So this chapter might be weird... but i pictured it=P Please let me know what you think! thanks for r+r! By the way Jack is already the Joker, but not to the fullest (you understand what i mean right?) Well anyways, the next chapter will probably help you understand this chapter better.

Lyrics mentioned: Eminem- Space Bound

May 19 our eight-year anniversary

I did not think Vanessa would remember our anniversary, especially since we had another fight yesterday. Therefore, instead of worrying, I focused on my plans for tomorrow with one of my new alliances, John Lombardi.

"Jack don't you already know your plans with Lombardi tomorrow?" She snaps.
"It's the Joker now…" I chuckle.
"You've looked over your plans a thousand times already"
"And you keep on looking at those beauty magazines" I respond and add, "You don't need them"
"I should have stayed at the mall…" She pouts.
"Then why didn't you doll face?" I said without looking at her.
"That bitch Shirley was there, she's had her eye on you"
"Then why don't you kill her?" I cackle.
"Just like you killed Jason…?"
"He was messing with my property," I mutter in anger, remembering how he hit on doll face. Suddenly she giggles,
"All he did was say wanna go out next Saturday and you shot him"
"Exactly… now shut up before I smack you shit" I snap.
"Jack… don't you remember what today is?" She asks.
"Trash day…?" I said, containing my laughter. She gets up from the couch and walks into the bedroom. The least thing I wanted to do was hit her again. She had a black eye because of me, and I almost messed up those beautiful lips of hers. I hated myself for hurting her, yet at the same time, it sent adrenaline down my spine whenever I heard her screams. She hurts my heart… and for that, she has to pay right? Less than five minutes have passed by, I already missed her. Sh*t… you have it bad Jacky ol' boy!
"Happy anniversary Jack…." She says. I slightly look at her; boy did she look good in that nightgown. However, you cannot let her know how weak she could get you Jack, act as if she has no effect on you.
"It's our anniversary huh…? You actually remembered," I said.
"Of course Jack why wouldn't I?" She asks. She walks up to me and snatches the papers from my hand. She sits on my lap and wraps her arms around my neck.
"Jack… it's our anniversary, lets not fight or anything" She says.
"Doll face I have better things to do than that" I said, pushing her away.
"You're impossible Jack…" She snaps.
"Boy have you been acting emotional lately…" I cackle.
"You know why Jack…" She exclaims.
"I don't even know if it's mine," I said. She takes the radio watch from the table and hits me with it.
"Jack how could you honestly doubt me… you're the only thing I've been honest to!" She yells. I stand up in anger and pull her by the arm.
"Sure you are… how about John, Harry and Steven?" I yell.
"Those guys were idiots that just talked to me! I can't even have other people talking to me without you freaking out!" She yells, boy did she look beautiful when she yelled at me like that.
"You would have killed them anyway!" I yell back, hitting her across the face with my fists. She falls to the ground and covers her face.
"Go ahead kill me… I know that will make you happy," She said… with no tears in her eyes to my dismay. I pull her by her arm and pick her up. I look into her eyes to see an emotion within them, but nothing! How could she hide her emotions so well! Did this woman have emotions at all!
"You think you know me so well," I mutter in anger. Blood ran down her lips. I could not help but want to kiss her.
"I hate you Jack, I never thought I could hate you so much," She mutters.
"And I hate you just the same doll face" I cackle. Just then, I see blood running down her legs.
"Jack I'm scared…" She cries, pulling me into her arms.
"Doll face please don't tell me you're losing…" I said in disbelief. Why couldn't you accept that she was crying your child? You were supposed to treat her like a queen, but instead, you treated her like shit. I pick her up into my arms and carry her into the car. I go to the back of the car and put her jacket on her.
"Jack you son of a b*tch… you got what you wanted" She says in tears. Sadly, her words hurt me deeply, and angered me.

"Don't worry Ms, we'll save your baby" One of the doctors says as they push her cart into the operating room.
"Whatever…" She says with no emotion. I hold her by her hand; she turns her gaze towards me.
"You're lucky I can't snatch my hand away from you," She mumbles.
"Call me anything you want, it doesn't matter to me," I said, in an attempt to make her feel better. She lightly smiles and says,
"Sure, since you got what you wanted, nothing matters anymore" She says.
"Stop acting like you're the victim here Vanessa" I snap.
"Can't you see she is in critical condition sir?" One of the doctors says to me.
"Who are you to tell me how to talk to my woman?" I yell at the idiot.
"Shut up for once Jack…" She says. They take her inside… away from me. I could not help but punch the wall in anger. I should go in there and kill her once and for all, yet I cannot bring myself to do it. I always leave her alive when we quarrel; I hate her for making my heart feel this way. Why don't you get rid of her once and for all Jack! What are you a coward...!

I love you so much it hurts

With you I have zero strength