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WHAT AN ASSHOLE-CHAPTER 6
CLARE'S PERSPECTIVE
"So, after Fitz practically threw me into the boys bathroom, my glasses fell off, and then I was on the floor crying and trying to find my glasses. Then, as I'm feeling around for my glasses, I don't find my glasses. I found...a foot. I'm like thinking, oh shit who the fuck just saw me crawling around on the floor looking like an jackass," I told Adam my story as he smiled listening intently.
"But, no it's this new kid, his name is Jake," I told him smiling.
Thank God I put my contacts in after I left school to meet Adam after detention because I hated looking at myself in the mirror with glasses on.
"Oh, is he dreamy?" Adam asked me grinning.
I shook my head, but when I thought about it he did have nice eyes.
"No...no, I'm not looking for a relationship right now, with all these rumors, I wouldn't date anybody," I told Adam looking down at my coffee regretfully.
Adam sighed and said, "At least you know that who ever likes you during this time in your life, will actually like you for who you are."
"Yeah, but still, I can't trust anybody...except you of course," I told him giggling.
Adam glanced at me and said, "Clare, you can always trust me. I'll never turn my back on you. It's just, maybe who knows, this new guy might give you a little life. I mean you're always walking around school so upset and your head down. I just...want you to find someone, other than me and Ali, that will always be there for you to cheer you up."
I nodded and asked, "Do I really just mope around all day?"
"Not really mope, just you seem very...depressed except when you're around Eli and this tension between you two grows and it's so powerful even I can feel it," Adam told me laughing.
I glanced down at my coffee, sipping it gently, and placing it down. I swear I could feel every person in The Dot staring at me.
And, I knew good thoughts weren't going through their heads.
"Is that the girl from the video?" I heard someone ask pointing at me.
I bowed my head and I told Adam, "You can go. I know you're embarrassed, just go."
He shook his head and asked, "Are you fucking crazy Clare?"
My smile soon turned to a frown when a random boy pushed me further into the booth that Adam and I were sitting in and asked, "Is this you?"
The boy glared at me, comparing me to the girl in the video who was crawling on the bathroom floor trying to find her glasses with my ass in full view.
Well, not my ass, but the back of my skirt.
"It's her!" The boy screamed as I growled, "Move."
I shoved the boy out of my way and when I stood he glared at my ass and said, "It's definitely her!"
Adam pushed the boy out of the way, saying something that I chose to ignore, and charged out of the Dot as I felt all eyes on me.
I held my head down, and moved past every body and rammed right into a hard figure.
"Sorry," I mumbled tears falling from my eyes just trying to keep moving but the person gripped my arm causing my head to snap up.
"Clare?" The boy asked as I raised my head and my eyes clashed with Jake's.
I cleared my throat as I heard Adam screaming my name to tell me to wait up, but he quickly stopped talking and said, "Just wanted to say...I'll see you tomorrow..."
Nice cover up Adam.
"Yeah, it's me..." I whispered.
Jake asked, "What's wrong?"
"I don't want to talk about it, listen, I'll see you around," I told him just wanting to get as far away from this place as possible.
Jake's mouth opened to talk, but was silenced by a screaming teen, "Look!Yeah buddy! He's gunna' get it in!"
I looked down, my face turning red, and totally embarrassed by this stupid kid.
Normally, I wouldn't really let this bother me because I had gotten used to it, but being around Jake, the new kid that I kind of wanted to impress, and being called a slut wasn't really what I wanted to happen.
"Hey you little shit! Do you want to wake up with a penis tomorrow morning?" Jake screamed going past me.
I turned around and he said, "If you want your package attached to you when you wake up, you'll never go near that girl again. You'll never touch her, you'll never talk to her, you make one ounce of eye contact with her...and we both know what will happen. Now scram!"
The teenage ran as quick as he could away from the scene screaming, "Sorry!"
"You didn't have to do that," I whispered.
Jake smiled at me and asked, "How else are we going to have a coffee together with so many annoying teenagers around us without me saying something to get them to go away?"
I grinned and asked, "Was that an invitation?"
He nodded.
Jake walked to the door, opening it, and holding it open.
I stood there, not knowing if this was a set up or not.
"Why?" I asked him continuing my question noticing he had a blank stare across his face, "Why me?"
He smiled and said, "You're the only civil person I've met at Degrassi so far and I intend on keeping it that way."
I wiped my tears and just continued to wonder why. Why would this kid want anything to do with me? Why would he want to spend time with a person like...me? Why? I was in no mood to question it, as Jake kept the door open following me inside the Dot...
"So, what happened between you and Mr. Handsome last night at the Dot?" Adam asked me grinning as I breathed out smiling.
I grinned and said, "I had a really good time."
"What did he tell you? You seem like you went from hell to heaven over night," Adam told me trying to find out what happened.
I tilted my head and said, "He didn't mention any drama in school. That was enough to make me happy."
Adam smiled and spoke softly, "I'm glad he cleared your mind for a while and kept you distracted. But sadly, we have to get back to reality and I just want to warn you to watch out for Eli. He seemed extra fired up this morning for some strange reason."
Before I could ask Adam why, he disappeared in the crowd of the hallway.
I sighed, placing my bag on my shoulder and rolled my eyes seeing Eli walking down the hallway with an angered expression across his face.
"Wow, Eli doesn't have a smirk plastered across his face for once, what happened?" I asked sarcastically concerned.
He gripped his hand on his book bag strap and his lip twitched.
"What's going on between you and the new kid?" He asked me.
I laughed, "Oh Eli. You're funny. Like I'd tell you. Oh, by the way thanks for posting the video of me crawling on the floor in the boy's bathroom looking for my glasses all over facebook. Too bad no one saw the part where Fitz flung me into the bathroom and you didn't help me at all..."
I slammed my locker shut, hoping he would feel my anger towards him.
Before I could turn the corner of the hallway I heard him say one word with a cracked voice, as if it was a cry for help, the one word that sounded like he meant it that I've always wanted to hear.
The one word that he had been scared to say.
The one word...that sounded like it finally meant something.
"Sorry."
ELI'S PERSPECTIVE
I watched as Clare ignored my apology, continuing to walk away, as a tear fell from my eye.
When I actually meant it, she didn't listen.
I slammed my two fists on the locker next to me and growled.
This Jake guy was bad news, I didn't want her around anybody but me.
I don't want her associating with anybody but her annoying "friend," me.
"Bro, what's up with the run of the guyliner?" Adam asked causing me to jolt out of my skin from him scarring the shit out of me.
Honestly, I didn't know where he came from.
I was all alone in the hallway just a second ago.
"She likes Jake man, she likes that Jake kid...I know it," I whispered my voice cracked from my chest starting to rise and my heart throbbing in pain.
Adam looked at me and said, "I told you this was going to happen Eli. Well, I didn't know about this Jake kid until yesterday. But, I told you making fun of her, spreading rumors, and posting videos of her all over Facebook wasn't really a way to say "hey Clare, I like you."
Adam laughed at me, but then stopped noticing I was really hurt.
"What does he have...that I don't?" I asked Adam.
He sighed, leaning gently against the locker, and said, "Well, first of all he treats Clare the way she deserves to be treated. He doesn't treat her like another guy. He doesn't unhook her bra in English class, he doesn't bicker with her, he doesn't call her names, he doesn't spread rumors about her, he doesn't put it all over Facebook, and he doesn't gather the whole school for a public apology then get her pushed on the ground to make her listen people call her a whore."
"Did I really do all those things?" I asked him.
He shook his head and then squinted, "Yeah you did."
I rolled my eyes and said, "I fucked up...I fucked up big time."
Adam nodded and asked, "What are you going to do now?"
"Should I try and get her to talk to me?" I asked him.
He sighed and said, "Eli, in my opinion, I think both of you just need a breather. Both of you should just relax, take a break from fighting, go to the corner of the ring you know man? Just, take a break from all this drama. It's enough. It's even upsetting you. And, when you show emotion, you know that you've taken it too far."
"But, she knew I kind of liked her, and she is still going to spend time with him," I whined my eyes wandering the hallway.
"Eli, look at me," Adam ordered as I glared into his eyes.
"You have to give it a break, it's enough. You look like you haven't slept in what...a week, possibly two? Clare hasn't stopped crying until she met this guy yesterday. Just, give her time to be happy Eli. Isn't that what you want? Don't you want Clare to be happy?"
I don't know.
If she should be happy, she should be happy with me, not this "Jake" kid.
Adam interrupted my train of thought and said, "Eli, all that you've been doing to Clare is pushing her further and further away from you and you expect her to just crawl back to you and say "it's okay Eli, everything you did to me we'll just put it behind us and be in a relationship together," no it's not how it works Eli. You've gone too far this time. Maybe, when you go home today, actually think about what you did. But yourself in her shoes."
Before I could respond to that Adam had quickly walked away and I asked, "How do I do that?"
How do I do that?
Thinking about liking Clare, sent shivers up my spine, and just made me want to fight back and get her back.
No.
No Eli, you can't.
Don't do that to her.
Yes Eli.
Do it.
You know you want to.
I felt as if two voices in my head were fighting each other for me.
"Stop it," I growled sliding down my locker holding my hands up to my ears trying to get the voices in my head to go away...
CLARE'S PERSPECTIVE
"He did something, he...he..." I tried to find words as to puzzle my sentence together to tell Jake that Eli had apologized to me this morning.
Jake said, "Come on Edwards spit it out. What did he do?"
I sat with Jake outside of the school at one of the picnic tables, glancing at him.
"He apologized," I whispered.
Jake laughed and said, "You're really going to believe that shit. I mean come on the dude is just playing you, like he's been playing you this whole time."
A part of me, wanted to believe that Jake was right, but, another part of me was screaming at me and telling me that Eli really meant it.
"I don't know what to do," I whispered a tear falling from my eyes.
"This is just too much to handle..." I mumbled wiping the tear from my eye.
Jake glanced at me, and gripped my hand, making me kind of feel uncomfortable, "Clare, you're a strong girl. I mean I have known you for only two days, and I know for a fact that you're stronger than what you think."
I laughed and Eli approached our table as I quickly moved my hand out of Jake's and he asked, "Can I speak to you?"
"Su-," Jake cut me off and stood up, "No. She doesn't want to talk to you."
"No, it's fine, Jake really-," once again I was cut off, but by Eli this time.
Eli smirked and asked, "Who the fuck do you think you are Mr. fucking I wear tight pants so high my testicals are-"
I cut Eli off and glared at him, "Stop it. Both of you."
I knew that face from anywhere.
Eli was going to hit him at any second. He was going to lose it.
I stepped in front of Jake and Eli's fists relaxed and I said, "I'll talk to you after school Eli." I gripped Jake by the hand, pushing him in front of me, and walking quickly into school before Eli could fight with him.
"What's your problem?" Jake asked.
I said, "I told you he is unstable. Didn't you listen to me when I told you that yesterday in the Dot that he is like a ticking bomb? You don't know when they are going to explode Jake! Have you ever heard of a person that straps to a bomb and tells you when it's going to explode?"
Jake's eyebrows tightened and said, "Well, it depends if the bomb is strapped to the front of you then you can see the time."
He was just like Eli.
Sarcastic.
"Listen, I'll see you later," I told him.
Jake grabbed my arm gently and said, "Please, I'm sorry about that. I wasn't thinking. Just, don't talk to Eli after school. It's for your own good."
I smiled and nodded, just wanting him to go away.
I gripped my bag in my hand, and sighed.
Once the hallways were clear and everyone was in class, I slid down against my locker.
I've took it upon myself to skip last period to clear my head.
I slid down against the rows of lockers, and started to cry, not knowing what to do...
END OF CHAPTER 6
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