Chapter 12: Memories of the last frontier.

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT SO THE VOLTURI CAN'T EXECUTE ME! I NEED TO GET A LIFE... -_-

I paced around my room at hyper speed, trying to find ways in which I was right. Usually I find abundance of reasons how I'm right, when it comes to Alec it never makes sense to me. He numbs everything I'm known for, like my own personal anesthetic. He can always counter my sarky comments, he knows what I'm thinking and can always react before me, he can beat me in fighting and I hate how he is always one step ahead of me in everything. I've always been so mysterious and the one who is to cool to care, why is he better at it than me. Why is life so confusing? I blame the hormones. I was going to prank them both today, but I can't. Mainly because Nessie's still asleep and it's twelve in the afternoon and a tiny part of me feels bad for what I said to Alec. Everyone is coming back today, so frankly I would get in major trouble if Carlisle found out. I don't like disappointing Carlisle in anyway, he's done to much for me.

I just have to forget about everything, I think I'll go for a walk. I walked out my room and into someone, tripping. The person caught me and the scent of wild cherries and musk hit me, Alec. He caught me by my hand and pulled me up, not even glaring at me this time. I must have been a jerk for him to not even scowl. I tried hiding behind my hair, to embarrassed to do anything anything else. Way to keep you cool Chloe!

"Watch where you're going." He said dejectedly. Oh Alec, if only I knew where I was going.

"Sorry." I said, starting to walk downstairs. Apparently he was going to the same way as he followed me down. I started to walk out the door when he grabbed my arm. I looked at him, meeting his eyes. They were black as coal and completely saddened to the core, and I know it sounds corny and seriously stupid, but I think my heart broke a bit. WHAT! WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT! You hate him! Yes but I bullied him and was a complete jerk. Mixed feelings or not, I still felt a pain in my chest and the fact remains I don't like that look in his eyes. " What?"

" Where are you going? They'll be back any minute now." He said, still keeping a firm grip on my arm.

"I am just going for a walk and I'll be back before them." I said. He gave me a look that suggested he wasn't buying it.

"I know you, you'll lose track of time and I'll be left to explain where you are. No, you can go after they get home." He ordered. Who does he think I am? Some doting little female who listens to the big male in charge? Oh puh-lease!

"Make me." I dared. He smirked at me and lifted my chin with his fingers, delicate with my skin. He forced my topaz eyes to meet his coal ones, making me feel vulnerable.

"You know that won't be hard, so why try?" He whispered. I smiled slightly at his playful manner, oh god i'm losing it!

"Wanna bet?" I asked tauntingly. What is he doing? More importantly what am I doing? He smiled slightly averting his eyes, taking his hand away from my chin.

" Don't you think we have already tried to kill each other enough times, a bet will just make it worse. Just please don't go." he said walking to the table. I followed him, deciding I need answers. He's been swarming my thoughts 24/7, I need to know why.

"Speaking of killing each other, what is up with you?" I asked, causing him to laugh.

"Me? what about you?" He asked, still laughing. I shifted uncomfortably, trying to rephrase.

"What I mean is why do hate me so much?" I asked, suddenly becoming conscious of his answer. He gave me a good hard look and seemed to think about it.

"I don't hate you, I don't exactly like you but that's a different story... You just... You... It's simple really..." He seemed to grasp word and coming up short. I waited for an answer, slightly amused at the rare glimpse of Alec's confidence failing him.

"Yes?" I said, trying to hold in my laughter. He seemed to glance down at his hands and looking like he wishes he could disappear. I chuckled sitting opposite of him.

" It's hard to explain!" He said, reflecting my feelings. I nodded, agreeing with my enemy. I think we're enemies at least...

"I know it is..." I said drifting off. He looked at me and a small smile crept on his face.

"I know Demetri told you. Though the fact doesn't change you still irritate me and nor does it allow you to feel sorry for me." he warned. I chuckled at his sudden mood swing.

"Way to ruin the moment." I joked. He chuckled silently just as the crunch of gravel alerting us that our families were home, causing us to whip our heads around to the door. Our family entered, smiling at both us not killing each other. Rosalie giggled.

"Wow you guys aren't trying to rip each other apart, that's a nice surprise." She said. I rolled my eyes and Alec glared.

"For all you know we could have been arguing." Alec said. I smirked, trying to hold in my laughter.

"Yeah! You can't always assume." I said. They all chuckled, peeing me off. Alec didn't seem to happy about it either. Just then Alice came trotting in, carrying two boxes. She looked at me brightly and grinned from ear to ear. "Hey Alice!"

"Chloe! I have something for you, get over here." She squealed excitedly. I ran up to her, practically hopping on the spot. Please be a maple syrup bottle! What? I collect them. "Now, after we went hunting we thought we would make a detour towards your house. You'll be glad to know they had a proper funeral and are in Fork's cemetery. The forensic scientist found a lot of you blood on the floor and you've been confirmed dead and they are trying to find your body."

"Is that the good news?" I asked confused. She gave me a 'Really?' look.

"NO! it's just a tad bit of info... Anyway, I snuck in and got loads of stuff from your room and house, basically as much as I could carry. I knew you miss them, I thought having something of theirs and a few things of your own might ease the pain." She said, smiling kindly at me. I was speechless. Every thought in my mind flew out the window as I peaked into the boxes. Pictures, sweaters, jewelery, souvenirs from trips and Everything I've ever treasured. I too the boxes from Alice and set them down, launching a hug attack on her. She giggled, squeezing me back in a very motherly way. I drew away and squealed excitedly, picking up both boxes and looking for approval. "Go ahead!" Alice said and with that I literally flew up the stairs to my room.

I sat on my bed and started to scrumage in the boxes, finding many things I thought I had lost ages ago. I came across a snow globe from New York, smiling as I remember how I had found it.

Flashback

The wind bustled around many city goers, swooshing snow through small spaces in coats and bags. It was Christmas time so the city of New York was brightly lit with little light on each street and time square was blaring with more life than usual. A small little Indian girl with two pigtail, tugged on her mothers coat as she enjoyed a nice warm coffee. Her father seemed to sigh deeply, probably more irritated that he finished up his exspresso.

"Chloe what now?" He asked. The little girl gave her father a toothless grin, which beside from the gaps was exceptionally cute. You could see her father's eyes melt immediately and her mother just rolled her eyes.

"I want that snowglobe in the window, pleeeaaassseee Daddy!" She cooed. Chloe's mother sighed, picking up a young Chloe and placing her on her lap. She gave her a levelled look in which the toddler returned with a sulk, already knowing what was coming.

"Now Chloe, you do have tendency to break things, are you sure you can keep the snow globe properly?" Her mother asked. The young child nodded eagerly, bouncing as she did so.

"Awww you can't resist that happy face!" Her Daddy said, pinching his cheeks. Her mommy once again rolled her eyes as her husband abandoned his seat and carried Chloe to the shop. The young girl gasped in amazement at the beautiful snow globe, never seeing anything as beautiful. It had a scene of elves working in the toy factory and you could see all the little toys and wrapped gifts all finished with the upmost painstakingly fine detail.

"Santa shrunk the elves!" Chloe exclaimed. Her father chuckled and took a frantic Chloe, who were trying to warn the elves to get out, into the shop.

Eventually someone did explain that elves were willingly shrunk, can you imagine a two year old me on a rampage about elves? It's like Godzilla and King Kong had a baby and then put it foster care. A mixed baby monster, aka me! I rifled through more stuff, flicking unimportant stuff behind me, searching for a particular object. I felt the smooth laquer of the wooden frame and pulled out my desired object. A picture of me and my mom and dad when I was two months old. It's my favorite picture of us, they looked so happy and carefree looking down at me sleeping in. They didn't have much but they were glad to have me, they didn't regret me like everyone else. I felt a lump form in my throat, why did they have to be gone? I wish i could jump through the picture and warn them, telling them never move to Forks.

Out of fear of bursting into tears I set the picture on my bedside table. I picked out the last thing left in both of the boxes, an envelope and package stuck together. I picked it up tentatively, examining the outer edges. I slit my finger under the flap of the envelope, opening it cleanly. I dug out the letter and started to read.

Dear Chloe

If you're reading this letter, it means your father and I are no longer with you. I just want you two know that we always will love you and that nothing in the world will ever change that. We can't imagine life without you and I don't ever want to. Now I know we wrote our will when you were twelve, but no matter what age you are this gift can always be appreciated. Your father and I always want you to be happy and that's why we always wanted to give this to you. If you don't know what the gift is then we have probably died when you were a lot younger and that breaks my heart.

In the small package are both our wedding rings. We always knew that you were the gift of our love and therefore the rings shall be passed on to you. You might wish to keep these ring as a momento of us or give them to someone special. I would love it if you used them as your wedding rings and I would feel they would be safe with you. Our love shall pass on to you, our baby girl. I'll forever miss you, because you know you I'll always be there when you need me. We'll always be apart of you, no matter what. Take care my precious girl and remember we're only gone if you believe us to be.

Love

Mommy & Daddy

P.S.

You'll know he's the one if you feel it's right to give him the rings!

I froze in shock, feeling the emotion build up inside of my. I dove for the box and ripped the package in half. Sure enough there were the rings, Mom's diamond band and Dad's gold thick band. I slipped on my mother's ring and let the emotion consume me. I broke out in dry sobs, not bothering to be quiet about it even though I should. I felt my heart break into tiny pieces and got carried off by the wind, leaving me crawled up in a raw shell of myself. I continued to sob, letting all the emotion I'd been holding back pour out of me. I heard light footsteps and Carlisle and Esme's scents hit me. I didn't bother to look up as they sat beside me and hugged me, I simply cried my soul out wishing the pain would stop. Carlisle cradled me while Esme stroked my hair gently.

I can't take it anymore, I'm losing myself.