Sorry I haven't posted any chapters in a while. It's just I had some problems with how I wrote Light so I wasn't really planning on continuing to post. I hope you all like it anyway. Thanks if you are still reading.

Pulling his phone out of his pocket with his free hand, he dialled Matt's phone, realizing that he was most likely to be answered. He spoke to the boy, explaining about Light's memory loss, and asking him to tell the other boys. He then hung up and called Light's parents. This wasn't a conversation he was looking forward to.

"Hello." He said when the phone was answered. "This is L... I have some news about Light..." Fortunately for L it was Sachiko and not her husband who answered.

"Hello dear, what's happened?" She asked calmly.

"There was an...incident..." L said softly. "I'm afraid Light has hit his head. He lost some of his memory..." He spoke calmly into the phone, explaining things. "He doesn't remember anything to do with me. He remembers his family, but not... not me. I just thought that I should explain his to you, so you're not so shocked..."

Sachiko gasped. "Oh, I am so sorry. This must be so hard on you. Light is ok otherwise isn't he?" Sachiko replied comfortingly.

"Yeah... He's fine. He's sleeping right now...it's been a long day..." L said softly into the phone. "I'm sorry. You allow me to take Light, and the very next day I call you with this...I'm sorry."

"There is no need for you to be," Sachiko murmured, brushing off the apology. "I can see how much you care for my son so I know you would do anything to keep him from harm. Unfortunately these things happen. You try and get some rest too. Take care of yourself. Light will need you over the next little while even if he doesn't know it himself."

"Thank you Yagami-san," L said with a small smile. "I must let you get back to your business now," He said, "Good-bye." He hung up the phone and turned back to Light. "Your mother doesn't blame me..." He said quietly, "You don't blame me; Watari doesn't blame me... so why do I still blame me...?" He said quietly, not really talking to Light, more to himself.

"'cause you always blame you…" Light murmured his eyes still closed. After a moment they opened a fraction and he continued speaking. "…stop being stubborn 'bout this."

"Stubborn?" He asked softly, looking at Light. He was glad that he was awake and he smiled softly at him. "I can't help but feeling like it's my fault... If it wasn't for what I did last night, you wouldn't have run away. You would've stayed. You wouldn't have hit your head... You would still remember." He was speaking calmly, truly believing what he was saying.

"Maybe the start was your fault but the rest wasn't," Light replied and tired, cocky grin slowly formed on his face and he stretched his shirt riding up to show off a small flash of smooth, tan skin. "Though I am starting to believe it wasn't your fault for the first thing either, I'm just that irresistible," Light joked. L licked his lips, having noticed the skin showing.

"That you are," He said softly, looking at Light's face. He smiled at him and gently leaned forward and stroked Light's face affectionately. "You really are. You're my lucky catch," He joked softly, laughing slightly. He found himself leaning forward for a kiss, but pulled back with a jerk, having noticed what he was doing. He smiled softly, "Sorry." He mumbled, flushing. He wanted to wait a little while, until Light was ready before he kissed him. Light's eyes had glazed over slightly as though L had left him spellbound and his hand reached up to grasp L's shirt, tugging the man forwards so that their lips could meet. Light's other hand trembled as it pressed softly to L's face, holding it there. His caramel eyes were left open though as he watched to see what L would do.

L sighed into the kiss. He couldn't help it. He kissed him back with all the passion he had. After a short while, he pulled away and smiled at Light. Though he'd had no intention of doing that for a while yet, he was glad that Light had kissed him. He didn't know what else to say, so he just stayed with a smile. Light face flushed and he panted softly. He couldn't remember participating in such an incredible kiss before and his trembling fingers rose to touch his still tingling lips. The blush was made greater as he thought that if L was that good a kisser what he would have been like in bed… Finding himself chuckling at Light's reaction, L leaned back against his seat.

"You always seemed to enjoy kissing," he said, "Personally, that's something I hope never changes," He said softly, looking at his lap. "But don't do anything you're not comfortable with, I'm not going to push you..."

"If you keep kissing me like that, then I very much doubt that it will," Light murmured and moved so that he could curl up against L. "L, I promise that I won't do anything I'm not comfortable with, if that's what makes you happy."

L smiled softly, "I just don't want you to be hurt," He said softly. He put his arm around Light and pulled him closer. "I don't ever want to hurt you again." He stroked his hair softly and smiled at him. Light nuzzled gently against L's chest.

"I trust you," he replied simply and sincerely. Though he didn't believe that Light should think that, L didn't say anything about it. He smiled softly and sighed contently. "Let's sleep – the trip is quite long."

"Ok," Light replied and yawned quietly and closed his eyes. L closed his eyes and joined Light into sleep.

By the time he woke up again, the plane was landing. Smiling softly, L gently shook Light.

"We're landing." He said to him. Light seemed determined not to wake up though and nuzzled L again, letting out a soft purr like sound. Laughing softly, L shook him a little more. "Liiiiiggggghhhhhtttt... We're in Japan..." He stroked his hair softly before shaking him again. After that didn't work again, he kissed him, hoping that that would work better. Light pressed back into the kiss for a moment, before snuggling back into L's arms and not moving. L sighed softly, more than a little amused. "Light, you really gotta get up... Or else Watari will have to carry you." Light grumbled something about L being comfy and that L should carry him but got up anyway. Laughing slightly sat up and looked at Light. "Morning sunshine," He said leaning forward to gently press his closed lips against Light's before pulling back. "C'mon. The plane's landed."

Light glared with mock annoyance, a pout on his lips before following L off the plane not speaking. After they got out of the airport, there was another limo waiting for them. L led Light to it, allowing the hired help to take care of the bags.

"I should drop by the head quarters to see the boys, and then we'll go see your parents. Is that okay?" He asked with a smile. "They know what happened, so they won't be confused if you don't remember them."

"I remember them alright," Light sighed and then let out a groan. "Sayu will be freaking impossible though. She will start comparing it to a cheesy romance story that she has read at some point or another… or more likely a movie staring Ryuga Hideki." L laughed slightly.

"It doesn't help that you introduced me as Ryuga," He said with a grin. He sat in the limo and made Light beside him. "I explained things to your mother, she'll explain to Sayu. I'm just worried about Near... He'll understand, but he'll... He was getting close to you. You were breaking through his syndrome..." He smiled softly. "You're probably the first person that he's ever really talked to." Light beamed back.

"Then I guess it's a good thing that the only thing I have forgotten about him is his relationship to you. The others are more blurry as I was around you while with them, but my time with Near is still ok as you were never around then and I just focused on him." Light took L's hand in his, looking to see how well they entwined. "I'm really glad that he is getting close to me though. I would hate to be cut off from people like that."

L nodded, "He can't help it, and I've been trying to get him involved with people but... Mello doesn't want anything to do with him, and Matt pretty much stays with Mello..."

"I know and I will try to be there for him. I won't forget Mello, but I think Matt will probably keep him busy enough," Light replied and chuckled. Smiling softly, L nodded.

"Thank you." He said. He was a little jealous that Light could remember everyone aside from himself, but he was glad that Light was remembering at least his family. "I wish you could remember me..." he said quietly. Light's smile turned sad and he lifted his free hand to stroke L's cheek.

"So do I." Smiling softly, L leaned into the touch. The limo came to a stop and L got out. He grinned at Light and held out his hand for him. They were at the building that L had had built. Light took L's hand and shuffled out of the car, once he was out though he quickly pressed a quick kiss to L's lips before tugging the male after him and into the building. A little dazed, L paused for a second before smiling and following the other. When they got inside, he moved them to the elevator, pressing the button for Matt's and Mello's room.

"We'll talk to them first, then Near."

"Ok," Light replied smirking and using the few seconds of privacy to his advantage Light kissed L again, loving the dazed expression on his face before pulling back. "You know, you're right. I do like kissing you," Light said in a teasing voice. L moved closer to Light and kissed him again, quite passionately again. He pulled back and grinned at Light.

"I love you." He said softly. Light paused for barely a brief instant and smiled.

"I love you too," he replied and then door to the elevator opened. Taking Light's hand in his own, L pulled Light out of the elevator and towards the bedroom and knocked on the door.

"Are you two here? Decent?" he asked.

"You say that as if you expect us to be otherwise," Matt called back in a mock hurt voice.

"You never know," L said, pushing the door open. "I've had people walk in on me and Light before. Figured I'm never going to do that to someone else," He said with a smile, remembering when Matsuda had walked in on them. Matt sighed, Mello's arms firmly wrapped around his waist as Matt played his hand held game.

"Well as you can see, have been reduced from lover to… teddy bear," Matt replied as if teddy bear was a dirty thing and Light snickered. Mello mumbled something from under the blankets and shifted slightly. He was sleeping, but the noise was slowly waking him up. He was curled around Matt, holding him tightly. L didn't get it.

"We haven't done much more than snuggle in ages," Matt grumbled quietly, reaching a hand down to stroke Mello's hair tenderly in complete contrast to his words.

"He needs to know you're there for him right now," He said with a smile. He looked down at the sleeping boy and smiled sadly.

"I am there for him, I'm always there for him, but it is hard to protect him from what's in his head," Matt murmured and returned to playing his game.

"Nightmares?" L asked, sitting on the bed and running his own hand through Mello's hair. "There's not really much you can do for that..." Silently, in his head, he added 'at least he remembers you.'

"Not really, it's more the silences while he's awake…" Matt trailed off and Light frowned sympathetically. Mello mumbled something before rolling over and opening his eyes. He saw everyone around, but didn't say anything. Just stayed holding onto Matt.

L smiled at him. "Morning sunshine..." he said with a small smile. Mello just nodded. Mello mumbled something before rolling over and opening his eyes. He saw everyone around, but didn't say anything. Just stayed holding onto Matt.

"How are you feeling?" Matt asked quietly and put down his game to embrace his love, before pressing a soft kiss to his head. Mello just 'hmmed'. He moved slightly to sit behind Matt, pulling him against his chest. He leaned forward to softly kiss Matt's neck before putting his head down on his shoulder. He leaned as close as he could to Matt, his legs wrapped around his waist.

L frowned slightly, "Mello... Can you talk to me...?" Mello just held Matt closer and shook his head. Matt sighed and shrugged apologetically, his arms entwining with Mello's. L moved forward slightly to gently place his hand on Mello's head, gently stroking through his hair.

"Mello... are you okay?" He asked, "Please talk to me..." Mello lifted his head and looked at L. "..." He opened his mouth as if he was going to speak but then just pulled Matt closer.

"'m 'k." He managed to say before burying his head back on Matt's shoulder.

"Mells it's ok…" Matt whispered soothingly. L stood and looked at Light.

"Shall we?" He asked quietly. Mello looked up at Light and blinked a few times. "You remember?" he asked quietly.

Light smiled back sadly, "Everything but L."

"Your mind forgets. But your heart doesn't," He said before burying his head in Matt's shoulder again. He didn't say anything else. L bit his lip and looked at Light.

"Let's leave them for a while," Light said turning to look at L and taking his hand. L took Light's hand and smiled at Matt and Mello before leaving the room. Once on the elevator, L leaned against the wall and covered his face with his hands. He thought that Mello was going to be okay. He'd been okay when they'd left. It was his fault, if he'd been able to find Mello earlier...

He dug the heels of his hands into his eyes, taking a deep breath.

"Hey, Mello will be ok. It will just take a while," Light said calmly taking L's hands softly in his.

"I know...but..." L looked at Light, leaning on his shoulder. "I'm sorry," He mumbled, "It's just hard seeing him like that. He's usually so... vocal..." Dropping L's hands, Light lifted his arms to wrap around L and kissed L's cheek gently.

"Come on, we still have one more to visit," Light murmured, "We'll have to talk about this more when we get to our room. The elevator opened again and this time Light steered L to where he knew Near would be at this time. Near was in the middle of constructing a white puzzle and as expected Light went and sat beside him and silently began to assist. Near had obviously been expecting him as it was the 1000 piece and Light waited for Near to speak. L sat down beside the two, silently watching. He didn't help with the puzzle, but instead, just watched the pair. Near looked up from the puzzle, only when it was completed. He looked to Light and smiled very slightly.

"Do you remember?" He asked, curious as to how much Light remembered. Light smiled back, the pain beginning to fade from his eyes.

"I remember everything, but L and seeing as how we spent most of our time together while L was not around I remember it all," Light explained. Near frowned for a moment.

"Something happened that caused your subconscious to not want to remember L," He said calmly. "Perhaps if you were to revisit what it was that happened, your memories would return." L became pale, extremely pale. He didn't want to go back there, he didn't want to have to do that to Light again. He was smart enough to figure out what it was that had Light wanting to forget.

"It's not that simple…" Light replied quietly and reached his hand out to stroke L's. "We will have to think of some other way to get my memories back." Near watched Light and L before nodding.

"I believe that will be the most effective way. When you have a fear, you have to address it before you can get over it." He said, reaching down to the completed puzzle and holding it upside down so the pieces fell out. "I believe that that is how you must address this problem. However, I will attempt to think of something else. Perhaps a psychiatrist..." He shrugged and went back to his puzzle, falling silent again. L looked at the hand that Light was gently stroking and took it tighter before letting go and standing.

"I'll... I'm... I'll be back..." He muttered, going to the elevator. Once there, he pressed the button for the roof. He didn't know why he was running, but he knew that he didn't want to go through what had happened before. He didn't want to make Light relive that. As far as L was concerned, it was better for him not to remember him at all than to remember that. When he got to the roof, he left the elevator and stood in his favourite spot. The one where he could see everything in Tokyo. Rain was falling, it was pouring down, but L didn't care. He didn't care that he was getting soaked. All he cared about was forgetting, letting his mind go blank. In the back of his mind, he could hear the sound of bells, maybe from a church... They were soothing to listen to.

L found himself closing his eyes, his head tilted up slightly to look at the heavens as they opened up to drench him with the tears from the sky. Everything had gone so wrong, so very wrong, so very fast. Mello... avoiding Light... the incident in Paris... Light's memories... L felt like it would be hard to go back to normal. What is normal anyway? A part of his mind asked. Light had watched L leave but knew he needed to explain to Near first.

"It isn't my fear that would prevent us using that option, but L's. To do that again would be his worst nightmare…" Light said calmly, his eyes stuck to the door. "I will be back soon, but he… Excuse me." Turning to give Near a slight smile Light raced off in the direction L had headed. The rain was a welcome reprieve, the water droplets hiding the tears that were cascading down his face, creating a mask that could hide his face, forever disguising the emotions that played across his features. L kept his face raised, wondering what he should do. There was no way that he was going to 'relive' the experience... A psychiatrist would likely be a good step forward, but would Light agree? The money wouldn't be a problem, and L could easily take Light to the best – no matter where that would be.

"I thought I would find you here," Light called from behind L and without hesitating stepped out into the icy rain and walked towards L. L looked over at Light, a hand to his ear. He hadn't heard what the other had said. But he was coming closer now, and L stood back up, his shoulders still curled like normal. He didn't bother hiding the tears that were building, or even the ones that were falling. Instead, he re-tilted his head to look at the sky.

"Can you hear the bells?" He asked Light.

"No, I can't," Light replied puzzled and wrapped his arms around L shivering slightly. "How can you stand to be out here? It's freezing."

"Sounds like it could be a church... maybe a wedding... or a funeral..." L didn't seem to be listening to Light. But he leaned against the male, his arms wrapping around the others. "Have you ever lied to anyone?" He asked quietly.

"Yes, but there aren't many who can honestly say they haven't," Light admitted. L leaned against him.

"Have you ever lied to someone you love?" He asked quietly. He didn't actually know where he was going with this. But he found himself asking.

"Yes," Light replied, guilt edging his voice.

"Have you ever lied to me...?" L didn't know why he was asking, he trusted Light.

"I don't remember…" Light replied helplessly. L sighed and nodded.

"Of course you don't." He turned around in his arms and leaned against him. "What do we do?" he asked quietly, placing his head on Light's chest, his arms around his waist. "How can I help you? Do you want to remember?"

"…I don't know…" Light murmured with a look of confusion. "On one hand I want to remember, but the other half is scared that it would be better for me to remain ignorant." The rain was still falling, soaking them both. After a moment, L pulled away and took Light's hand, leading him back under shelter.

"We should get changed." He mumbled.

"Yeah," Light agreed, staring at his feet. L retrieved some towels that he'd stashed earlier and put one on his head, pushing the other towards Light. He then picked up another and sat in front of him. He started drying Light's feet. "I can throw in a massage if you'd like." Light smiled and used his towel to dry L's hair and leant down and kissed L's cheek.

"If you want," Light replied, returning to the task he had set himself. L nodded, smiling softly up at Light. He started massaging his feet, knowing the place where he could press down for that specific reaction. He knew that pressing on the arch would cause a reaction in the groin area. He knew that if he pressed hard, he could get him to orgasm with no other touches. He smiled softly and looked at Light, waiting to see if he'd done it right. Light moaned loudly, his fists clenched and his face flushed but he held on. Swallowing harshly, Light eyes narrowed with suspicion. "You knew that would happen didn't you," He accused as he panted from arousal.

"Did it work?" L asked with a small smirk, pressing down again on the same place. He then leaned up to kiss him deeply. Pulling back, he continued to massage the feet

"Lllll…" Light cried, unable to hold back release this time. Looking frustrated Light pulled his feet away from L's hands and stood up.

L looked at Light. "I'm sorry," He mumbled, standing. He looked to Light and smiled softly. "I wanted... to make you feel good," He said softly. Only now did he realize that Light might not have wanted that from someone he basically didn't know. Light let out a harsh breath.

"It's ok, it's just you were only touching my feet and I…" Light looked at L almost helplessly.

"It was supposed to do that..." L said softly. He reached out and gently stroked Light's forehead. "Should we go get changed?" He asked softly, smirking a little.

"Mhmmm…" Light mumbled distractedly and a small grin crossed his face as he drew L to him, needing to taste those lips, his hand sinking into L's hair to keep him there. L moaned softly, leaning into Light's touch. His arms went around his waist, reaching down and gently squeezing his ass, pulling him closer. Light felt his body clench slightly in pleasure and mewled loudly into the kiss. His free hand travelled down to cup L's hand pushing it closer as he deepened the kiss. After a second, L pulled away and looked at Light. Grinning, he stroked his hair again and looked at him.

"C'mon. We can't do this here."

"I guess not," Light replied with an equally large grin and took L's hand. L led them towards the elevator and pushed him towards the wall. He thrust him into the wall and attached his lips to the others. Light returned the kiss with an eagerness he could not remember ever feeling before, soft pants escaped as he pressed back against L's body that seemed to scorch his own despite the wet clothing they both wore. After a moment, L pulled away, panting. He smiled at Light and pulled away completely.

"I don't... you don't... we... shouldn't." He sighed and shook his head. "I'd feel bad doing much more with you when you can't remember." He said softly.

"L, if I wanted you to stop I would make you stop," Light said teasingly, though his eyes were serious as he stared deep into L's own.

"I...I can't..." L said softly and shook his head. "Sorry," he mumbled. "Just...give it time," He said softly. He looked at Light and gently stroked his chin. "Making out is good though." He mumbled and leaned closer, kissing him again. "And I'm good with feet," he said softly with a smirk.

"Ok, I just wanted you to know you weren't forcing me and not to feel bad." Light smiled softly as he spoke, "Making out is very good, but there is no way in hell I am letting you do that to my feet again."

"You didn't like it...?" L asked with raised eyebrows and smirked slightly. He kissed Light deeply again. He pressed against him. "I didn't even go as hard as I could have..." Light returned the kiss patiently before speaking.

"I just didn't like the idea of orgasming like that with so little stimulation." This had L completely confused.

"It didn't feel good?" He asked, stroking his hand down Light's chest. He smiled softly. "I mean... I heard that when you get touched like that it's better than going the long way..." He was genuinely puzzled. "You really didn't like it?"

"That's the thing… It felt too good and I very much doubt it would be preferable to…" Light leant forward to press his lips to L's as if to finish his sentence. L leaned into the kiss. He pulled back and smiled softly.

"So you don't want me to do it again?" He asked. The elevator dinged and he pulled out of Light's arm, dragging him by the hand to the bedroom. He pushed him onto the bed and straddled him. Facing his feet. He took one and gently ran a finger down it.

"Are you sure you don't want me to do it again?" He asked, rubbing his butt over Light's crotch.

"I am… extremely sure that I… Uhhhhhh… Never want you to get … mmmm-me off by using the pressure p-points in my feet again…" Light replied stuttering as his own moans broke up his sentence. L turned over and continued to grind his butt on Light's crotch. He leaned forward and kissed him deeply.

"Too bad," He mumbled against his mouth, "Because the look on your face was priceless." He mumbled kissing him again.

"Nnngnnnn…" Light groaned, returning the kisses hungrily, the friction while delicious was not enough and the word 'tease' lingered at the back of his throat. L leaned closer and kissed him. He pulled back and looked at him.

"I love you," he said softly, "I really do." Then he moved closer and kissed him again, this time sweetly, lovingly. His hand came down to gently caress Light's crotch. He pulled back and looked at Light before opening his trousers. He smiled softly and leaned forward to gently lick Light's member. Light had moaned loudly at the first tentative lick. The first feel of L's warm wet tongue on him. L leaned closer and took Light into his mouth, sucking gently on the long organ in his mouth, as if it was a chocolate lollypop. He hummed slightly, running his tongue on the underside. At the same time, his hands were caressing his ass. Light cried out again as the pleasure grew and he fought hard not to thrust into that tempting warmth.

"L… Please?" Light begged, not entirely sure what he was asking for though. L looked up at Light and hummed a little more. He squeezed Light's ass again before removing his hand. It went around to his balls and fondled them a little. Moaning louder, Light's back arched off the bed, his eyes squeezed shut and he wasn't sure how much longer he could handle such bliss. Humming louder, L sucked him some more, bobbing his head slightly as he fondled his balls some more. He wanted to talk, but it wouldn't be possible with him in his mouth.

"So… close…" Light murmured loud enough for L to hear. Light's breath was coming out in harsh pants and his hands clutched at the sheets beneath him. L continued his movements, stroking Light's abdomen with his free hand. He hummed louder and clamped his throat around Light, trying to give him more friction. He started to move faster, holding back his gag reflex as Light's member touched the back of his throat. Letting go, he all but shrieked L's name as he came fiercely into L's awaiting mouth, his body clenching and relaxing as he his muscled spasmed with his release. Swallowing it all, L gave a few more sucks before pulling back. He wiped his mouth and smiled at Light.

"You prefer it that way?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Very much so," Light replied cheekily though he didn't bother to say what he would prefer more. He didn't think L was ready for that yet. L leaned up and kissed Light deeply.

"Take off the rest of your clothes. You'll get sick if you stay in wet clothes," He said, standing and stripping himself. He moved to the closet and grabbed a few sets of clothes. He threw some at Light before lying down in the bed and watching Light. "We'll rest for a while, and then we'll go see your family." Light sighed and watched L undress and waited till L was watching him to undress the rest of the way, slowly. Picking up the towel, Light dried off the rest of his body before dressing. L smiled softly and watched Light. When Light had finished dressing, L pulled them into his arms and held him. "Go to sleep." He said softly, stroking his forehead softly. Light snuggled closer to L, to his warmth, to his scent and his eyes slid shut almost as if they had never been open. Once L was completely sure that Light was asleep, he climbed out of the bed to return to the roof. By now, the rain had stopped, and he sat there watching the sun set. It had been a long day. He looked at the sky and sighed softly. "Happy birthday L." He mumbled under his breath. Back in the room, Light had curled up into a ball, a frown on his face as he slept.

Thanks to everyone who has read this far and have reviewed. I will try to remember to update more often.