Chapter 15: Dark Side
"Explain to me again exactly how we managed to get a plane to take us all to New York?" Sam asked.
In the end, the entire glee club as well as the graduates along with Nick, Jeff, Trent, Thad, and Hunter all agreed to take the trip to Time Square.
"Sugars dad got us a private jet to fly us all to New York, and thank god seeing as there are way too many of us and taking cars would have cost us a fortune." Tina said.
"I think I see the new kids coming." Brittany said.
"Yeah, and the Warblers that decided to come too." I saw Hunter wave at us, making their way over.
"Don't forget about us." Puck said as he came walking behind us with Quinn, Santana, Mercedes, Finn, and Mike.
"Yay! We're all here!" Even without looking, I could tell the voice belonged to Sugar. I turned around to see her with Artie and the rest of the gang. Sugar was jumping up and down clapping her hands. Sugar was kind of an airhead most of the time, but she was also really nice. Sort of.
We all made our way to where the plane was waiting for us, Sugar skipping in the front leading us to where we were going. When everyone was boarded and ready to go, the plane took off. This wasn't my first time on a plane, but I couldn't help but get a little nervous when the plane was taking off.
I sat with Brittany and Santana, but was stuck on the aisle seat. Of course, Hunter sat next to me on the other side.
"I'm surprised Sebastian isn't here." Hunter said with a smirk.
"Yeah, he couldn't come." I said, not really wanting to explain to him why he didn't come.
"So who are you kissing at midnight then?" He asked, winking at me.
"Dream on, Hunter." Hunter reminded me of Sebastian when he was after me and I was with Kurt. The only difference was that even from the start, I knew that I had some feelings for Sebastian.
The remainder of the flight was uneventful. Some of the crew slept, while the rest of us shared in small talk. The atmosphere in the plane was a happy one, all of us excited to be together on our New York. I was surprised to find out that this was the first time on a plane for many of them.
Despite having to wake up so early in the morning, we were all too excited to be tired when the plane landed on JFK. The day was spent going into what felt like hundreds of different stores and visiting the tourist attractions. We even had time to quickly go to the Statue of Liberty before deciding that it would probably be best to go early to Time Square.
We were right. When we arrived at Time Square, it was already insanely packed. We managed to get relatively close before settling down. There wasn't much to do except wait, which none of us minded; we were all happy to be there together.
It was incredible to hear the roar of the people when it was getting close to midnight. The band that was playing was actually pretty good.
"Wait a minute, isn't that Rachel?" Finn said, looking up on the stage.
"No freaking way!" Puck yelled. Everyone turned to look onto the stage, and they were right. Rachel was on stage singing as a back up singer. Quinn pulled out her phone to call her when there was a quick intermission.
"Hello?!" Quinn yelled. It was so loud there, and I was surprised that Quinn could even hear Rachel over the sound of the thousands of people who were there.
"Guess where we are!...Time Square! What are you doing on stage?"
After talking for a while, a security guard came up to us and told us all to follow him. We realized that he was taking us to the front where the performers were. This was so cool!
Rachel ran up to us and gave us all hugs. "It's so good to see you guys! Guess what… you're all about to do a number with me!" Was she serious? Everyone started shouting and cheering.
"Wait, we don't have anything prepared!" Marley said.
"Well, I know most of you didn't perform this number with us, and we literally haven't rehearsed at all, but I was thinking we could perform the number the New Directions did last year during regionals, 'Here's To Us'. Of course, your friends can come up too Blaine!" She said referring to the Warblers. As everyone was making there way onto the stage, I stopped Rachel so that I could ask her a question that had been on my mind since I saw her.
"Rachel, is…is uh Kurt here?" I asked.
"Y-yeah, he is but you should know that he has a boyfriend now. It's the kid you two fought about last year, Chandler?" It would be Chandler of all people. Knowing Kurt, he did that only to spite me.
"That's fine! I was just wondering." As I was saying that, a voice on the speaker announced Rachel's name.
Rachel made her way to the front where everyone was screaming her name and clapping. I was genuinely happy for her; she deserved this.
"Ladies and gentlemen, I would like to present to you Blaine Anderson." Rachel turned half her body around to look at me and call me over. What was she doing? I looked at the gang, but all of them just turned to look at me and clap, despite looking just as confused as I was. Was I missing something?
"Blaine and I will be performing together, I hope you all enjoy." Rachel hugged me before pulling away with a bright smile. Was this really about to happen? I was never nervous about a performance, but this was different. This was in Time Square, on New Years Eve, in front of thousands of people, and on TV.
"You'll nail this don't worry!" Rachel said before the music started playing, the group harmonizing and dancing in the back.
Everybody started cheering and clapping the second we had finished. I couldn't move; it felt like I wasn't even breathing. This moment was so surreal. Rachel came over to jump on me and I twirled her around, extremely pleased with our performance. Everyone came over to us and lifted us both onto the guys' shoulder wile cheering our names. I looked over at Rachel before yelling 'Thank You', to which she responded by squeezing my hand. Once everyone had settled back down, we all ran off the stage, jumping and hollering the entire way. What was even better was the fact that we now had a spot directly in the front of the crowd.
I walked away from the group, wanting to tell Sebastian the good news. After a couple of rings, I heard the line being picked up.
"Hello?" Sebastian's voice sounded different, a little raspy.
"Sebastian?! You'll never guess what I just did!"
"What'd you do killer?"
"Rachel got a gig as a back up singer at one of the performances here for the New Years Eve celebration and she pulled us up on stage and we all got to sing and I sung a duet with Rachel! It was so amazing, Sebastian, you should have been here! Everyone was screaming our names and was clapping. It felt amazing! Guess who I was singing to?" I realized that I was probably making a fool out of myself. "Sorry…I'm yelling aren't I?"
"No! That's amazing Blaine! I'm so happy for you, that's seriously incredible! So, who did you sing it to?"
"You silly! So, what're you up to?"
"Nothing, just came to my room when I saw you were calling me."
"Is the party fun?"
"Hanging out with a bunch of old people? No, can't say it is."
"Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, it's great!" I could hear Sebastian trying to sound happy, but I knew something was off. "Listen, I'll text you at midnight okay? Go have fun!"
"Okay, Sebastian…I love you."
"I love you too."
As soon as I had hung up the phone, Nick and Jeff came over to me.
"Dude, that was awesome!" Nick said, bringing me in for a hug.
"Yeah Blaine, you killed it!" Jeff continued.
"Thanks guys, but it was a group effort. The applause was for all of us." We started walking over to where the rest of the group was.
"Now probably isn't the time, but any chance would you want to rejoin the Warblers?" Hunter asked, extending his hand to shake mine.
"Sorry, he's ours." Brittany said, placing her arm around my shoulder.
15 minutes passed by before everyone started counting down when the numbers came up on the screen. 10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1! Before anyone could take my attention, I made sure to shoot Sebastian a quick text.
Happy New Years! To a year full of you and I. –Blaine
Before Sebastian replied, Hunter had pulled me into a hug.
"You sure you don't want that kiss?"
"Tempting, but no." I said shaking my head before being pulled into a hug by Nick.
Rachel invited us over to her place, and even though everyone wanted to go, I was a little worried about showing up the Kurt's apartment. Rachel came over and grabbed my hand.
"Don't worry about it, he already knows you're here. He's still not happy about you and Sebastian, but I told him if he said anything that he would get kicked out."
"Of his own apartment?"
"Yup." Rachel said laughing. I could see Kurt walking hand in hand with someone up in front of us as we all started walking towards the subway.
"Rachel, isn't it a little awkward with you and Finn?" I asked.
"Kind of. But I have a boyfriend now. Well, a boy who's a friend who I want as a boyfriend." Rachel explained, using her hands as if that were to make anything less complicated.
The trip to their apartment was hell. The subway was packed, to the point where I was literally surrounded by people in all directions, preventing me from moving. When we got to Rachel and Kurt's apartment, I checked my phone only to be let down by the fact that Sebastian still hadn't replied to me.
I decided that I would be sober tonight, didn't really want Hunter taking advantage of me when I was drunk. When everyone got settled down and the drinks started being passed out, Kurt walked over to me.
"Blaine, you remember Chandler?"
"Yeah. It's nice to meet you." I said shaking his hand.
"Ooh la la, so you are the infamous Blaine."
"I guess so." I said scratching my head. "Excuse me one second." I pulled out my phone and put it to my ear. Yes, I pulled that move.
A little later, I bumped into Rachel. "Rachel, hey! How did you even manage to get alcohol?" I asked, Rachel clinging onto me. This girl was already drunk. I couldn't help but turn turn red thinking about how I must act when I'm drunk.
"Meet Brody, the provider of all that is alcohol and awesomeness." She said, pulling Brody by his arm. "You want to see his body?" She said, pulling up Brody's shirt. From across the room, I could see Finn stare at us.
"It's a pleasure to meet you." He said shaking my hand.
"Likewise! So you go to NYADA?"
"Yeah, I'm a junior! What about you?"
"No, I'm still a senior back in Ohio."
"You know, you don't seem as bad as Kurt made you out to be."
"Good to know that he's talking about me." I said rolling my eyes, making Brody laugh.
Two weeks had gone by since I last saw Sebastian. We were back in school, obviously making it slightly more difficult seeing each other, but I couldn't shake the feeling that Sebastian was avoiding me.
"Welcome back glee club!" Finn said, bringing me back from my thoughts. We all clapped and cheered, which we seemed to do a lot of, despite there being no real reason to. "Alright, let's get this show on the road, who has any idea's for our setlist at regionals?"
"What's the theme?" Tina asked.
"Young, Wild and Free."
"Oh hell yeah" Artie said, doing his signature hand motion.
"We should do-" Sugar started.
"I know where you're going with that, but I think that would be too predictable, we can't use a song that's exact title is the theme."
"What if we do another mash up?" Joe said.
"I say we do Rihanna!" Unique started. "Hold on, so many idea's coming to my head."
"I demand a Kesha solo. Die Young, you have no choice." Brittany said. Standing up, making a gun with her fingers. Everyone nodded, realizing that it was actually a good choice.
"What if we do Rihanna's Please Don't Stop The Music? Both of the songs are upbeat." I suggested.
"We'd have to have killer choreography for those songs, but I love the idea's!" Finn said "What do you all think?" After everyone agreeing, Finn began giving us our parts.
The day passed by in a blur. It was hard for me to concentrate on anything when the only thing on my mind was hundreds of different ideas as to why Sebastian was avoiding me.
Want to meet up today at the Lima Bean after class, maybe we could have a homework date? –Blaine
I have a lacrosse game today and then Warbler practice. Sorry –Sebastian
I didn't know you had a game! Can I come watch? I haven't been to Dalton in a while and I haven't even met your roommate. –Blaine
Oh you know my roommate. But if you'd like to, then sure. –Sebastian
Sebastian, can we stop pretending something's not wrong? –Blaine
Nothing's wrong Blaine. Yes, I would like for you to come watch me play. –Sebastian
What time is the game? –Blaine
5:30 –Sebastian
Sounds good! I'll see you then. Love you. –Blaine
Love you too –Sebastian
Glee rehearsal was short, there wasn't really much for us to do until we had the choreography figured out. I wasn't given a huge part for this competition, but I didn't mind. I was glad Brittany was given a solo and the other number was a group number anyways. Tina, Marley, and Kitty would be singing lead vocals.
I was getting my bags and looking for my keys when Sam came up to me.
"Hey bro, is everything alright?"
"Yeah, why?"
"You seem out of it. How's Sebastian?"
"Your guess is as good as mine." I started walking away but Sam was being persistent. This was one his best attributes, but at the same time it was kind of annoying.
"What does that mean?"
"I haven't seen him in over 2 weeks, not since before New Years."
"Really?" I just nodded my head. Had I been in such a bad mood all day? Whatever, I was finally going to be able to see Sebastian and hug him, and kiss him, and punch him for avoiding me.
"I'm actually on my way to go see him."
"Well, have fun. If you're not back too late you should stop by and play video games. Ryder and Jake are coming over."
"Alright, I'll text you."
Dalton was relatively farther than Sebastian's house, so it took me longer to get there. When I walked towards the field, I could see Sebastian and his team standing in a circle getting ready for the game. The game started before I was able to make my way over to say hi.
"Blaine!" I turned around to see who had been calling me.
"Hey Jeff!" Jeff ran up to me and put his arm over my shoulder.
"What brings you to these parts? Well, never mind, stupid question. Are you staying the entire game?"
"Yeah, I haven't been able to spend time with Sebastian lately so I told him I would come to his game. I hope you don't mind I'll be crashing the Warblers practice today."
"No, of course not! I'm sure the guys would love to see you." We made our way to where the crowd was and found open spots to sit.
"So, how have you been?" Jeff asked between screams and insults to the other team.
"I've been alright, busy with school work and glee club. What about you?"
"Same. These classes are killing me this year."
"Shut up, you're a straight A student." I said as I nudged him.
"What can I say? We're not all dumb blondes." He said laughing.
I could tell why the headmaster didn't hesitate to put Sebastian back on the team; he was incredible. Sebastian had single handedly scored most of the scores in the entire game.
"Can you believe that Sebastian got in a fight with some kid?"
"Wait, what are you talking about?" This was the first that I was hearing about any fight.
"You didn't know? Yeah, when school started Sebastian showed up with a busted lip and a bruised eye. Apparently some kid had rubbed him the wrong way, and you know how Sebastian can be." He said laughing.
"I had no idea he got in a fight." Why didn't Sebastian mention this to me?
"Anyways, I have to go meet with Hunter and Thad before practice, so I'll see you there!" Jeff patted my back and ran off to the school.
When the game was finished, I stayed back a bit, not wanting to rush over to Sebastian, even though every fiber in my body desired his touch. Sebastian turned around towards the bleachers where I was, his eyes looking for me (I presumed). I waved to him, and Sebastian put on that bright smile. Maybe everything was in my head; maybe everything was fine between us.
"Well aren't you a sight for sore eyes." He said, running up to me and leaning his head down to kiss me.
"Bas, I didn't know you were that good at lacrosse! You said you were alright, not incredible." I couldn't help but admire Sebastian. Even when sweaty and exhausted, he still looked sexy as ever. His hair was damp; bangs hanging over his forehead. He looked cute like this. Sweaty. Hot.
"Are you sure feeding my ego is the best way to go? Besides, a Captain has to be the best." He said laughing, grabbing my hand and and pulling me towards his dorm.
"Wait you're captain?" I asked confused. I didn't know that. "By the way, what happened to your face?" I asked. Sebastian's face completely changed, probably remembering that his face was beat up.
"I got in an argument with this kid who was giving me sass during practice. No big deal." Jeff said that it happened before school started again, but Sebastian just said that it happened during practice. Why was he lying to me?I stopped walking so that I could turn his face to get a better look.
"Really? Because seems to me like that bruise must have been a bad one." Sebastian moved his head to remove my hands from his face before walking again.
"Like I said, not a big deal." Was Sebastian hiding something from me?
When we got to his room, Sebastian threw his stuff on the floor and threw me onto his bed, taking off his shirt. Before I was able to say anything or even process how beautiful he looked right at this moment, he was already straddling me. I could see his eyes full of desire, before he bent down to take me into a hungry kiss. Sebastian was grinding onto me, making me moan. Damn did I miss his touch. This was not how I saw us starting off my visit, but I was perfectly okay with this.
Sebastian abruptly stood up, smirking at me before walking to his closet. "I should probably shower, I bet I smell."
"I didn't mind what you were doing though." I said sitting up on his bed.
"We'll have to leave that for later. Can't be late to Warbler practice!" Sebastian came over to me before placing a soft kiss on my lips and walking into the bathroom.
"Where's your roommate?" I asked loud enough so that he could hear me.
"He's already at practice."
"Practice?"
"Yeah, my roommate is Hunter." Hunter? Of all people, his roommate was Hunter? Well, this was an unexpected twist.
"Oh…well, that's awkward. Looks like I won't be able to do anything with you tonight then." Sebastian popped his head out of the bathroom, nothing but a towel hanging around his waist. He had an eyebrow raised. "Why not?"
"In front of Hunter who is pulling a 'you' and trying to get with me, despite my heart already belonging to someone already?" I said laughing.
"Maybe if we give him a show he'll back off. Or, he could join." I glared at Sebastian, hoping that he wasn't serious.
"You sure you don't need any help in the shower?" I asked. Sebastian opened the door slightly more and dropped his towel so that I could see his ass and all its glory. He turned his head to the side so he could wink at me.
"Nope." He said, closing the door behind him. I groaned loud enough so that he could hear me and threw my head to lay down, unfortunately smashing my head into the wall.
I heard laughing, but it wasn't Sebastian's. I sat up quickly, turning my head and realizing that I hadn't noticed that someone had come in.
"Well, well, well, isn't this a nice surprise." Hunter walked into the room, laughing at the fact that I just smashed my head.
"Hi Hunter." I said. "What're you doing here?"
"It's my room, remember?" Oh…yeah. "Where's Sebastian?"
"Showering."
"Tell him to hurry up, we're starting in 5 with or without him." Hunter winked at me before leaving the room.
When Sebastian was out, he quickly threw on his uniform before we headed to the common room.
"Blaine!" I was glad that despite me leaving the Warblers, they all still considered me their friend.
"Hey everybody! Hope you don't mind me sitting in on a practice." Sebastian kissed my cheek before letting go of my hand and making his way over to his spot. Before anyone could come say hi to me, Hunter had his hand in the air.
"Absolutely not. You can't be here." Sebastian stopped and turned to look at Hunter, his eyebrows scrunched together.
"Why not?" Sebastian said putting his hands in his pockets, walking over to Hunter. Sebastian was chivalrous in a sense, but at the same time it was ridiculous that anytime anybody contradicted me or challenged me, he got defensive. Cute.
"He won't tell the New Direction's our set list, Blaine isn't like that." Nick defended.
"Oh, that's not what I'm worried about. I'm worried about Sebastian here." He said turning his gaze to Sebastian. "Are you sure you won't be too distracted?" He said, somewhat with accusation, somewhat jokingly.
Sebastian rolled his eyes before finally walking over to his spot. I took a seat on the couch, pulling out my textbook so that I could study while they practiced.
Trying to study was pointless; I was too distracted by how well the Warblers were singing and dancing. When they finished their number, I stood up to giving them a standing ovation.
"You guys are incredible! Seriously guys, you killed it!" The Warblers really did sound amazing. It was sort of bittersweet; I was happy for them, but I was worried for the New Directions.
"We would sound so much better with you in the mix." Hunter said. "What about a quick number with us?"
"Sorry guys. That would be like vocal treason or something…"
Despite my objections, the Warblers were already humming and whistling.
There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away
Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
It can become
A few give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Will you love me? ohh
Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?
Don't run away
Don't run away
Don't run away
Promise you stay
Throughout the song, I kept glancing over to Sebastian. Something was definitely off; he seemed upset…distant. Everyone came over to me to celebrate an awesome number, but my attention was focused on Sebastian leaning against the wall, his eyes on the floor.
"I think this is enough for today. Warblers, you're free to leave." Hunter said. Sebastian walked over to me grab my hand and he was pulling my out of the common room. Before we were completely out of the room, I turned around to wave and say goodbye.
"Well, someone wanted to leave there quickly. Couldn't wait to have your hands on me again?"
"Gotta get as much as I can before Hunter crashes the party." Sebastian smirked.
When we got into his room, Sebastian started taking off his clothes, throwing them onto the floor. Before Sebastian could start kissing me, I needed to get something off of my chest.
"Sebastian...you seemed off during the song earlier. I want you to be honest with me, is anything bothering you?" I noticed that Sebastian hesitated slightly when he was unbuttoning his shirt.
"I'm fine Blaine." Sebastian stopped unbuttoning his shirt and picked up his clothes to hang it in his closet.
"Come here." I patted the spot next to me on the bed. "Listen Sebastian. Relationships aren't all physical. A big part of it is about sharing whatever it is that's on our mind, good or bad." Sebastian sat there quietly, not looking over to me. Sebastian stood up and grabbed shorts and a shirt before going into the bathroom. When he came back out, he threw his things into his closet before going to sit at his desk.
"Blaine. I don't want you to think that this is about you, but I have a lot of work I need to get done before tomorrow." Sebastian had already pulled out a textbook and was typing something on his laptop.
"Sebastian. I-"
"Please."
I got up from the bed to go say goodbye to Sebastian, but he didn't even turn around. I placed my hand on his shoulder before I walked out of their room and started the drive back home.
I'm coming over. -Blaine
Bring ice cream! -Sam