Chapter 5- Butterfly
When I woke up I felt different, I wasn't on the couch and there wasn't a warm head in my lap and no short soft hair in between my fingers instead my hands touching palm to palm under my face and I wasn't in the unusual comfort of Jacob's squishy bed instead I was lying down on a large bed which felt like I was on a really comfortable cloud and I was covered in silk sheets
"How the hell can she of gotten away from you?! You're a freaking vampire for gods' sake! How can you forget that?!" I faintly heard two people yelling at each other but I ignored what they were saying and rolled over and tried to fall back asleep when my eyes snapped open.
I'm not at Jacob's place anymore! How did that happen? As I thought about that I sat up and tucked my legs into my chest, closed my eyes and started banging my head against my knees getting harder and harder each time "Stop that" a soft, velvety voice said but I ignored it and banged my head as hard as I could against my knees repeatedly until two strong, icy cold hands grabbed either side of my face as I about to bang my head again and I groaned after a couple of minutes of trying to continue to bang my head but failed "I said stop that!" the voice said "Does it look like I care" I said keeping my eyes shut tightly as I tried to pull his hands off my face with all the force I could muster with my one good hand but it didn't budge "No but I don't care what you want or don't want at the moment, I'm trying to protect you from yourself so I suggest you stop trying to hit your head against your knees" the voice said "HA!" I shouted "Yeah right!" I said trying to pull away from the person but he wrapped one of his arms around my waist and pulled me roughly into his cold chest and my eyes flew open in shock but I only saw his chest "Get off me" I said trying to pry his arm off me with my good hand and I looked away from him as I tried to pry him off of me "Now… what happened here?" he asked teasingly as he grabbed my wrist just above my sore hand "Shut up and leave me ALONE!" I yelled and pulled my hand free and wriggled out of his grip and I ran to the other side of the room and sat down pulling my legs up and put my sore hand gently between my legs and my chest and as I looked at him for the first time and gasped softly at what I saw. Stood before me was a Greek god a man about 6'2", pale, messy bronze hair, lean, sharp jaw and cheek bones, full pinkish lips, topaz eyes and long, slender fingers, like he played the piano a lot.
As I was appraising his physical features he had moved towards me and was now squatting in front of me "You seem scared… of me?" he asked and I shook my head "then what?" he asked and I shook my head again "Come on… tell me" he pleaded in a soft voice and I was very tempted to tell but I just shook my head and rested the side of my face against my knees and I felt the tears start to slowly fall out of my eyes and across my nose and underneath my opposite eye then drop onto my jeans and I quickly wiped them away not wanting to cry in front of this… this… thing "Just go" I whispered "What?" this man said "I said just GO!" I yelled at him but he didn't move so I did, I stood up and walked out the balcony doors, although I didn't take any interest in what the room looked like, but I heard him walk up behind me and saw out of the corner of my eye him lean his butt against the balcony rail but I stayed looking out at the forest and the birds that cuddled into each others side "Where am I?" I asked after about 5 minutes of just silence between us two "You're home" the man answered "No I'm not… I'm at some strangers place, kidnapped… my home is in Forks with my friends and my house… this is just something I've been forced into… a life I'm not sure I want to live" I said softly as a lone tear slid down my cheek "Home is where the heart is" the man said "Yes and mine is dead" I said shutting my eyes "Besides I'm talking to a complete stranger who thinks I'm at home" I said and watched a butterfly come towards me so I stayed as still as possible and landed on my nose and I went cross-eyed as I watched it.
It slowly flap its' wings a couple times before it flew off "I sometimes wish I was a butterfly… I also remember my mother saying to my father that she wanted to be as free as a butterfly, before..." I stopped mid sentence as I didn't want to recall those events again, I sighed before turning to face the man still leaning against the balcony rail "You are free, if you want to be" he said softly moving closer to me and pulling me into a hug but I wriggled myself out and faced the forest again "I don't even know the first thing about you" I said calmly although on the inside I was screaming my head off "My name is Edward" the man said "I'm Bella" I answered looking at him from the corner of my eye "So what did you do to your hand?" Edward asked "Well… A guy tried to kidnap me and his excuse was, and this is funny as, and I quote 'repositioning you to your correct future' and 'I am helping you find your soul mate' I just laughed in his face and told him to get lost, basically" I laughed humourlessly "What was his name?" Edward asked frowning "Ah… Emmett I think… yeah Emmett that's it" I said "Anyway I punched him square in the side of his face" I said and rubbed my wrist of my sore hand "And now I can't open it… at least I did some damage… he got a small crack where I punched him but it disappeared quickly no scar no nothing" I said astonished "Oh…" Edward said dumbfounded "Edward?" I asked turning around to face him "Yes?" Edward asked "Where am I? Honestly" I pleaded with him with my eyes and my voice had a slightly desperate tone to it "Outside of Forks" Edward said and I knew that that was the closest to an answer that I was going to get so I dropped it "Do you… know… Emmett?" I asked softly while looking down "Sadly yes" Edward answered and then left without a sound and I walked over to the bed and sat down on the edge.
A couple of minutes later my door opened "You called?" Emmett sang and I glared at him "No but now that your here Emmett… when you took me… did you take my bags with me?" I asked and he nodded like a 4-year-old child who just got asked if they wanted some ice-cream and I laughed at him "Teddy bear" I mumbled under my breath "Am not!" Emmett yelled and I jumped 'Guess I didn't say that as low as I had thought' I thought to myself "Ok, ok… can you please get them for me?" I asked and he looked at me suspiciously "I'm not going to do anything with clothes, shoes, body wash, shampoo and conditioner, a toothbrush and a dream-catcher now am I?" I asked looking at him with a 'you have to ask' expression "Um… no?" Emmett asked like it was the hardest question in existence "NO!" I yelled while laughing and he finally got what I was asking and left and came back in just over 30 seconds "What? Were they right outside the door?" I asked incredulously and he looked confused and cocked his head to the side "Never mind" I sighed "Can I just have them?" I asked reaching out towards my 2 bags and they were right beside me in a flash "Ah… thanks?" I said unsure as I opened my backpack and took out my body wash and shampoo and conditioner along with my toothbrush then I took out my dream-catcher and put it at the top of the bed then grabbed my favourite top which was a beautiful midnight blue in colour, my favourite pair of jeans which were a pair of denim skinny jeans with rips over the right knee and left thigh and also my favourite pair of midnight blue flats. (AN:/ you can see the outfit on the polyvore website on my profile)
After I grabbed my toiletry stuff and placed my clothes out onto the bed I turned to Emmett who had watched me get my stuff out of the bag "Where's the bathroom?" I asked and he pointed to a blurry glass door right beside double doors which no doubt were the wardrobe "Thank-you… now please go" I said and shooed him out of the room and grabbed my pair of dark blue lace bra and black lace panties and put them on top of my clothes and walked into the bathroom with my toiletries.
After I washed my hair and body I felt high on the wonderful smells of my body wash and shampoo and conditioner mixed together, it just smells, for lack of better words, mouth-watering, and when I 'sobered up' I jumped out and wrapped the big fluffy towel around my body but it unfortunately ended at my upper-thigh. I grabbed the small towel and wrapped my hair up in it then cleaned my teeth and sprayed on some anti-persperant and walked out of the bathroom to get dressed only to be greeted by Edward standing there staring me up and down like I was a piece of meat then his eyes stayed glued to my chest and I cleared my throat "Done staring?" I asked taking my hair out of the towel and put the towel underneath my hair and around the back of my neck "Um… sorry" Edward said but we both knew that he wasn't sorry "Sure you are…" I said walking around him and grabbed my clothes but when I bent the tiny amount to get my clothes I felt the towel move up and if you look at a certain angle you would get the perfect view of my ass. At that same moment I also felt a pair eyes on me and I looked behind me only to find Edward staring at my ass so I took the towel from around my neck and covered my ass and Edward's eyes immediately went to my face "Told you that you weren't sorry" I said walking back into the bathroom and got dressed and when I came out I saw him talking in hushed tones with some blonde guy around 22 and with honey eyes "Hello random" I said with a small sarcastic smile "Are you the one here to tell me that I can go home?" I asked with a small amount hope "No… I'm here to look at your hand" the man said "I don't think so" I said pulling my hand against my chest "Unless you're here to tell me that I can go back to my place and continue going to school so I can graduate, go to college then from there either one of the 2 jobs choices I have planned, then you can piss off" I said and walked out onto the balcony and shut the doors behind me then sat down and slid my legs under the big-ish gap under the balcony rail and started swinging my legs slowly while I just listened to the sound of the forest, listening to the birds singing, the deer prancing fairly close to the tree line, the sound of a flowing river close by.
I stayed out here just relaxing, listening and I watched the sunset behind all the numerous trees of the forest and I stayed for hours after and I ignored the food that was left right beside me to eat, I just pushed it away but only grabbed the bread which I broke up, with lots of difficulty, and fed to the little birds below and I even had some hopping around me as I fed them and I laughed as I watched two tiny birds roll around and over each other as they tried to get the one piece of bread so I broke another slice off and personally fed it to the one that was loosing the 'battle'. "Are you going to come in anytime soon?" Edward asked for the millionth time "I'll come in whenever the hell I want" I snapped then suddenly I was pulled up so that I was standing and was turned to face Edward who looked angry as hell I looked over my shoulder and watched as all the birds flew away as fast as they could some even bumping into each other once in the air in their hast to get away "Look what you did" I yelled "I don't give a shit" Edward growled and dragged me inside "Yes you do and I'll do whatever the hell I want to, whether you like it or not!" I yelled as I was thrown onto the bed "I don't think so" Edward said angrily "Looks like someone's a bit pissy" I said and rolled over on the bed and jumped off the other side and walked over to the book shelf and grabbed the first book I touched and jumped back onto the bed and read the title and I was almost jumping with joy because I had grabbed one of my favourite books, Wuthering Heights, I started reading and ignored everyone, aka. Edward, and just zoned out as I read page after page of this familiar book. Suddenly the book was taken out of my hands "Hey!" I yelled annoyed "Are you even listening to me?" Edward asked outraged "Should I be?" I asked back "Yes" Edward yelled "Well then… no" I said and snatched the book back and continued reading until it was taken out of my hands and thrown onto the bedside table and Edward sat on top of me so that he was straddling my lap "Listen hard and listen good, you will do as I say, you will not ignore me when I'm talking to you and you will not back chat… do you understand?" Edward asked pinning my hands above my head and I stuck my tongue out at him but I didn't expect him to grab my tongue between his teeth then start kissing me!
I tried to keep my mouth shut but he just got one hand to hold both of my wrists and opened my mouth up by force with his now free hand but I just pulled away from him and turned my head to the side "Go away" I whispered as my eyes filled up with tears "Another thing to add to the list, you will not tell me what to do" Edward said before grabbing my chin and pulling my head towards him so I was staring into his eyes and he stared into mine but it felt like he was staring into my soul "One thing… I do as I please" I said trying to get my hands free "And I said go away" I whispered going limp as a tear rolled down the side of my face and into my hairline and I shut my eyes tight and wished for death.
Edward hopped off me and I rolled over and took in a deep shaky breath "What are you going to do to me?" I asked but all I heard was silence so I looked behind me and sighed when there wasn't anyone in the room so I decided to try get some sleep. After about an hour of not being able to sleep I grabbed a small blanket and wrapped it around my shoulders and walked out onto the balcony and put my arms on the rail and took a deep breath and closed my eyes and started singing a song I had made when I was around 10 in my head.
You tucked me in turned out the light,
Kept me safe and sound at night,
Little girls depend on things like that,
Brush my teeth, combed my hair,
Had to drive me everywhere,
You were always there when I looked back,
You had to do it all alone, make a living a home,
Must have been as hard as it could be,
And when I couldn't sleep at night,
Scared things wouldn't turn out bright,
You would hold my hand and sing to me,
Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder, who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream,
Wish you may and wish you might, don't you worry hold on tight,
I promise you there will come a day,
Butterfly Fly Away,
Butterfly Fly Away,
Got your wings, now you can't stay,
Take those dreams and make them all come true,
Butterfly Fly Away,
You've been waiting for this day,
All along you've known just what to do,
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away,
Butterfly fly away,
Butterfly fly away.
As I finished I sighed and watched as the few butterflies that came over to me as I sung flew away I sighed again before turning around with my head down as my eyes filled with tears and I sunk down to the floor and tucked my legs up to my chest and I broke out in sobs as I remembered teaching that song to grandma Swan and then her singing it to me when I couldn't sleep and sometimes we would just sit on my bed singing, I remembered her singing it to me just before she shut her eyes and died with a smile on her face, it all just made me cry harder and I cried till I eventually fell asleep like that.