To be with you Forever- Damon Salvatore/OC
Chapter 46- It felt like hope.
Summary: I knew he was going to kill me, This was Damon Salvatore, this could never end well and yet I couldn't stay away, the truth is, I didn't want to. Damon/OC
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I am a freakin' terrible person- I have completely neglected all of my fics- except a few one shots based off of the BBC show Merlin. This is why- I've not joined an music apprenticeship readying myself for a degree- how much coursework do these people want? Which also means that my hours, recording times, rehearsing times and lesson times have pretty much been doubled. Some evenings my little sister and I have been reacquainting ourselves with the American Queer as Folk series- all five of them. Then theres new True Blood and VD of course. I've also been working on my own feature length novel.
But yeah- no excuses really and I am sooo sorry!
I hope everyone is keeping up with me and my differences to the canon show. Let me know if you have any questions and Ill get back to you as soon as possible! Thanks again to everybody! 3
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Kaye's P.O.V
There was no light when I awoke, so there was no doubt in my mind that I had been asleep for a while, though I couldn't know for sure, time had little significance when with the Salvatore's, when in this mess. It had been dark during our drive to the boarding house with Caroline and they had left just before sunrise. Then by the time Damon had returned from his private talk with Stefan it had been bright in the room. I figured I had been asleep for a long time. I turned to the side to find the bed empty of any tall dark and handsome vampires and sighed, trying desperately not to remember the toe curling kiss from before, for fear of seeking him out and kissing him again until I could no longer breathe. That would never have a good outcome. I sat up, wiping the sleep from my eyes, feeling more relaxed than I had in a while, though my eyes still hadn't focused to the dark I could tell that the room was empty and peaking my human hearing I figured the rest of the boarding house might be too. I couldn't remember any plans being made the night before, and if anything was to be planned then common sense said that it would take place on the full moon, if, of course it had anything to do with werewolves.
Werewolves, vampires, sometimes, in moments of clarity such as this it still seemed unbelievable, like a hazy dream.
I climbed off of the bed and straightened my clothes, shivering slightly in the cold, of course vampires had no need for central heating, or air conditioning for the summer. I felt around the room, patting down surfaces until I found a thick jacket that I guessed belonged to Damon and had seen there the night before. I felt warm against my skin, as if it had been spread across a heated surface or recently worn, which was ridiculous because there was no one here. Except, what was that? A noise in the kitchen. I felt a smile spread across my face as I leisurely made my way towards the door, the only person it could be was Damon or Elena, or of course Stefan. Safe. Friendly and in exactly the same predicament as myself. The stairs creaked loudly beneath my weight, echoing throughout the empty house and I heard the noise in the kitchen cease. "Damon?" I called, frowning in confusion as my voice echoed back to me, almost like the entire place was hollow, "That you?" Echoed again, like when you were a child in a tunnel and you could repeatedly call, "Hello. Hello." and hear your own voice calling back to you. Only this time there was nothing childish or excitable about the echo, it was hollow and eerie. "Damon?" Damon. No noise resumed in the kitchen and I called, "This isn't funny. Elena? Stefan?"
I pushed through the kitchen door huffily, well aware that no one dangerous would have been invited into the boarding house, none of us were stupid enough to do such a thing. "You guys are- What the..?" My eyes found nothing, the kitchen yes, but completely bare, walls painted a starch hospital white, the counters bare of any, admittedly unused, appliances, the cupboards upon inspection were also empty. Drawers where I knew there to be utensils and cutlery stood empty.
I jogged to the living room, feet loud on spotless floors, every other room, upon scrutiny stood empty in the same way, derelict and bare. Except in the study, there was something, I stepped closer and noticed the small table by the fireplace, on which stood the customary bottle of scotch.
"This is what its like." Damon's distinct voice called from somewhere in the shadows, not behind me, not next to me or ahead but seemingly from all around, every corner. I spun, "Damon?"
"This is what it is like to have nothing."
"Where are you?" My own voice sounded muffled now, like cotton wool had started to fill the room, the atmosphere became almost suffocating, and I couldn't breathe but then I was being pulled into a strong embrace and everything was moving so fast.
"It's okay," Damon mumbled, "You're okay."
"What's wrong with you're voice?"
And I was alone again, the warmth of his embrace still lingering on me, I knew this had to be a dream because no matter how strange life was people didn't just appear and reappear like magic. Unless they were Bonnie of course.
I shivered and reached down to pull the jacket tighter around me only to feel my hand skim over a silky fabric that I knew I hadn't been wearing before hand. I glanced down, awed by the silk midnight blue dress I found myself wearing, it looked old fashioned, white lace trim on the sleeves. "Beautiful." Damon whispered from behind me and as I turned I saw his hair was mussed, little blemishes touched his skin, his eyes were a little less blue and he looked decidedly more- human, "I love you Katherine."
"Katherine? I'm not-" I started, gasping at the reflection in the mirror that I saw in the corner of my eye, I hadn't noticed that before either, I guess people were right when they told me that I wasn't very perceptive. The eyes that met mine, the hands that moved to touch the face as mine did were not mine, the steps towards the mirror were not mine, they were Elena, Katherine.
"That's how he sees you." the mouth in the mirror said, and I felt mine moving along with it, like a long remembered song, a script learned word for word, comma to full stop. The voice however, was cold, harsh, Elena's but not, exactly how I would imagine Katherine's to be.
I shuddered as the human Damon, stepped up behind me, a warm hand placed on my shoulder and a smile that I rarely saw on his face, I was struck by how striking a couple we made, no, not we, Katherine and Damon. I'm not Katherine. I'm Kaye.
"I'm Kaye"
At the spoken words I felt the room begin to spin angrily and closed my eyes against an overwhelming surge of dizziness. "Second best." Another voice sounded, I opened my eyes to find Bonnie stood before me, eyes black as night.
Those two words, "Second best, second best, second best." began to resonate around me, each time belonging to a new voice, voices of people I loved, or people I knew, even people I loathed. "Second best." John Gilberts voice whispered before a rough hand covered by eyes and I felt myself falling, falling, wondering why my dreams couldn't be that of fields of flowers rather than some mind boggling Alice in Wonderland rubbish. When my eyes found light again it was fuzzy, blurred, as if I had removed glassed that I was in dire need for. I blinked heavily as the fuzzy face above be came into view. Tyler Lockwood, eyes blown wide, face tearstained, guilty. "I didn't mean to, I didn't mean to." he repeated over and over, a hand running over my face softly.
"What have you done?"
"I didn't-" Tyler's voice stopped suddenly as his body began to convulse, lumps forming beneath his skin, screams ripping through the air, eyes golden and animal. Werewolf. I squeezed my eyes tight expecting pain, to be ripped apart, mutilated, broken, but nothing happened and when I opened my eyes again I gasped at the sight, stood above me smiling. "Mum?" I whimpered, "Mummy?" My mum, dead, buried back in England. Gone, yet here she was, something only a dream could concoct, as beautiful as I remembered. "You're where you belong Kaye." She whispered as she placed a gentle kiss against my forehead, much like she used to when I was a child after she had read me my nightly bedtime story.
"Mum. Don't go-" I started but she had already left me.
And then there was a light, bright, blinding. The moon, full, and howling, and an overwhelming sense of urgent fear that I couldn't shake off even as I felt myself returning to the waking world with a scream.
"Kaye? What the hell?" Damon's voice sounded, raspy and sleepy, "Thought someone was killing you in here."
I found myself sat up in the bed, legs tangled in the covers and the vampire beside me, where he should be, eyes probably blown wide and confused, "Nightmare." I choked out, "I'm okay."
"You sure?" he asked, a hand running gently over my face much like Tyler's had in the dream, I shuddered, unable to suppress it.
"What happened?" he asked, sitting up too, shirtless, I blushed, thankful for the darkness, deliberately ignoring the voice in my head that cried, Hello! Vampire sight!
"A lot of stuff. Just subconscious memories you know." I replied hesitantly, "Just weird things."
"You're crying." he stated.
"Am I?" I laughed in a little shock reaching a hand up to my cheek to feel it wet. "Oh yeah."
"That bad huh?" he asked, lying back down and pulling me not so gently with him.
"At first yeah, but then, near the end, just before you woke me, it was beautiful, there was hope again." I sought his eyes in the darkness, gleaming even without any light to reflect, "I saw my mum. This is where Im supposed to be, she told me that, there's hope."
"It was just a dream Kaye." Damon stated hesitantly, a gentle hand stroking my neck, "not real."
"I know." I smiled, the thought of my mother washing away any residual fear from the rest of the dream. "I know."
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Again, I'm so sorry to have kept everyone waiting! I'm not too sure about this chapter, the whole dream thing has an important part of the story! Swear! Its late here's so sorry for the crap chapter end! Anyways…
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