EDWARD
I really didn't want to leave Bella, but I just coudn't handle seeing her. She makes me worried... she's always falling down, on the other side maybe she'll be more gracefull when she's turned.
I slowly helped Bella into my car, I have to take her to the House of Night right away... or she'll die.
I just don't know how I'll ever leave her after how much we've been through.
As she got in the car I heard her cry quietly, oh I feel so bad! But it's good for her to be around vampyres that don't have to kill to live.
I refuse to talk to her while she's feeling like this. " Edward!" She yelled as I pulled out in front of another car. We barely made it without getting hit... that'll probably get me a ticket later.
I pulled into the House of Night in Forks, it was a beautiful old building, it was a nice enough place after all. I may be able to leave her, she'll make new friends... maybe even get a new boyfriend. I would have to leave her.
I had made my decision. But it just didn't feel right. I opened the school doors for her,and ran to my car not looking back. Those other vampyres would not appreciate me being here.
She walked in. I can't believe I'm leaving her so dramatically. Why doesn't it feel right? I took my car home and decided I wanted to run down to a hotel in Seattle for a few days.
No stress was what I was hoping for, but I couldn't get her off my mind, I imagined her sitting in her dorm, talking to her roomate.
I felt empty inside just as I had before I met Bella... I need to forget her!
I walked along the road, and an older man with shaggy clothes was sitting on a bench looing tired and hungry. I could hear his thoughts,he was poor, I handed him a few dollars to go buy dinner.
Wow, I never really paid much attention to the world around me since I met Bella.
This changes everything... my whole life. Until years from now when I meet another girl that is perfect for me. I'll be over protective... then leave her to.
She won't be as amazing as Bella though, not as pretty, and will the world even exist when another girl like Bella is meant to be around? All questions I ask myself... but don't know the answers to.
How can I be so heartless? I'm a monster just like I always told Bella... I can imagine that she hates me now.
I won't bother visiting her... she won't want to see me anyway.
Oh wow I smell a vampire, very strongly. It's near me... it knows I'm here.
I can't read its mind... is it like Bella would be if I turned her? Now I'm thinking about her again, I need to get her off my mind.
No way it just can't be like her! I ran towards the smell...