Chapter 32: Tension

I somewhat expected that my friends would all be aware of the situation back home, but I didn't expect everyone to know. They all came up to me one at a time to share their condolences. I honestly did appreciate their support, but it only served as a constant reminder that my brother was sick. Even at school I couldn't escape the fact that life wasn't perfect right now. It wasn't even really easy. I was sitting in biology next to Britt and Tina when I got a text.

Pick you up from school today? –Sebastian

Could you sense my distress in this place? –Blaine

What can I say? My Blaine senses were tingling ;) –Sebastian

So you're a super hero now? –Blaine

Haven't I always been? Now start paying attention before you fail out. –Sebastian

I looked up at the board to see that we had already started a new subject. Thankfully, Tina handed me her notes so that I could copy what I had missed. Britt handed me her notes as well, but I wasn't really sure how doodles of the glee members was going to help me study for the exam tomorrow.

I was the first one up when the bell rang. "I'm starving. Are you guys ready for lunch?" I said smiling at Tina and Britt.

"I hope they have fondue." Britt said as if she didn't already know they wouldn't.

"As long as your cat doesn't eat it out of the actual pot this time." Tina said, remembering the time she went on Britt's talk show with Mercedes. "Where's Santana?"

"I'm assuming in the teachers lounge with Finn." Britt said. "They've gotten really close lately." Finn and Santana's relationship was weird. They hooked up way back when and they were always at each others throats, yet somehow they both had soft spots for each other.

"Imagine how weird it must be for Mr. Schue to have lunch with them every day. Last year, they were his students, and this year they're his equals." Tina said, handing us lunch trays.

"Yeah, that must be really weird." Britt said, placing a Dr. Pepper on her tray.

"I've never been a fan of Dr. Pepper." I said grabbing a water bottle.

"Is he your dentist too?" She said, leaning in and whispering as if it were some sort of conspiracy. Dentist? What was she talking about? Tina laughed, shaking her head.

"What do you mean is he my dentist too?"

"Well, he's my dentist. I always rinse my mouth with Dr. Pepper after every meal." I don't know why I didn't expect anything like that, even after knowing Britt for so long. How have her teeth not fallen out or rotten?

"Hi Mrs. Rose." I said smiling at Marley's mom.

"Hey Blaine! How have you been?" She said handing me a side of vegetables.

"I've been doing well! Thank you for the food." I said smiling and turning around to see Tina and Brittany looking at me confused. Seeing as everyone loved Mrs. Rose, I assumed it wasn't because I was talking to the lunch lady. It was probably because I said I've been doing well. "Let's eat outside." I said as we paid for the food.

"Wait, Britt, why aren't you eating?" I asked realizing she didn't have anything but a Dr. Pepper on her tray.

"I had to use all my savings to send Lord Tubbington to rehab. Plus, my college fund went into buying Tina's car and everyone else's gifts during Christmas." I looked at Tina. Had she not returned the car. Tina looked guilty but turned around and started walking, probably not wanting to look at me. I grabbed a bunch of other food and threw it on my tray.

"Blaine, you're going to get fat." She said looping her arm with mine and resting her head on my shoulder.

"Britt, this is for us, not just me. I don't want you to not eat." I said shaking my head.

Good news. This bad boy didn't metastastamorphasized or whatever the doc said, so the treatment will be local. Surgery and a couple of treatments of radiation and I should be good. No need for chemo hopefully! Looks like this guy will keep his awesome hair. –Cooper

I'm glad that's what you're most relieved about Coop, the fact that you won't lose your hair. But I am happy for you! Did you schedule the surgery? –Blaine

I'm getting this sucker out next Monday. Just wanted to let you know. Go learn some more or something. Oh, and two mocha's on your way home. Thanks squirt. –Cooper

…-Blaine

"Hey guys!" Sam said walking over with Marley, Kitty, Artie, Jake, and Ryder.

"Hey!" I said waving to them. "Where's everyone else?"

"Their coming." Artie said sitting next to me. Sam pulled over two tables so that there would be enough seats for all of us. Once everyone sat down, I realized that everyone was being really quiet.

"Tina, why are you crying now?" Artie said. I looked up to see that she was legitimately crying.

"Because we're all sitting here when we should be finding ways to help Blaine and Cooper." She said. Tina had always been a crier.

"Oh c'mon. I don't want this to change anything. In fact, I think we should drop the subject altogether. I want to come to school to be with my friends, not think about the problems back home. Besides, Coop just told me that everything is looking up! Well, as good as it can be at least." Everyone clapped and cheered, and just like that they all dropped it.

"Blaine, who are you going to the dance with?" Sugar asked. Please tell me this wasn't a dance proposal. I mean, I would love to go with Sugar, but I didn't want to have to tell her no.

"I'm going with Sebastian." I said causing everyone to stare at me besides Tina, Sam, and Brittany who just kept eating. "What? I told you guys we were friends."

"Yeah, but taking him to a dance is kind of risky isn't it? The slow dancing and junk?" Ryder asked.

"No. It'll be fine." I said, not really thinking it was that big of a deal.

The rest of the day went by quickly. I was walking out of school with Sam and Tina when I saw Sebastian in his car. "Hey guys." Sebastian said lowering his windows as I got into the car so that he could talk to Tina and Sam.

"Hey bro." Sam said putting out his fist, which Sebastian bumped. I still had a feeling Sam felt a lot closer to him than Sebastian did. Tina ducked her head from my side so that she could wave to Sebastian.

"What're you guys doing tonight?" Tina asked. I looked at Sebastian, not really sure as to what we were doing.

"I'm forcing Blaine to study for his biology exam tomorrow. Someone, not gonna say names, has been struggling with biology from what I hear." What can I say? Biology just wasn't my thing. But I don't recall every saying I would study for it. Not that I wouldn't study anyways, I really did need to get a good grade if I wanted to push the B to an A.

"Sounds like fun." Sam rolled his eyes. "I can just imagine what that's going to lead to." He said laughing.

"Well, you boys have fun. I'll see you at the dance Sebastian." Tina said smiling to him.

"I'll see you then." Sebastian said. "How was your day?" He asked when we were on the road.

"It's been alright. No one really knew how to react to the Cooper news. But Cooper said that he's already scheduled his surgery and that it looked good so far."

"I knew it would!" Sebastian said smiling.

"We have to stop by the Lima Bean. Cooper demands some coffee for him and I assume Julie." I said searching for money in my backpack. When we arrived at the Lima Bean, we decided that we would sit down and drink our coffees before making our way back to my place.

"Hey there stranger." I turned around to see John standing behind me, but not in his work outfit.

"H-Hey John." I started as he sat down with us. Sebastian raised an eyebrow but looked unimpressed by him. "What're you doing here?" Stupid question.

"Well, I work here, like you know, but I just got out." He said laughing and turning to look at Sebastian. "Hi, I'm sorry I haven't introduced…wait a minute, aren't you Sebastian Smythe?" Did John know him?

"Yes. Do I know you?" He said taking a sip from his coffee. He could have sounded a little nicer, but I knew he got like this when another guy was involved.

"I go to Dalton. I'm a senior." He said, a pleasant smile on his lips. "I've seen you around, but I've never actually introduced myself. You're pretty well known at Dalton." I wasn't sure whether that was a good thing or a bad thing. Well, that was certainly unexpected. I didn't know that he went to Dalton, let a lone was in the same year as Sebastian and I.

"I'm sorry, I can't say I know you." Sebastian said. Again, with barely any feeling whatsoever.

"You never called me. I was thinking you didn't see my number on the back of the flyer." John said turning around to face me again. Sebastian crossed his legs and reclined on his chair, giving John a look. "I didn't catch your last name last time."

"Anderson. And sorry I haven't texted you or anything. I've just been dealing with some things."

"Hold on. Blaine Anderson. Didn't you go to Dalton as well?" Did he know me? This was kind of strange now.

"Yeah." I said, thinking whether or not he looked familiar.

"Wow, so I was right by inviting you to perform here. Rumor has it that you're sex on a stick and sing like a dream. I don't know about the singing like a dream part just yet, but about the sex on a stick? Nailed it." He said smiling at me. Sebastian's mouth opened and his eyes narrowed. Sebastian looked pissed.. Looks like after Sebastian called me that, it spread through out Dalton. Not sure whether I should be flattered or embarrassed.

"Thank you. That's sweet." I said turning slightly red. This situation was kind of awkward. Sebastian wasn't saying anything, but I could tell he was annoyed with John. He didn't have a reason to be, John was just a nice kid.

"Do you have any plans tonight?" John was quick to the point; I'll give him that.

"I uh…"

"Yes, he does." Sebastian said, irritation so evident in his tone that I could practically taste it.

"Oh. Well, that sucks. Maybe you can hit me up tomorrow or something?" He said standing up.

"Y-yeah, definitely."

"Cool. I'll see you around. Bye Sebastian." He said waving at both of us. When he turned around to walk away, Sebastian gave him the finger.

"Why do you have to be so mean?" I said shaking my head and taking another drink from my coffee.

"He was hitting on you."

"No he wasn't. He was being nice Sebastian. And that's kind of weird that you don't know him and he's in your class."

"I do know him." He said putting down his coffee. "Remember the guy I fell in love with for 20 minutes at Scandals?" I nodded my head. "Well, that's him." I suddenly felt slightly jealous, and also kind of weird. John was hitting on me in front of the guy who once said he loved him who now loves me.

"Wouldn't he recognize you from there instead of Dalton then?"

"Well, we were both pretty wasted when I thought he was the man of my dreams. So I doubt he even remembers that night."

"That's weird. He gave me his number last time I was here but I never called him or texted him because I found out about Coop that day too."

"Delete his number." Sebastian commanded, not hesitating or anything.

"What, why?" I asked. I sort of had a feeling that it might have been because he didn't want me talking to him, but there had to be more to it.

"Fine, do whatever you want."

"You're going to use that card?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"You got it." He said winking at me. I rolled my eyes, but smiled on the inside, slightly happy that he was jealous. "So what is this performance thing he was talking to you about? Is that what kids are calling sex these days? I mean, I wouldn't know seeing as I haven't had any in who knows how long." Sebastian said trying not to laugh.

"Love is a sacrifice my friend." I said licking my lips before placing the cup on them and moaning quietly when the coffee touched my tongue so that only he could hear me. Sebastian looked at me with squinted eyes, knowing exactly what I was trying to do. "And no, performance doesn't mean sex, it means a performance. They're building a small stage here so that singers can come and play for the customers."

Sebastian nodded his head. "Ready to go?" He said standing up. We walked to the line so that we could order the Coop and Julie's coffee before heading back to my place. When we arrived at my place, the entire family was sitting near the garden.

"Hey guys!" I said walking up to them and greeting them all. Sebastian handed Cooper and Julie their coffees before doing the same. What surprised me was that instead of extending his hand, Sebastian went in for a hug with my dad. I forgot to ask him why he was gone so long yesterday.

"How was school, boys?" Julie said. Sebastian sat on one side of her as I forced Cooper to scoot over so that I could sit in between them.

"It was okay Julie. School is school I guess." I said smiling before looking at my mom. "Mom, did you really have to have the guidance counselor call me to her office at the beginning of the day?" I said. My parents told the school what was going on so that the counselors could help me cope, but I thought it was completely unnecessary.

"I'm your mother Blaine, I know what's best for you." She said before standing up. "Does anyone want any snacks or drinks?"

"No thanks mom, Blaine and I have to go upstairs to study for his biology exam tomorrow." Sebastian said standing up and grabbing my hand. Sebastian seemed happy around my family. Comfortable.

"I hope you guys are only studying from a book." Cooper yelled as we walked away towards the house. I threw a crumpled piece paper of paper at the back of his head, eliciting a groan from him.

"Behave boys." My dad said.

"It didn't even hurt him." I said opening the door and walking inside. We made our way up stairs and I changed into something more comfortable. I threw some sweats to Sebastian before getting out my textbook and sitting on my bed.

Sebastian wasn't kidding. He was explaining everything to me and quizzing me on every chapter once we were done. Biology really wasn't my thing. I could feel my brain not retaining anything after about two hours.

"I can't do this anymore." I said, lying down.

"One more question. Tell me what homeostasis is." Wasn't that something about equal rights for everyone or something?

"It's uh…the bodies ability to maintain a stable and…constant condition! Equilibrium! I knew it was something about equality."

"Exactly! See, you're doing good so far." He said placing the book away. I moved so that my head was resting on his lap.

"Does that mean that I'm your homeostasis?" I asked looking at him.

"Not exactly how it works, but I guess you could say that." He said laughing and bending down so that he could kiss my forehead. I wanted him to just place one on my lips, but I knew that would be a little awkward. Sebastian played with my hair, which thankfully I had worn without gel today. It wasn't as bad as I thought, but gel made me feel more secure. Is that weird? Wait. Was the fact that I didn't wear gel the reason my friends were so worried about me? No way, it couldn't be…My hair by no means represented my my mental stability.

"Is that what you two consider studying?" Cooper said walking into the room with Julie. I sat up quickly, not because Cooper had walked in, but because I wasn't actually sure how Julie felt about me being gay. Not that we were doing anything inappropriate, but I thought we were being pretty cute.

Cooper looked at me with a confused look. "What's wrong?"

"Julie." I said extending my hand so that she could sit on the bed with us. "I know this is kind of awkward, but uh, I just wanted to ask you how you felt about me being gay."

Cooper was about to speak up, probably to defend her, but Julie just smiled and put her finger to his lips. "It's understandable that you'd be concerned about how I felt, but if the reason you sat up from Sebastian's lap was because I came in, you have no reason to. I grew up in San Francisco, so I've been around all different types of people. Love is love, isn't it?" She said looking at both of us. She was so humble and kind. I really did love her.

"We just wanted to tell you guys that we'll be going out to dinner with mom and dad. I would invite you, but I'm sure you'd rather be here by yourself." Cooper said with a smirk on his lips. There was no getting through to my brother.

"Here's some money." Cooper said handing me the cash. "Order in. Do whatever. I don't care. I don't have to remind you where the condoms are right?"

"Cooper! That's enough." Julie said rubbing my arm. "I'm sorry he's always such a jerk." She said with an apologetic look.

"Not your fault Julie." I said glaring at Cooper. When they left, we chose to order some chinese food, just like the time I first hung out with him after the incident last year.

"Alright, get ready for some more cramming. When the food get's here we can call it a successful night of studying." He said pulling out the textbook again. He never really helped me study before. I wonder why he was being so tough on me now.

We ran downstairs when we heard the doorbell. After getting the food, we sat down at the kitchen table to eat. It was weird, but everything that Sebastian did was turning me on. Even the way he ate his food seemed to be somehow attractive. It hit me that it had been about six months since I last had sex. But we still had a bet; I wouldn't be the first one to cave in and make the first move. Even though technically Sebastian didn't follow the rules of the game. He did have sex with other people, so didn't that disqualify him?

"So, what do you want to do now?" Sebastian wasn't even talking in a seductive voice yet I shuttered thinking about all the things we could do.

"I don't know." I said. "Want to check the TV?" I needed anything to distract me from this insane amount of hormones that was rushing through my body. Boys will be boys.

Sebastian smirked before walking out of the kitchen and up to my room. Something told me that he had something up his sleeve. After I threw away the trash I walked to my room to see Sebastian sitting on my bed, resting against the headboard. Shirtless.

"Sorry, it's kind of hot." He said half smiling when he saw me staring at his chest. It kind of looked like had been working out. His chiseled chest and abs seemed to call my name. No. Compose yourself Blaine.

I turned on the TV before sitting next to him. Sebastian seemed comfortable enough; was I the only one who felt this sexual tension?

An hour into the movie and I had somehow managed to scoot close enough that our bodies were touching. Sebastian placed his hand on my lap and started rubbing my leg. "You seem kind of tense." He said leaning in to whisper in my ear. I could feel his breathe on my skin, sending a rush through my body. I could feel myself already getting a hard on.

"N-no, I'm okay." I said fidgeting slightly, hoping that he wouldn't see what he was doing to me. I closed my eyes, trying to think about anything but Sebastian. I couldn't look over at Sebastian, but I could feel him still at my ear. I couldn't help but moan slightly when I felt him suck on my ear lobe.

"Tell me you want it Blaine." He said as his hand moved towards my cock, massaging and it causing me to buck slightly. I could feel myself starting to sweat as my mind went hazy. I hadn't even really touched myself for a while. It just didn't compare to what Sebastian did to me. He started unzipping my pants, kissing and sucking on my neck. Yes. I want this.

"I don't wa-" I bit my lip when I felt the breeze on my exposed length.

"A hand job doesn't count as sex." He whispered into my ear. Sebastian's hand was pumping in rhythm, each one getting me closer to the edge. His other hand was busy travelling up my shirt and playing with my nipple.

I tried resisting, I really did. But I couldn't. His words. His touch. His mouth. Everything was addicting.

It felt so good. Sebastian was whispering a mix of sweet nothings and telling me what he would do it to me. Each word that he huskily breathed out sent me farther into the depth of pleasure.

In an instant of pure ecstasy, I moaned and came onto my stomach. My eyes rolled to the back of my head, finally feeling something relatively close to what Sebastian made me feel when we made love. I knew that this was just so that Sebastian could be amused by what he was doing to me. But he had no idea how much I needed that.

I turned my head, wanting to lean in for a passionate kiss but Sebastian pulled his head away. "Friends don't do that." He said standing up and grabbing a towel so I could clean myself off.

I sat up and took of my shirt, even though it wasn't even really on. "You just gave me a hand job yet you won't kiss me." I said pouting and putting on the best puppy dog eyes I could manage. Sebastian laughed and threw the towel at my face.

"Keep the towel on your head. It makes it easier to resist you." He said smirking and sitting down next to me. I took off the towel to clean my stomach. "What's wrong?"

"I want a kiss." I said, kind of childishly but I didn't care. "Friends don't give hand jobs either yet you did that."

"Well, yeah." He said standing up and walking into the bathroom. "A kiss always has meaning behind it for you B. What just happened was strictly physical. Besides, what kind of friend would I be if I didn't help you out with your little problem? You had a problem, and I knew how to help." He said winking at me waving me over to the bathroom; Sebastian had started the shower. "Besides. I can imagine your touch, your voice, your smell...when I'm in London. But not the way you kiss me." He said smiling. A sad smile, but still a smile.

"I don't see how I'm to blame. You're the one who caused this problem." I said taking off my pants.

"Oh please, don't blame me. You've been horny all night. You thought I wouldn't notice you staring at me and fidgeting." He said wrapping his arms around my waist and resting his chin on my shoulder. We faced the mirror, staring at each other.

"Well, then the blame is still on you." I said turning around and pushing him against the wall. "You can't blame me for what I do when the only thing in my mind is you on top of me." This was kind of out of character for me, but two could play at his game.

"Just tell me you want it and I'm all yours." He said, a half smile on his lips.

"You say it first." I argued.

"You want it more." He said.

"I beg to differ." I said looking down at his length poking me. No, but really…I did want it more. Crap. Sebastian moved me off of him before stepping into the shower.

I stepped into the shower with him."It seems like the table's have turned." I said wrapping my arms around him and my hands trailing from his chest down to his member. He needed relief too. "Don't worry. I can help you with that." I said smirking against his back.