Hey! Now i promised you all that i would warn you when I was going to post chapters that people might not like or agree with. This chapter will contain rape, and I don't want people to read it and be upset. So i tried to put in a line of stars or dots to mark the beginning and end of the sex bit, but it limits me to three dots. So i have kept the three dots in but the sex bit is in itallics so you can avoid it if you like. I have had to repeat a wee bit of the end there so that those who don't read it don't lose out on too much XD
If not, and you do read it, please don't judge me lol!
Chapter 4
Cloud searched pretty much everywhere for the girl, but apparently disappearing was her speciality. Panic welled up inside of him as he realised he would probably never see her again. Maybe her fears of being hurt and of being a bother to Cloud were just too much? He sighed his frustration as he turned the next corner on his bike, the loud exhaust echoing off the walls surrounding him, the now midday sun beating heavily from above.
"Shit." He was so tired of everything going wrong all the time. He had a good feeling about this girl; felt he could really make a difference with her, but no. Life had to get in the way again, remind him that no matter how hard he tried he just wasn't good enough... Cloud slowed the bike down to a stop in an empty alleyway, his depressing thoughts and negativity almost getting the better of him. He couldn't remember the last time he had felt so much confidence in what he was doing. Probably back when he thought he was Zack... Stupid brain... Cloud thumped the palm of his hand against his forehead, his anger building slightly. He had let her down, forced her to do something that she clearly wasn't ready for. Maybe she had been happy for him to just fix her up now and then, who was he to decide what she wanted more? And now he had ruined it.
Cloud pulled the handle of his bike, making the engine rev, and took off again to do one more search around the city. If he still couldn't find her, he would then go to the church and wait there for a bit, and see what happens. Fenrir screeched off into the street, and Cloud continued his mission.
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Kotetsu stared off into the landscape outside of Midgar, her heart aching as she longed to get lost in it. She had never felt so much confusion in her life. The path seemed obvious, but she just couldn't bring herself to do it. The shard of metal that she held in her hand dripped with blood, but the cuts on her arms remained too shallow to really do any life threatening damage. She sighed sadly as she toyed with the idea of jumping from where she was, down into the dusty lands below, but again, her body remained as still as a statue. It wouldn't be long before she was found, her minder going nuts about how he will be punished because of her, though she really didn't care. He was nothing but a womaniser, a thief and a murderer, so she greatly enjoyed getting him into trouble, even if it meant a good old beating for her.
A voice from below signalled that she had been right, her minder going off the handle about something or another. She continued to stare off into the mountains, knowing fool well that her minder would have to come and get her. So she waited, on the highest roof she could find, silently enjoying the fact that he would have to climb all those stairs. Lazy shit...
Soon enough, her tight cuffs were returned to their home on her wrists, her minder screaming bloody murder at her. Of course she didn't need to listen, reciting what he was saying in her head from weeks of practise.
"What the hell is wrong with you? Do you want to die? Is that it? Do you want to throw your life away, your skills? I am so fucking sick of your attitude. You never really escape, so why do you bother? If you leave, we'll find you! We always do! Now I'm going to get my balls busted 'cause you weren't in for your weekly check-up!" Kotetsu continued to stare off into the distance, only seeming to piss her minder off even more. "Your nothing but a selfish, moronic, thing, who will never experience happiness, and do you know why that is?" He nudged her violently, earning a small growl from Kotetsu. "Because you're a monster, a tool. Nothing more. No one wants to be with you when one word could end their lives now do they?" Kotetsu pulled away from the man now sneering in her face, his rancid breath making her stomach turn. "Now get a fucking move on!" He pushed and shoved her down all the steps she had made him climb, earning some strange looks from the workers of the building. It wasn't everyday that an almost naked girl was cuffed and dragged from their roof, especially by someone who wasn't even part of the city guard or policing services. Kotetsu kept her eyes to the floor as people asked what was going on, wanting to avoid their judgemental eyes when they were told she was a loony who regularly murdered people. How her minder was nothing more than some sort of secret police, who looked after people with mental health issues, no matter how dangerous the case. Women would swoon at his courageous stories, and men would commend him on his efforts, stating how they couldn't imagine how he did it without wanting to kill the scum that walked this earth. And he would gloat, acting like some kind of martyr, asking not for praise but just understanding... Kotetsu had heard enough as she disappeared into her own little world, blocking out everything that was going on around her. Cloud was of course the first thing she thought of, which seemed to bring her down a little. He must have been pissed off that she had run away like that, and now, she would probably never see him again. It was for the best though... wasn't it?
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Cloud slumped down onto his bed as he sulked in annoyance. He had looked everywhere! And he was so tired. She hadn't appeared at the church and he had even stayed until one in the morning, messing around with one thing or another to keep his mind busy and awake. Tifa hadn't been too impressed with his lateness, but understood as he explained once she had made him some hot chocolate.
What was he going to do? This whole situation was just ridiculous and he was hating every minute of it. Guilt was one of those things he just didn't want to deal with anymore, his whole life seeming to be governed by it. He was just over the biggest guilt of all and now he was right back where he started. He couldn't help but feel this was all Aerith's fault. It was a bit of a coincidence that he found Kotetsu in her church... on that night... A voice in the back of his mind reminded him nicely that it was of course him who had forced the girl into doing something she wasn't comfortable doing and had effectively pushed her away... Sighing, he reached over for one of his impossibly fluffy pillows, and placed it over his face, promptly pulling it down around his ears. The darkness and silence was very much appreciated as he planned tomorrow's search out in his mind.
"Cloud?" He peered from under his pillow to see Tifa standing in his doorway, a rather confused look on her face. "How about we ask around? I mean someone is bound to have seen her from the way you've described her." Cloud sat up as he thought about her idea. He had thought of doing it himself, but what if he got her into further trouble...
"What if we ask the very people she's been hiding from and they kill her for talking to us." Cloud wiped the sleepiness from his eyes. "I don't want to make things any more unbearable for her..." Tifa sighed as she leant against the doorway, tiredness obviously affecting her as well.
"I could ask- "
"No." Cloud jumped up from the bed and walked over to the window to open it. He could feel the air get stuffier by the second now that she had started this common argument.
"But he knows every- "
"No!" Cloud scowled at Tifa. "That red headed freak is not getting involved do you hear?" Tifa huffed in annoyance.
"Why can't you just accept it? It isn't like it used to be, he's changed." Tifa walked across the room, her shoes clumping softly on the wooden floor. Cloud turned to watch her sit down on his bed, that stern look on her face. Here we go...
"I don't care what you say, you can't change how I feel. He tried to kill us on a number of occasions, and I don't believe Shinra is on their way to being good at all. Rufus is nothing but a lying, cheating scum bag that deserves nothing more than to- "
"Oh stop it! I don't fully believe it either, but Reno is on our side, remember? He was the one that told us about the pollution, and about the plans to recreate mako in secret!" Cloud nodded, but was still unconvinced.
"Yes, but he leaked the information, yet none of the turks have been fired have they? Suspicious?" Tifa rolled her eyes.
"Reno said that you had infiltrated their systems somehow and Tseng is working on a fix." Cloud huffed in annoyance.
"I still don't believe Rufus is stupid enough to believe Reno." Tifa stood up from the bed, annoyance quickly filling in for her understanding.
"You're just going to have to accept it, 'cause I'm going to ask him whether you like it or not, because we are a couple, and couples talk about things!" Cloud rounded on her, his eyes sharp with anger.
"This is not your secret to tell!" Tifa shrunk back, realising that it was true. The girl hadn't gone to her, and Cloud had only confided in her so that she didn't freak out when the girl came to the door looking for Cloud.
"Well, I... fine! But you're wasting your time driving about. She could probably hear your stupid bike coming a mile away and hide. Idiot!" She stormed out the room then, feeling a little childish at their argument, but she was sick and tired of Cloud's constant attacks on Reno. He had proved himself more than once, and he was there for her a lot more than Cloud... Though he was trying, she had other needs that just weren't being met. Blushing Tifa slammed her door shut, and immediately regretted it when she remembered Denzel and Marlene were asleep. "Damn it Cloud!"
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Kotetsu picked at the crumbling cement that fixed the blocks of stone together that made up her 'room'. She sighed as she listened to the cries of new babies being brought in for therapy, cringing as she remembered back to those years. You didn't get to be un-phased by pain by just being taught how to. Kotetsu rolled her head back and forth over the bumps on the wall she was leaning on, a strange tick she seemed to have developed. Her hands were still cuffed, her minder apparently getting pretty bored of her disappearances.
She stared around the tiny space she had lived in her whole life, no windows, no bed, no nothing... her door didn't even have a window into the corridor outside, just a solid boring box. She sighed as she now picked at the floor, years of erosion causing some of it to crumble and break up in her hands. She tried her best to push her current situation to the very back of her head, and imagine Cloud wrapping his arm around her again, grateful for the little pleasures and comforts it had brought her recently. She turned herself slightly, pretending that he was there, and wrapped her arm around his invisible self, imagining that he too had done the same. She snuggled her head into his invisible side, now wrapping her arms around herself to make it feel more real... sighing lightly as she imagined his fingers stroking through her hair, his breath dancing on her face as he told her she was safe...
A key in the lock of her door had her jumping from her dream, Cloud's essence dissipating into the ether. She tried her best to hold back her never falling tears as she watched her most hated person in the world enter the room. Well, second most hated.
"'ere mutt! Eat." Her minder threw down a bowl of white paste right in front of his foot, his eyes glinting with mischievousness. "Well come on!" Kotetsu complied with his cruel trick, wanting nothing more than for him to hurry up and go away. And sure enough, as Kotetsu reached the bowl, his toe flicked it over, knocking the substance into the floor. He then proceeded to stomp on it a few times, rubbing his foot in to ensure that her dinner was now well and truly falling through the visible cracks. "I'm sure the rats will be having a feast tonight." His cruel actions had no effect on her, as long as he left and let her get back to her dreams. "Oh! And by the way. I talked to the master and guess what?" Kotetsu wasn't very sure she knew where he was going with this, but knew her plans for the night were probably going to be ruined... "I have an extra guard especially for you! He is going to wait right here outside your door!" Her minder's eyes sparkled with excitement. "The master is most disappointed with you, and will be making a little appointment to speak with you at some time. I'm sure you'll have a wonderful experience!" Her minder smirked, obviously enjoying his work way too much.
Kotetsu sighed as she waited for her tormenter to leave, but he leaned against the wall as he signalled for someone to enter her room. A tall, heavy set man with dark hair and red eyes stared back at her manically. His build was that of someone who could crush skulls with his bare hands, and his stance was that of confidence. His skin was marred with scars, but none of them looked like they would even have phased him. When he smiled, his yellowing black teeth seemed to add another layer of cruelness to his physique. "This is number 13. Unlucky for some eh Kotetsu? He will be your guard. He has been ordered to kill you on sight if you try and leave. I'm quite excited about a new charge to be honest with you, so please, do hurry up and die." Her master continued to taunt her as he positioned number 13 outside her door, his eyes gleaming with excitement. "Have a nice night!"
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Kotetsu stared at the door ahead of her, number 13's rancid breath creeping down over her and causing her to retch now and then. She hated being here, hated having to look at the master's face, his murderous hands, his cruel being. Now this, her master, was her most hated person. She hated it when he touched her, the way he would whisper into her ear even when the two were alone. She looked back over her shoulder at the heavy breathing beast behind her, careful not to make eye contact. He merely grunted and pushed her into the door, causing her unceremonious clatter to echo into the room ahead. She heard the strong and deep voice of her master, his cruel tone leaking out and over her like tar. Number 13 opened the doors and pushed her through, making her stumble clumsily. Her master just laughed with his usual asshole smirk on his face. She wanted nothing more than to tear him to shreds and cause him all the pain he had caused her, murder people close to him to watch him break. As many of the torture techniques she had been taught over the years filled her thoughts, Number 13 forced her to sit in her usual seat, right in front of the gloating basterd.
"Leave us." The master flicked his disgusting hand at her guard, indicating that he wished to be alone with her, though she had no doubt that 13 would be waiting outside for her like a good little pet... The door shut with an ominous creek and a loud thud that brought Kotetsu screaming back to reality. "You've been an awfully naughty girl." Her master smirked in delight. "I don't know how you manage it, to sneak out of our impenetrable fortress, but you are one of the best we have, so I would expect nothing less. What really confuses me is that you always end up back here, now why is that?" He waited patiently for an answer, but he knew Kotetsu would never speak. Like she would tell him how to contain her better... idiot. Kotetsu just stared at the floor, hoping and praying that this nights meeting would be short and she could get back to her dreams of safe, safe Cloud. She could feel her hair stand on end as she heard the shuffling of her master's expensive clothes, indicating he had gotten up from his seat. "You were always my favourite, your beautiful face and perfect figure giving you an added deadly advantage, but you lack the integrity and dedication to the cause that would make you infallible." Kotetsu tried her best to ignore his words, though it wasn't hard as she couldn't understand most of it, and she knew the master loved knowing that. "Of course we have Arashi to thank for that, no?" Another cruel smile graced his awful face. Kotetsu felt something pull painfully within. "Such pure skin," his finger touched her bare shoulder, the effect being more than violent inside her, her body tensing on instinct. "Such full lips and wonderfully unique eyes!" He was now behind her, leaning on the back of her seat to gain the powerful stance as well as a better vantage point. "You don't even flinch away from me anymore. A compliment?" Kotetsu scoffed in annoyance, immediately regretting the outburst. "Oh how you hurt me Kotetsu. My whole life has been dedicated to make you and your colleagues better people, give you purpose in an otherwise useless existence. I offer you sanctuary from the cruel world and a way of making it a better place and you return to me nothing but ill feelings. I even offered you a bed with me, but you continue to refuse me, continue to make it harder and harder for me to find you a purpose in the bigger picture. But none the less, you will serve me." Kotetsu pulled away best she could without having to stand up. The master was a violent man, who cared not for her life at all like he claimed.
The master stepped away from her to circle round the seat, kneeling down in front of the defiant girl. She held her head high despite knowing that she held no authority or dignity here, but she would cling onto what she had until her fingers broke off from the effort. The master lifted his hands to stroke her bruised face again, his cruel eyes holding the smallest amount of regret. Kotetsu yelped as she felt his hand strike her, her senses begging for her to react, her body vibrating impatiently.
"I don't know how many times I have to tell you, you are worth nothing. Until you become more than I am, you are forbidden from making eye contact with me!" Kotetsu resumed her upright position, her veins pumping with adrenaline. She could end his life so easily, but her instincts held her back. The shock of her attack might be enough to overcome him, enough to give her a window of opportunity to give the deadly strike, but somehow, she knew he was expecting it. He would love nothing more than to punish her, though she felt he had done plenty already. He sighed sadly as he stood back up, turning so she could no longer see his face. "Why must you make me hurt you? You know I hate to do it, but you constantly disobey me, constantly fight for freedom and all these stupid feelings and needs that Arashi filled your thick head with. This is your life and you will never know another. I suppose that is probably what compels you to return her, to me. Your knowledge that you will never find 'love' and 'safety' with anyone, especially when they find out what you were born and bred for, making it impossible for you to survive anywhere else." Kotetsu flinched at his cruel words, knowing what he meant despite his use of his damned advanced language skills. "But you will be happy to know we have come to an agreement with an agency, one with great power. You will be used to your full potential, but no more training and practice with robots. You will be out in the world, making a difference!" He turned then, his eyes a blaze and his hands raised as if he were some kind of god. "Don't you see? Don't you understand?" He was obviously very disappointed in Kotetsu's lack of interest, slamming his hands down on the arm rests of the chair she was sitting in, his face only centimetres from hers. "You really are an imbecile aren't you?" His spit sprayed on her face, the smell of his nutritious dinner wafting up her nose, reminding her that he was nothing but a sadistic prick. "Nevertheless, time is of the essence. You will be assigned, you and your colleagues, to this special cause, your skills and techniques being most useful." He laughed heartily as he relaxed his position, rubbing his nose along her cheek suggestively, his breath tickling her neck. She had hoped he just wanted to shout at her this time, but it would appear that he was in the mood for a lot more.
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Kotetsu held back her whimper when the master's hands found their way on her stomach, their coldness causing her to shiver. She had to admit that her tormentor was very beautiful, and it was the only thing that got her through these moments. She had to ignore his years of torture, the murders and the things he took from her. She had to see him as just another man, see him as nothing more than an acquaintance, ignore the pain that he would put her through when he roughly bit her or forced himself inside of her like she were nothing more than a lifeless doll. Had to ignore the horrible things he said to her, the things he made her say and do, sometimes even the clothes he made her wear. For years she painfully remembered her close friend Arashi's face, but now she pictured Cloud, enjoying the lack of guilt he held in her thoughts. She imagined his gloved hands running up her protruding ribs, imagined it was his soft kisses gently resting on her neck rather than the cruel nips and bites she received from the monster now on top of her...
The master made quick work of the removal of the ragged clothing that barely covered his sexual interest, and picked her up before roughly forcing her down to lie on his table. He licked and bit his way down her body, his aching member urging him to move faster. Pushing papers and ornaments from his desk, he repositioned the girl in front of him so that her legs hung over the edge, making it much easier to access her. He shrugged his cloak from his shoulders and undid his belt, all the while telling Kotetsu how much of a dirty slut she was and how she was a disgrace to humans all over. How he would purge her of her sins by blessing her with his actions, purifying her.
Kotetsu kept her eyes shut tight as she tried to place Cloud's low but soft voice, desperately trying to ignore the words that were actually being said. She grasped the edge of the table firmly as she felt 'Cloud's' member press against her hardly ready entrance. She held in her gasp of pain as he tore into her, not even waiting for her to adjust to his size. She gulped back her sobs as she tried so hard to believe it was Cloud loving her rather than this monster fucking her harshly. Arashi had always told her that the only way this kind of experience should happen is if love is shared between the partners, but there was no love here, only greed and lust. She felt neither of course, only pain and emptiness as well as a distinct feeling of un-cleanliness. She could not wash away her feelings, only lie in her pit of despair and imagine it was all different, dream, hope and wish that everything was different, beg and plead to no one to be saved from what seemed like her eternal damnation.
"Look at me!" her masters hard and breathless words forced their way into her little world, tearing down the screen of her much worked for sanctuary. His finger nails sunk deep into her scarred and bruised flesh, his teeth biting down hard on her left nipple before he raised his head again to shout. "Look at me slut! Look at me!" He yelled his pleasure as Kotetsu opened her pained eyes and stared at the side of his face as he pounded relentlessly into her throbbing heat. She would never climax in these moments they shared with the harshness of his ministrations making her numb. She could never find anything strong enough to make her emotional distress stop, or make her heart stay in one piece. "At my eyes girl!" Kotetsu complied as she stared right through to the back of his head, hoping to ignore all of the cruel intent he had for her. "Oh yes! That's the shit!" He huffed as he changed position, pushing himself further inside of her, his nails scraping down her thighs, causing her to bleed. She was surprised he could get that far in, considering how thin and slight she was compared to him, but her thoughts were again disturbed as her master placed a soft kiss on her cheek.
He had never done that before.
"I am going to miss you dearly." Kotetsu hadn't expected him to show any kind of affection, but got over her shock immediately when she realised that this was a good thing. Did that mean she was leaving? Her master began to slow as he leaned down, pressing his chest against hers and wrapping his arm around the back of her neck. He pulled her head to his and placed a kiss on her forehead. "If only you had said yes to my offer, you could have loved me you know. I'm not that bad after you get used to me." Kotetsu tried her best to rid her mind of the current situation. This was worse than before. This was a connection! He was making a connection that she didn't want, stirring feelings of need and loneliness inside her that urged her to hug and hold him back, to show some kind of feeling towards him. But she could never love this monster. Never.
Her master shuddered as he felt himself near his end. He pulled out of the girl and emptied himself onto her chest; his suppressed screams an all too familiar soundtrack to his climaxing. He sighed softly as he pulled away from the girl, replacing his clothing and tossing Kotetsu's excuse for clothing onto the table next to her.
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"I'm going to miss you dearly" Kotetsu hadn't expected him to show any kind of affection, but got over her shock immediately when she realised that this was a good thing. Did that mean she was leaving? He pulled her head to his and placed a kiss on her forehead. "If only you had said yes to my offer, you could have loved me you know. I'm not that bad after you get used to me." Kotetsu tried her best to rid her mind of the current situation. This was worse than before. This was a connection! He was making a connection that she didn't want, stirring feelings of need and loneliness inside her that urged her to hug and hold him back, to show some kind of feeling towards him. But she could never love this monster. Never.
Her master sighed softly as he pulled away from the girl, replacing his clothing and tossing Kotetsu's excuse for clothing onto the table next to her.
"I have already picked your replacement, so don't think yourself too important now." His eyes glinted with mischief before he began laughing at her, pointing and giggling at the hope he had stirred in her. "You thought for a moment there that you were special didn't you!" His laughter increased as he placed his hands on his knees for support as he doubled over. "You are replaceable! I bet for a moment there you thought you were worth something." He sat down in his usual chair as he called out for 13 to return. The door opened with a crash, earning a scowl from the master. 13 entered the room and gestured out the door, before he noticed Kotetsu's half dressed state. He gawked for a few seconds as she pulled her tattered t-shirt over her head. "And 13, don't touch or I will have you fed to the dogs." 13 nodded his head in understanding, his face a picture of pure disappointment and a hint of fear. Kotetsu stopped herself from thanking her master, feeling that there was just no way she could have put up with that hunk of shit touching her in any way. There was nothing good about him to make the experience bearable, not a thing like her master.
Kotetsu slid down from the desk, feeling her legs and pelvis area ache with an all too familiar pain. 13 said nothing as they headed back to her prison, didn't even look at her as he pushed her forcefully though the doorway, but Kotetsu didn't care. She didn't care what happened anymore, just as long as they didn't wipe her memory of Cloud. That way, she felt she could get through anything.
So! I hope everyone is still liking it.? Gone from curious and a bit of innocent gore to oh my god that's awful... I hope i haven't upset anyone. I always worry about doing these kind of scenes, but i feel it was necessary for the stroy, and keeping it as realistic as possible. I just don't see how females could grow up in this kind of environment without being treated in such a way.
But let me know what you think as i love to hear what my readers have to say!
Well thanks again and see you guys next chapter!