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"Dean! Breathe damn it! Breathe!"

"Can't… get air… S'my!"

"Yes you can. You aren't going to let some skanky troll win are you? Come on bro, calm down and the air will come. That's it. In and out. Just follow me… there… good job… Better?"

"Y'h… yeah… thanks S'my… Uh…"

"Still here Dean. Don't worry, I can wait until you're ready to continue, I do have all eternity you know."

"Shit."

"What?"

"He's still… still here Sam…"

"It's almost over. It… it has to be over soon man…"

"You deserved it. And you know it. You would still be there if it weren't… if those idiots wouldn't have pulled you out of the fire. They should have left you to rot."

"Not Hell… can't talk about…"

"Dean, listen bro, you got out remember? You're with me again right? Dean?"

"We know how it played out though don't we? In the end it wasn't you who saved the world, who stopped the apocalypse showdown, it was Sam. He was forced to make the ultimate sacrifice; not you. Then again, I suppose I'm not all that surprised, he has always been stronger. Huh, he stood up to me; challenged me, while you just sat back and took whatever I doled out without question. He wanted and fought to make a life for himself, instead of just being led around on a leash like a damn dog; obedient and loyal to a fault. He was strong enough to fight the devil himself; while you just sat back and watched from the sidelines; just sat there, and let him take the plunge."

"S'my, please! Why… I should have stopped you."

"Dean, I'm right here man!"

"I asked one thing of you Dean, one damn thing. Watch out for your brother and keep him safe. Didn't do such a bang up job of it did you? No, of course not. I should have known you would screw it up, just like every other little thing in your entire pathetic life. I'm such an idiot. I should have let you die."

"Stop saying that!"

"I guarantee that if I was still around Sam would never have gone through what he did. And you can be sure that Hell would never have been unleashed onto the earth. The world would have been a better place Dean, without you in it."

"Dean. You're breathing, you gotta control it! You gotta stop listening to it!"

"But dad… please…"

"Stop Dean. I don't care. You mean nothing to me, not anymore and hell, I'm not even sure if you ever did. There comes a time when a man just has to admit it; that his son is a complete and utter failure. And that Dean, is what you are to me, what you have always been. A failure."

"You… you can't mean that… you can't! I did everything you ever asked of me! I gave up my life to hunt!"

"Everything I asked? Might want to check your records on that one!"

"I was more of a father to Sam than you were, you selfish dick! What about us huh? What about your sons? You were so obsessed with finding that damn demon you didn't even see us anymore! So don't you stand there and try and lay the blame on us…."

"There is no 'us' here Dean. I'm not laying the blame on you and Sam. Just. On. You. And you know I'm right, you know that if you would have never dragged your brother back into this he would be living the good life, complete with white picket fence and 2.5 kids. He would be safe, and loved, and would probably forget all about hunting and this life. Hell, I'm pretty damn sure he would even forget about you. I mean, why would someone stop to reminisce about the one thing that never did anything but bring them down? Hmm?"

"No… Sam, he… Sam would never forget me…"

"What? Of course I wouldn't Dean, not ever. Do you hear me? Not ever!"

"Whatever you have to tell yourself to somehow pry your worthless hide out of bed each morning. All I know is that he is only with you now because you ripped his world apart, until you were the only thing left. School, gone. Jessica, gone. Everything else but you? Gone. There's that selfish streak of yours again shining through loud and clear. If Sam really thought about it, about you and the devastating effect you have had on his life, he would come to realize, just like I did, that you are the reason for everything bad in his life. Sam is just another innocent victim of the poison that runs through your veins.

"Can't take… please stop… please… S'mmy?"

"Hang on Dean, just hang on…"

"You know, I spent a hundred years; a whole century in the pit."

"I don't want to hear this… Please, don't make me hear this!"

"Never once did I cave; or give up; or give in to those evil sons of bitches as they sliced and diced and laughed; as the pieces fell from my bones into the abyss below. But you? What a kick in the nuts you turned out to be. Pathetic and weak. You caved at the drop of a hat! Couldn't wait to get off the rack and torture those who did much less than you to end up there."

"I'm sorry Dad… I'm sorry… I didn't want you to make that deal! Why did you do it? I should have died!"

"God Dean… please man, it wasn't your fault. He made that deal himself, you didn't make him. You have to let it go Dean, you have to stop punishing yourself for what he did!"

"I wasted my life to save you and you let them win anyways! You're the one who STARTED IT! YOU Dean, no one else, just YOU!"

"STOP IT!"

"What? Did my death, the death that you caused mean that little? Don't you even give one little shit that you are the one to blame for the torture they inflicted on me? Sure, you were always a good little soldier; followed orders to a tee, except the one time when it really mattered! You were supposed to look out for Sammy! But, you couldn't even do that right! You are nothing but a disappointment to me; to your mother…"

"Don't say that…"

"…and most of all, to your brother. You didn't save him from it, you helped it along!"

"S'my? SAMMY!"

"I'm right here Dean! Dean!"

"You know you should still be there Dean, rotting away, burning and suffering along with the rest of the garbage down in the pit. I think that is where you belong."

"It wasn't my fault… if I wasn't supposed to... but, they saved me… they…"

"It's okay, don't worry about their mistake, it'll all be fixed soon. Like I always say, better late than never. Right kiddo?"

"Wh..what do you mean? Dad? Please… what do you mean!"

"Ah Dean, imagine my delight at this moment. I feel so lucky to be the one to send you into the final leg of your journey with these simple words…

Nine, ten…

BACK TO HELL AGAIN!"

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