Chapter 12: Liquid Confidence
Everyone's face instantly turned into a look of worry. This Christmas party was about to turn sour. Rachel and Kurt looked around the room, smiling until their eyes reached us. Normally, everyone would shout and holler, happy to see the crew from New York, but everyone realized that this was about to get really awkward. The new kids were the only one's that kept dancing, except for Marley, who looked over at us.
Rachel and Kurt walked over to where we were sitting. "Hi guys!" Rachel said, acknowledging everyone who was sitting at our table. I didn't really think that Rachel really cared that Sebastian was here. Of course, her alliance remained with Kurt, but Rachel and I had always been really close.
"Hello everyone," Kurt started, before he looked over at us. "What is the meerkat doing here?" It was evident that Kurt was trying to stay calm, but the way he was glaring at Sebastian told otherwise. Kurt had this particular tone he used when he was pretending to be nice, but absolutely despised someone. Sebastian just smirked, and looked up at Kurt.
"It's nice to see you too, gay-face." Kurt raised an eyebrow and looked at me.
"Blaine…"
"H-hey Kurt." I said before standing up.
"Why did you lie to me?" Kurt asked. "You said you didn't cheat on me with him." Kurt shot a disgusted look at Sebastian.
"I-I didn't lie to you."
"Wait, you cheated on Kurt?" Sebastian asked. Could this get any worse? I forgot that I never told Sebastian just exactly why Kurt and I broke up.
"I didn't cheat on you with Sebastian, Kurt. You have no right to be mad at me anymore. You never answered my calls or texts, you completely erased me from your life. What was I supposed to do? I couldn't just stay…stay depressed forever."
"YOU CHEATED ON ME! I had the right to not want to talk to you! So, what? You lasted a couple days before crawling to Sebastian?" Kurt could be mean when he wanted to, right now being a perfect example. It was strange though; I was never on the receiving side of his sarcasm.
"I'm not saying you didn't have a reason to, but you didn't even let me explain! While you weren't there, Sebastian wanted to help me. I was broken Kurt." Kurt took a step towards me.
"Help you? I doubt it, Sebastian was taking advantage of you."
"That's not true." I could feel my voice getting louder.
"You still didn't answer my question. Why is Sebastian here?"
"Sebastian…Sebas-" I couldn't say it. I didn't want to hurt Kurt. I still cared for him, not like I cared for Sebastian, but that didn't mean I wanted to hurt him. After all, it was my weakness that destroyed us.
Sebastian grabbed my hand and stood up. "I'm his boyfriend, Kurt." Kurt looked at him as if he had a third eye.
"Oh, that's rich. I'm not stupid, you aren't even capable of doing anything other than humping and dumping, let alone loving someone" Kurt crossed his arms.
"To be honest, I really don't care what you think. It's safe to say that you know that I was never a fan of you. Nothing has changed. and I do love Blaine, I would never do anything to hurt him." Sebastian smirked. Did he just confess his love to me? It felt as though a rush of joy washed over my body. He did love me, he really did! But still, I felt so helpless. What was I supposed to do with Kurt?
"Really? Need I remind you about the slushy that caused Blaine to have surgery?"
"It was intended for you."
The next thing I heard was a loud slap. Kurt had slapped Sebastian.
Sebastian's face was to the side, but he didn't move his body, not reacting to the slap that already left a red mark on his face. Everyone by this point was silent, all standing up, worried that they would have to stop a fight. No one was dancing anymore and all eyes were on us.
"Well this should be fun" Santana mumbled, clearly the only one amused with what was going on. Sebastian heard Santana and tilted his head to wink at her.
"Kurt!" I yelled. I pushed Kurt back, causing Kurt to look at me with surprised eyes. He had no right to be mad at Sebastian. It was me he had the issue with. I was by no means about to allow him to hurt someone that I loved.
Sebastian crossed his arm. "Alright, listen here lady Hummel. The only reason I am not bashing your face in right now is because I know that doing anything to you would hurt Blaine." Kurt scoffed, not believing a word that Sebastian had just said.
"Blaine. What are you doing with him? You know all he's going to do is get in your pants and then move onto his next victim."
"No. He's not like that Kurt. You don't know him."
"Are you kidding me? Why are you sticking up for him? He's going to use you. Looks like Sebastian did blind you."
"You have no say in anything that Blaine or I do, so I suggest you back off before you really piss me off." Sebastian stepped in front of me, towering over Kurt and pushing him back with his finger.
"This doesn't concern you Craigslist, this is between Blaine and I." Kurt objected.
"Actually, this does concern me. He's my boyfriend. I'm not about to let you treat him like crap. You can insult me and bitch at me, but not Blaine." I could feel Sebastian getting angrier.
"Kurt. Please. I don't want to fight with you. I'm sorry for what I did, but none of this is Sebastian's fault. Can't we please just let this go?" I didn't hate Kurt. But I wasn't about to let him push me around either. Especially not Sebastian.
"You know what. I don't care anymore. Just know that I won't be there to put the pieces back together when he ends up screwing you over." Kurt then spit at my feet before he turned around and was walking away from us towards the door. Did he hate me that much that he had the audacity to spit at me?
"I'm sorry" Sebastian said as he turned to look at me.
"For what?" I asked, confused as to what Sebastian was apologizing for. As far as I was concerned, Sebastian hadn't done anything wrong.
"For what I'm about to do." Sebastian let go of my hand and walked over to Kurt, before spinning him around and throwing him against the wall, hard enough that Kurt bounced off the wall.
"If you so ever as much as lay a finger on him on Blaine, I will not hesitate to beat the fuck out of you, you understand me?" Sebastian was holding Kurt in place with a hand to his chest.
"You know that he'll come back to me, right?" Kurt asked, an evil smile on his face. Finn, Puck, and Mike ran to where they were and stood behind Sebastian trying to pull him off. Sebastian, although lean, was surprisingly strong. I grabbed Sebastian's arm, pleading him to stop. He moved his eyes to look at me before quickly looking back to Kurt.
"If he decides that he's no longer happy with me, then so be it. I won't stop him if he doesn't want to be with me. But until then, know that I will make him happier than you could ever possibly make him." Sebastian winked before punching the wall next to Kurt's face, causing him to flinch.
Sebastian shrugged off the guy's hands and looked at me before grabbing my hand and walking me back to the table. Kurt left without another sound.
"Well, this isn't what I expected today to turn into." Rachel said, sighing and looking towards the doors. "Well, it was nice seeing you guys."
"Rachel, go get Kurt. Sebastian and I are leaving." A bunch of the guys protested, somewhat to my surprise. They realized that none of this was Sebastian's fault, and that he had not deserved what Kurt did to him.
"It's okay guys, we should really get going anyways." Sebastian said.
"But you guys just got here!" Brittany said. Brittany looked over to Sebastian before grabbing his hand. "Are you okay Sebby?"
"Yeah Britt, I'm fine!" Sebastian had a bright smile before Britt hugged him. "I should apologize to all of you. I didn't mean for any of that to happen." Sebastian addressed to everyone as he pulled away from the embrace.
"You have no reason to apologize." Rachel said, very much to our surprise. "I'm sorry on Kurt's behalf. You didn't deserve that Sebastian. He's probably just a little jealous at how good you two look together." Rachel walked over and hugged me before looking at Sebastian and smiling.
"Please stay, we don't want you guys to leave." Tina Said
"Yeah guys, the party is just beginning!" Sam added.
"Kurt's here to spend time with you guys, which he won't do if I stay. besides we have a Warblers party to attend."
"Why are you even being considerate of him?" Santana asked. Sebastian just shrugged and looked at me. He really was thinking about me above all else. I probably didn't deserve the kindness Sebastian gave to me.
"Rachel, please go find Kurt. Tell him we're gone." I told her. Rachel nodded before leaving Breadstix.
"Bye guys! Don't get too crazy!" I said waving to them. After saying our goodbyes, Sebastian and I made our way to his car. When we got into the car, Sebastian started it to warm up before we left.
"I'm so sorry Sebastian. Every time you're with my friends, something always seems to go wrong for you." I played with my fingers as I stared out the window.
"Hey, none of this is your fault. I should be apologizing. I really did try to be on my best behavior for you, but when Kurt spit on you I snapped." Sebastian reached over to grab my hand.
"You're not mad?"
"No! Of course not." Sebastian leaned over and cradled my face with his empty hand before kissing me gently.
Our kiss was interrupted by a knock on the window. We jumped a little at the sound, but smiled when we saw who it was. Sebastian rolled down the windows.
"Alone for not even a minute and you two already have you're hands molesting each other?" Santana smirked.
"You can't even deny you enjoyed what you saw" Sebastian responded.
"Oh please, you want to know what's hot? Britt's and I getting our lady kisses on, now that's hot."
"We should have a foursome." All of us turned our gazes to Brittany, who had been at my window. I half expected Britt to be kidding, but from the look on her face, it looked like she was pretty serious.
"Sorry Britt, Sebastian doesn't really like sharing." I laughed.
"Well, maybe for Britt I wouldn't mind." I looked over at him with a sarcastic face. He really did like this girl. He winked at me right before Santana smacked the back of his head.
"What we came to tell you was, that as much as we know you two would enjoy a sausage fest, how about you let Britt and I tag along. Maybe we can liven up the party some." Santana said.
"You two are lesbians, so it wouldn't be very different since you two won't give any of the guys a second look." That earned Sebastian a glare from Santana.
"I'm bilingual." Brittany said, causing Sebastian to raise an eyebrow before laughing loudly. Brittany had a confused look on her face. This girl was too cute for her own good.
"Hop in! I'm sure the boys will get a kick out of two beautiful girls making out." Sebastian laughed as he unlocked the doors.
"This should be fun." I said looking towards Santana who winked at me.
"Always is with us 4." She said, even though it didn't really make sense seeing as this was the first time we would all be together.
As Sebastian turned onto the road, 3OH!3's 'My First Kiss' came on the radio.
"I love this song! Turn it up Blainey!" Britt said from the back.
"You should see Britt do Ke$ha or Brittney Spears, she dominates them!" I said looking at Sebastian.
"Sebby! Will you sing with me?"
"Only cause it's you." Sebastian tilted the rearview mirror so that he could wink at her. Was it bad that I felt a little jealous at their friendship?
I could see that Santana felt the same way, pursing her lips and glaring at the back of Sebastian's head and crossing her arms.
(Sebastian)
My first kiss went a little like this
mwah, and twist, mwah, mwah, and twist
(Brittany)
Well, my first kiss went a little like this
mwah, and twist, mwah, mwah, and twist
(Brittany)
I said no more teachers and no more books
I got a kiss under the bleachers, hopin' that nobody looks
Lips like licorice, tongue like candy
Excuse me, miss, but can I get you out your panties?
(Sebastian)
In the back of the car on the way to the bar
I got you on my lips, I got you on my lips
At the foot of the stairs with my fingers in your hair
Baby, this is it
(Sebastian and Brittany)
She won't ever get enough once she gets a little touch
If I had it my way, you know that I'd make her say oooh
She won't ever get enough once she gets a little touch
If I had it my way, you know that I'd make her say oooh
If they thought they could out sexy Santana and I they had something coming. Santana playfully messed up Sebastian's hair. Before stealing his verse.
(Santana)
My first kiss went a little like this
I said no more sailors and no more soldiers
With your name in a heart tattooed up on their shoulders
Your kiss is like whiskey, it gets me drunk
And I wake up in the morning with the taste of your tongue
(Blaine)
In the back of the car on the way to the bar
I got you on my lips, I got you on my lips
At the foot of the stairs with my fingers in your hair
Baby, this is it
(Santana and Blaine)
She won't ever get enough once she gets a little touch
If I had it my way, you know that I'd make her say oooh
She won't ever get enough once she gets a little touch
If I had it my way, you know that I'd make her say oooh
(Santana and Brittany)
My first kiss went a little like this
mwah, and twist, mwah, mwah, and twist
(Sebastian and Blaine)
Well, my first kiss went a little like this
mwah, and twist, mwah, mwah and twist
(Santana, Brittany, Sebastian, Blaine)
She won't ever get enough once she gets a little touch
If I had it my way, you know that I'd make her say oooh
She won't ever get enough once she gets a little touch
If I had it my way, you know that I'd make her say
"Best. Foursome. Ever!" Brittany threw her hands in the air. We all laughed and fooled around the rest of the way to Hunter's house.
We walked into Hunter's house to see that the party was in full effect. "Are you sure you want to be here?" I asked looking at Sebastian. Not only were we at Hunter's house, but I wasn't actually sure who knew about us.
"You're mine." Sebastian said wrapping his arm around me. "I'm just itching for a reason to make that known." Sebastian smirked, causing me to blush.
"Cute." Santana said walking by us holding hands with Brittany.
"Hey guys! Welco-" Nick stopped mid sentence when he look directly at Santana and Brittany.
"W-Welcome. Drinks are in the kitchen, but most of the guys are in the living room." Nick wouldn't stop staring at Santana and Brittany, causing Sebastian and I to laugh. Santana and Brittany looped there arms with Nick before walking away.
"Hello, hello." Someone started walking towards us, clearly already slightly drunk.
"Hey Hunter." Sebastian said as he pulled me in slightly tighter. Hunter smirked, realizing what he was doing.
"What do you boys say to some shots?" before I was able to answer, Hunter had his arm around my shoulders and was pulling me towards the kitchen. I looked back, not wanting to let go of Sebastian's hand.
"Sebas-!" Jeff stopped when he saw that Sebastian and I were holding hands. "Blaine? I didn't know you would be here!" Jeff came over to hug me.
"Yeah! I wouldn't miss a Warbler party. I've missed you guys!"
"We've missed you too!" Thad said walking over to us with Beat and Trent. After exchanging greetings and Christmas wishes, Hunter came over with a bottle.
"You weren't about to take a shot without us were you?" Santana came in with Brittany and Nick, who had red lipstick all over his cheeks. Santana sure did know how to tease a guy.
"Guys, these are Sebastian and I's friends from McKinley, Santana and Brittany." It was honestly like the guys had never seen a girl before. They looked at the girls and Nick, jealousy written all over their face.
"Take a picture boys, it'll last longer." Santana said as she took the bottle from Hunters hand and began pouring shots. After pouring the shots, Hunter began passing them around to all of us.
"I'll have to pass." Sebastian said, shaking his head when Hunter offered him a drink.
"Since when does the great Sebastian pass an opportunity to drink?" Hunter asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Blaine and the girls need someone to drive them home." Sebastian said.
"No, Sebastian you drink. I'll drive tonight." I said. This party was for the Warblers; Sebastian deserved to have fun more than I did!
"Nah, I'm fine killer. Besides, watching you drunk is quite the show." He said pulling me into a kiss. The guys all looked at us and started shouting and hollering at us.
The guys all took their shots. "Let the party begin!"
Everyone made their way to the living room with red solo cups in their hands, even Sebastian although his was filled with water. Luckily, some of the guys had brought their girl friends and invited some girls, so it wasn't a complete boys-only party, although the ratio of girls to boys was still on the low side.
Everyone started talking and dancing to the music. It seemed as though everyone was having a pretty good time. Santana and Brittany were dancing really close to each other, and most of the boys were just 'dancing' and staring at them. Even some of the guys with girlfriends had to be reminded that they were actually dancing with a girl already.
It was funny watching everyone's reaction when Santana and Brittany kissed; some even took out their phones to make this moment eternal. Nick and Jeff made their way over to the girls, trying to squeeze next to them so that they could dance with them. The girls happily complied and began grinding onto them.
A couple of hours later, after various games of Beer Pong, Kings, and Flip Cup, my world was spinning and the earlier events were completely forgotten. Sebastian had his arms around my waist, and I was grinding up on him. I could feel Sebastian's hard-on on me. Sebastian was sucking on my neck as I lifted my arm to run my fingers through his hair.
Sebastian and I had been dancing for who knows how long before Santana and Brittany came to pull us apart. Sebastian danced with Santana as I danced with Brittany. I loved how close the four of us had gotten.
"I'll be right back!" I heard Sebastian yell to me over the loud music. He walked out of where the crowd was towards the kitchen. Brittany came over to dance with Santana and I before pulling her away, leaving myself to dance alone.
I downed the rest of my drink before I felt hands slide from my hips until they reached my upper back. Sebastian bent me over slightly, moving his hips up and down. Sebastian grabbed onto my hair and pulled slightly, bending my neck back. After a few minutes (actually, it had felt like forever) of grinding together, I turned around to kiss him.
"Hunter?!" I said, pushing him away. "What the hell? Where's Sebastian?"
"Didn't seem like you really missed him a second ago." He said, slurring his words slightly. My heart was pounding. Had I really been dancing with Hunter, thinking that it was Sebastian?
"I thought I was dancing with him…"
"Who are you kidding Blaine, our physiques are completely different."
"That's not cool. You know I'm drunk." That's when it hit me. Had Sebastian seen us dancing? I was either tearing up, or my vision was getting way too blurry from all the drinking.
"Are you?" He said a half smile on his lips. Hunter pulled me towards him, leaning his head down, trying to kiss me. I pushed him away again, this time finding my way to the kitchen. Sebastian wasn't there.
"Seb-Sebastian!?" I yelled in between hiccups. When was I going to learn that drinking was never a good idea for me...
I saw Sebastian leaving the bathroom. He looked over at me before walking away. I ran after him (stumbled actually) finding support against the walls.
"Sebastian, I'm sorry, I thought that was you behind me. I'm so sorry." I was hoping that my words were coming out a lot better than what they sounded like. I couldn't think straight.
"That's fine. Go dance with your friends Blaine, I know they've missed you." Sebastian sounded sincere and was smiling, but I could tell something was off.
"Sebastian…" Sebastian snuck his way through the group of people, which now felt like a sea of people.
"Body Shots!" I heard someone yell. I could see Nick run into the kitchen, with someone who I thought was Sebastian. I felt someone grab my arms and bring me into the kitchen, where Sebastian was laying on the table shirtless. I saw Hunter make a line of salt on Sebastian's abs. Who was going to lick that off? I could see Sebastian trying to get up, only to be pushed down by Hunter.
Hunter licked the line of salt, probably a little more sensual than needed. Why wasn't my body moving? All I wanted to do was make my way over to punch him in the fucking face. Hunter jumped on the table and was straddling Sebastian before he took the shot of tequila and bent down to take the lime out of Sebastian's mouth, lingering there more than needed.
I walked over to Hunter, ripping him off of Sebastian, causing Hunter to fall onto the floor.
"Salt!" I yelled. Trent handed me the salt, and I formed another line, but this time from his chest and up his throat; the line thinner, but longer. I climbed on top of Sebastian, who had a surprise, yet delighted look on his face. Sebastian placed another lime in his mouth and handed me a shot glass. I felt as if I was shaking, woozy from all the alcohol.
Before I licked the salt, I bent over to whisper into Sebastian's ear. "If you ever let anyone lick, or touch you again…" I said, grabbing his dick with my hand and giving it a squeeze, causing Sebastian to groan.
I placed my tongue at the bottom of the line, slowly licking up until I reached the end on his throat. I didn't take my tongue off his skin, letting my tongue travel until I reached his chin. I downed the tequila before bending down to take the lime. After sucking the lime and throwing it to the side, I placed my hands on either side of Sebastian and went in for a sloppy, hot kiss.
I didn't know what I was doing until I felt Sebastian's hand travel up my back, causing various people to clear their throats.
"Hot." Santana said, holding her hair back and fanning herself.
Sebastian got off the table, and pulled me by my hands. I looked back to see Santana lying on the table, Brittany getting ready for a body shot.
Somehow, after tripping over my own feet various times, I found myself in a room, pinned up against the wall. Sebastian had me in another hungry kiss, sloppy and rough. Sebastian had his tongue down my throat, massaging my hard on with his hands.
Sebastian unzipped my pants before kneeling. In an instant, I could feel my eyes widen and I gasped. Sebastian had his warm, wet mouth around my cock.
Sebastian started slow, licking the tip and playing with my balls, one hand traveling up under my shirt. I could feel his tongue travel along the vein, before taking me in whole again. I grabbed Sebastian by the hair, forcing him to take my entire length.
I could hear myself moaning and panting, but I didn't care. Nobody could probably hear me anyways. It felt as if it was an out-of-body experience. I could feel myself getting closer with every wipe of his tongue.
Just then, Sebastian stopped sucking my cock. He stood up and looked me in the eyes. "You know, I should just leave you like this after dancing with Hunter all night." Sebastian had a devilish smile on his face. Such a fucking tease.
"Seb-Sebastian, please." I whimpered. Normally, I would hope that I was usually more composed than this, but not now. I needed this. I needed Sebastian.
"Please what Anderson?" Sebastian pressed me up against the wall and grabbed my cock.
I moaned loudly, throwing my head back. I could feel my eyes roll to the back of my head.
"SEBAST-" Sebastian was back on his knees, sucking roughly. After a couple of minutes, I groaned loudly and felt my knees quiver, a rush of ecstasy taking me over.
Sebastian stood back up and wiped the edges of his lips with his thumb. Sebastian pulled me in for a kiss. It was a little strange tasting myself inside his mouth.
"How was that Killer?" he said when he pulled away from the kiss. I buttoned and zipped up my pants before kissing Sebastian again. I felt my legs tremble. I felt as if I would fall at any moment.
"I love you." Sebastian looked at me, a smile on his lips. He pulled me into a hug and sighed. Although I was happy as could be, something inside me hurt when Sebastian didn't say it back.
I didn't know exactly how I made it back home; I didn't even really know where Santana and Brittany were. All I knew was that I was somehow in my bed, alone. I groaned as I looked at the clock. Even the clock light felt bright. It was only 4 in the morning. I felt sick. Oh god. I could feel myself on the verge of puking. Just then, Sebastian ran out from the bathroom with a wastebasket. Before I could say anything, I was throwing up inside of the trash. Sebastian helped me sit up and was rubbing my back.
"Are you okay?" He asked, leaning his head down to place a kiss on my cheek. My face was in the trash for a good 15 minutes; a mix of throwing up and dry heaving.
I tried saying something, but even I could tell that I wasn't making out any words. Sebastian handed me a bottle of water and some Advil. After swallowing some water and taking the pills, I threw my head back and threw a pillow over my head. I mumbled I'm sorry under the pillow, realizing how much of a pain I must have been.
"What did you say?" Sebastian said, shutting off the lights and coming to lie down next to me. Sebastian pulled me in so that we could cuddle, my back against his chest, as he pulled off the pillow.
"I said I'm sorry." Sebastian kissed the back of my head before wrapping his arms around me and nestling his head in my neck.
"For you, anything."
A couple of minutes later, I heard Sebastian say my name. I thought he had been dreaming so I didn't answer.
"I love you too."