bailey paused trying to think of the correct words to come across this. Ms. Martin was just staring at her as the suspense in the atmosphere started building. "Cody and I are, we're pregnant..." Bailey said avoiding eye contact staring off into the opposite direction. Hoping for the best. She was terrified to see his mother's reaction. The silence in the room was deadly... she sat their playing with her hands nervously.

"I am sorry, what did you say, dear? It sounded like you said you were pregnant." Bailey nodded still avoiding any contact. She was not sure what to expect. She started shaking in her seat.

"You're pregnant!" Carrey said not knowing how to take in this new situation. Then she remembered how afraid she was to tell Kurt's parents about Cody and Zack. She could only imagine what Bailey was enduring right now since Cody left. How she is facing it all alone. "That is absolutely wonderful, I would be blessed to have you as the mother as one of my grandchildren." Bailey looked up surprised. She thought the situation would turn out worst than it actually did.

"You are?" Bailey said sweetly. She had a smile on her face that could not be erased.

"Of course I am, you are a beautiful girl inside and out and I am glad that my son was lucky enough to 'stumble' upon you. I have no doubt that you two will raise a beautiful child. Does Cody know of this?" Now it was time where things got complicated. She wanted to be honest with her after she said those words making her feel like she was belonged and now she was faced with lying. Bailey never lied in her life before Boston. She hated lying. The though sickened her. The fact she had to do it multiple times ruined her. She was the nice girl that treated everyone as equal...who was she know though?

"Cody is not aware of this child in my womb. I discovered after he left...I just hope he wont be disappointed that I'm pregnant when he returns." Bailey said trying to be as serious as possible and pose as truthful.

"I know my son and he would be grateful. You may even become annoyed with him because he will be so attached."

"And that's a bad thing?" Bailey and Ms. Martin started laughing. Ms. Martin knew how in love Cody and Bailey were. It was something that she respected. They had a really great bond with each other.

"Just remember, with a baby comes a lot of responsibility. You may even have twins." Carrey said and then Bailey remembered that it was a possibility. She had a lot of ideas on what they could look like. She knew brown eyes were the dominant eye color over blue, but she really hoped they had his blue-green eyes.

"Hopefully they wont be as much as a handful as Cody and Zack was when they were younger." Carrey laughed at that.

"I don't know...Their dad was a trouble maker and Cody and Zack were when they were kids...poor Moseby...he suffered enough from their antics...I think the trouble making gene runs in their farther's side."

"I know it is none of my business, but I was wondering what the boys farther was like?"

"He is not worth mentioning. He was never there for them and never will be..." Ms. Martin said and Bailey immediately dropped the topic of the conversation. She understood that their was a restrained relationship throughout the whole family with him. She remembered Cody saying how he barely had any memory. How he did not want to be the farther his dad was. How he wanted to be there for his children. He wanted to be the farther he never knew. Bailey was positive Cody would be the perfect farther.

"I would like to thank you for your time Ms. Martin. I really appreciate all of this. You have been so caring and generous with me." Bailey said standing up from her chair. Carrey came over and gave her a hug and then she was off. She just hoped telling Cody would be as simple as that was...

A/N So, I could of actually extended that last chapter instead of making it end that fast. I noticed that once this thought popped into my head. I hope you enjoy the parts I have left. Thank you all again for your support and advice and for taking the time to read! (: