Heya!! How is everyone? I'm good, having a good time in life right now, nothing horrible for now lol.
So I've noticed that because I haven't been updating quickly, that I keep forgetting what I did in the previous chapter. *sweat drop*
I've also noticed that when I'm scouting new fanfictions to read, that there aren't any good ones anymore. It's always either a stupid storyline or some crappy lemon. Not to put anyone down, it's just it got me all annoyed so I started looking up WWE slash fictions again. I found a few good ones though lol.
Well without further ado, here is Chapter 26 of Angel! Onward to the poetry, the sadness, and some more background stuff.
Disclaimer: Naruto? No I don't own him... I'm too poor to own him.
Warning: Yaoi. Lemons. Cursing. Poetry (TN: XD I love how there's a warning for this.). You've been warned!
And he could not stop reading and speaking his story. Was his mission now forgotten with caring?
Cold, even on the warmest days,
Your eyes tell all you could ever say,
I sunk into them, you went away,
Shivers, to my dismay.
He turned the page.
Winter had nothing on you,
Beautiful but frigid too.
Is there anything I can do,
To make myself stop loving you?
He turned another page.
The raven's snapping beak,
Feathers as smooth as sleek,
Let me feel that soft cheek,
End my tears that always leak.
Sasuke couldn't stop reading. It wasn't the best poetry ever written, but it might as well have been. All of them spoke to him, sending an unknown message. He wanted to know who Naruto always wrote about. Was it Sai?
Sasuke growled at the thought of the other raven. First, Sai tried to kill him years ago, and now he took away the only thing important in the Uchiha's eyes. Now that Sasuke had killed the Elders, he just needed to find the right girl to bare his children. It wasn't his fault he had fallen in love with Naruto. But he hurt Naruto.
The raven turned the page. Unlike the others this page had more than four lines filled.
To you, I was merely a tool,
Used for broken bonds and cares,
I was taken for a complete fool,
I'm tired of shedding these tears.
I can't bring you back,
You went because you gave up,
Because you wanted what you lack,
Go and search like a lost pup.
We could have helped you,
Becoming stronger together,
You were my best friend too,
But soon that would weather.
I've been told to kill,
Your disgusting brother said,
The thought gave a chill,
That was more than a life I could've led.
Because you're more then I've ever thought,
Those wonderful eyes and lips,
You're more than anything that anyone's ever bought,
I want to wrap my arms around your hips.
I miss you.
Sasuke couldn't move. He knew for a fact that this poem was about him. Just that somethings were confusing to him.
The words were like snow to bare feet. They were cold and sharp.
Guilt spread through his veins and covered his body with frigid air.
Sasuke was happy that he did what he did. Still... He never said he didn't ever ask, "What if?". There were times after his brother's death where Sasuke wondered what would have happened if it never happened, if he had stayed in Konoha and let his brother live. Or if he never helped the Akatsuki with the 8 tailed fox demon.
And now he was meant to help Madara Uchiha get the nine tails. That would mean hurting Naruto and since Sasuke had returned, he couldn't even think of causing Naruto anymore pain. He'd done enough of that. All he wanted now was to make Naruto smile like he did seven years ago. Madara was out of luck.
Naruto stood in the lightly raining summer morning, in front of a grave stone. Engraved into the grey marble was Jiraiya, a legendary Sannin, an author, and Godfather.
Naruto had been so upset about the death of his godfather/sensei. For so long he blamed it all on Lady Tsunade, like she was the one who killed him. Naruto wanted Jiraiya-Sannin to be there when he became Hokage, when he brought Sasuke back and had everyone accept him. But, he guessed, nothing ever turned out as planned.
After some training with Ma and Pa, Naruto felt as if Jiraiya was there still. Like the pervy sage was watching over him, teaching him to be as his father.
"Just a little more time, pervy-sage, and I'll be Hokage!" Naruto grinned. "If only you could see how strong I've gotten!"
The rain started to pour and Naruto frowned. It was like the water had washed away his smile. "I better go," he said.
With that Naruto turned and left only to jump at the sight of Kakashi behind him. "Good morning, Naruto," Kakashi smiled.
"Geez, Kakashi-sensei, you scared me half to death!" Naruto screamed. He was clutching his heart with one hand as the other held onto Kakashi's shoulder for balance. "What are you doing?!"
"Sorry," the Jonin Anbu head captain laughed. Naruto regained his composure. "Visiting again, are you?"
"Yeah," the blonde smiled. "You going to visit Obito-san?"
"As always," Kakashi scratched his neck. "I have to fill him in on the new stories I'm reading."
"More pervy smut," Naruto mumbled.
"I take offense in that," Kakashi feigned hurt. Naruto chuckled. "Are you off to training?" Kakashi asked in his normal bored tone.
"Belive it!" Naruto cheered. He held his goofy grin again.
"So much training and never giving up," Kakashi drawled. He took a small purple book from the inside of his vest. "Now that Sasuke's back you have your eye on Hokage. I mean, considering the Akatsuki are down to a few main people now."
Naruto rubbed the back of his back. "I guess so..." he laughed.
The blonde was finally free to pursue his dream. The only thing holding him back now was love. And right now he had office training to get to.
"Well I got to go, bye Kakashi-sensei!" Naruto said, jogging off back to the city.
Kakashi sighed. Even if the Akatsuki is smaller, they're still a danger. He thought to himself. Even if it was true, it wasn't best to tell Naruto or it would make him paranoid. More than he already was.
"All right brat, as Hokage you get to decide who goes on what missions. So you must look at shinobi stas and ranks," Tsunade handed him some papers. They were rankings.
Naruto nodded and studied the sheets. Each sheet had a picture of a shinobi. Below the picture were some facts, like rank, age, chakra element, and some jutsus. On the opposite side was the name of the ninja and the number of missions already accomplished.
"Of course first you should look at shinobi ranking and match it with mission ranking," Shizune said, pointing to the right spots. "For example if there was an S-rank mission, involving several rogue ninjas from the mist, heavily armed. Who would you pick?"
Naruto looked at the sheets, filing out the Anbu. Through the anbu he looked for more experienced ninja. The stack of sheets he had gotten was down to ten shinobi, now. Naruto then picked four out of ten, making his choices rounded out by elemental chakra. Now, he just had to remove one more, knowing teams were better in three. The blonde picked a medical nin and two others who were young. "These three, believe it!"
Tsunade and Shizune huddled around him and looked at his choice. Naruto looked between them, a small amount of nerves were building up. The women stepped back and in unison sighed.
"So?!" Naruto pleaded. His eyes were wide.
"Well," Tsunade gave a soft smile. She patted the blonde on the shoulder. "Good job, for your first time."
A grin widened on the kitsune's features. He pumped a fist in the air, making the sleeve to jumpsuit shorten so it ended in the middle of his forearm. "Next!"
"Sasuke-teme!" Naruto slammed into the house, the door practically breaking. The Uchiha froze for a moment, thinking that Naruto found out about him taking the notebook. But instead the kitsune was smiling.
Sasuke raised a fine brow. "What is it dobe?"
"Let's spar, I'm bored!" Naruto grinned, shutting the door.
"You just got here and you're already bored?" the raven asked. Naruto nodded enthusiastically and Sasuke chuckled softly. "Fine."
The sparring became more vigorous and dangerous as they added weapons. There were flying shurikan and kunai, not to mention the chakra blasts. But no matter what each did, they matched one another perfectly. They were bloodied and battered.
Exhausted, they dropped down to the cold grass. There was a silence which Sasuke was enjoying. The day was cooler, even if spring was almost done. They day was beautiful, reminding him of Naruto.
"Ya know, we've talked about what everyone else did when you were gone..." Naruto questioned, suddenly. The thought had just popped into his head and now it nagged him. "But what did you do for seven years?"
Sasuke stiffened. He didn't want Naruto to know why he really came back. There were five years that he wanted to hide from his secret love. Stalling for time he dusted off his white tunic.
A frown graced Naruto. He watched the look in the other's eyes turn from cold to nervous. "You can tell me anything," Naruto reassured. Sasuke looked into the azure stare and felt mesmerized. "It's not like I'll hate you forever. You're my best friend, you can trust me."
Sasuke closed his eyes and sighed. A gentle wind blew around him, caressing his worry into strength. "After killing my brother," he gulped. "Uchiha Madara told me the truth."
"Uhiha Madara...?!" Naruto yelled. "Madara the... the man statued across from the first in the Valley of Death?!"
"Hn," Sasuke nodded. "I was so mad. Mad at how I killed my own brother because of a huge lie. At how my brother knew me so well that he planned everything that happened until he died and I never really knew the true him.
"I wanted to rip the heads off of those three responsible," he continued. Naruto mummbled out a "Three?" and Sasuke nodded. "The two Elders and Danzo."
"Danzo's... been missing for two years now," Naruto whispered. He was taking in the emotions and words of the raven.
"Hn, I know." A sadistic smile graced Sasuke's thin lips.
"You...?"
"Yes, I found him when he was on a trip," Sasuke said. "But during that time, I became a part of... the Akatsuki."
Naruto jumped back. He was scared, eyes wide. The Akatsuki, the group who tried to capture him to obtain the kyuubi. Sasuke slowly opened his eyes and looked at Naruto, guiltily.
"I helped them," the raven softly said. "I put on my brother's cloak, took my team, and helped the Akatsuki. I was supposed to come here to destroy the village and get you but...." Sasuke's voice trailed off.
Naruto gulped down his tears. "How... I-I, Kami!" He couldn't form any questions. He didn't know what else to say. His eyes were watering. Then he noticed the sad look on Sasuke's face. "I mean, but what?"
In the blink of an eye, Sasuke was kneeling right in front of Naruto. The blonde jerked in surprise. "But, I couldn't. I can't."
"That's it?!" Naruto turned his head away away and rubbed his neck idly. "Geez, and I thought it'd be worse."
"Worse?" Sasuke smirked at Naruto's cover. "How so?"
Naruto laughed. "Yeah, never mind. I got nothing worse."
The quiet consumed them again. This time it was longer, but still comfortable. Naruto's body was still tense as blush dusted his scarred cheeks. Sasuke was only inches away from him, looking into his eyes. Naruto placed his hand over Sasuke's and gripped it warmly. The raven lingured in the warmth.
"I guess we've both been broken," Naruto smiled. He relaxed a little. His thumb felt the rough knuckles that belonged to Sasuke's hand. The said Uchiha felt so fragile under Naruto's touch. "But, what doesn't kill us is making us stronger, ne, teme?"
"When did you get so wise, usura-baka?" Sasuke asked. He wasn't smirking this time, though.
Naruto grinned. "The older, the wiser!" he cheered. Then he lay back against the field. The cold grass was refreshing. As he watched the sky change with the dusk approaching, Naruto understood why Shikamaru always watched the clouds. It was magical.... Or that feeling just came from how Naruto was still holding Sasuke's hand.
Sasuke dropped down to lay next to Naruto, with umph. He watched the soft, beautiful smile on the other man and felt breathless. Catching his composure, Sasuke looked up at the clouds, too. "You're always smiling."
Naruto felt his heart skip a beat as Sasuke gripped his hand back. Sasuke.... He said the name in silence, afraid that if he said it any louder, he would cry. "Not always and not for everyone."
Eventually, the stars began to appear in the blue Konoha sky. The late spring air chilled in the darkness and the wind blew the surrounding leaves. The boys never moved from thier spots. Naruto had never been so calm.
The Anbu member's mind flet blank and his heart was light. He could only wonder it it was Sasuke's doing. Naruto slowly turned his head to the side to look at his unrequited love.
Suddenly, a vein throbbed in his head. He was looking at a sleeping raven. But, Naruto started to laugh softly. "Stupid teme. And I bet you'll still be sleeping 'til noon tomorrow."
Naruto stood and picked up Sasuke, bridal style. He carried the other back into the house. Up the stairs and across the deck, in search of Sasuke's room. Naruto had never been in it before, so he didn't really know where it was.
Then he saw a plain room, the only significant thing in there that caught his blue eyes was the small frame beside the bed. It was the team seven picture and it told Naruto that this was Sasuke's room.
Placing the sleeping raven on the bed, Naruto smiled. "You're so cute when you sleep." He finally let his hand go from Sasuke's, which had never slipped while he carried him.
Sasuke shivered with the loss. Even if he was in slumber, he was conscious enough to feel the sudden lack of warmth. He whimpered softly.
Naruto brushed hair from Sasuke's face. His heart pained as every fear broke surface. "I'll be Hokage and you'll revive your clan. Our plans don't match," Naruto whispered. Silent tears began to fall from his clear blue eyes. "No matter all the people around me, I'll still be alone, won't I?"
His hand was shaking ever so slightly as he pulled it away. Naruto turned around and walked towards the door. He stopped before finally exiting. "I won't stand in your way. I love you, Sasuke."
With that, Naruto climbed onto the banister of the deck and jumped down. He landed swiftly on his feet. With one last looked up to Sasuke's room, Naruto made his way over to the training fields. It was still to early to go off to bed. Suddenly, his stomach growled loudly.
Maybe, I'll stop at Ichiraku's first." Naruto scratched his neck idly. He turned the other way down the main street of the village to the ramen stand.
Geesh I just keep piling on all that angst. No worries though everyone. Stuff'll get better after a while. But then again, to get better, things need to get worse, right?
So while writing this I pretty much rocked out to Eminem's Hailie's song, about like 40 times lol. It's a good song.
Itachi: Why did Naruto call me disgusting in his poem... I thought everyone in Konoha now knew that I had a perfectly good, yet fucked up, reason for what I did.
Nati: Well he does now. But the poems in that notebook, as Sasuke noted in the last chapter, started around the time Sasuke and Naruto met at Orochimaru's hideout. So don't take offence, he didn't know that you really kille-
Itachi: Did what I was asked like a true ninja must learn to do... *glare*
Nati: I swear dude, you'll never let me finish that will you? *Itachi shakes his head* Fine. Anyway guys, hopefully you review, cuz I need some more love. My writers block won't budge. So pretty please, please review!
Love Natuski Lee