AiriniWolf: The third chapter! I'm really really happy about it! :D I tried my best in this chapter and i included a lot of feelings. Well, hope ya like it! ;)

Disclaimer: I do not own wolf's rain... Only Airini and her bro... So boring! -.-

Chapter 3: Memories

I were just standing in Kiba's hands with my head leaning on his lap. I were feeling so... magical, feeling his body's heat. I were going to fall asleep if my body wasn't shaking so much from Kiba's running. But anyway, it felt so good! But after a few meters he started to slow down. I could see the champaign covered in snow in front of us.

"Can we stay here for the night" asked Hige, still holding my brother's hand.

Kiba was looking around, not watching his feet. I then felt my body falling down. I guess, he stumbled into a stone, and we both fell in the snow. He was on the top of me, with his eyes driven in mine. I could see the surprise on his face. I blushed and tried to hide it, but i couldn't. He then tried to get up.

"I'm sorry, i stumbled. Are you OK?" he asked worried and checked my whole body.

"Uhm..." i blushed again, this time worse. "I'm alright, no need to check."

Tsume rolled his eyes and gasped.

"Fine." said Kiba.

The moment in which Hige heard the word fine, he sat in the snow.

"I feel SO hungry... Who wants to go and take food?" he whined.

I bend over him and whispered.

"I'm going, but someone's coming with me!"

He then got up at once and shouted happily while bouncing.

"Well, let's go!"

I chuckled. I went back into the forest while Hige was bouncing happily and sometimes rubbing his body in mine. I think that we were going to have a future like best friends!

We were standing in front of the fire that Toboe made.

"I took some herbs for your wounds, Airi." he said carefully.

He sat next to me and started to defecate the deep wound on my cross. I growled in pain.

"Sorry, it'll hurt a little." he apologized through clenched teeth.

"It's fine."

Soon the five rabbits that we caught with Hige in the forest, were done. The bad was that they were five and we divided one with my brother. He ate the bigger part of it, i mean, he left for me only four mouthfuls, so my stomach started to rumble soon. I placed my arms around my chest to stop it, but i couldn't.

"Here, eat this." i heard Kiba's voice.

He was giving me a part of his rabbit. The bigger part!

"No, no! You should eat, that's enough for me." i said and my stomach rumbled so hard that the whole forest could hear.

I took the piece.

"Thanks." i said quietly.

I saw Kiba laughing under his breath.

Soon my stomach was full and finally it stopped rumbling. My brother was already asleep with his head in my lap. Everyone was asleep, but i were crying, tossing and turning all the time. I were thinking about my family and the man who killed them. I didn't know actually why, coz they didn't want to tell me. I remembered the man's words, before he pulled the trigger of his gun: "You'll pay for your sins!". He said that, but i didn't know why. I knew, everything happened because of me. I didn't listen to them and i got into big trouble. Actually, i were ignoring my parents all the time. We were arguing all the time and sometimes i were telling to myself: "I hate 'em. What a family is this?!". But when they died i realized that everything was just a madness. The only person who was supporting me all the time was my uncle. He was telling me stories about Paradise and how he met my aunt. She died while they were searching together. I knew only stories about her. But i knew that he loved her from the Earth to the Moon and back. And he didn't lose hope. He was thinking how she is still waiting for him somewhere in Paradise and they'll soon meet up there. These stories were making me happy, although my life was full of sadness. Anyway ,i couldn't stand with these boys anymore (but in the good way if there is). Finally, i decided to go, clear a little my mind and warm up at the fire. I stood up slowly, trying not to wake up my brother. I sat on the trunk in front of the fire. The tears were still falling from my eyes. I tried to whip 'em, but they didn't want to stop. The sorrow captured my heart and it didn't want to leave it. I tried to sob a little bit more quietly, it was like hiccupping.

"Airi, are you crying?" someone said behind me.

"Ugh?!... No! Just... There's something in my eye. Why are you not sleeping, Kiba?"

He sat next to me, but i didn't want to look at him.

"Suffering for you family... Am i right?"

I nodded. His voice was soothing.

"Well, you are with us now. We will protect you, like a pack..."

"No!" i shouted. "I'm not a part of your pack. Don't you understand?! I experienced too much to be a member of a pack again!"

"Why?! Why do you think so?!"

"My family's dead! I were attached to them! If i feel the same to you or anyone else, i'll not survive. I don't want this to happen! I come with you only because i want to find 'Paradise', i think that i'll find my family there. And we'll live a better life there. And maybe with you, guys! I'm so sorry, Kiba!" i was finally done.

I buried my face in my hands. I felt so guilty about everything.

"On top of that, Tsume hates me. And I guess, you blame me for what I did. We are an unnecessary load!"

I then felt something around my shoulder. I looked and... And i saw Kiba smiling at me with his arm on my shoulder. I giggled and blushed like a tomato. So magical and warm.

"Tell me... What happened with your family?" he asked with sad attitude.

"My life was really really hard. My father was an alcoholic, i think the he was cheating to my mom all the time. As for my mom, she had big problems at work. She was leaving home at 6.00 am and getting back at 10.00 pm. I couldn't see them a lot. And when we were together, we were arguing all the time. In front of my little brother! The only one who was supporting me all the time was my uncle. He was telling me stories about 'Paradise' who were making me happy. He was talking to me about my aunt who died in their search along to 'Paradise'. And he was waiting... Waiting for the moment when he's going to live a new life, a better life with her... In 'Paradise'!" i paused for a while and looked at the shining moon. "I wanna go there... I want to live!"

That's right! I wanted to live! That wasn't living! I wanted happiness. Right now, i needed someone who is like a pencil with an eraser, to write happiness and erase the sadness. But i didn't know if i'm going to get him, coz i've lost any hope. But you know that life gives you another chance everyday... It's called 'tomorrow'.