After they laid down Elliot started to wander down Olivia's body. He opened her pajama and started to kiss her left breast. Olivia couldn't believe what just happened, she really is in bed with Elliot and he is kissing her and touching her. She closed her eyes and concentrated on Elliot's hands which were stroking her belly now and then she felt him pulling her pants down. He carefully spread her legs apart and started to kiss her between them.

"NO, please stop!", it came so suddenly over her lips that she couldn't stop herself. Elliot flinched back and stopped immediately.

"Liv, what's wrong? Did I hurt you?", he was alarmed.

Olivia started to panic. He was crushing her, she couldn't breath. "You're to heavy! Please get off, please get off."

Elliot was shocked and he wasn't sure what happened. "Liv, I'm sorry."

"Please, please get off." Olivia tried to push Elliot away.

"Liv, I..." "No! please get off, please, please. I don't want this, you're hurting me. Please, please get off."

Elliot jumped off. "Liv, what the hell happened? I thought you wanted this as much as I do."

Olivia sat up and tried to breath, her throat was closed and she thought she would suffocate.

Suddenly Elliot knew what happened, she had a flashback. She thought she was a child again and Bill would force her to have sex with him.

"I'm sorry El, I'm so sorry. I don't know what happened, all the sudden I was so scared and I just wanted you to stop. I felt so overpowered. I don't know what's wrong.", Olivia was sobbing.

Elliot was standing at the front of the bed, he wanted to comfort her but he wasn't sure if she was ready to be touched again. "Liv, you had a flashback."

"What?", Olivia looked confused.

"Liv, you flashed back to the time when Bill abused you.", Elliot sat down at the edge of the bed and made sure to keep a big distance between them.

"No Elliot, I... Oh my god you're right. I had a flashback."

"Are you okay?", Elliot asked carefully.

Olivia closed her eyes for a moment. "Yes, I think I'm okay. I'm sorry Elliot."

"Don't be, it isn't you're fault."

"Oh my god how stupid is that. We're partners since more than a decade and we never touched each other in an inappropriate way and the moment we get close, I freak out and scream at you.", Olivia was shaking her head.

Elliot started to smile. "Well, you could have just told me that you wanna keep the just-partners-thing alive."

Olivia smiled wryly. "I think what I need the most right now is a friend not a lover. That sucks, doesn't it? You are free and I can't stand to be touched."

"It's okay. After all this years we're pretty good in being friends.", Elliot said.

"Elliot, can you just hold me in you're arms a while, like we did it yesterday?", Olivia asked shyly.

Elliot turned around laid on the bed and leaned his upper body against the bedhead, he opened his arms and Olivia snuggled onto his breast. He kissed her hair but in a just-friends way and said: "So, what are we gonna do today, do we stay in bed all day?"

Olivia started to laugh. "Elliot, sometimes I just wanna hit you!"