Note: STRONG WARNING!

I went into detail by describing how Olivia got abused. PLEASE; PLEASE feel warned and don't read, if you're sensitive about this topic. And PLEASE DON'T READ and complain after wards.

CAUSE IT IS YOUR OWN RESPONSIBILITY IF YOU'RE READING IT OR NOT!

After Olivia calmed down a little bit Elliot loosened his hold around her and tried to look into her eyes.

"Liv, please talk to me. I wanna help you."

Olivia couldn't look into his eyes she wanted to talk to him but she just couldn't stand his view, but she didn't wanna lose body-contact either.

"Can you sit next to me?", she asked shyly.

Elliot turned around and sat next to Olivia, she took his arm and snuggled onto his chest. Elliot laid his arm around her and pulled her softly into an embrace.

Olivia sighed deeply and began to talk.

"He was smiling and asked me if I wanna touch his penis. I was scared, it felt wrong, I didn't know why. I thought my mum would be mad that he spent so much time with me. He took my hand and said: 'You don't have to be scared, everything will be fine, you'll see you'll gonna like it.'

He laid my hand onto his penis and told me to stroke it, like he stroked me before. I did it, he got aroused and I flinched back I thought I've hurt him cause he started to moan. He took my hand and laid it back onto his penis he said that everything is fine and that he is groaning cause he likes so much what I'm doing. He closed my hand around his penis and told me to stroke harder and then he told me to kiss it. I said no, but he told me that I don't have to be scared and that he shows me what to do. He made me lay back and pushed my legs open he started to kiss and to lick me. It was so weird Elliot, it didn't hurt or anything, it just felt wrong and I had a bad conscience. I felt moisture between my legs and I thought I had peed. I was scared that he would be mad that I had peed into his face. I told him that I'm sorry that I have peed. He started to laugh and said that I didn't, that it is so wet down there cause I like what he is doing."

Elliot swallowed hard and pulled Olivia closer into his chest.

"Then he told me to do the same with his penis now. I said that I don't want to, he turned around and laid onto me, he was right in front of my face and said: 'Olivia, you have to be a good girl and you have to do what I say, or I have to tell you're mum that you have stolen the 20dollars she was looking for.' My Mum was searching money a few days before, she didn't blame me, she knew I would never do something like that, but I knew when Bill would tell her I was it, she would kill me no matter if did it or not. I started to cry and told him that I didn't take the money and he said that he would not tell her, if I would do what he wants."

"He took the money so he had something on his hand to blackmail you!", Elliot sighed.

"Yeah!", Olivia swallowed hard.

"I started to kiss him, he told me to take it into my mouth and to play with it like it would be a lollipop. I did it, but I started to cry. He made me stop, first I thought he would hit me cause he was really mad, but then he pulled me into his arms and was rocking me back and forth and he stroke my hair. He talked to me and told me that everything would be fine and that I don't have to be scared. He started to stroke down my body and then he put his hand between my legs, he was still rocking me in his arms when he started to stroke me there. Suddenly there was a sharp pain between my legs. I screamed, but he hold his hand over my mouth, he told me that the pain would go away, that it would only hurt the first time. He had pushed one of his fingers into me."

Olivia felt that her hair was wet she turned around and saw Elliot in tears. They were working together since more then ten years and she never saw him crying.

"I'm sorry Liv." He wiped his tears away. "Please go on you have to talk about it."

"No Elliot, I don't have to tell you! I can go looking for a therapist you're not the one who have to listen to me."

"Liv, I couldn't protect you back then, all I can do is helping you now. Please, let me do this. I have to. I have to be there for you now. Please!"