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I am back! I apologize if I've kept many people waiting for the next chapter, but I've been so preoccupied with so many things. I'm in High School, that's all I have to say lol. My main priority is always going to be my favorite story The Absence of Zuko (CHECK IT OUT) but I'm going to try and keep this story up to date as well. I hope you all enjoy, because I'm just taking this as it goes :)

Yes, of course, I am here once again, writing my oh-so retarted life of Toph Bei Fong to a book filled with pages that don't give a crap about me. I'm a freshman in High School - almost a sophmore, actually, and I'm almost fifteen. I'm a blind teenager trying to live a normal life. But there is always something distracting me. Or should I say. . . someone?

I've already told you the story of when I found out I had feelings for Aang on Valentine's Day. It was a special day. It was a holiday, so I found it appropriate to spill my guts out onto the papers of my journal. Today has no specialty to it. . . to anyone else, anyway.

It's one o'clock in the morning here. I can't just wait until morning. It's not that he just kissed me or anything like that. It was really confusing. It makes me want to hate my life even more because I can only go by what I hear. It limits me to very few things I can go by.

Okay, let me just start from the beginning:

I've made plans with Katara to go to this fancy spa to have some kind of "girls day out". Never in my life have I ever been to a spa! But she forced me to go along with it because she gaurenteed that it would relax me and I would have such a great time. Plus, it was either go to the spa with Katara, or stay home with my parents. I didn't have much of a choice.

My choice of clothing were ripped jeans that I managed to rummage out of my closet and some type of tank top. My lazy choice of shoes were flats, and I had no idea if they matched my outfit or not. I threw my hair up to avoid doing anything with it that would consume any time.

Now, getting to the important stuff! Katara's older brother, Sokka, picked me up and drove us over there. The spa is right next to the local mall, so he was going to go shopping with Aang while we were there. When he told me that that were his plans, I felt that same feeling again. I tried to change the subject to avoid the embarrassing change in mood, since his girlfriend was sitting right beside me in the car, but she didn't seem to notice. There was an awkward silence while he drove down the road.

"So do you want us to meet you at the mall so all of us can hangout? You know, once we're done."

I mentally cursed to myself. The last thing that I wanted to do was see that kid again after that embarrassing night the last time we hungout. I felt like I was going to be sick with all of the nerves that were building up. I knew that we were only a couple of blocks away from the spa, so I had no time to prepare. I wish, at this moment, that I had the power to turn the clock back a good few hours. I had no idea how far we were, and how much we had to go until we reached the spa.

I waited about ten seconds in desperation to find out when we were going to get there, and it finally flew out of my mouth. "Are we almost there?"

"I'm pulling in right now." Sokka answered as if it was no big deal, obviously, but I my stomach was about to explode with an overload of nervous butterflies. I thought that maybe Aang would catch a glimpse of us before we entered and start having a conversation with me. I haven't had a full conversation with him since he came over, actually, and that was a few months ago! I don't really like to count the awkward hello's when we passed each other in school. A few times he would exchange small talk with Katara when I was standing with her at the locker, he would acknowledge me in some way, and then leave. I don't know what his problem is.

The car slowed, and finally parked in the lot. I heard Sokka turn the car off and him and Katara unbuckling their seatbelts. I did the same, and we all exited the car in silence. I had no idea what to expect.

The first thing I didn't expect to happen was Sokka's arm sliding through with mine. I think I scared him a bit because I jumped in surprise. I tried to apologize for it, but he interrupted. "No, it's fine, Toph, I should've warned you first." I didn't waste my breath on arguing with him. "Now, come on, it's this way."

He urged me to move forward. I figured out while latched in his arm that I am either very short, he is very tall, or both are true. I'm usually used to trying to get by walking alone, and sometimes Katara helps me out. Other then that, the gaurds at my house are usually the ones to help me, and Sokka is about just as tall as them.

"And there's a step here." Sokka's acknowledgment of everything was really starting to get on my nerves. He was treating me like I can't step on a sidewalk without anyone's help. I knew there was a step there!

I held in my anger and stepped up on the sidewalk.

"I'll take it all from here," I heard Katara say to her brother. Sokka finally unlatched his grip onto me. I had a few seconds of sweet freedom until Katara latched her hand around my wrist.

"Do you have all the money that dad gave you?"

"Yeah, it's all in my purse."

"Are you sure that it's gonna cover it all?"

"I'm sure, Sokka. I'll text you once Toph and I are done. You gotta go meet Aang in the mall."

I felt my stomach do another round of pulling. I forgot about the whole ordeal for only a minute, at the most, but now I was panicking more then ever. I was so stressed out! At this point, I thought to myself that going to the spa might be what I really need.

"Okay. I'll see you later, guys, have a good time." I felt vibrations of footsteps leaving the area. I took a big sigh of relief that he was finally gone.

Suddenly, a loud chime of a bell rang in my ear, and I felt a swoosh of cool, yet comfortable air hit me. I smelled something that reminded me of the expensive perfumes that my mom wears all the time when she goes out somewhere. Katara pulled me into the entrance of the spa.

"Hello!" A welcoming voice sang.

"Hi," Katara greeted back. "We have an appointment set up for Katara and Toph Bei Fong at one thirty." She brought me further into this weird-smelling room at a slow pace while she talked to the lady that was running the spa. I heard a few small clicks that sounded like a mouse to a computer, and after a few moments, she said, "Okay! Just come right back here, ladies."

Needless to say, the spa definately soothed all of my stresses that I had about seeing Aang later. I've never felt so relaxed before. The girls that worked there put us in these white robes. The first thing that they did was give us a massage. I hated the part where they tried to give me a pedicure. I do not like my feet being touched! Halfway through, I kicked the lady right in the face with no regrets.

But, other then that, there were no problems. Me and Katara really had a good time. Even though we did have a pretty deep conversation about Aang, and it makes me question her loyalness to him. Holding my butterflies back was the least of my worries.

We were sitting in bathtubs full of mud with cucumbers over our eyes and towels around our heads to keep our hair from getting in the hot mud. It was supposed to help clear our pores to make us feel extra fresh. I was pretty content in sitting in silence, but we somehow ended up talking about Aang.

"Yeah, honestly, I'm starting to think that Aang has really changed a lot since we've started dating."

Believe me, I was shocked. I knew this was a chance for me to gain information about their relationship without her being suspicious. "When did you start thinking that?"

"Well. . . remember that day that I brought Aang with me to your house to help you on your math? It was around that time. He just doesn't seem like he likes me as much anymore. . ."

"You guys have been dating for quite a while. And you can't deny that you've been attracted to other guys recently."

"What? No I haven't!" She denied it anyway, and I nodded with raised eyebrows.

"Who?"

"What about that older guy, Jet?"

"I said that I thought he was cute! I never said that I liked him." I had no problem with her denying Jet, because I knew that he wasn't the only guy that she's been interested in.

"Okay, well what about Zuko?" There was no response. "Got nothin' to say to that, do ya?"

"Zuko and I are friends, and there's nothing else to it!" Her defensive manor really made me question if she was sticking with just one guy. Zuko is two years older then Katara, which makes him four years older then me. He's a senior at Katara's high school, and legally, he's an adult. I have a bad vibe about him, even though I've only said hi to him once when Katara introduced me to him. It just makes sense to me in my head that she would be more attracted to an older tough guy, rather then Aang. It's not that I'm calling Aang a whimp or anything, but I just think that Aang's too sweet for someone like his girlfriend.

Katara tried to lighten the mood and cover up her obvious guilt by changing the subject and faking a laugh.

Our session was finally over. We were changed back into our clothes, and I felt like a completely different person. My skin was fresh, my new makeup was light (not really goopy and itchy like the stuff my parents make me wear on special occasions), my hair was neatly down and behind my ears, and I had no worries in confronting my crush - especially after that conversation I had with Katara. I felt confident.

"Thanks for coming, ladies! Have a nice day!"

"You too!" we both said in unison. I had a huge smile on my face when I walked out of the building. Katara was holding onto my arm, but I wasn't as phased by it as I was before.

She sort of pulled at my strings a little bit when she came to a sudden halt just after we exited the spa. On the sidewalk, she said, "Hold on, Toph, I have to text Sokka to let them know we're done." I felt like I was her dog on a leash again. I heard her phone slide over and a series of clicks from her keyboard.

She slid her phone back. "Okay, let's start walking over there, Toph."

We ended up walking in the middle of the mall, just under where the food court was. The center went off into a whole bunch of hallways, and I know that it's huge in there because I could hear so many voices and I felt a lot of vibrations from people's footsteps. I'm not usually aloud to go to the mall because my parents say that I'll get lost in the crowd and I won't be able to find my way back. Yeah, thanks for having faith in me, mom and dad.

"Hey, Aang!" Katara's voice was really. . . annoying. It was girly, frilly, and fake. It was like I could tell her real feeling by the way she spoke. She let go of my arm, probably to go hug him or something. I heard a really dominant whistle that sung up, and back down again. I didn't know what it meant, but then Sokka said, "Look at you, Toph! Don't you look just gorgeous?"

I heard something like someone hit Sokka, cause he held in a yelp in pain. I stood there awkwardly, guessing that it was Katara who hit him. I knew Aang was standing in front of me.

He said, "You look really nice, Toph," kind of quietly, and his voice was uneasy and slightly shaky.

"Thanks, Twinkletoes," I grinned. I was just as nervous as he was, but I think the addrenaline that I had kept me from falling over. I have never felt so giddy in my life!

God, I wish that Zuko would show up so we can talk without her being there. . .

"Zuko?"

That familiar low, rough-and-tough guy voice answered back. "Hey, Katara."

I don't know what happened, but there was a weird silence, and I felt tension in the area. And before I knew it, I heard Zuko say, "What's up, faggot?"

Everything got really confusing from here. I felt a series of forceful vibrations and sounds of swooshing and thrusting. There were so many low muffled voices, but the one that really stood out was Katara's: "You guys, STOP IT! SOKKA, GET OFF OF HIM!" I took a few steps back, even though I had no idea where I was going. I felt someone run into me and I stumbled a few times.

"Toph!" For once, it wasn't Katara that was calling me. It was Aang. I was pulled by the arm out of the dangerous, moving crowd. It was pulled hard enough by him for me to run into him. The top of my forehead clashed against his chin, and my hands instinctively touched either side of his waist. I felt the electric waves again.

The second we touched, I took a half of a step back. The fight must have been over, because Katara began to say something to Aang, but before she could, he started telling her off.

"Wow, Katara. You were so concerned that your other damn boyfriend would get hurt by your brother, that you wouldn't of even noticed if your friend went missing!"

"How do you know I wasn't concerned for my brother?" That was the lamest excuse that I've ever heard Katara use - and that's saying something, considering the other one she used before we got there.

"Wait a minute." I've never heard Zuko's voice be so loud before. "This is your boyfriend?"

I heard Katara hezitate. She was doomed.

"Hey, she's all yours." That was his answer. I knew Aang wasn't stupid. He figured out that Katara was cheating on him as quick as I did today. It was sad. I felt so bad for Aang. . . but at the same time, I was still extremely confused about everything, which was what was making me so distrought. I was the helpless little blind girl that didn't fit in with the group.

"Hey, thanks," Zuko taunted. "We'll see you guys later, then."

I heard that same noise again of some kind of contact with Aang and Sokka, since Zuko and Katara obviously left. "Let it go, Sokka. If she wants to screw her life up with him then that's her choice."

"I'm sorry, Aang, I didn't know she'd be that stupid!" he emphasized.

"I've had a feeling that she was cheating on me for a while, anyway, I just had no proof."

I wanted to scream out to them that I was still there. I felt so betrayed by Katara for her to just leave me with Sokka and Aang. I never knew that she was like this.

"Toph, I'm really sorry for my sister's rude behavior. She had no right to leave you with us-"

I interrupted him. I just didn't want all of the attention on me, drowning in my own confusement. I was starting to like it better when no one was paying attention to me. "It's fine."

I heard someone sigh, and then Sokka started talking again. "Hey, why don't I buy you two lunch?"

There were a series of clicks, and I remembered that those sounds were from a cell phone. "Actually, it's already five o'clock." Aang must have took his phone out to check the time. I couldn't believe that it was that late already. I was at the spa a lot longer then I thought. I was glad that I didn't have much of a curfew since my parents don't pay attention to where I am.

"An early dinner?" There was the sounds of money rustling together, and I could tell he handed his money to him.

"Sokka, you don't have to do this-"

"It's the least I can do. Seriously, Aang, don't worry about it. And besides, I have to sort some things with my sister." Sokka seemed to growl the last few words in anger. It's not that I don't blame him. I would be mad if I was him, too. "Just text me once you two are done and I'll take you guys home." I felt his footsteps leave the area, and I was left alone with Aang.

Aang said some kind of words of agreement, I nodded, and then I felt the electric again. Aang gently placed his hand at the small of my back. He wasn't like Katara, who would rudely pull me around the mall if she was here. He guided me through the crowds of people in a polite way, and that's all that I've been asking for with everyone else - and he didn't treat me like I was five, which was my favorite part.

He took us into the elevator that lead to the food court at the top. I was expecting a really awkward silence the whole ride up, but it wasn't. Instead of Katara, who would still keep her hand on my wrist, thinking that I was just wonder off for some reason, Aang kindly removed his hand from my back, and he asked, "So, what would you like to eat?"

"What's up there?"

I think he forgot that I was blind for a second. I wasn't offended it by it. It actually felt sort of. . . nice. It proved that he doesn't think of me as the blind girl. He's not being nice to me just because of my disability. It's obvious.

"Oh, well, they got a whole bunch of things! Uh. . . They have Burger King, and they sell burgers; they have Taco Bell, who sell tacos, and Subway sells subs-"

"No shit, Twinkletoes. I just wanted to know what restaraunts were up there!"

Aang burst out laughing after I said that. After it sunk in, it didn't surprise me. I had to hold back my own laughter, and I'm pretty sure he noticed my smile.

"Well. . ." he began, before I interrupted him.

"Let's just get Subway!"

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