Mickie looked at the clock John had been up there awhile now almost 40 minutes mickie walked up the stairs an went to her son's room where she found John asleep next to her son with his head resting against Tommy's. Mickie grabbed the blanket from the end of the bed and put it over John she wrote him a note leaving it where she was sure he would see it saying that she new he had work in the morning and that he is welcome to use the shower and get some breakfast before he leaves and don't feel he has to stay to say bye and make himself late. It had been 5 years but mickie remembered the schedule all to well.

Mickie turned the lamp off and closed the door over before going into her room and getting ready for bed herself.

John stepped out the shower and wrapped a towel around his waist he listened and there didnt seem to be any noise so he figured no one was up so he opened the bathroom door to get some cool air in because it was boiling.

John chuckled "morning Tommy" he said to the little boy stood the other side of the door looking at him John wiped the water of his face "what's wrong?"

Tommy looked behind him as if he wanted John to follow him

"let me just get dressed and ill be all yours ok" he said

Tommy nodded and John nodded back as she slowly shut the door John quickly dried himself off and got dressed before opening the door to find Tommy sat on the floor waiting for him. He looked up at him "what's up?" John asked

Tommy got up grabbed john's hand and lead him downstairs and into the living room pulled him to get the remote pulled him to couch climbed on and John got the hint and sat down next to him.

Tommy wiggled his toes as he smiled because he turned to his favourite program John shifted himself down the couch leaning his head against the back of the couch folded his arms and watched the program with Tommy.

Mickie walked down the stairs and leaned on the living room door and watched her son resting his head on john's thigh watching the TV with him, Tommy liked watching tom and jerry because he didnt need to hear anything to know what was going on, it was mainly a sight programme. Mickie was shocked to see John still here it was gone nine and normally the meetings start at half 8.

"thought you had work" mickie said softly

John turned to his head to mickie "it's Tuesday, it's a slow day don't get going till about 12 normally"

"things have changed since ive been there then" mickie said

John nodded "yeah just a bit" he said with a smile

mickie smiled at her son when he looked at her "you having fun?"

Tommy nodded before resting his head back to watch the TV "drink?" she asked

John flopped his head towards mickie "can I have a coffee?" he asked

mickie nodded "sure" she went to the kitchen and wondered why this felt so right him being here with her son and her making him a drink.

As she made the drink she could here john's deep laugh and Tommy's higher laugh, not often he laughed so it was nice to here.

She took a deep breathe before taking John his drink "thanks" he said taking it John sipped his drink and out the corner of his eye he sore mickie looking at him he turned his head to her "what's up?"

"he really likes you" mickie said looking from John to Tommy

John chuckled "i like him to"

"im being serious John, he doesn't trust many people, especially if he hasn't known them long"

"what are you trying to say?" John asked

"forget it" mickie said going up stairs

John moved Tommy off him he told him he wouldn't be long before jogging up the stairs to find mickie in her room sat on her bed "you cant say that then say forget it, what do you mean?"

mickie sighed "i was gonna say you cant just leave and not see him again but, that's what I did so it's pretty rich if you ask me"

John sat next to her "i think we should talk about that"

"thought you would"

"you really hurt me yanno"

"i didnt think I would, it was all fake to you so I didnt think you would care if you left"

"i came after you, you took off as I landed, came to tell you I fell for you to"

mickie snapped her head to John looking off somewhere

he nodded "i fell for you to" he looked at her "yanno when I found out Tommy was yours apart of me wanted him to be mine but I new that was impossible one we never had sex and two he's to young to be mine from the last time I seen you, I wanted him to be mine so I had a reason to see you, I just want to see you, I never got over you"

mickie rested her head against his shoulder John put his arm around mickie but soon let it drop and move from around her before sighing and standing up

"what's wrong?"

"i cant do this, I cant get close to you again, how do I know your just not gonna disappear again"

mickie looked up at him "you'll have to trust me"

"i, I don't think I can do that after what happened"

mickie nodded "ok" she whispered sadly