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Chapter 12 – Trapped by a Human - Edward's POV

Why won't she even try to get to know me? I mean it wasn't me directly who kidnaped her… I was just the reason for it, okay that sounds bad but I love her and I can't help it! Every time she rejects me, pushes me away, runs from me as if I was out to kill her in the most painful way possible hurts… a lot. I didn't want her to hate me. I didn't want to 'brand' her like she was some farm animal but I had no control… every time that I'm with her she brings out an uncontrollable demon inside me. A possessive, dominant arse for lack of better words. I know that that isn't an excuse but I don't want to hurt he and I wouldn't hurt her intentionally. I just want her to open up to me. I want her to come to me with all of her life's problems and all of her latest conundrums and I tried getting to know her but when she feels like she's said too much she shuts me out, slamming the door as she goes. It's like she doesn't want anyone to know her but instead her mask, her façade. She doesn't want anyone to know about her past. I just don't understand her and it's only more frustrating that I can't read her mind. She herself is a conundrum but that's just what I love about her. She's smart, funny, confusing, selfless, frustrating, beautiful inside and out, generous, secretive and a real bitch at times but I love her because it's a part of who she is. She had no one else and I was here for her the moment I saw her that one day 6 years ago…

~Flashback~ (Bella is 12)

I was just walking through town, enjoying the short amount of time away from my family, sure I love them but sometimes you just need some time to yourself. I just walked past the elementary school, the bell had rung about a minute ago alerting the students that they could go home. I was walking past the gate to the school when brown, blonde and black flashed in my peripheral vision. I looked up and saw a beautiful brunette with sparkling brown eyes pulling a blonde and a black haired girl. The blonde girl was already wearing make-up even though they looked to be no older than 12 years old and her hair was pin straight. She also wore the most revealing clothes that Forks temperature's and climate allowed. I took an instant disliking to her. The girl with black hair was beautiful in a nerdy sort of way. She had thin black rimmed glasses and wore what she was comfortable in; jeans and a band t-shirt. Her hair seemed to have a natural wave in it in otherwise straight hair. Even though she was beautiful she had nothing on the brunette. The brunette's smile seemed to light up her whole face. Her eyes twinkled in happiness and her smile so wide it looked like it hurt. Her brown hair cascaded down her back in long beautiful waves. Despite her small body and her young age she had curves. Very delicious looking curves too! 'No Edward! Stop thinking like that! She's only a minor! Besides you're a vampire and she's a human. It would never work out and you will hurt her!' I mentally chastised myself as I watched the brown-haired brown-eyed beauty pull her friends down the streets as her tinkling laugh lingered in the air.

I didn't even realise that I had started walking again or that I started to follow the girls "Oh come on Bella! You're gonna pull my arms off… I can walk myself you know… I'm not a dog!" the blonde girl huffed with a pout and the brown-haired beauty only laughed in return "Oh Jess lighten up! I promise that your arms won't pop off your body… it's not possible with the strength that I am pulling you at" the brown-haired girl… Bella… replied. The black-haired girl only giggled and turned to Bella "Hey Bell… maybe we can have a sleep over tonight?" the black-haired girl said lacing her fingers in Bella's and I felt a sudden wave of jealousy as Bella gently squeezed her hand and smiled at her friend. I held back a growl. Bella went to open her mouth when the blonde girl, Jess, interrupted "That's a great idea Ang! We can stay up and talk about the new celebrity gossip and read magazines and talk boys! It will be so much FUN!" Jess squealed and the other girls laughed "Maybe… I'll have to ask Grandma first" Bella said "Now hurry up! I want my tasty heaven and I want it now!" Bella said taking off in a sprint still pulling the girls, Ang and Jess.

A minute later the girls walked inside the only ice-cream parlour in town 'Double Trouble' I watched the girls from outside, hiding in a place where I could see them but no-one could see me. I saw that Jess got a Vanilla Caramel Swirl with a flake in a cone; Ang got a Choc Mint and Rainbow cone while Bella got Goody-goody gumdrops with a flake in a cone. They sat inside and talked while eating but burst into laughter when Jess's flake fell out of her ice-cream and down her top, which just happened to be her favourite top.

During their talking I had learned that Ang was short for Angela, Jess was short for Jessica and Bella was short for Isabella 'Such a beautiful name for such a beautiful person' I thought as they exited the parlour. I started to follow after them again when the most mouth-watering scent filled my senses. It smelled like freesia and strawberries. It made my mouth fill with venom and it felt as if it was about to over-flow and go running down my chin but I quickly swallowed it down and followed after the scent and I noticed that there were two other scents mixed with it. One of them was like hairspray, vanilla and mango, odd combination… the other was like mint, raspberry and a small amount of the smell of… new books?… hmm… interesting scents… I followed after the scent that made me drool and soon came across the three girls again! Oh no…

~End of Flashback~

I've watched over my Bella ever since. I was beyond angry when she started talking to Jacob and then when they started dating I was beyond enraged, infuriated. Every touch, kiss, hug, text, phone call, giggle, laugh, joke shared between them was like a stab to the chest. It made me angrier and it took a lot to not growl or rip Jacob apart… Bella was mine! Always has and always will be. It was during the time that Jacob and Bella were going out that I realised that she was my mate and that I loved her. I had watched over her for 6 years because I didn't want anything to happen to her and because I love her. When she and Jacob broke up I don't think I have ever been happier then I was at that moment.

My family had noticed my behaviour and they were happy that I had finally found love and finally found my mate. I had come up with a plan to get her and make her love me back. So far it has failed and I have 'blacked out' a couple of times in her presence. I hit her in one of those 'black outs' and I regret it and kick myself repeatedly. I can't believe I did something like that! I've never 'blacked out' before… It was kind of scary to be honest.

I can't believe what I had done to her and I know for a fact that she would never forgive me. I don't see how she could because even if she were to become a vampire it's not like that scar I have made would go away. Vampire venom can heal many wounds and scars but it won't be able to do this I know that much. I have a feeling that I did something to the object that I used against her, to make it permanent even if she were to be turned into a vampire. I can't believe I did that to her. I didn't think that I would ever be capable enough to do that to her… clearly I don't know what I'm capable of.

When I first found out that I couldn't read my little angel's mind I was scared and incredibly frustrated. I was scared because I didn't understand it. I was frustrated because I couldn't read her mind. Her mind was the only mind that I wanted to read yet I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. It was like an empty space. Like no-one was there but yet there she was flesh, bone and blood. I always hated my gift and most of the time I wish I could just turn it off and with Bella I had that, sort of. Ironic isn't it? I hate my gift yet I just want to be able to read her mind. I guess I was just used to hearing everyone's thoughts that it became sort of a natural thing to me and when I couldn't read their mind it felt wrong and out of place. I didn't like it one bit. I don't like not knowing her thoughts. All I want is to be able to catch a glimpse of her mind even if only for a second. I feel like I'm becoming addicted to her. She seems almost like a forbidden fruit that I just must get a taste of. Maybe it's just because it's forbidden or maybe because of how delicious and edible it looks. Maybe it's because of the way it makes any mouth water and eyes become dark with lust for the forbidden fruit. Whatever it is, as much as I want it to stop I know that if it did I would soon go through withdrawal symptoms and I would want it more than I did before.

Some may call what I have an obsession, some may say I'm in love, others may even say that I'm just blinded by blood lust or even just lust on its own. I think it might be all of them. I fell in love with her the moment I saw her, then my obsession while that was in the very early stages and wasn't known to anyone yet I then got my blood lust which made me obsessed now that she's all grown up she has made me haze up with lust. I felt very protective of her since the moment I saw her. I don't know why though. I mean she can't be my mate… can she? Oh no… If she is my mate then that would explain everything but it would make things so much more difficult, she hates me and she's my singer! I could kill her too easily and that scared me. Also she's still human! We can't be together in that way… could we? NO! We couldn't! She's not even a vampire and she doesn't want to become one anytime soon. I can tell that we scare her even more than we did before because she didn't know that we were vampires but I'm sure she would've found out sooner or later. Whether she figured it out on her own or not, she would've found out. She's very observant for a human.

I just wish that she knew that she could be open and honest with me. That she can tell me whatever she wants. I know so much about her that I feel as if I've known her my whole life but I just don't know what happened to her in her childhood and because I can't read her mind I can't try find out that way.

When she went through that period of time where she didn't talk, rarely ate, drank or showered I was worried and scared and I never wanted to read someone's mind more than I did at that moment. She drove me nearly insane and when she tried to commit suicide I was crushed. Why would she want to do something like that? When she had looked into my eyes I saw her eyes had no spark left, they were empty but I looked harder and saw the pain behind her eyes, the pain she tried to hide and was really good at hiding but not good enough.

I couldn't believe my ears when I heard someone playing my piano. No one touches my piano let alone play it. But when I saw that it was Bella I was completely shocked to the bone. It was absolutely beautiful! The way that her fingers glided across the keys had me staring in lust, astonishment, happiness and pride. I had found someone that could rival me on the piano! Finally.

Bella shocked me again when she sang! I couldn't believe my ears! She has the most beautiful voice I have ever heard and then she became fast friends with Rosalie, honestly I thought that it would've been Alice and not Rosalie and I certainly didn't think that she would even give Bella two glances. I thought that Rosalie was against this whole situation… I thought she was the most repulsed by this but then she and Bella seem like they have known each other for years and not just hours. I still can't believe that Bella can: sing, play the piano, guitar and banjo! I'm ecstatic that there is now another musician in the family.

I was currently trying to focus on the book currently in my hands but my thoughts kept on going back to Bella. I decided to give up on my book as I placed it down on my couch where I had just been and I walked out of my room and down stairs to Bella's room. I knocked on her door softly but I got no reply except for the sound of her deep breathing as she slept. I quickly and quietly snuck into her room and walked up to her sleeping form on the bed. She looked so beautiful and peaceful as she slept without a crinkle on her face. Her face was flawless. She was flawless. Her pale porcelain skin didn't have a mark on it except for the few little freckles lightly dusted across her nose; she probably wouldn't even be able to see them clearly with her human eyes. Her cute button nose which curled up the tiniest bit on the tip of her nose. Her lips were absolutely tempting and kissable… wait what? Did I just say kissable? Yes… yes I did… but did I want to kiss her? Well the answer was a very big fat YES! Her normally beautiful chocolate brown eyes that had long eyelashes making them standing out more than they would if she had short eyelashes were closed as she slept without so much of a care in the world. I gently lent forward and clasped onto a strand of her hair that fell onto her face. I slowly and gently tucked the strand of hair behind her ear. I was retracting my hand when Bella sighed and snuggled her face into my hand like a cat would to a person when they want to be petted. I froze and quickly looked her over to see if she was still asleep and fortunately she was. I relaxed a bit and slowly started taking my hand away when Bella grabbed my hand and pulled it to her face and had my arm resting on the middle of her chest and she hugged my arm to her, holding it tightly before taking another deep breath and a small smile started tugging at her lips. I didn't want to wake her up so I was trapped, trapped by a human… Oh how people will laugh at that! I gently moved so that I was lying down beside her as she hugged my arm close to her chest and she sighed out a word, so quiet that even I missed it so I tried to listen harder

"Edward" Bella sighed and I froze immediately

Was she awake? I quickly surveyed her face and found her still deep in sleep so does that mean that she was dreaming about me? Or did her subconscious know that I was there? Either way it made me smile knowing that she was at least thinking of me in some way. I can only hope that it's good and not bad. I really hope that she will and can forgive me though I don't deserve it at all.

I stayed with Bella for a few more hours before I left. I have decided that when she wakes up and eats something I'm going to explain everything to her. I just hope she doesn't shut me out even more then she already has. I also want to talk to her and tell her about it all before I lose my nerve and chicken out. I was going to explain it all to her and fingers crossed it goes well.