Chapter 16: I found myself in Wonderland.
DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING SO KEEP CALM AND BROFIST. CAUSE I'M PEWDIPIEEEE'S FANGIRL!
I gasped, shooting upright and breathing heavily as my lungs fought for air. I steadied myself before looking at where I was. I was in my bedroom, nicely cuddled in my soft blanket. I was wearing shorts and tank top so I decided to fling the covers away and try to get up. Apparently my legs didn't agree and buckled underneath me, luckily someone was there to catch me. Alec caught me and set me back on my bed, chuckling as he did so.
"I don't think you're quite strong enough for that yet." He said soothingly, which was exactly kinda comforting. His voice was lulling and hushed, instead of harsh and cold. I rubbed my head, feeling sore and aching.
"All I remember is fighting those two idiots and then Carlisle ripping my leg open. Mind filling me in?" I asked. He pulled the covers over me and sat on the edge of my bed, his face anxious.
" Well after Carlisle finished extracting the venom, you wouldn't wake up. We all thought you were dead, you hadn't moved for two days. Everyone was in tears, except for my masters and sister. We were all relieved when you started to stir in your sleep, we honestly thought we'd been too late to save you..." He said heart brokenly. So the idiot does care about me, ha ah aha ah! I giggled.
"Oh my God, I wish I was there to see Felix cry. Do you know what type of blackmailing oppotunities could have come from that? How long have I been out for?" I asked. He grinned at my little joke.
"You've been knocked out cold for a week, by the way Felix was bawling. Honestly I think someone should have captured that on video." He chuckled. I laughed and then puted at my current situation.
"Does that mean I'm bed bound?" I asked. He stroked the side of my face, sending ripples of warmth to my core.
"I'm afraid so, it shouldn't be so bad though." He said. I jutted out my bottom lip, I'M STILL HUNGRY!
"But I'm thirsty, they kept scaring my pray away!" I whined. Alec gave me a confused look.
"Why didn't you just go hunting with everyone else, you could have waited two days." Alec informed. I did a good and proper face palm.
"Edward told me Carlisle hadn't planned anything, I'm seriously going to kill him! Where is that clumpnugget?" I growled. Alec smirked.
"They went hunting, they'll be back tomorrow. Meanwhile it's just you and me." He said. I looked at his eyes and they were black, his eyelids heavily bruised. I gently stroked his bottom eyelid, recieving a strange look. I don't care, he saved me so I probably won't be that mean to him. Maybe...
"You need to hunt." I stated. He gently pulled my hand away and set it down, never letting go. He shook his head.
"Carlisle has some donour blood for us, you're too weak to hunt now." He said. I nodded, I have no problem if they gave blood willingly. It's like a special treat! Oh god, I've gone cray cray! and yes said cra cray...
"How the hell did you find me?" I asked. I was so deep in the forest, no one could possibly hear me fighting.
"I didn't feel at all comfortable, I felt like something was going to happen. I was the only one who noticed you were gone for five hours and I decided to see what was taking so long. I followed your scent and as I got closer I could hear your voice and theirs. By the time I was there I thought I was too late, even I could barely fight them off. Too bad I didn't have your shield." He joked. I smiled sadly, it would never make a difference.
"It probably wouldn't have helped, I can't use it to protect people. I can't project it like Bella can with her shield." I admitted. He chuckled lowly.
"Well that's something you should work on, it could help all of us. You need to go through what's called gift development, at first Jane and my gifts could only be used when we got angry. Overtime we managed to use our powers when commanded and when needed." He explained.
"The thing is we don't have time." I said irritably. He looked me straight in the eyes and I felt like I was swimming. Like everything didn't matter anymore, the world was insignificant.
"We have all the time we need..." He said. What does he mean by that? I'm too tired to work it out.
"Cryptic notes aside, what are we going to do the whole day? Because I am definetly not staying in bed." I said stubbornly. He sighed and glarted at me. Now that's the Alec I know and love! I mean I know, just know!
"You are staying in bed no buts or ifs about it." He said sternly. "I am not letting you make your current situation worse. So just be good and stay in bed." I laughed, yeah cause I'm listening to him.
"No, I'll be fine. You worry to much." I said, flicking the cover off. I tried to get up, but he pinned me down and sat on me. This is just so wrong...
"I said no! Just stay or I'll ducktape you too the bed." He threatened. I smirked, levitating him off me and standing up. My legs felt slightly better, just good enough to walk. I leant against my bed post and smirked at him.
" I can walk!" I said gleefully. He gave me a playful glare and crossed his arms.
"Put me down Chloe." He insrtucted.
"What's the magic word?" I teased. He growled.
"Now." He said darkly. I giggled gently setting him down on the floor.
"Someones grumpy aren't they?" I teased, causing him to smile slightly. " Let's go eat, I'm fricking hungry." I grabbed his hand and towed him along. I zoomed to the kitchen and saw to cups on the counter, which I quickly grabbed and passed one to Alec. We both started to slurp greedily, over taken by our hunger. I finished in seven seconds flat and i could almost feel the colour flow back to my eyes. Alec's eyes turned back to ruby orbs and he seemed less tense. I looked down at myself and realised my whole body was scarless, which is strange because Jasper said the bites leave cresent shaped scars.
"Carlisle used special syrum to get rid of the scars, except those ones on your wrists." He said. I immediately clutched my wrist, as if trying to hide something he already saw. Those weren't scars from my fight, not one bit. They were blade marks. Alec stared at me accusingly, sadness deep in his eyes. " I understand, I managed to convince Carlisle you just fell." What could he possibly understand?!
"You were right." I said solemly. He scrunched up his brow in confusion. " What you said the other day in the hallway..." He smiled ruefully to himself, setting the cup on the counter.
"I was angry, though some of the things I said I meant, not all of it I did. When you started to cry, I realised how I had hurt you. Chloe I wasn't right, I was doing what everyone did to me. I was to much of a coward to face you, I have never been more wrong in my life." He said.
" I'm sorry about what I said." I said. He nodded and smiled.
" I'm sorry I was so very wrong. Was it really that bad?" He asked. He didn't have to eleborate, I knew what he was asking. I felt like saying it wasn't that bad, that my life wasn't so bad. I just knew he wouldn't believe me. I nodded.
"I started when I was eight, I always thought it would make everything better. I stopped when I was twelve, those wrist cuts were why I did. I nearly died, I sometimes wish I had. I just couldn't take it anymore, constantly being beat up, having people whisper about me in corridors, all my friends abandoning me. I just felt like no one would care if I died or not, at the time it felt like the only way out. I really messed up..." I said. He smiled kindly and pulled up his shirt sleeve, revealing thousands of blade marks across the underside of his arms. I set my cup down and flashed to his side. " Alec!" I ran the tips of fingers across the scars, looking up to him in shock.
"Sometimes there are scars you just can't get rid of, I never told anyone. Not even Jane, though to be fair she never really noticed. My mother used to always wonder where her kitchen knives would get to. As if the beating wasn't painful enough, I liked to punish myself for causing pain to my mother sister. " He said, smiling as if recalling an old memory. I did something I never thought I would do, really I never thought this would have to come to this. I hugged him. He froze in shock, slinking his arms around me cautiously. He got comfortable after a minute and rested his cheek on my head. He is a big softie!
" It wasn't your fault. Don't ever believe that it was." I whispered. He hugged me tighter, as if trying attach me to him.
"Chloe?" Alec asked.
"Yes?" I replied.
"Please don't ever do that again." He said.
"Do what?" I asked, clearly confused.
"Don't ever try and leave me again. Ever." He said. I smiled and closed my eyes, snuggling into him.
"Promise." I said.
You know how you have a feeling something in your life is going to change dramatically. These were one of those moments.