Note: Well I think I disappeared few days so sorry for that. As I said I had exams but they finished and now I'm free. I also got sick and I couldn't came to my computer to being uploading so as I'm still a little sick maybe other days pass but I think I'll be fine to upload more frequently.

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Lauren was training by herself outside. Though she had defeated with her team all nighloks for good, a samurai training was a lifestyle now for her. She didn't have any memory where she spent some time for her or where she was having fun without sticks or routines. She had grown up as a person who needed to be responsible and disciplined, so, going out to the park wasn't an option.

Whatever, she felt good when she trained. It was something that she was good, and at some point, Lauren enjoyed training because it was a way to get fun (at least the only one she knew) and was something to clear her head too.

Recently all rangers had been through too much and were worried for it. And, technically, since Lauren arrived the second time to Panorama City she hadn't had a time out. Her first show up* was when she came to make the Sealing symbol and the world's destiny was on her. Then once all finished, when she came back people recognized her as the red samurai ranger but others as the cause of death.
She didn't know what to think or do now. She was stressed and was about to run away but she couldn't. There was a team that trusted her and she wouldn't let them down. Not twice. If she couldn't beat Master Xandred as she was supposed to do now the red samurai couldn't just leave. It wasn't fair for her friends.
It was difficult to be strong surrounded by troubles but as her father taught her a samurai never gives up no matter what. So that was the extra she needed to hit hard the dummy. It fell and sighed smirked as a victory. "That's all"

She picked it up but then she looked Emily walking for the bench near from Ji's garden. She didn't have any against it so she continued on her dummy. But when Lauren heard a sob turned around to the yellow ranger.

Lauren threw her training stick, left the dummy once up and walked to Emily. "Hey Emily, what's up?"

Emily looked to Lauren and shook her head. She didn't want anyone worrying about her.

Lauren seeing there was no answer and assuming the sad face on Emily, sat next to the her and said " You know you can count with me, right?. I might help if you want. Maybe I'm not Mia or Mike but…. You can tell me anything"

Emily smiled and sniffed. This time she nodded her head. The yellow ranger looked up again. "How did you do it.. Lauren?"

"How did I do what?"

"When you were a kid"

Lauren frowned her forehead didn't understanding what Emily was trying to say. She also wasn't a mind reader to get what Emily was thinking "Uh... sorry Em but I don't und…"

"With your parents" Emily interrupted her "You were a kid when you went away. That must be so hard…you know, leaving your family and never knowing when you're going to see them and in the worst case never knowing if you'll do"

Lauren nodded as understood. She thought in Emily's words for a moment bringing back bad memories. Lauren hadn't thought on that, never mind talked about it. She remembered when a unknown man came and took her from her house. When she left her brother, mother and all her things to change her life. It was devastator but she had to learn it was the best. Maybe not for her but for the world. And that was her duty.

The red samurai let out a deep sigh and gave a brief smile "It was hard Em, at first but they explained me what I needed to do. If I started to refuse to do it then the entire world, including my family, would be on danger so I needed to take risk. It was all I could do"

"But you were a kid Lauren" Emily said "How did you support the feeling of loneliness?"

Lauren shrugged her shoulders "I don't know, I guess, my father always told me that he loved me. He said everything would be okay and I believed in him"

The yellow ranger shook her head and wiped away some tears "I admire you Lauren"

"Why?"

"Because… because you were too young to make decisions and either way you chose the correct. You took everything with responsible and conscience"

"I guess…"

"And you were alone! You could do that by your own and you were alone."

Lauren removed her hair from her face and looked to Emily a little concerned. She didn't understand why Emily was pissed and sad. "Are you okay Emily? Why are you asking this?"

"Ji told me my parents called"

"ok…"

"And that makes me think a lot"

"Why?"

"Because I miss them" Emily whispered and pulled her knees to her chest "I miss them a lot and that's stupid"

"Is it?" Lauren frowned more

"Yes, Lauren you don't get it, do you? Look at me. I'm an adult, a young adult and I miss my parents. I'm afraid something happens to them and I'm here crying because I don't have my mom and my dad on my side and there more people inside the house and next to me who miss their parents too but they're no crying! why me?"

"Emily relax" Lauren took her in her arms "It's okay you miss them"

"No…"

"It is" The red ranger assured her "Look, stop comparing you with us because we're different. We don't have the same feelings..."

"Yes but…"

"Don't compare yourself with me" Lauren shook her head "Emily when I was a little girl I wasn't the typical girl you see at the park. I have other way to see the things. I was raised with discipline and duties and that made me think as an adult and not a child. I grew up fast Em, so that's why I see as tough as you see me but that doesn't mean doesn't hurt"

"I'm sorry Lauren…"

"You have nothing to be sorry about"

"I guess" Emily shrugged her shoulders "so…"

"About you" Lauren continued "You were raised as a loving girl. You have a big heart and I can assure you care a lot about people you love. I know you saved my brother's life twice by you own and…"

" I had Kevin's help in one but there's nothing I wouldn't do for him, his my friend"

"I know. And you would do that for each person in here, including me" The red ranger wrapped her arms around the yellow and smiled "You love your family Emily, there's nothing to be sorry about"

"But I cry like a little kid for her parents"

"Because you have a kid's heart"

"That's…"

"You would do anything for your family. They are the most important thing in you world and that's okay"

"A kid's heart?"

"A young woman with the heart of a kid" Lauren nodded "And that's really sweet. I don't know anyone like you. Maybe I was kid when I left but that didn't mean I had a big heart, but you… you're a beautiful girl with a beautiful heart"

"Lauren I…"

"Lauren's right" A different voice talked. Lauren and Emily turned to see who that voice was.

Emily smiled "Mia"

"You don't have to be ashamed of cry for your parents" Mia took a seat next to Emily "As Lauren said your kid's heart doesn't have the fault. We love you the way you were and remember…" Mia took Emily's hand "You're tough in your own way"

The yellow ranger smiled brightly and hugged Mia tightly. She, now, got the message and wouldn't let her feelings made her feel bad again. It was true, she was big now but that doesn't mean she wouldn't be afraid.

She pulled apart from Mia and turned to Lauren and pulled her in for a hug. Lauren hugged her wavering but accepted the hug. She didn't remember the last time a friend hug her, because she didn't remember having a friend. So she smiled like Emily happily.

"Thanks girls" Emily said

"You're welcome" Lauren answered still with her smile.

Mia wrapped one arm around Emily's shoulders and said " Never forget it Em" She gave her a squeeze " And now the reason I came looking for you is because the doctor's here"