Author's Notes: Well it took a lot longer to get this chapter up then I expected, sorry for the delay.
This chapter is A LOT shorter than the other 6 chapters that have been published so far. But there's other this in here(;
And the ending has a slight twist, not a twist of "OMFG!" But just a little something(:
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Betrayed Lies
~ Chapter 7: Dear Diary ~
Marshall Lee laid there in complete darkness on his comfy bed. He really just kind of floated above it really; his mind wandered as he stared into utter darkness with a burning anger inside of him. The vampire was so flustered and puzzled by everything that's happened; he didn't know what to believe anymore. And he wanted answers, but didn't know how to get them exactly. It pained him to be mad at Fionna, but he couldn't just sit there and take the insults about Prince Gumball either. His heart was a question mark as his mind pounded in both pain and frustration. But out both his pointing fingers over his temples to get some sort if a relief. But there was no stopping the pain that rumbled all in his head.
Marshall floated up as he went to go flip on the light not too far off from his bed. As it flashed on, he went to go grab his diary from his disheveled closet; it was encased under large amounts of clothes and other little items. No one had ever set eyes on this except his own. Most Vampires didn't have strong emotions, like his mother, but he was different, he was only half of the red sucking creature. He still had human emotions, and released them through songs and poems, mostly songs though. His dad was after all human, even no he does not recall him in his memory at all.
His deepest thoughts and feelings were scattered all throughout the pages of this journal of secrets. He wrote in it when something bothered him or an emotion pestered him to a breaking point; this is why he never cried much in front of anyone. Even for a half blood, it's completely unnecessary to show emotion in the form of tear, but sometimes it happens.
Right now, Marshall Lee was bothered by his heart and mind. He wanted everything to be okay again, but it wasn't that simple anymore. Nothing was ever simple in his life.
"Why does everything in my life have to go wrong? Why can't events in my life be easy, and not so complex?" These questions bounced around his head as he opened his book of emotions. He began flipping through the pages, trying to spot an empty page to write on. Unlike most of the creatures of Aaa, he knew how to write correctly. Wouldn't you if you lived over a thousand years? He learned how at a young age, before the Mushroom War destroyed most of the world that once surrounded him.
The Vampire King found a page worth putting words on as he floated over grabbing his Axe Bass and started to tune it. This procedure took about five minutes. but when he was done, Marshall set the instrument gently on his bed as he picked up the pen off from his bedroom floor he then began writing a song. The writing process took about five minutes to complete it fully. He took hold of his red music maker, floated up on top of his bed and began to sing his song.
"I don't know what to do anymore
I feel like I'm trapped
And when I try to scream or shout,
The walls will cave in_
It seems like I will never get out_
My anger will burn a hole through my heart,
Every bit of me..
Is gonna fall apart..
I wish this was all a dream
But if I pinch myself, I'll still be here_
I can't see where I'm headed
I am afraid of what's happening to me.
I don't know what to do anymore
I feel like I'm trapped
And when I try to scream or shout,
The walls will cave in_
It seems like I will never get out_
I see lies
I've heard her cries
And I feel helpless now_
I can no longer breathe
Because I don't know what's real anymore.
What is the truth?
What are the lies?
Why do I have the feeling that I've been betrayed?
What's going on?
What's going on...
I don't know what to do anymore_
I feel like I'm trapped, I'm trapped..
And when I try to scream or shout_t
The walls are gonna cave in_
It seems like I will never get out_
Never..."
He finished it with his head facing the bed the floated above. Marshall Lee felt very alone at the moment, the words that escaped his lips forming a song was all true emotions. No one had ever really seem him perform such a heart touching song; Marshall always wanted to look like the tough guy like nothing could ever make him cry. The only time he could recall crying over was yesterday, when the frustration began to overwhelm him when Fionna was missing. But he didn't even consider that a full on sobbing ordeal. After making the very first statement, he received an idea to write another song, but this time it would have little to no structure. He was in a desperate need to release all his emotions before he just exploded. So he picked up the pen again and started to put words onto paper once more. This time he didn't play music or even sing it out loud.
Lies...
They can burn your soul,
Bring fake enjoyment of oneself,
Embark a wall around your heart,
Break every self-doubt,
Proving everything
You thought right,
Shatter your heart to
Where it can't beat,
Strangle your soul to
Where breathing is
Unbearable.
And make you second guess
everything...
Lies are what can make you feel alone,
To where you're the only one standing,
With no one;
Lost and forgotten.
Lies will envy everything inside
No amount of tears,
Will take back those lies..
Sadness is one of the greatest emotions inside someone's body, and he was filled with it right now. He was still confused, hurt, and irritated; he felt more alone than ever.
No one would ever read his emotions, not this. The gray vampire didn't feel like all his emotion had been released, so he wrote a journal entry. Trying to find a way to be free from all this entanglement among lies and worry.
Dear Diary,
In the last couple of days I've felt like my whole world has begun to fall apart. I'm not so sure about Prince Gumball anymore and how much I should have trusted him, and my feelings for him as well. I regret yelling at Fionna, I didn't mean what I said..I could never mean what I said to her...NEVER! She's one of my bestfriends...correction, she's my only bestfriend. I just don't know how to tell her how sorry I am for my words and actions. Maybe I was wrong about her being in love with me, I could see the terror in her eyes when I was about to kiss her. I'm just so confused.
Marshall Lee stopped writing for a minute, and sighed in a manner of defeat. He picked up the pen and continued to write.
…..I do know one thing is for sure, it's that I'm in love with Fionna.
After finishing his sentence, he quickly closed the book of secrets and rushed over to throw it back under all his clothes and such. After doing so, he dropped to his knees in the shocking realization of his true feelings toward her..He thought he loved PG, but now he knows that he loves his best friend.
He just didn't know how to tell her at this point. He sighed in many mixed emotions and traveled to the bathroom. As he turned on the light source he glanced all over the enclosed room, remembering her presence being here. he stared blankly at the sink for several minutes. Suddenly he spotted something on the sink, it was a piece of paper crumbled up in a small ball and an object he couldn't identify until her grew closer; it was a necklace. Marshall Lee grasped the paper and began to read it.
Haha hi buddy! I hope you like my little gift! You're my best friend Marshall Lee! No matter what happens we'll always be best buds :)
Love Fionna.
He read it in her tone of voice, he knew she wrote this note. Unlike the other one that was falsely written by her. He examined the gift, and The Vampire King was surprised at the necklace. This present seemed to be made of silver, one of the more complicated elements to find in The Land of Aaa. It was in a shape of a guitar, but only half of one; it was split right in the middle. And on the back of the print was a blank backside with an engraving written in it. The piece he had only had the word 'Friends.' Thinking about his whole life being alive, he figured she had the one with the word 'Best,' when you put both of the friendship necklaces together it would spell out 'Best Friend.'
But he was still puzzled to how it made its way here. Then he remembered that cold, harsh rainy night when he thought she had something clenched in her shaky hands. It must have been that; he put all the puzzle pieces together.
Right there and then he knew for sure there was something wrong with her, that something or someone was trying to put her in danger. Marshall recalled what Fionna had said about PG, and Marshall started pointing the finger at him. But he was still making accusations to what was really going on; still filled with more questions than answers, he held onto the gift and zoomed down stairs. He was unable to see but somehow still made his way to the front door. Marshall Lee needed answers, and the only place that was left, was The Candy Kingdom.
The skies were still painted black outside as he raced out, but the air was freezing. He could glimpse his own breath as he exhaled. The ground was cold, and little bits of white began to sprinkle down from the dark skies. Winter wasn't a fun time of year for Marshall Lee, but he had to suck it up and continue his journey through the snow that now fell from the heavens above.
It was now or never..
P.S: Lol I bet you guys forgot about that item she set down on the bathroom sink when she was changing, didn't you? Haha only took six chapters to bring that little scene back into play. :D
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