Chapter 13: Secrets
"Sebastiaaaaaaaan!" I woke up that morning to Sebastian shaking me, placing kisses all over my face. Sebastian was making baby noises, saying something along the lines of 'get up sleeping beauty!' and 'does baby not want to get up'. What a child; at least he had gotten up in a good mood. Sebastian began tickling me, getting laughs and groans out of me.
"Let me sleep! I don't want to get up!" I said, somehow managing to say a full sentence between the laughs and gasping for air. Sebastian wasn't about to give up that easily. Sebastian ripped off the blanket from on top of me and laughed.
"Someone's happy right now." I couldn't help but blush, realizing that Sebastian was referring to my morning wood. Well, this was awkward.
Sebastian placed his legs over me, effectively straddling me. He grabbed my wrist and pinned them above my head before he came down for a sweet kiss.
"What's gotten into you?" I asked, not that I didn't love seeing Sebastian like this.
"What can I say? Waking up next to you is a pretty good way to start my day." Sebastian said, not letting me go from the position I was in; him sitting on my stomach, holding my hands above my head. "Well, all except the morning breath and your crazy curls. Although, they do look cute on you." Sebastian smiled, but I turned a bright shade of red.
"Sebastiannnnn, let me go brush my teeth." Whether he meant it or not, I couldn't help but feel a little self-conscious.
"B, I'm kidding. You're cute no matter what, morning and night." He said before placing a quick kiss on my forehead. "You know, I could help you with that thing that's poking my back." Sebastian bent over to suck on my ear, causing my entire body to shiver.
"As much as I would like that, I'm sure my parents wouldn't appreciate walking into the room to find us like this." Sebastian rested his forehead on mine, his lips millimeters from my lips.
"Well, actually, when we came home last night there was a note from your parents saying that they wouldn't be back until tonight. Some party or something far away from here?"
"Well then," I said before biting his bottom lip, causing Sebastian to groan. Just then, I heard the door open.
"This is disgusting." Sebastian and I looked over to see Santana and Brittany standing in the doorway. Brittany was biting her bottom lip and her eyes were wide, nodding her head as if she was enjoying the view. Sebastian and I were wearing nothing but boxers, and I automatically reached for the blanket to cover myself, realizing that I was pretty hard at that point.
"Do you mind, we're in the middle of something." Sebastian said rolling his eyes.
"Wait, what're you guys doing here?" I asked, pushing Sebastian off of me so that I could sit up. Sebastian sat next to me, cross-legged and leaning backwards while supporting himself with his arms.
Santana started laughing loudly, much to my confusion. "You know, you're quite the show when you're drunk." I could feel my cheeks warming up again.
"I…yeah, I'm a lightweight." I said shrugging my shoulders.
"Santana, you have no right to make fun of Blaine!" Sebastian smirked. "You didn't even remember where you lived last night!" So that's why they were here!
"I can't remember where I live whether I'm sober or not." Brittany said, causing all of us to laugh.
"I hope you don't mind that we crashed here Blaine. We would have asked you, but you were gone way before we even left." Santana and Brittany came to sit with us on the bed. Brittany sat next to Sebastian, resting her head on his shoulder, while Santana scooted in between us so she could rest against the headboard next to me.
"Yeah, I can't really remember much of last night." I said scratching my head. "But of course it's fine that you guys stayed here! I'm confused as to why I don't feel so hung over right now."
"You don't remember going to McDonalds at 3am and Sebastian practically force feeding you fried food so that you wouldn't wake up dying?"
"Oh…well, guess not!" I said looking over to Sebastian. "Thank you." Sebastian grabbed my hand, squeezing it slightly.
"You two gave everyone quite the display of affection." Santana said, her lips curving into a half smile.
"What do you mean, not us!" Sebastian said, fake surprise written all over his face.
"Oh really? So the whole body shot turned make out session wasn't you guys? Or the fact the Blaine went Hulk on Hunter and threw him aside like he was a ragdoll?" It wasn't that bad, was it?
"Did I hurt him?" I asked, slightly worried that I had again messed something up for Sebastian.
"He'll be fine killer. Although I was surprised by how aggressive you were last night."
"They don't call alcohol liquid confidence for nothing!" I was slightly embarrassed at how I behaved, but I didn't really regret anything about last night, except the whole dancing-with-Hunter thing.
We heard a phone vibrate before Santana pulled it out of her pocket. "Look's like we have to go, our ride's here."
"You have to leave so soon?" I asked.
"Yeah, we have to make some visits today."
"I'll miss you guys!" Brittany said as she hugged Sebastian and then myself. Santana kissed my cheek before extending her arm to pinch Sebastian's cheek. Sebastian pulled away and gave her a sarcastic look.
"Aw, don't pretend you won't miss me!" Santana said, smiling at Sebastian.
"Will we see you before you leave?" I asked her.
"Definitely! I'll text you guys soon!" After waving goodbye, Santana and Brittany left the room. As soon as Sebastian heard the door close downstairs, he was back on top of me, straddling me like before.
"Now where were we?" Sebastian said as he pressed his lips into mine.
Sebastian spent the entire day with me, every day since we made it official. Today was no different; we were relaxing and watching TV with the occasional break to make out. At this point, we were watching a basketball game. I loved sports, but football was more for me. Sebastian, on the other hand, was on the edge of his seat, yelling at the TV as if he was actually there. It was pretty clear to me that the Los Angeles Clippers was his favorite team. I made a mental note to myself to remember that. When the game was over, Sebastian and I decided to start a fire in the chimney so we could just lay back and cuddle before my parents got home.
"Want to know something embarrassing?" I asked Sebastian as we were setting up a pile of pillows and blankets near the chimney.
"Shoot."
"Kurt and I used to schedule make out sessions." I didn't really know what brought that up, probably the fact that whenever Sebastian felt like it he, he would pull me into a heated make out session, not that I had any reason to complain.
"Wait, are you serious?" Sebastian asked with an eyebrow raised.
"Yeah…" Sebastian laughed and shook his head. I went to the kitchen to prepare us some hot chocolate with marshmallows before I came back to sit down with Sebastian.
"Funny that just last week I thought I wouldn't have anyone to sit by the fire with and drink hot chocolate." I leaned my head to the side so that I could rest my head on his shoulder. Sebastian leaned over and kissed my head.
"Sebastian, can I ask you something?"
"Go for it." Sebastian said, taking a sip from his mug.
"The day after you punched Hunter in the face, I texted him to make sure that he wouldn't kick you off of the Warblers," I looked up to Sebastian to see if he would react to that, but his eyes were focused on the fire. "And he mentioned that your dad was the one who got you kicked out. You told me that you did it on your own free will, were you lying?" I could see Sebastian's demeanor change slightly, but he had small smile on his face. Sebastian repositioned himself and set down his mug.
"The guys hated me for what I did to you, they gave me shit for weeks. One day, my dad came to school to pick me up and walked in on a Warblers practice…He heard Nick and Jeff talking about how you needed surgery and how I nearly blinded you. The next day, the headmaster called me in to tell me that I was no longer part of the Warblers and was banned from playing Lacrosse as well." Sebastian's words were truthful, but something behind his words made it seem as if a part of the story was missing.
"Then how are you playing again? I thought that when I told Jeff and Nick that you wanted to be back on the Warblers you were free to do so? How did you manage to get back in?"
"I talked to the headmaster and convinced him to let me play and compete again. I had to sign a contract saying that any behavior that would stain the Dalton name would result in my immediate expulsion. I had to do it behind my fathers back." Sebastian looked fine, but his eyes seemed to tell that he was actually really hurt.
"I don't understand why your dad would get you kicked out though. You should have told me, I would have tried to talk to him to tell him I didn't hold a grudge."
Sebastian scoffed. "My father thought it was appropriate punishment. Or maybe he just enjoys taking away from me anything that seems to bring happiness into my life." The last part of the sentence was said so quietly what I wasn't sure I had heard him right.
"What do you mean?" I asked, placing down my mug and grabbing his hand. Sebastian closed his eyes and was rubbing circles with his thumb on the back of my hand.
"It's nothing. But do you mind if I ask you a question too?" Sebastian said, reopening his eyes and turning to face me.
"Did you really cheat on Kurt?"
I wasn't really surprised that Sebastian had asked me that, although I wanted to drop the subject entirely. If Sebastian was willing to open up to me, then the least I could do was do the same; I didn't want Sebastian to think of me differently though.
"Kurt left to New York, and little by little started erasing me from his life. I wanted to be supportive of him, I really did, but I felt alone…left behind. He was making his dreams come true, meeting new people, living the life he always dreamed of. It seemed like I just wasn't a part of it anymore." I sighed heavily. I never really told anyone this before. "I was stupid though. Some kid named Eli added me on Facebook and invited me over. And then, well…the rest doesn't matter."
"Don't take this the wrong way, but I never thought that you would be capable of doing that." Sebastian started. "I'm only hurt because you chose some random dude to hook up with when you could have had all this." Sebastian said, moving his hands as if to show off his body.
"The worst part…his profile picture was a lighthouse." I said laughing. "And, he wasn't nearly as sexy as you are." Sebastian laughed as he shook his head.
"I do regret cheating on Kurt, but if I'm being honest, I don't regret ending it with him." I looked up to Sebastian and smiled at him. I repositioned myself so that I was in between Sebastian's legs and his arms were around me.
"Guess what I heard last night." I said, smiling so that I could show my teeth and try to look innocent. The last time I used this smile was when I transferred to McKinley and Kurt finally caught on. I kneeled in front of him, resting on my legs.
"What?" Sebastian asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Someone told me that they loved me." I laughed when Sebastian looked at me with pursed lips and glaring eyes.
"You must have been dreaming." Sebastian objected.
"Hmm, I don't think I was!" I said, nudging his arm.
"I was drunk, I don't know what I was saying!" Sebastian had a teasing smile on his face.
"You didn't drink!" I said punching him. "You've told other people that you loved me in front of me, you've indirectly said it, and you've said it when you thought I was sleeping, but you have yet to say those three little words directly to me." I put on the best puppy eyes I could.
"Oh god! Not the eyes!" Sebastian said, rolling his eyes. "You know I do, why do I have to say it? You know I'm a man of actions, I could show you better than I could say it." Sebastian pushed me down and was back on top of me. I feel like that was his new favorite spot.
"If you don't say it, then you don't get any of this!" I said before rolling him over so that I was on top of him.
"Frisky. I like it." Sebastian smirked. "I l-lo-lov-lo-" Sebastian was making a face as if he was about to puke. I slapped his arm, laughing at how much of a jerk he was being.
"Oh c'mon, you can do better than that."
"I lo-love y-y-yo-you." Sebastian wiped his forehead, pretending like he just worked up a sweat saying those three words.
I leaned down so that I could whisper into Sebastian's ear. "I don't think I heard you Sebastian. I was too distracted by the thought of my hands having to do to myself what you usually do for me." I could feel a shiver pass through Sebastian's body. It was fun seeing what I could do to him.
"I love you."
"Was that so hard?" I said laughing as I rolled off of him.
"Oh you have no idea! But Blaine, you do know that I love you right?" Sebastian propped himself up onto his elbow, holding his head up with his arm.
"Now I do." I lifted my head up so that I could place a kiss on his lips.
"Litt-little Br-Bro. Blaine…" I rubbed my eyes, realizing that Cooper was trying to wake me up. We must have fallen asleep without even realizing it.
"Coop?" I asked, still a little dazed from just waking up.
"Hey, you guys should go up to your bed. You're gonna regret it in the morning if you sleep on the floor."
I sat myself up, trying not to wake Sebastian. He was so adorable when he slept, his light snoring soothing. "Where are mom and dad?"
"They're sleeping already."
"Is the guest room available?"
"Yeah, but mom and even dad were okay with him sleeping in your room."
"Really?" That was surprising. They didn't even let Kurt sleep over until two months after we had been dating, and even then not in my room.
"Yeah, they really like Sebastian. You might want to know that mom has a picture of you two cuddling. She took it when she walked in and saw you two."
"Oh god…" Leave it to my mom to take a picture of us sleeping. "She better delete that, Sebastian doesn't like people knowing he can be the cutsie type."
Cooper laughed before wishing me a goodnight and heading up the stairs.
"Sebastian, wake up." I gently shook Sebastian. Sebastian looked even groggier than I did.
"How long have we been out?" Sebastian said mid yawn.
I looked at my watch. "Three hours. Let's get to my bed." I said standing up and stretching.
"Aw. Sucks that I won't be able to sleep next to you tonight." Sebastian stood up and began picking up the pillows and the blankets.
"My parents actually said you could sleep with me!" Sebastian scrunched his eyebrows as if he was thinking really hard.
"Really?"
"Yeah, I guess they trust us."
"They clearly don't know me yet, then." Sebastian said winking at me. I rolled my eyes before placing all the blankets and the pillows in the closet.
"I think I might shower." I said when we reached my room. "Care to join me?"
"As tempting as that sounds, I really don't want to do anything to break your parents trust."
"Since when do you not take risks?"
"Oh believe me, I would if it weren't for your inability to keep quiet. Wouldn't want to wake them with your moans and screaming my name now would we?" Sebastian said, a devilish smile on his face. I grabbed a pillow and threw it at his head, which he expertly caught. When he threw it back at me, however, it hit me straight in the face.
I took a quick shower, but when I was out, Sebastian was already passed out. I shut off the lights and made my way over to the bed. I kissed his cheek before covering him with a blanket and lying down next to him; I wrapped my arms around his waist and nestled my head into his neck. I was usually the little spoon, but it felt nice being the one who would be able to hold Sebastian through the night.
What're your plans for New Years? –Sam
We should get a group to go to New York to see the ball drop! –Tina
Late notice, but that does sound fun! Mind if I ask Sebastian? –Blaine
No, of course not. You can invite the Warblers too if you'd like. I just sent out another group message to the ND's. –Sam
I'll call the seniors. –Tina
I was going to text Sebastian, but seeing as it was still early when Sam and Tina had woken me up, I decided that it would be a nice surprise to bring breakfast to his place. After quickly getting dressed and saying goodbye to my parents, I got into the car and drove to Lima Bean. After ordering two medium drips and two bagels, I was back on the road to Sebastian's house. I was hoping that Sebastian wouldn't have plans for New Years. I really did want to go to Time Square, but I wouldn't want to go without him.
When I arrived at Sebastian's, I was surprised to see an unknown car in the driveway. I knocked on the door, but no answer.
You home? –Blaine
I texted Sebastian, hoping that this trip didn't end up turning out to be a waste of time.
Why? –Sebastian
I'm outside. I come bearing gifts. –Blaine
A minute later, and Sebastian was at the door. I smiled at him, holding up the coffees and the paper bag with our bagels before standing on my tippy toes to kiss him. Sebastian placed a hand on my chest, not allowing me to give him a kiss.
"What's wrong?" I asked. Sebastian never did that to me. It kind of hurt being rejected like that by my own boyfriend, but it hurt even more because it was Sebastian.
"What're you doing here?" He asked. Sebastian looked nervous; he stepped in between the opening of the door so that I couldn't look inside. Was he hiding something? Please tell me he…
"I…I wanted to have breakfast and talk to you about New Ye-"
"I'll call you okay? You shouldn't be here." This was so out of character for Sebastian. He looked…afraid.
"Wh-"
"Sebastian, who is at the door?" Sebastian's eyes widened upon hearing someone calling him from inside. Someone came to open the door fully, not taking his eyes off of Sebastian. This man was tall, pretty good-looking, and much older than Sebastian. The older man turned to face me. Even though his face wasn't threatening, something about him made me want to take a back away.
"Who are you?"
"H-Hi, I'm Blaine, Sebastians-"
"He's my friend, father." Friend? Father? Why hadn't he told his dad that I was his boyfriend? Was he ashamed of me, so much that he didn't want his father to know that I was dating him? I had to admit that I was slightly relieved that Sebastian wasn't doing what I thought he was doing.
Mr. Smythe extended his arm to shake my hand, but was staring at Sebastian. I shook his hand; his grip tighter than I had thought it would be. This was strange; Sebastian was looking at the floor, I was looking at Sebastian, and Mr. Smythe didn't even really seem to acknowledge me.
It honestly felt as though Sebastian was a dog with his tail in between his legs, not wanting to look up at his owner. Was this why Sebastian never talked about his dad? Was this why Sebastian didn't want to come home that night he got drunk at Scandals?
Without saying another word to me, Mr. Smythe walked away, but not before placing a hand on Sebastian's shoulders. I could see Sebastian flinch when his dad placed his hand on his shoulder. When Mr. Smythe made his way up the stairs, Sebastian looked up at me.
"Sebastian…I-Why didn't you tell him I-" I started.
"I'll call you. Just please, you should go." Sebastian gave me an apologetic look before closing the door on my face.
What came over me was a mix of confusion, frustration, and a lot of hurt. Sebastian, the strong guy who didn't take crap from anyone looked weak…afraid. Sebastian, the guy who had been after me for months before I gave him a chance, denied our relationship in front of his father. I didn't know how long I had stared at the closed door before I finally decided I to turn around and leave.