Well anyways guys. My goal to put up every chapter this summer was so impossible it was hilarous. I would say we are -from what I can remember (since i finished this in april)- we are close to the half way point of the story... *sweat drop* I just saw some of you have a panic attack at the size of the story lol.
I promised to summerize the last chapter right? For those who don't want to read lemons. Well, Naruto visited Kakashi and Iruka to ask Kakashi when Sai would be back. The next morning Naruto waits as Sai comes back from a long term mission with his squad. Thats when Naruto tells him to go to his house later that day. As Naruto awaits Sai's arrival, Sasuke shows up at his door. Sasuke comes in to see Naruto acting all suspicious, like he was hiding something. Well they start talking anyway and Naruto reviels he's gay. Sasuke doesn't know what to think and Naruto is scared of being rejected because of his love for men. Well saved by the bell, Sai arrives, making Naruto throw Sasuke out. Sai and Naruto have sex, where Naruto pictured Sai as Sasuke. What they didn't know was that Sasuke was watching them from outside the window. Sasuke becomes angry and furious. But never the less goes to look for and a girl to screw to make him a child.
Well anyways lol, Itachi you ready? *Itachi glares* Stop brooding! And go see the hair and make-up crew, please!.
ONWARD!!
Disclaimer: I can't own Naruto. Why you ask? Because if I did, it wouldn't have been as awesome as it is now!
Warning: Yaoi. Lemons. Cursing. Cute Sai/Naruto moment! OH and it's UNBETA'd since my beta was taking a while and I became inpatient as usual lol.
And he found it hard to say his soul alive, now that circumstances were different. Would this war end with Angels?
Late that night, Naruto sat on his bed as Sai cleaned up in the bathroom. He had his knees pressed against his chest, under the orange comforter. He felt sick, like he betrayed Sasuke, even if Sasuke had never been his. And maybe never will. Naruto felt tears well up.
Sai came out of the bathroom. He saw the dazed Naruto and frowned. Sitting next to Naruto he wrapped an arm around the man's shoulder.
"No more blue balls, but broken heart, huh?" Sai asked.
Naruto's eyes widened. "You're so vulgar, Sai-kun!" he yelled. Then his face went solemn. "I guess," he sighed.
"If you truly care about the Uchiha you should tell him," Sai sighed. "There is always a chance. Who wouldn't fall in love with you?"
Naruto stayed silent, looking down at his hands. Even if he wanted to tell Sasuke the truth, he just couldn't. He was scared. Earlier, when he told the raven he was gay, his reaction cleared it all for him. Sasuke didn't feel the same and probably will act different towards Naruto.
Tears began to fall from Naruto's ocean eyes. Sai pulled him closer. He gently shushed Naruto trying to end the crystal tears. "It will be hard, but you're Uzumaki Naruto. You're strong and you know it." Sai smiled, truly this time. "You've made everyone else happy with your smile. It's time for you to be happy."
Naruto wiped his eyes while sniffling. "Yeah you're right Sai!" He cheered up. "Believe it."
As the sun rose over the horizon, Naruto sleepily made his way to one of the training feilds. He stretched his aching muscles. Yesturday he made some of his urges better. But now his body hurt from going so hard.
After Sai cheered Naruto up, the blonde felt like he should end it. Naruto told Sai that they shouldn't fool around anymore. The raven understood completely. He smirked at Naruto and said, "Hmph, right when you just got good."
Naruto laughed at the the memory. Sai had taught him everything one lonely night. Naruto was sad to admit that he was fooled by the faux smile, but it ended up okay. Naruto managed to learn things. It's not like he would be caught dead reading those pervy books Kakashi read. Naruto still had pride.
He now stood in the feild and grinned. Tsunade and shizune with her pet pig were waiting for him. "Yosh!" Naruto pumped a fist into the air. "Finally, some hardcore training!"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah," Tsunade smiled. "Let's get started with techniques, then we'll study village affairs."
"Naruto grinned like a fox. "I'm ready, Dattebyo!"
"Sasuke!" Naruto called, as he barged into the Uchiha main house. He noticed the difference, but didn't care, he was too pumped with energy.
"Do you have to be so annoying this early?" said Sasuke, sipping his tea. He set his cup down and poured more tea into a different cup. He offered it to Naruto.
"Yes, I do!" Naruto grinned happily. He took the tea cup, mummbling a thanks.
Sasuke gave a "hn" before turning around and taking his tea to the back porch. He kneeled down and closed his eyes. That porch had become Sasuke's sanctuary. Many times he went there to calm himself and think.
Like at that moment. Sasuke couldn't look at Naruto without getting a sharp pain in his chest. Is this the hurt that love brings? He questioned himself.
Sasuke took a deep breath. letting it out slowly as he cleared his mind.
Naruto walked out to the porch and raised a blonde brow. "What are you doing?"
"Meditating," Sasuke said with a sigh. He straightened his posture and loosened his muscles. "It's relaxing."
Naruto knelt beside the raven. He studied Sasuke's every inch. He smiled. "Did Orochimaru teach you this?"
"No," Sasuke said, bluntly. "When I was young, my brother would meditate nefore facing difficult matters."
With a small tilt of his head Naruto gave the raven a look. "Are you going to face something difficult today?"
Sasuke laughed softly. "You're so slow. You always have so many questions, but what makes you think I have all the answers?"
Naruto huffed out his cheeks and pouted. "That's because I thought you were smart. Dattebyo."
Sasuke's eyes opened and turned to Naruto's cute face. "I am, dobe, but to answer all of your questions, you would need a miracle worker from the spirits in heaven."
"Teme-baka," Naruto mumbled under his breath crossing his hands over his chest. Sasuke laughed again. "So how do you meditate?" Naruto knew how to meditate of course. Thing was that everyone had their own way.
Sasuke moved over tot he blonde and put his hands on the small shoulders. he led the shoulders back to straighten the spine.
Naruto blushed darkly. Sasuke's hands moved, one to Naruto's chest the other to the nape of the back. He put a small amount of pressure that made Naruto not slouch.
Sasuke moved behind the kitsune and wrapped his arms around to align with Naruto's, on the ANBU's lap. He moved the hands in a symmetrical stance.
"Relax and clear your mind," the raven whispered, his breath tickling Naruto's spine. Never did he move away his hands from where they were, on top of Naruto's. Even if the kitsune was nervous he did as Sasuke told. "Now close your eyes and take deep, slow breaths."
Sasuke loved the touch of Naruto's lovely fair skin. He watched the golden eyelashes fall and caress the scarred cheeks. Then he watched as Naruto's abdomen pushed in and out with the steady breathing.
Time slowly ticked by as Naruto meditated and Sasuke did the same, his arms around the other. But Naruto didn't think much of the position, he was completely lost in the comfort.
Naruto softly shifted in the raven's arms. He slept quietly and comfortably. Sasuke sweat dropped. Naruto fell asleep two minutes into meditation. But the raven didn't mind. The warmth was enjoyable. Everything drew him in.
His body moved on it's own earlier, lacing around Naruto and now here he was, completely fixated. Sasuke didn't want to let go. His heart felt light and was beating quickly. "I ..." Sasuke started to say. (A/N not that you guys care but this is the 200 page mark written down. Sorry for the interruption.)
Sasuke's lips tickled against the silky blonde locks. He loved their feel, it reminded him of the blonde's lips. Only did he touch them once (twice actually) and still they lived in his most happiest of thoughts. And the smell. Naruto smelled of sweet candy. He would be the only sweet thing Sasuke would probably like.
"I..." Sasuke whispered.
"Is it so hard to say, Otouto?" a voice snickered.
Sasuke's head whipped to the side where the voice spoke. Itachi sat back against a wooden piller. A smirk evident on his handsome features.
"You've said it before, but now it's different, right?" Itachi asked.
Sasuke smiled softly. "Stop haunting me, Aniki."
The ghost laughed. "I'm not haunting you. I'm your sub-conscience, here to help you."
"Why would I need help?" Sasuke questioned.
A gentle gust of wind blew the warm air against them. It gave Itachi's bangs a soft flip to the side. "The answer lies in your heart."
With that the non-existant raven vanished. Sasuke looked back down at Naruto. The frown that had placed itself on the pale raven face, changed into a small smile.
The answer did lie in there, but Sasuke didn't want to look. Not then. He wanted to have children and unless Naruto had told lies to everyone for the past 19 almost 20 years of his life, Sasuke couldn't let his heart lead. Even if Sasuke wanted to be with Naruto, could he really?
Sasuke's mind felt like a great war, a battle to the death. It reminded him of the last real fight he fought with Naruto. He found it somewhat ironic. Sasuke fell in love with the one guy who tried so hard to keep him around, the one he hurt. Sasuke hurt NAruto so many times.
"Could you ever love the one who caused you so much grief?" Sasuke mumbled softly against Naruto's neck.
Deep down in the edge of Sasuke's heart, he knew he couldn't live without Naruto. Maybe that was why he never accomplished in killing the blonde. Maybe that's why he really came back.
Naruto stretched his arms back. He hummed as his hands grazed Sasuke's face. "This feels good!"
"Did you like your nap?" Sasuke pulled on his invisible mask. He smirked at Naruto.
Naruto looked up, shocked. He jumped forward, landing in a sitting position on the grass infront of the porch. Angrily, he pointed at Sasuke. "What do you think you're doing?!" Sasuke only snickered. Narut stood and ran out of the house. "I got to go!"
So ummmm.... Yep, It's official, Sasuke is in love and from what he knows unrequited love lol.
I must say though I was so happy to get good reviews! No mean ones! YAY!
Itachi: One, Naruto and Otouto need to be locked in a closet just like George2Bob1 said in his/her last review. The whole hiding how they feel, obliviousness thing is getting old.
Nati: *offended* This coming from the guy who made his brother chase after him for God knows how long, after killing his- *itachi glares* Cough! cough!- I mean the whole killing *Cough cough* is getting old in story line buisness.
Itachi: No, it's not..... *takes out a kunai*
Nati: Uh...Right!! So anyways guys, Please review!! And wish Tourniquet a happy belated birthday. She became legal on the 25th !!! She's so old now!!! lol.
Love Natsuki Lee