Percival refused to answer the door. Not to be mean, but he thought it would be Gwaine and Gwaine was to be locked out all night for being a prat. Merlin sighed. He wandered out to the street. As Merlin walked, he passed the places Gwaine had filmed Arthur and him.
He came to the cafe where Gwaine first filmed him. He remembered precisely what he had that day and reordered it. It was getting darker and the stars were dotting the sky when he left. He passed the things Gwaine had filmed them and himself on.
the park, the field, the swings, the pub, the cafe, the pool, the ice rink, the disco, the picnic area, the row boat hire, the swan pedal boats, crazy golf, arcade, club, vets (Arthur accidently ran over a dog), the rescue centre (where merlin and Arthur were so close to adopting about nine dogs and twenty four cats), the picnic spot, the forest, the campsite, and eventually their own house.
Merlin flicked on the radio. King and lion heart. He changed the channel. Fix you, Wake up, baby blue, the original love, goodbye my lover, I will wait, enchanted, gone gone gone, merlin turned the radio off.
Merlin just decided to crawl up the duvet and collapse on the bed. He curled up on Arthur's side and cuddled up to Arthur's pillow. Merlin tried so hard to drink in Arthur's scent. He laid there for a while.
Merlin couldn't sleep. No matter how hard he tried he couldn't drift off. So merlin slid off of the covers and stumbled into the kitchen to get some sleeping tablets and water. Merlin sank into such a deep, deep sleep that he didn't wake up in the morning. He slept right through until it was time he could visit Arthur and Gwaine.
When Merlin walked into the hospital, Arthur was walking across the floor showing Morgana and Gwen his stitches. Merlin ran over to Arthur. Arthur winced as Merlin threw his arms around is neck. "Oh sorry! Did I hurt you?" Merlin asked shrinking back.
Arthur shook his head and pulled merlin in closer, "the pain's worth it!" he said. Merlin smiled and Kissed Arthur. He had to go up on his tip toes to reach. "Back in a minute! I have to talk to Gwaine!" he said.
Merlin headed for the door when Arthur caught his arm. "You can't Mer!" he said.
"Why not? I'll only be gone a minute!"
"Merlin,"
"I want to see Gwaine!"
"Merlin"
"I want to thank him for saving you!"
"Merlin!"
"And I can't do that if I'm here because he's not here!"
"Merlin!"
"And he's awesome and I want to show how grateful I am to-"
"Merlin! Listen to me!" Arthur said. Merlin paused. He straightened out and looked up into Arthur's eyes. He was happy and ignorant and fine.
The pain in his expression hardened and he was shot by pain and guilt and hurt and loss that shone in his blue eyes at Gwen's words.
"Merlin…. Gwaine didn't make it!"