To be with you Forever- Damon Salvatore/OC
Chapter 28- I can't do this.
Summary: I knew he was going to kill me, This was Damon Salvatore, this could never end well and yet I couldn't stay away, the truth is, I didn't want to. Damon/OC
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Kaye's P.O.V
"How long now?" I asked Damon for what was probably the tenth time, ignoring his sigh as he said, "Not long." the same answer he'd given me every time, but it was too long, even a minute was too long, as far as I knew my dad could be being ripped to pieces right at this minute and we were too far away to get to him or be able to make any difference.
"Stop imagining the worst case scenarios." Damon said, " I can hear your heart going crazy every time you do."
"I'm sorry that I'm freaking out Damon!" I cried, "I'm sorry that we're here and he's back in Mystic Falls with a murderous vampire!"
"Okay, okay." If he could have raised his hands he probably would have. I knew I was being ridiculous, it didn't matter how much I screamed and shouted or panicked, it wouldn't change where we were, we wouldn't get home any quicker. "Don't you have super speed or something? Cant you run us back quicker than this?"
"No, Kaye. This isn't Twilight, its not the movies. I'm a fast runner, but we're doing over a hundred and twenty miles per hour right now, we cant get much faster than this."
"I'm sorry," I whispered, "I'm just scared, the idea of him being hurt…" I trailed off, shaking my head angrily. "I feel sick."
"Look. It's understandable. We're gonna get there, your dad is going to be okay."
"Promise?" I asked in a small voice glancing over to the guy who was fast becoming my rock and my safety.
"I do honey." I nodded, eyes wet and glanced back out of the window as the trees whizzed past, he was right, we were going damn fast but like I said, it wasn't quick enough, we were here and he was still back there. I sat in agitated silence for the rest of the journey home, tapping my foot on the floor, glaring out of the window at the scenery which may have been familiar if I'd been able to see it for more than a millisecond. I thought I saw the Mystic Falls sign at one point though it could have been anything and the relief began to flood in when Damon, said, "Just a few roads away now." I sighed, though I felt relieved I also began to worry more, wondering what I might find when I got home. What did Pearl want with my dad? Was his blood sweeter than other peoples too? Or was she using him, to get to me maybe? What was so special about me? Why was all this happening? So I was friend with Stefan and something with Damon, why did that draw Pearl to my dad? Did she even know about Damon and I? My head ached with the questions and I scrambled to unbuckle my seatbelt as Damons voice sounded, "We're here" I had thrown open the door and leapt from the car before the engine had even stopped, ignoring Damons calls to wait for him, that there could be some kind of trap. I stumbled up the path and shoved my key into the lock, my hands were shaking at I couldn't turn it, "Argh!" I screamed loudly, relaxing as Damons hand covered mine, steadying me and the lock clicked open. I pushed through the door, calling, "Dad? Dad, are you here? Dad!"
I rushed through the hallway into the kitchen, glancing around, "Dad!"
"Kaye?" I heard him call at the same time that Damon said, "He's here, I can smell him." I heard his footsteps upstairs and ran through to the hall, meeting him at the bottom of the stairs, hugging him tightly.
"What's up?" he asked, as I pulled away and checked him over like a mother would her injured child.
"Are you okay?" I gasped. I grabbed his face in my hands laughing in relief as he nodded, confusion covering his features and said, "Why are you crying?" He noticed Damon leaning against the kitchen door, smirking and whispered, "Did he hurt you?" completely unaware that Damon would have been able to hear a pin drop in a disco. I shook my head, laughing through my tears, "No daddy." I sighed, "I just missed you that's all. What would I do without you?"
"I'm not going anywhere." he grinned, before straightening up, pulling out of my grasp and growing serious as he turned to Damon, "Are you staying long?"
"No sir." Damon replied, also straightening, "I was just leaving."
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Once I'd closed the door behind Damon I made an excuse to quickly leave my dad downstairs and go to my room, he'd started asking questions. Had Damon upset me? Why was I so sad before? What was happening? I'd managed to avoid answering any questions so I hadn't had to lie or tell him any of the truth either. I wasn't sure if I would be able to tell my dad about vampires. He would freak out and probably pack our bags and move us away to the furthest corner of the world. For so many reasons I couldn't do that.
I was also keen to get upstairs because I knew that without a doubt Damon would be returning, or already in the house, we would need to talk about things, namely my dads future safety and I had a few things I needed to say too. I didn't particularly want to but I knew what I needed to say and do to sort this out.
I stepped into my room to find him lounging on my bed, the only reminder of any of the worry today were his creased clothes, in every other way he was just Damon. "I told you he'd be okay." he smirked.
"Yeah, you did, I'm sorry for flaking out in the car, I cant stand the thought of him getting hurt."
"I know." he said, sitting up against my headboard, I frowned at his booted feet on my bed as I sat on the chair next to my desk.
"What do we now?" I asked, "About my dad? How do we protect him?"
"We give him vervaine." he said without any hesitation.
"Whats that?" I asked, I couldn't remember hearing that word anywhere before.
"It's a herb, or a plant or something, I don't really know the scientific jargon but if a human consumes it their blood becomes poisonous to vampires, if you have it anywhere on your person then we cant compel you or hurt you. You're insusceptible to the things we can do."
"Why haven't I heard about this before?" I asked, thinking that it could have made a big difference in the past.
"I don't know, I was always surprised when you never had it, I would have thought Stefan and Elena would have insisted you had it, I'll have to see about that." he mused.
"You want to give me something that is essentially poisonous to you?" I asked incredulously.
His eyebrows furrowed as he said, "I guess. If it keeps you safe."
I wanted to hug him, thank him but instead I straightened up on the chair and said, "We need to talk."
"We are." he grinned.
"I'm being serious Damon, I have something I need to say."
The smile slipped off of his face and he climbed over the side of the bed, resting his feet on the floor, adopting a more serious expression, though as usual there was still the hint of the smile.
"I cant do this." I said.
"Cant say it? Its okay. Take your time."
I shook my head quickly, "No. This." I gestured around me, at him, at the floor where my dad sat in the living room beneath us, "This whole situation, this whole vampire thing. I cant do it."
"What?" he asked, his word muffled my an incredulous laugh.
"I'm not like this, this isn't me. I'm not Elena, I don't run around after vampires, run from them, I dont do daily panic and fear and pain, I cant handle it. I'm me, I'm normal, I'm from a town in England, I stopped believing in the creatures that go bump in the night when I was eight. I cant do this. I'm scared."
"It's only normal to be scared." Damon said, his eyes penetrating mine, staring deep into my soul, only now it was no longer unnerving, it was more warming, more comforting. I ignored that feeling and concentrated on what I was trying to say. What was important now was my dad.
"No. Damon, I don mean it like that. I'm scared for my dad. I cant risk him Damon, he's all Ive got in this world and if he got hurt because of me, of you, of this," I gestured between us again, "I don't know what this is and I really don't know why Pearl is around me and my family, but if dad got hurt I could never forgive myself, I could never forgive you."
"Nothing is going to happen to him Kaye. We wont let it."
"John Gilbert knows about me. Pearl knows about me, God knows who else does too, every time I'm with you I'm in danger, dads in danger, I don't want something to happen that will make me spend the rest of my life hating you. I never want to hate you Damon, but if my dad was hurt or worse, killed, because of you, of my interaction with you… I wouldn't be able to stop myself." I hadn't been able to look him in the eye as I'd ranted my speech, opting instead to stare at my feet, I blinked and he was in front of me lifting my chin, making me look at him. "I cant do this with you, if it puts him in danger, he's all I've got" I repeated in a whisper.
"What can I do Kaye?" he asked and his voice sounded sad but I couldn't be sure, I didn't think I'd ever be able to understand him fully. "What can I say? We will keep you safe. We will keep your dad safe."
"I was thinking," I swallowed, "What if…" I paused closing my eyes placing my hands on his forearms, "What if you made me forget?"
I felt him stiffen beneath my hands and I thought I could hear his teeth grinding together. "No." he growled, "Your dad is in danger whether we do this or not. So are you. Pearl knows you, both of you, your part of this now, so is your dad, whether you like it or not. Pearl is conniving, smart and very patient, she does not give up until she gets what she wants. She is dangerous, she is everywhere. Don't you think you'll be just a little safer if your on alert too?" I frowned, "If she comes for you and you don't remember who she is, let alone what she looks like, you'll die. If you know her, then you've got more chance of living."
I groaned, "You know I'm right." he said, the sound of the smirk returning to his voice.
"I don't know what to do Damon."
"I'm going to find out some Vervaine for your dad, you put some in his drink, and we'll find some sort of jewellery or something to put some in, you do the puppy eyes and Bam! He's vampire proof."
"Okay." I answered, nodding.
"Kaye? Don't ever ask me to do that again." he said, sounding angry again, I shot my eyes to his face. "You're different, I cant let you forget me."
I nodded again, knowing exactly what he meant, unable to form any words to convey those emotions, those feelings. Unable to tell him how I knew what he was trying to say, what he meant.
"I'm sorry." I whispered, leaning into his chest, so strong and solid, a constant lately.
"We're gonna make this okay." he said, running a hand through my hair.
"I know." I breathed in the scent of him deeply, something sweet yet distinctly masculine, "But." I pulled away, "I need to think things through. I need to… be on my own for a while. I need you to stay away from me and my house and my dad."
He stepped away respectively, I bit my lip and continued, "Just until I've worked things out."
He nodded, "Okay, however long you need. I'll get Stefan to sort the vervaine."
"Thank you." I shouldn't feel so bad, why did I feel so bad? So he'd kissed me once and he was a handsome vampire, it shouldn't hurt this much to say goodbye.
"No problem." I stepped forward and stepped back again he looked hurt, I hadn't meant to hurt him, he looked angry too but more than anything disappointed or betrayed, "Be careful Kaye."
"You too." I nodded, watching him walk to my window, crack it open and climb out, without a second glance to me. I waited until I knew he was gone before I closed the window, pulled the curtain and cried.
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Okay don't hate me for making her hurt Damon like that, I have a plan to go with this and shes very worried about her daddy!
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