Notes: Well, I've been working on Complexity almost non-stop in what little free time I have for the past few days (sorry to those who are waiting for updates of my other fics; I don't think I can meet your demand until I've completed at least 50 000 words). This little baby crept up on me when I was writing part two. Just a little snippet.
Title: a pain that will never fade
Pairing: Quil/Embry
Prompt: losses
Words: 420 words
Disclaimer: The Twilight series is in no way mine; it belongs to Stephanie Meyer, and I'm definitely not her since I'm not filthy rich and am writing fanfiction.
. a pain that will never fade .
Embry had quit believing that he had any hope left of ever getting back any sense of happiness in his life. He'd stuck around La Push throughout his childhood and into his teen years because of a sense of obligation to his mother, and from there, a slight sense of belonging when he'd met Quil and Jacob.
Though it was probably mostly Quil; he'd felt an instant connection when he'd been introduced to him, and that had carried on from there and grown into something else, something more, in their teenage years.
What Embry hates the most is the fact that imprinting has practically destroyed his life. He could deal with Jacob's imprinting, since he and Jacob had never been more then just friends; he'd even been supportive of the whole imprinting on a leech thing. For him, the hardest thing to deal with was that it had taken away Quil from him.
Quil had been the most important, and only, person in Embry's life for years. It had grown to the point where he just couldn't picture himself with anyone else. It was like Sam and Leah all over again, only it was between two men and no one talked about it at all; it was one of those forbidden subjects.
Embry hates it, and he wants out.
He wants out so badly that he'd even seriously considered offering to take Seth's place as the Volturi's prisoner just to get away. Of course, the young wolf turned him down; Seth knew that Embry just wanted out, he wanted to get away from Quil and all of the memories attached to Forks and La Push; memories of good times which only served to pain him more.
"Your place is here. I don't know… I've just got a feeling that it's gotta be me who's the one to go."
Any maybe Seth was right about that, but Embry can't see himself just imprinting on some girl and settling down from there. He doesn't think that any plain girl could ever measure up to Quil; to him, there wouldn't be anyone else.
Or, at least, that's what he tells himself when he's alone in the dark of his room and dealing with the constant threat of breaking down. But… if Seth is right, then that means that there's somewhere out there for him too, but it's not something that he likes to think about, because it just means one more severed connection.
He doesn't want to have to deal with anymore loss.
FIN.