Full Emotion Fools
Shinji led Rei to the end of the hallway and, swiping Dewey's keycard, into the elevator. He pressed the lowest level button, knowing it would take him to the room where he had found Rei covered in the Scub.
"Shinji, your hand. . ." He suddenly relinquished his grip, which had become unbearably tight.
"I'm sorry, I–" Shinji turned away in shame. ". . .nervous." Rei took his hand, using it to turn his body toward her, and pulled him close. Shinji felt Rei place his hand on her lower black. Her cheek brushed against his in their loving embrace.
'I thought Rei was as tall as me.' She was so close now that Shinji could see that her eye line fell an inch or two below his. She smelled like LCL. 'I guess I don't hate that smell. . .not anymore.' Shinji squeezed when he felt Rei's breathe upon his neck. She kissed him there in response. And again, and again, till she made her way to his lips.
Lights flashed by, along with metal and wire, as the elevator descended and the two kissed. Shinji took the initiative this time, licking Rei's soft lips, hoping for entrance. She mirrored his actions, and soon she was on the attack. Shinji took a step back and his back hit the elevator wall, but Rei didn't let up.
"Ah!" Shinji put his hand to his lip as Rei quickly pulled away. She retreated so fast, that
her tooth had made a miniscule cut on the inside of Shinji's lip. He was about to ask why Rei had– but then he saw her bend down and begin panting. He took the few short step over to her, and squatted so he could see her face. "Rei, I'm sorry. What's wrong?"
"*pant* –squeezing *pant* –my fault," Rei managed. Shinji didn't think he had been holding her that tightly. Rei didn't think the pain on her back was worth mentioning. Of course it would hurt, only a few days ago she had been torn from the Scub Coral. 'But. . .it feels like a burning.' She pushed the thought from her mind.
Shinji straightened up with Rei, who immediately walked into Shinji's arm, expectantly. "We don't have to. . ." Shinji stopped himself, knowing that his body would scream at the denial of it's want. "We can wait till the elevator stops."
Rei stared at Shinji inscrutably for a few seconds, then rested her head on his shoulder. Rei's hands wrapped tightly over Shinji's arms and around his body. Rei felt Shinji take in a breath, about to speak, so she cut in first. "I love you."
"I love you," Shinji said, perfectly satisfying Rei's unspoken request. The elevator opened. Shinji broke free of Rei's hold, took her by the hand, and led her out into the large room. The two made their way to the bed.
"What are you looking for?" Rei asked.
"Oh," Shinji had been scanning the walls. He blushed. "There's one other elevator: that comes from the bridge hanger. No one will come from there today because we're in repair, not battle alert. But that door. . ."
"It leads both down and up, but by means of an escalator, not an elevator."
"It there a way to lock it?" Shinji asked.
"It is locked. Only the Commander, Vice Com., and Dr. Akagi have a key," Rei answered, as she placed her hands on both sides of Shinji's cheeks. Shinji turned to admire Rei's beauty, and her soft voice. "I don't want to worry about that. We're alone here, now...that's enough." Rei's hand drifted down Shinji's chest to lay loosely at her sides.
Shinji gulped. "M-may I?" Rei turned around so her back was to Shinji. She nodded. Shinji laid his hands upon her waist, feeling for the button to her school skirt. Rei felt it slip to the floor. He proceeded to her shirt, unbuttoning it from the bottom up. Rei's mouth stayed shut, but Shinji could feel her chest rising and falling at a rapid pace. It reminded him of the first "race", during a Nerv alert, between the two of them. When she had finally slowed down, at his request, her chest had heaved just like now.
Shinji was at the top button. Rei's back pressed against him, simultaneously encouraging him to continue, and showing how nervous she was about letting the shirt drop, which would expose her completely. Shinji gasped loudly, and Rei's eyes squeezed shut.
"Rei," there was question and comfort in Shinji's voice, which hid an all to noticeable fear. "Your back is. . ." Rei's shirt was still clinging to her fingertips. She quickly pulled away from Shinji, and pulled the shirt back on. A tear dropped from Rei's cheek and hit the floor.
'The scars. . .ugly, ugly, ugly. . .' It was almost too much for her. How could she believe for a second that they wouldn't matter to Shinji? That he could find her beautiful. . .But now, she was beginning to become angry. With Shinji! How dare he be offended by the scars– scars that proved her love for him! She had come back to this world because of him! To be with him! Couldn't he understand–
"Rei, your skin! The scars are gone, but your skin!" The panic in Shinji's voice plunged Rei into a deeper despair. She could feel it. All this time she had ignored it– willing it not to exist– but now it exploded in full force.
Rei let out a horrible shriek and ran toward the LCL tank. She put her back to the glass and turned over her shoulder. Slowly, she let her shirt fall. She gasped at the sight, and tears flowed freely.
Shinji had ran after her, but stopped a few steps short of Rei and the LCL tank. He watched as her shirt fell, then as Rei herself fell to her knees. He rushed to comfort her, but Rei yelled out, "Stay away from me!"
Shinji couldn't say anything. He stared, transfixed by the sight of Rei's transformation. Something was covering her back. It was similar to the whitish-grey Scub that had grown like a parasite to her skin; but this wasn't a growth. It was so tightly stretched across her skin, that the two were indistinguishable. And unlike the Scub, her back was a vibrant, sky blue.
Shinji couldn't ignore his disgust, but the mixed feelings of charity and curiosity toward Rei and her current state pushed it far from his heart and mind. Slowly, he approached Rei. "Don't!" Rei screamed. Her face was soaked with tears. She looked up at Shinji, and for a moment he wanted nothing more than to run away.
'I musn't run away. I musn't run away. I musn't run away. I musn't run away.' Shinji stretched out his hand, and Rei hit it away. He did it again, but again she swatted his love away. "Rei!" Shinji yelled with infinite sadness in his voice. She looked him full in the face.
One last time, Shinji reached out his hand. and placed it on her back. "Does that hurt?" Rei, too stunned to speak, shook her head. Shinji applied pressure, moving his hand up and down and across Rei's upper back. It felt harder than skin, like a shell or one large scale, but it wasn't tough at all. It was wonderfully smooth, and Shinji lost himself for a moment, moving his hand fluidly across Rei's new skin.
"You can't see," Shinji said calmly, "but in some places, like here, at your collar bone, and the spine, there are red markings: lines with circles at the end. They're the color of your eyes. . .and the rest of your back is the same as your hair."
Rei continued to look at Shinji, who thought that something was boiling beneath the surface of her countenance, but whether that was joy or sadness he couldn't tell.
"It's beautiful, Rei." Shinji couldn't bear to have Rei's look on him any longer, but, unwilling to relent, hugged her passionately, placing both of his hands full on her back. "You're so beautiful, Rei." Shinji cried out, "You're the most beautiful– to me– in the world."
Rei wiped her the tears from her face, then hugged Shinji back. "One more time." Her voice sounded strained from over use, or misuse. "Just one more time, Shinji."
"I love you."
"I love you, Shinji." Rei felt herself being lifted off the ground. She was aware fully, for the first time, that she was completely nude. After getting out of the hospital bed, in her haste to see Shinji, she hadn't bothered putting on any underwear.
Shinji was carrying her to the bed; Rei swallowed her embarrassment and let him. He laid her down as gently as he could, and positioned himself over her. "Shinji," Rei blushed, "you undress too."
"R-right," Shinji fumbled with his top button. Rei unhooked his belt. "You don't have to–" Shinji protested, but Rei had already started unzipping his pants. Shinji threw off his shirt, and bent down to kiss Rei. Awkwardly, he maneuvered out of his pants, and Rei laughed on the inside when he forgot to continue moving his lips.
"One sec," Shinji pulled away. He got off the bed, acutely aware of Rei's eyes following him. He took off his boxers, and got back onto the bed. But Rei had sat up, ready to meet Shinji with a kiss. For a moment, the two looked like they were wrestling– lips, hips and all– to see who would be on top. But then Scott pinned Rei's arms down, and kissed down her neck till he was sucking on her breast.
"Ah~" Rei collapsed backwards on the bed. "Ah~Ooo," she panted at Shinji's rough treatment. His kisses went from a sucking to a biting and back, and with his left hand he massaged Rei's other breast. It hurt as much as anything, but Rei wasn't about to tell him to stop. She settled for, "Switch. . ." And he did.
Rei spent the next minute or two trying to stay clear headed, but the sensations emanating from her chest were overwhelming. Then, on pure reflex, she mustered all her strength and kicked Shinji off of her. " *hphh* Oh, Rei. . ." Shinji clenched his stomach, kneeling at the end of the bed.
Rei was breathing heavily, and her hands were hovering over her sides. Shinji noticed and asked, still clenching his stomach but moving closer to Rei, "Did it hurt?" While massaging and suckling her breasts, Shinji had used his free hand to feel along Rei's back. The impossible feel of that blue skin was assaulting his mind, and slowly took over his thoughts, till he had to feel it again.
She realized afterwards that the reason she couldn't move during Shinji's ravages was because of her back's sensitivity. But Rei hadn't kicked Shinji away till his hand moved over her side, where her human and coralian skin met.
"No," she answered after a good pause. "It's just. . .raw." Rei could clearly see Shinji's penis, and she knew that Shinji was looking down, between her legs. "Can I touch you?" Rei grabbed Shinji's hand and placed it on her side. "I don't mind."
"Me neither," Shinji answered. He brought Rei's hand to his mouth and began to kiss it gently, while taking his other hand, and feeling her side. Slowly, and without breaking eye contact with Rei, looking for any sign of resistance or warning, he placed Rei's fingers in his mouth and licked her palm. Then, he brought it to his aching member, and Rei began to take the initiative.
Shinji, knowing a good deal about sex, didn't think that he was very impressive, but Rei, knowing enough about sex to realize where Shinji's penis would go, sincerely wondered how it was going to fit inside her. The wonder didn't degenerate into fear, but blossomed into a full blown lust. She wanted Shinji inside her now.
But she waited. She wanted to play with it, with him, Shinji, for a while first. She ran her fingers up and down his shaft, and gripped his balls gently. Shinji extended his upper body to kiss Rei's cheek and neck, while rubbing his palms upon her sides.
"I want to make love to you," Shinji whispered, and Rei immediately stopped her play. He moved his right hand down to Rei's entrance. As his fingers ran along her lips, both of them realized how wet Rei was.
"Is it alright?" Rei's voice showed her inexperience and worry. Shinji pushed his fingers in slightly, and Rei let out a squeal. She had half-way hoped Shinji would stop at that, but when he continued to push inside her with one finger, drag along her lips with another, and rubbing her clit with his thumb, she put both of her hands to her mouth to stifle her screams of painful ecstasy.
Shinji pulled his finger out, thinking that Rei wouldn't get any looser. "Do you trust me, Rei?" Her face red with heat, and a hand still over her mouth, she nodded. "Then it will be alright." Shinji turned Rei around so she was kneeling with her back to him. He placed his hand on her inner thigh and said, "Spread your legs, Rei, and bend over."
Hesitantly, but remembering that she truly did trust Shinji with her life, Rei moved her knees apart, and bent over so that her chest and face lay on the bed, while her ass stayed up, still bent on her knees. He wet his fingers, and felt Rei's pussy again, this time sticking two of his fingers inside her, one after the other.
Shinji couldn't believe he was doing this. In his mind, he kept repeating to himself, encouraging and cheering himself on, 'You mustn't run away.' He was doing all this for Rei. So that their first time wouldn't be too painful. He heard Rei let out another cry, this time she used the bed stifle the noise.
"Rei, the more you relax the less it will hurt." Shinji ran his hand along her back, and felt her loosen.
"It's ok," Rei said seriously. "I'm ready. Please come inside me, Shinji." Shinji took his fingers out, and pressed his hard head against Rei's entrance. "AH~!" But Shinji wouldn't let himself stop. "Ooowww!" Rei cried into the mattress. Shinji felt a barrier inside Rei, but he pushed passed it. And as soon as he did he felt Rei's whole body tighten more than ever, for a moment, then loosen magnificently. Rei was panting.
"I'm almost all the way in," Shinji informed Rei. He couldn't hide the ecstasy in his voice, but hoped that Rei couldn't tell how turned on he was by doing Rei from behind like this– getting a full view of her beautiful, blue back: it almost looked like it was glowing. "Just tell me when you're ready for me to move."
"*Hah*, *hah*, *hah*. . .Ok," Rei said, finally. "I'm not clenching am I? I can't tell now."
"I don't think so," Shinji pushed himself all the way in. "You're just really tight, Rei."
"What are...saying?" Rei mumbled. Even at a time like this, she was embarrassed at such a statement. 'So cute!' Shinji thought. And this thought revitalized him. He began pumping slowly in and out of Rei, making sure not to pull too far out or push too far in on any one pump.
But already, Shinji felt himself losing it. "Oh. . .Rei. I don't think...I'll be able to go on much longer."
Rei was trying her best not to cry out, but something in Shinji's voice told her it would be okay to confess what she thought was shameful. Shinji was making love to her. . .and yet, the pain. "It hurts!"
Her words were mixed with a yell, and Shinji couldn't tell if Rei was in pain, or whether she thought he was in pain– and that's why he couldn't go on. But it was too late now; too late to even pull out, this felt too good. "Rei! I'm coming!"
Rei relaxed as much as possible, and let Shinji quicken his pace, when she suddenly felt something erupt inside her. She felt the thing inside her flex once– twice– thrice– and she realized what had just happened.
"I'm sorry, Rei," Shinji apologized. He remained in Rei, hoping to savor the feeling of her soaking insides.
"Your seed...is inside me," Rei stated. Shinji heard her, but didn't know how to respond. Rei felt the generous liquid paste the walls of her vagina, and was happy that Shinji hadn't pulled out.
"Did it hurt?"
"Yes," Rei said truthfully. "It hurts now. But I feel so good. So happy. I want more."
Shinji moved his hand down to Rei's hips and around her waste. He felt for her clit, and said, "I'll make you feel good, Rei." He began to rub Rei's most sensitive spot, and was happy to hear squeals of ecstasy issue forth over and over again.
He began to become hard again, and Rei, feeling the thing inside her come to life, moved her hips back and forth, both to encourage Shinji to resume his love-making, and to playfully evade the fingers torturing her clit.
Shinji was feeling almost as raw as Rei, but he wasn't going to let this opportunity pass. "Rei," he panted as he thrust in and out of Rei, while stimulating her outside with his fingers, "I want to make you cum. Could you cum for me, Rei?"
"I don't–!" Rei screamed, but the different sensations were driving her mute.
"It's okay," Shinji comforted her. "It's welling up– right now."
"I feel–!" Rei placed her hand on top of Shinji's, still stimulating her nub, and tried to relax, "–like I'm going to burst. Don't stop, Shinji!" Without another word, Shinji quickened his thrust as he felt Rei take over and begin to play with herself. "Ah~ah~AH~AH~AAAAHHHHHH!" Rei arched backwards, and Shinji's cock slipped out of her, as she came in their hands.
When Rei had regained herself, she was no longer bent over, but kneeling erect with Shinji's hands around her stomach. She turned herself around, and lay down on the bed. Shinji remained kneeling, but bent over her, placing his hands on her breasts, and kissing her twice on the lips before pulling back to look at her amazing nude form.
". . .The most beautiful," Shinji whispered to himself. Even in her exhaustion, Rei heard him and managed to smile. She looked down at his member, which hung steadily near her entrance.
"You can release again," Rei didn't quite ask. But Shinji nodded. Rei spread out her arms, and opened her legs wider. "I want to be able to look at you this time."
"But," Shinji kicked himself for not ravaging her again immediately, "aren't you still hurting?"
Rei said simply, "I want you: now and always." Shinji gave in and pushed into Rei once again. "Soon. . .soon. . .soon...soon..." he kept saying, but he continued to push in and out of Rei.
Though she began to feel the strain on her body, Rei wouldn't allow herself to stop. She heaved and yelled freely now, not wishing to hide her pain or pleasure from Shinji anymore: hoping that he would know that each breathe and cry was a token of her love for him. "It's okay, Shinji," she sad through clenched teeth. "More...more...more!"
And with Rei's urging, Shinji felt that swelling up to the point of tipping. "I'm coming– Rei!"
"Shinji!' Rei's nails dug into his back, as she came with him.
Both exhausted and breathing heavily, Shinji managed to pull himself out of Rei and collapse next to her, while Rei pulled the covers out from under them. She snuggled in close to Shinji, trying to ignore the painful throbbing from between her legs, and wrapped them both in the hospital sheet.
Promising herself that she wouldn't let them stay there for more than an hour or two, Rei wrapped her legs around Shinji, who lay face up, as they both drifted into a deep sleep.