Thank you for the love and support you always give. I'm sorry that my updating isn't what it used to be, but hey we all have a real life and its impeding at times. Thank you Audrey, you are a wonderful woman!I had surgery and everything went well, so hopefully I can update more often lol or at least attempt to lol. Did everyone see Breaking Dawn, let me know what you thought, I loved it! I have chapter 37 half way written lol...
CHAPTER 36
Edward looked like he'd see a ghost! He paled and seemed to be sweating slightly. I gave him a questioning look, hoping he would tell me what was going on. He mumbled something into his cell phone and ended the call.
"They found Carmen." He swallowed thickly.
His expression scared me.
"And…?" I urged for him to go on.
"Liam wants me to go back to the apartment, but I don't want to leave you alone." His green eyes ever so intense.
"Edward, go its okay, Alice or Rose could come and keep me company," I sighed feeling relieved that this was his only problem.
"But they can't protect you." He shook his head.
"Just stop it!" I slammed my fist on the tiny table next to me.
Edward's eyes turned shocked at me, but I couldn't take any more of his babysitting. I was bound to go nuts.
"Just ask Emmett or someone, I need a break from you!" I threw my hand in the air.
However my words surprised even me, but Edward looked so hurt and I knew I needed to retract my statement quickly.
"I'm sorry that didn't come out right." I said quickly.
He shook his head in understanding, but not uttering a word. He just kept nodding and walked out of the room. I called to him, but there was no response. I hurt him and he left. I didn't have my cell phone and I was still hooked up to a million wires. I couldn't even chase after him.
I just began to sob into my hands. I was frustrated and overwhelmed at this point. I couldn't handle the situation and Edward was only trying to help me. I couldn't do anything right it seemed lately. I felt the bed dip and warm strong warms wrapped around my shoulders.
I didn't need to look up to know who they belonged to. The smell of his cinnamon after shave filled my senses. I pulled myself closer to his chest and just sobbed until no more tears could fall. He shh-ed me, mumbled words of love and rubbed my back. I fell asleep to the sound of him humming.
When I woke up the room was dark and all I could hear was the sound of the machines beeping. I looked around to find myself alone, no Edward. I sat up to turn on the light next to the bed and found a note.
Bella,
Hopefully I will be back before you wake, but if I'm not, I went to the apartment to get an update on the Carmen situation. Emmett is near, I love you.
Edward
I couldn't help but smile at the "I love you" part of the note. It seemed funny to me that only a few months ago we had met. I sighed placing the note back on the table and resting my head on the pillows. I wasn't sure how long I had been asleep or how long he had been gone.
A few minutes later the doctor poked his head in to see how I was feeling. I told him I just wanted to go home and he said in the morning that I could. I asked him what time it was and he mentioned something about 10:15pm, I had been sleeping for a while. Where was Emmett? Where was Edward?
I closed my eyes to try to drift off to sleep once more. When I awoke this time it was bright in the room and Edward was sitting in the chair reading the paper. He obviously didn't notice me wake and I took the time to examine him carefully.
His copper hair was a complete mess, he had been pulling at it, you could tell. He had on a white turtleneck sweater and some black jeans with dressy looking shoes. He looked unbelievable sexy. He never had to try that hard. It made my mouth water.
He finally looked up from his paper and looked at me with thatlook. My breath caught in my throat. He only looked at me like that when he was extremely horny, well that was all the time, so it was hard to decipher, but it made my insides turn to jelly.
"Did you sleep well?" He asked folding his paper placing it on the table next to him.
"I woke up last night, you weren't here." I mumbled not sure what else to say.
"I left you a note." He pointed to the side table by the bed.
"I know, but it's not the same." I shrugged.
"I didn't expect to be gone very long, I'm sorry if you got scared. I'm here now." He gives me a small smile as he stands.
He moves swiftly to my bed, sitting on the edge. I leaned over and take his hand in mine. He isn't looking at me; he's staring at his feet, it makes me nervous.
"Are you alright?" I asked rubbing my fingers over his knuckles.
"Yes, everything is under control now." He nodded still not looking up.
"What happened with Carmen?" I asked; it is all I can seem to fixate on at the moment.
"Liam found her in my playroom, tied to the wall. She's been dealt with." His face twists into a sour expression.
"Dealt with?" I question.
"Leave it alone Bella." He warns and I sigh.
"I hate when you dismiss me like that." I pull my hands away from him, putting them in my lap.
He looks up at me then. Now that I get a good look at his face, he hasn't slept. Black circles under his eyes and he looks paler than usual. I notice the wrinkles in his forehead, he's been worrying. I just want to rub my fingers across his brow and wipe them away.
"I'm not dismissing you; I just don't want to talk about it right now." He pulls at his hair.
"I hate when you don't share things with me. You say we will talk about it later, but then we don't. That's not the kind of relationship we should have." I plead.
His face turns torturous, like he can't decide how he feels. It breaks my heart, but I need to know the details, I need some type of reassurance right now.
"Bella, please, I just want to forget about it, can't you understand? Have you not considered how this is making me feel? To watch the woman I love going through all this and I have no idea how to keep it under control? Its tearing me apart. Please just let it go for now." His voice was so low and helpless.
"I'm sorry." I pulled at his arm to pull him close to me.
He came closer with no hesitation. He was right, I hadn't considered what it was doing to him and now that I could see it, I wanted to ease it. He rested his hand on my chest and I rubbed his head, trying to sooth him as he did for me the night before.
We sat like this for a while until the Doctor came in to let me know I could go home. We still hadn't found out what Carmen injected me with, but Liam found the syringe and it was sent for testing.
Three weeks later...
Things had been good the last couple weeks; however we were still on our guard with James. Carmen was in jail awaiting a hearing for what she had done to me. Edward was using the full force of the law against her, which surprised me, considering their history.
Edward made his trip to Sweden, but I decided to stay home. His security team made sure I was safe, though it irritated Edward to no ends. I assured him I would be fine, I just needed some normalcy.
Tomorrow was Valentine's Day, so Alice thought it would be a brilliant idea to go shopping for lingerie. Shopping wasn't really my thing, but I knew that I needed to feel like I was doing something since I hadn't really left the house much except to go to work.
We were currently in some lingerie store in downtown Seattle. They had a play section, which immediately caught my attention. I tried to play it off like I wasn't looking, so Alice wouldn't question me, but I saw some things I would love to buy to try with Edward.
Who would have known I would enjoy his pleasure this much? I found myself engrossed with a leather get up. The thought of dominating him, was so intriguing. I had gotten so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice the strange way Alice looked at me.
I shook the thoughts out of my head and blushed, wondering what she was thinking.
"I don't think leather is really Edward's style." Alice giggled.
"I think he would like it." I fingered the outfit once more.
"I'm trying not to picture that side of my brother." Alice rolled her eyes, dragging me away.
I made a mental note to come back here. We paid for our purchases and when I say we, I mean everything Alice picked out. One of Edward's many security guys was waiting out front holding the door to a large SUV open for us. We climbed inside and Alice was babbling about dinner tomorrow.
Tuning her out, I picked up my cell to see if Edward had texted or called, but there was only a few messages from my aunt, wishing me a happy Valentine's Day. Disappointed I leaned back in the seat and threw the phone back into my bag.
Edward would be home tonight and I missed him. He had to go to Chicago for a stock meeting. I was invited, but I declined, I had my own business to run. James hadn't been found yet and I knew that worried Edward like crazy.
Carmen wouldn't give us any details about what he was planning or where he was. All I could do was hope for the best and that the police or Edwards people would be able to find him.
"Bella?" Alice saying my name brought me out of my musings.
"Yeah?" I said as if dazed.
"Have you heard a thing I've been saying?" She pouted.
"I'm sorry Alice; my mind is all over the place. What were you saying?" I tried to compose myself.
"I was talking about Cullen Enterprises Valentine's dinner tomorrow. Aren't you excited?" Alice bounced in her seat.
"I guess." I shrugged.
"Bella you need to get out of this funk you're in. I know a lot has been happening, but you gotta live your life baby." Alice patted my knee.
We drove to our respective places but, the penthouse seemed rather quiet. Maybe we needed a pet. Perhaps get a dog, a cute one. I placed my purse on the table by the stairs.
I heard a noise coming from upstairs and it startled me. None of the lights were on. I opened the front door to find Karl, one of the security men standing there.
"I heard something upstairs, could you check it out?" I tried to make sure there was no fear in my voice.
"Of course ma'am." He nodded and headed up the stairs.
I waited anxiously for him to come back down. He returned moments later with a huge grin on his otherwise stone looking face.
"There was a window left opened in the bedroom, but I closed it. Must have been the wind. All is secure." He saluted me and waked out the door.
I didn't leave a window open, did I? So much had been going on, it could be possible. I know sometimes at night I get up and open the window. I grabbed my bags from the bottom of the stairs and made my way to our bedroom.
After placing the bags in a secure location in the closet I headed back downstairs, pausing briefly at the playroom door. Since Edward found Carmen tied to his cross, he hasn't been in there. He actually had everything replaced; he didn't want to think that she might have tainted our toys. It made me laugh when he had told me, like we were children.
The house phone began to ring so I hurried to the bottom of the steps to answer it.
"Hello?" I asked out of breath.
"Hey its Rose, I want your opinion on this dress I bought for the dinner tomorrow, could you come down and see it?" Rose sweet voice filled the phone.
"Um, I really wanted to start dinner. Edward will be home in a couple hours." I babbled into the receiver.
"Oh please Bella, it will only take five minutes." Rose pleaded.
I could see my purse moving on the table, meaning my cell was vibrating inside of it. I flung open the bag to see I had received a text from Edward.
Hey beautiful, my meeting ran later than expected, I won't be home until the morning. I love you* E
I sighed and told Rose I would be up. After 30 minutes of watching Rose whirl and twirl in her red satin dress a million times, I excused myself and headed back upstairs to my penthouse. When I unlocked the front door I was greeted by my handsome fiancée.
He was standing at the foot of the stairs dressed in silky black shirt with the buttons undone his sculptured chest on display and some baggy pants and bare feet. His hair was its usual unorganized mess. It had been seven days and no Edward. I'd missed him.
The smile that graced his face took my breath away and sent me running into his arms. He held onto me like I weighed nothing at all. Our lips collided so very needy and wanting. We just kissed for what seemed like forever until we both needed air.
When he pulled back he raked his hands over my cheeks with a smile so bright, it made me feel giddy inside.
"I missed you Bella." He kissed me once more.
"I missed you too." I could feel the tears coming on.
"Why are you crying?' He asked with a sweet look on his face.
"I don't like when we are apart, it hurts." I admitted.
"I know". He pulled me into his chest and held me.
We stood like this for a while, just looking at each other; embedding the others features into our minds. It had been such an exhausting few months, considering we had gone away for a while. I just wanted them to find James and have this over, that uncertainty was driving me crazy!
"I got you something." I looked up and smiled at him.
"You did?" He smirked.
"Uh huh, but you'll have to meet me in the playroom in 15 minutes to see it." I winked.
"The playroom huh? I think I like the sound of that." He kissed my forehead.
I turned away from him and he swatted my ass as I ran up the stairs. I giggled and he laughed. I made my way to my room and took the bag out of the closet. While Alice had retrieved the car, I'd gone back inside the shop and bought the leather outfit.
I knew Edward would love it and we needed a good distraction from all the stress. So I slipped it on and tried to adjust my hair. I looked myself over in the mirror and felt confident in my choice.
The top was a leather corset that fit snugly on my curves with a halter type top. It laced up in the back, but was easy to tie myself. I slipped on the knee highs which I attached with garter belts and a g-string. I put on some red lipstick and fussed my hair once more before slipping on black stilettos.
Edward had shown me a similar outfit on the internet that he would love to see me in. I hope he would be gaping when I entered the room. As I tried not to trip in the heels down the hallway, the playroom door was slightly open.
I took a deep breath and held my head high as I strutted into the room. Edward was leaning casually against the bed post. All he had on was a white towel wrapped around his waist.
At that moment looking him up and down, I wasn't sure who was in a position to look sexier, he by far won in my eyes. He watched me carefully from his position, eye fucking me, which in turn made my stomach flip.
He licked his lips and walked over to me. Without words he stood in front of me, appraising me.
"Is this my gift?" His voice dark.
"Yes." I said pushing my shoulders back.
"I love leather on you, very much. Do you have any idea how fucking sexy you look right now?" He moved his hand to the back of my head and pulled my hair in his fist, forcing my head back.
His teeth grazed my neck as he bit down gently. His tongue skimmed down my cleavage and an involuntary shiver coursed through me. I could feel my legs turning to jello. He must have felt it too because he stopped and pushed away from me.
When I looked up at him his eyes were black and his face looked incredible sexy with the stare he was giving me. He dropped the towel from his waist exposing his large erection to me. I licked my lips out of habit of seeing him like this.
Would the attraction of his hard muscular body ever fade? I hoped not. He returned to me and wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Wrap your legs around me." His husky voice demanded.
I jumped up and attached myself to him. His lips collided with mine and we kissed with rough intensity as he pushed me up against the wall. I was digging the heels of my shoes into his ass and he groaned, pushing his pelvis into me.
"When I see your lips so red all I can in vision is them sucking my hard cock." He groaned.
I whimpered just knowing how much I loved to go down on him. It turned me on to make him feel so good.
"Do you like the thought of my cock in your mouth Isabella?" He asked.
"Yes." I breathed out.
He slowly placed me back on the ground and it took me a minute to regain my balance.
"On your knees." He ordered.
I could feel the wetness tickle down my thigh at his words. How I had missed his dominating side.
I did as I was told.
"Open your mouth and take me in." Seduction radiating his tone.
I took his dick in my hands and pulled it into my mouth. He let out a sexy moan and I flicked my tongue over the head. I began to move him in and out of my mouth slowly. I felt him fist my hair in his hands.
"I want to fuck your mouth with my cock, get ready!" He told me more than asked.
I had learned to control my gag reflex with him, so I allowed him to shove his throbbing erection in and out of my mouth with great force. I knew he needed this type of release or even this kind of control. I could deny him of nothing.
So I bobbed my head along with his rhythm. I reached my hands up and cupped his balls, manipulating them with my hands. After a few minutes of him moaning and groaning and I could feel him tightening. His release was coming.
He threw back his head and screamed my name as cum streamed from him into my mouth. I took it all in stride, knowing he would give me mine in return. Once his body stopped shaking, his eyes were hazy and looking down at me. He pulled me up from the floor.
He pushed his tongue into my mouth. He twirled me around, pushing me against the wall. His fingers worked quickly to remove the ribbons from the corset. He just about tore it from my body. He picked me back up and carried me to the bed. He spread my ankles and crawled between my legs.
With a devious grin, he began to lick up my thighs, removing the garters, slipping the knee highs down. He moved the g-string to the side and slipped his tongue into my soaking wet folds.
He flicked his tongue over my throbbing clit, teasing it with gently nibbles, causing my body to come off the bed. He knew this made me cum the hardest and quickest. He kept taking it between his teeth and grazing it softly then sucking with his lips. The orgasm hit me without warning, sending my entire being into overdrive.
Once I came back to reality I turned to see a smiling Edward. How I have missed him in his absence.
"So soon to be Mrs. Cullen, what did I do to deserve such a sexy costume?" He inquired while sucking on my nipple.
"That." I groaned.
He looked up at me and smiled, removing his mouth and hovering above me.
"I love you Bella." With that he kissed me senseless and we had hard rough sex all night.
The next day I awoke in my comfy bed to the sound of Edward humming in the shower. I climbed off the bed, tossing the covers and crept to the open bathroom door.
He had no idea I had entered so I watched him as he washed his body. The soap dripping all foamy down his tight body. I could feel my mouth watering. He was a sight to see. However I was feeling rather sore from our previous interludes, so I declined trying to do anything extreme right now.
I watched as he gripped his dick in his hand to soap it up and lather, but then he did the sexiest thing, he began to stroke it. He leaned his forehead against the tile, resting his free hand on the wall. I watched as his hand moved up and down his member and how he tightly closed his eyes.
It was so erotic watching him getting off that I couldn't help but slip my own fingers down my now drenched pussy. I watched how his hand moved and I moved mine at the same time, pretending that his hand was my pussy walls clenching over his hard erection, while I imagined my fingers being the head of his cock, teasing me, relentlessly.
He threw back his head then, I thought of my riding him because he liked that and I normally gained that expression when I knew I was doing it the way he liked. He was going to cum; I could see how tightly he was gripping the head.
He began to scream out my name as his cum hit the tile wall and dripped down into the water. That's all it took for me to lose all sense of control and I came violently on my fingers, yelling out his name. My eyes were closed, but when I reopened them, there were intense green ones watching me.
I could feel my face burn and he just simply turned off the shower and grabbed a towel. He walked over to my position at the sink and lifted me off the floor, placing me on the counter top. He spread my legs apart and stood in between them. He just smiled as he touched my cheek with the back of his hand.
"Well good morning beautiful. Can I get that type of greeting every day?" He smirked kissing my lips.
"Only if you're a good boy." I teased kissing him back.
"Oh Bella you know I'm not good, I'm very, very bad." His expression seductive.
"Just the way I like you." I giggled and he pulled me off the counter.
"Let's have some breakfast. I promised my sister to have you ready by a certain time." He winked.
I left him in the bedroom so I could see if Mrs. Barker had prepared anything. I made my way to the kitchen to find her in front of the stove cooking bacon. It smelled wonderful. I took my place at the island and grabbed a cup of coffee.
"Good morning Mrs. B." I said over my coffee cup.
"Good morning Ms. Bella, how are you today?" She asked without turning from the stove.
"I'm doing great and you?' I smiled.
"Wonderful dear, thanks for asking."
A few minutes later Edward entered the room wearing some jeans and a blue sweater. He looked yummy. He smiled in my direction, taking a seat next to me grabbing his own mug. Mrs. Barker placed two plates down in front of us and we began to eat in silence.
I kept catching him staring at me, feeling giddy that he was stealing glances. It was like high school in a way. Eventually we finished up our breakfast and Alice was at the front door. I kissed Edward goodbye and Alice promised to return me in better condition than she took me.
I spent the day with Alice at a spa; little did I know Edward concocted the whole thing. He wanted me to have a day of beauty treatment and pampering. Sometimes I felt like he was always pampering me.
After getting our hair and nails done we set off to Alice's penthouse. I slipped on my red silk gown and admired myself in the mirror. It had a deep V-neck with an empire waist. The straps twisted over my shoulders, while the back was a crisscross. My hair was pulled up in a fancy bun with a few pieces of loose hair framing my face. I had to admit; even I thought I looked beautiful.
My makeup was natural with ruby red lipstick. I slipped on my sling back heels, which were also red with encrusted stones in the front. I was pretty sure the gems were real, but who was I to say? I just wear what Alice picks out. If it were up to me, I would be in flats.
"Bella its time." Alice beamed at me as she walked into the room.
I looked at her reflection in the mirror and couldn't help but feel a little envious. As beautiful as I must look, Alice was exceptional. Definitely Edward's sister. She was adorned in a dark crimson color dress with her hair side parted and dark smoky eye makeup. She looked like a super model about to walk the runway.
"Alice you look amazing." I admired as I turned to look at her.
"We both do. Edward won't be able to keep his hands off you!" She smiled grabbing my hand, leading me down the stairs.
Has I descended I saw Edward standing at the bottom in his black suit with a red tie and a red rose pinned to his jacket pocket. In his hand he held a box with a matching rose in it for my wrist. He gasped slightly I assumed he was pleased with my dress.
I carefully made my way down, trying not to fall. His smile was blinding as he stared at me with such love and admiration, I couldn't help, but blush.
"You look very handsome." I smiled once I reached him.
"You look beyond words, perfect." He shook his head, kissing my cheek, leading me out of the apartment.
We arrived at the venue for the party some time later. Edward was meeting and greeting people while I tried to talk to some of the people I knew. A lot had changed since I worked there. Bree and Seth got engaged, while Kate and Garrett had snuck off to Las Vegas and eloped a few weeks back.
Embry finally got the nerve up to ask Emily out and they have been inseparable since. Even Leah had found a good girl for herself; it seemed everyone's lives kept moving forward, even with all the drama that has been going on in mine. They all had no idea, which made Alice's words ring true, I can't stop living because life just keeps going.
So tonight would prove to be a test for me.
"I don't want to share you with anyone tonight. I want you all to myself. If I had my way, I would throw you over my shoulder and take you home, having my wicked way with you." A soft velvety voice flowed through my ears as his arms wrapped around my waist.
"I would love nothing more." I giggled and turning to face him.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him softly on the lips. If I died tonight, I want to go just like this.
"Dance with me." He smiled pulling me to the dance floor.
I took his arm and we walked to where the other couples were forming. He smiled like a child at me, wrapping his arms around my waist, pulling me close to his body. I circled my arms around his neck. I could smell his cinnamon scent and I was overly intoxicated.
"I love you and this moment it's just you and me." He said before he placed his burning lips to mine.
It was like in a movie where the camera rotates as you stand still in the middle of a big empty space. But this space was anything but empty.
"Let's go home." He whispered as he pulled away.
I nodded my head and took his hand as we walked to grab our coats. We waited for the valet to bring around our car and Edward sped off to the penthouse.
All the way up to the door we kissed and fondled each other like teenagers. Once we were able to break apart, Edward fumbled with his keys to unlock the door. He swept me up bridal style inside. I giggled and he nuzzled my neck.
Once inside the darkened house, he placed me on my feet, but the light switched on to both our surprise.
"Well look who decided to come home." There sat James in our living room at a table in a suit with the tie undone.
"How the fuck did you get in here?' Bella go to my office now and lock the door, call Liam." Edward's tone raw, stern and official.
"I'm not leaving you with him Edward." I said shaking violently from the nerves in my body.
"She seems to like you a lot more than that other guy. That's a damn shame though, cause you won't get to enjoy her." James gave Edward an evil grin.
"You will not lay a hand on her. I will kill you first. Bella go!" Edward shouted.
I ran to the office, feeling sick to my stomach. I fumbled with the phone, but was able to get Liam. I told him James was there and he told me to stay where I was, but how could I? The man that I loved more than my own life was in the living room with that vile man.
I could hear them fighting, a lot of commotion going on in the living room. I was scared; I had to make sure Edward was alright. I grabbed the poker from his fireplace and ran to the living room. That's when I was froze in place.
James had a gun in his hand and pointing it straight at Edward.
"She will love me or she will not love anyone." James growled at Edward.
"Please don't!" the words slipped from my lips.
James caught sight of me then and gave an evil grin.
"So you have decided to rejoin the party." His voice mocking but menacing.
"Bella get out of here." Edward yelled at me.
"Kill me, not him, me. He did nothing wrong, leave him alone!" I cried.
"You really love him?" James asked tilting his head.
"Yes." The tears pouring down my face.
"Well then you watch him die and feel the pain of not having him anymore, just like you have done to me. I loved you Bella, but no, you just couldn't love me back, but you will once he's out of the picture."
With that he fired the gun and Edward dove in front of me. I watched in slow horror as James pulled the trigger and the bullet came straight toward us, hitting Edward dead in the chest. Everything after that was a blur.
Edward's body jolted backward causing us both to hit the floor and the next thing I know Liam's team is busting down the door and they tackle James to the floor. But it's too late, there's blood everywhere.
"Edward look at me!" I screech as I hold his face between my hands, resting his head on my lap.
"You looked beautiful tonight." He smiled as he closed his eyes.
"Don't close your eyes, keep talking to me, keep looking at me! I love you so much!" The cries roared from my chest.
But he was not opening his eyes and I could feel his body go limp.
"NO!" I screamed high into the night...
What do you think?