Chapter 33: The Dance
A/N: Hey guys! Just want to apologize for not updating these last couple days. I've been kind of down lately and I felt like I wasn't in the right mindset to write. I wasn't going to update tonight, but I decided to write something so that you guys could all read! I promise I'll update more often! Sorry once again. I hope you enjoy this chapter.
"Why do you have a camera out?" I asked walking down the stairs towards the living room.
"For pictures of course." My mom said smiling at me.
"Please don't make him uncomfortable mom. I think this is the first time he's going to an actual dance with someone." Sebastian wasn't really the type of person who would invite someone to a special dance and dress up and be cordial and whatnot. When I first thought about taking him as my date, I had a feeling that I would get him to come with me, but it felt even better when he had accepted. Even though he technically invited me. Whatever.
A knock came at the door, but when I opened it, I was somewhat let down to see that it wasn't Sebastian.
"Just because we're not Sebastian doesn't mean that you have to look so bummed about seeing us." Cooper said walking in with Julie.
"It's not that." I said bringing him in for a hug. "Hi Julie!" I said kissing her on the cheek.
"Blaine! You look so handsome." She said moving me away from her so that she could analyze me up and down. "Cooper told me that bow ties were your thing. They suit you." She said with a smile before greeting my parents.
"Alright! It's time for pictures!" My mom said. I don't know what it was about this dance that had her in such a good mood.
"Mom, I know I'm gay but the whole walking-down-the-stairs and picture taking is usually reserved for a girl in a dress. We're just two friends going on to a dance." No matter what I said, no one really seemed to listen; they were over the fact that I kept trying to convince them that it was simply two friends going to a dance together. Once my mom had enough of her pictures, we decided to sit and talk while we waited for Sebastian.
"Son, can I speak to you in private?" My dad said to me.
"About what dad?" It seemed like my dad seemed kind of embarrassed. Or shy. Completely out of character for him.
"Should we have a talk before you leave?" My dad asked. Everyone turned around and looked at him with a confused expression. A talk?
"About…?" For the first time, my dad seemed uncomfortable. Oh god. This wasn't the talk was it?
"Well, I've been doing some research and I think it's time that we, uh, talk about…you know. That stuff. In private."
"Whoa, okay no. oh my god...uh, thanks dad, but I think I'll be alright." I could feel myself turning a deep shade of red. It was the sex talk. Cooper couldn't resist but to laugh loudly, earning him a smack from both Julie and my mom.
"I'm serious Blaine. Its way overdue don't you think? And I've been talking with people who can relate to you better. I wanted to be informed so that I could pass it on to my son and help if he had any questions." He seemed sincere enough, and honestly it made me happy that he felt comfortable enough with my sexuality now that he would find information and educate himself so that he could talk to me. Unfortunately, last year was kind of a rough year for my dad and I, so I found all the information I needed from the Internet.
"Dad, you really think Blaine is still a virgin? What do you think Sebastian and Blaine do when no one is around?" Cooper said walking up to me and placing his arm over my shoulder. Embarrassment. That was the only thing I was feeling. Did Cooper really just say that? I turned to to look at Cooper, my eyes wide and my mouth open. Mom and Julie had the same expression on their face.
My dad's eyes grew wide. For the first time in my life, I felt like I actually wanted to die. This was much more awkward than I would have ever anticipated, especially since we were with my mom and Julie, and Cooper had just told them I wasn't an innocent little boy anymore. "Wait, Blaine did you and Seb-"
Fortunately, God pitied me enough to stop my dad before he could finish that sentence. A knock came at the door; I ran to the door to find Sebastian standing there, looking handsome as ever in a tux that looked almost exactly like mine. The only difference was that he had on a tie.
"B-Blaine. Y-you look…" Sebastian opened his mouth but didn't say anything. I didn't even really know what to think. This gorgeous man that stood before me was mine. Kind of. I couldn't help but admire how classy and elegant he looked. Everything about how he looked yelled 'perfect'.
"So are you two just going to stare at each other or are you going to actually speak." Cooper said.
"Cooper, leave them alone." Julie said.
Reality hit me; my dad had just found out that I wasn't a virgin. He couldn't really be mad at Sebastian because he wasn't the first person who I had sex with, Kurt was. Even though technically Sebastian did take my virginity.
"What's wrong?" Sebastian whispered when he saw my eyes go wide.
I pulled him into a hug so that it didn't seem as if I was telling Sebastian something. "Cooper just told my dad we've had sex."
When Sebastian pulled away he raised an eyebrow. He probably didn't realize just how much this actually meant. We were both guys, so it wasn't a deflowering-my-daughter scenario, but this was the first time my dad would have to deal with my sexuality in regards to having sex. Sebastian's eyes suddenly grew wide and he turned shades whiter as if he had just read my thoughts and realized this was actually a big deal.
"Oh…"
"Boys, come inside!" My mom said. We walked into the living room and Sebastian greeted everyone.
"Mr. Anderson, I'm-" Sebastian started when he turned to greet my dad. My father stopped him before he could apologize or whatever he was about to do.
"We can talk about this later." He said standing up and smiling at Sebastian. Sebastian seemed to ease slightly when my father didn't attack him. I would definitely have to get Cooper back for what he did. Jerk.
As much as I tried telling myself that my mother would listen to me and not make a big deal about the dance, I knew she would do it anyways. Sebastian looked happy, not once denying my mom a picture.
"You two look so handsome! So good together." She said showing us a picture of Sebastian with a half smile and one hand in his pocket with the other one around my waist. He looked stunning. Sexy. I, on the other hand, looked like an idiot with a goofy smile on. But, somehow we did look good together. Then again, we technically weren't together. Sebastian opened a box that he had brought with a flower. He seemed nervous, shaking slightly when he was pinning it on me. When the hooting and hollering started, he turned a bright shade of red. Sebastian wasn't one to blush, but it made him look adorable. I couldn't resist but to let out a happy sigh. I was going to the dance with Sebastian, the only person I really wanted to go with.
More flashes came from behind us. "Mom, enough." My mom shook her head but threw her hands up in defeat.
"Are you ready to go?" Sebastian said extending his hand. I nodded and took his hand before waving goodbye to everyone.
"Boys!" My dad said walking over to us before we left. "Please, just…be safe." He whispered. I could feel my cheeks warming up thinking about what could possibly be running through my dads mind. My dad gave Sebastian a look that wasn't menacing, but it seemed as if they knew something they weren't telling me.
"Bye dad." I said rolling my eyes and walking out of the house. "A limo?" I said, my eyes widening and my mouth gaping slightly. This was just a dance. It wasn't prom. Why was there a Limo?
Sebastian sighed and furrowed his eyebrows. "I knew you wouldn't like it. Nick and Jeff said renting a limo would make tonight special. Crap, I'm sorry." There he goes again thinking he did something wrong.
"It's not that Seb, I'm just surprised. How much did this cost you?" Sebastian shrugged, not wanting to tell me how much this Limo cost him.
"We can pick up your friends if you'd like." He said opening the door for me.
"No, I wouldn't ask you to do that. That would be too much." To say I was surprised to see all of my friends in the limo was an understatement. I stepped in to hear them all cheering in excitement.
"Guys!" I said sitting down and smiling at them before looking at Sebastian. "Always full of surprises aren't you?" I said smiling at him. He seemed amused by how happy I was, an arrogant smile on his lips.
The entire drive to McKinley was filled with laughter and celebrations. I inwardly smiled at how comfortable Sebastian seemed around my friends, and how easy it was for them to joke and fool around with him. Sebastian somehow managed to get bottles of champagne, which everyone finished before arriving at school. When we got in, the party was already in full swing. Everyone was dancing and having a good time to the music being played, but luckily some live entertainment had just arrived.
Up first to sing was Santana. She started off the night by singing Girl on Fire followed by If I Were A Boy. The voice on this girl could be compared to the likes of Beyoncé and Alicia Keys. She had that innate talent that was undeniable.
"I'll be right back." I said to Sebastian before walking up on stage with the boys to perform our number.
"You and Sebastian should do a number." Sam said before the music started playing. I hadn't thought about it, but it wouldn't be such a bad idea. When our number was done, the girls came on stage to perform their numbers.
"You sounded amazing." Sebastian said with a half smile on his lips as he handed me a cup with punch in it. "It's spiked, but don't let that lady standing over there know." He said looking at Coach Sylvester.
"How did you manage to spike the punch? It took Noah two years to finally be able to put some alcohol in Sue's punch." I said taking the drink.
"I have my ways." He said with a wink. The girls were performing a Bruno Mars number, which had the entire party jumping up and down. "Care to dance?" Sebastian said when Tina took the stage and started singing a slow song.
"I'd love to." It was funny seeing some of the girls gawk at Sebastian with me. Chances were they were staring at how insanely beautiful he was. Sebastian placed his hands on my waist as I put mine around his neck.
"I'm playing the female role again." I said rolling my eyes, causing him to chuckle. I rested my head against his chest and thought about how lucky I was to have Sebastian. Even if we weren't dating, he was still my best friend. I really loved him, and I knew he felt the same way. It felt like those corny movies where the spotlight shines on the leading actor and actress on their first slow dance. "Our first slow dance." I whispered looking up at him. He smiled, a light, sweet smile. Sebastian leaned in to what I was hoping was a kiss before the music stopped. He let go of my waist and scratched his head and let out a nervous laugh. No matter how much I tried to let him go, no matter how much I tried to deny it, I couldn't escape the fact that I was absolutely in love with Sebastian. As hard as I tried, I knew I would somehow always return to him.
"Blaine, you're up." Britt said walking up to us with Santana.
"Why don't you sing a duet?" Santana said. Normally, Sebastian would hesitate and try to think of a reason why he didn't want to sing, but instead, he just nodded and pulled me on stage. Everyone's attention turned to us, and I could see all the girls practically drooling over him.
"What are we singing?" I asked handing him a mic.
"You definitely know this song. And Demi hasn't let us down so far." Sebastian walked over to the band and told them the song before walking to center stage. "Hit it." He said winking at me.
As soon as the music started playing I recognized what song it was. It was perfect; an upbeat song that described Sebastian and I perfectly. I smiled, realizing that the words of the song were 100% true. Our friends who were up front laughed, probably realizing how ironic this really song was for our relationship.
(Sebastian)
I throw all of your stuff away
Then I clear you out of my head
I tear you out of my heart
And ignore all your messages
I tell everyone we are through
'Cause I'm so much better without you
But it's just another pretty lie
'Cause I break down
Every time you come around
So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better than trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together; you'd think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go go again
(Blaine)
You never know what you want
And you never say what you mean
But I start to go insane
Every time that you look at me
You only hear half of what I say
And you're always showing up too late
And I know that I should say goodbye
But it's no use
Can't be with or without you!
So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better than trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together; you'd think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go go again, 'gain
(Sebastian and Blaine)
And again
(And again)
And again
(And again)
And again
I threw all of your stuff away
And I cleared you out of my head
And I tore you out of my heart
Oh oh, oh oh
So how did you get here under my skin?
I swore that I'd never let you back in
Should've known better than trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive
We're falling together; you'd think that by now I'd know
'Cause here we go go
Here we go again
Here we go again!
Should've known better than trying to let you go
'Cause here we go go go again
Again
And again
And again
And again
The entire song was playful; Sebastian and I danced around each other, teasing and flirting the entire song. No truer words had ever left my mouth then the lyrics to that song. Everyone was clapping and yelling. We both bowed before making our way off stage, only to be mobbed by a bunch of girls. If the way Sebastian and I looked at each other that entire song wasn't an indication that we were hopelessly devoted to each other, then I don't know what did.
A few of the girls even handed Sebastian pieces of paper with their numbers. "Sweet, but, not on your team." He said smiling at them and dragging me towards the exit by the hand.
The moment we were in the hallway my back was slammed against the locker and I was pinned. Sebastian pressed his lips against mine; the kiss was passionate. Needy. Sebastian didn't hesitate before his tongue was inside my mouth. The kiss was greedy. It was hot. I wanted this so badly. It had been months since I last kissed someone, and even longer since Sebastian was towering over me, his hands exploring my body as if it were the first time. Sebastian nibbled and licked my lips before playfully sucking on my bottom lip.
I reluctantly pulled away from the kiss, desperately in need of air, only to moan when his talented mouth was sucking and kissing my neck. "Sebastian…"I managed to breathe out. "You take my breath away." I could feel him smirk against me neck, amused with what he was doing to me. My hand was roughly pulling on his hair, the animal inside of me literally taking control. I was in a haze; I needed this. I craved this.
"Sebastian we have to stop." I said, wanting to push him away, but my body was not obeying me.
"Why?" He said in a husky voice that sent a shiver down my spine. Sebastian pressed his lips against mine again. Everything about the way he kissed me screamed desire. He wanted this just as badly as I did.
"We can't." I said, gasping for air and resting our foreheads against one another. "You know I want this." I said looking up at him. "But you know that tomorrow and months from now we'll regret doing this to each other. We can't fall back. It'll just be that much harder on us." I said smiling a weak smile. I never thought that I would be the one saying no, yet here I was stopping what we so desperately needed.
"Just one more time." Sebastian's eyes looked hurt. He knew I was right, but he didn't want to resist his urge. "Please?" He never pleaded. Sebastian really wanted this.
"Sebastian…" I wanted more than anything to say yes. To let him make me feel what I hadn't felt in months, but then that would lead to another time, and then another. We couldn't get enough of each other. We couldn't break now. It would only make things more difficult later on.
Santana and Brittany came walking out of the gym and turned towards us. Sebastian let go of me and straightened his tux as we tried to compose ourselves.
Santana smirked. "Did we interrupt something?" She asked eyeing us up and down. I could feel that my lips were swollen and I was definitely flushed, but Sebastian seemed normal.
"Of course not. We're just friends, remember?" He said with a devilish smile on his lips.
"Come back inside! We want to dance with you two." Britt said, grabbing both of us.
"Nice boners." Santana said looking at the slight tightness of our pants.
"Oh god." I said turning around and running towards the bathroom. "I'll be right in!" I yelled back before running in.
"Calm down Blaine. Just breath." I said looking at myself in the mirror. I splashed my face with water, hoping that somehow it would help cool me down and get rid of the thoughts running through my head. Sebastian on top of me, his length inside me, thrusting, making me moan and scream his name. Stop! After a mental pep talk and thinking about anything to distract me from the idea of Sebastian naked on top of me, I decided to head back into the gym. I spotted Britt and Santana both grinding on Sebastian.
"Where were you!" Sam yelled placing his arm around my shoulder. Was he tipsy? "Have you had the punch? It's freaking awesome this year!" Yup, he was intoxicated.
I laughed at how funny Sam was when he was drunk. "I think you shouldn't drink that anymore." I said walking him over to where everyone was dancing.
"Why not?" He asked pulling Ryder from the girl he was dancing with.
"Sebastian spiked it." Sam nodded knowingly, as if it somehow all made sense.
"You're boyfriend is quite the bad ass." Sam said pulling Jake away from the girl that he was dancing with. Not my boyfriend, I thought with a sigh. All the guys from the New Directions were standing around each other. "We're bros, guys. Forever. You guys are the best." He said putting in his fist, to which we all did the same. I laughed at how much bro love Sam was emitting.
"Bros before hoes!" Ryder said. Just then, the girls came walking over to us and they all paired up so that we could dance around one another. Santana and Britt surrounded me and started dancing on me. I couldn't help but laugh seeing Sebastian cross his arms and pout. He smiled before walking over to us and joining our own mini dance party.
By the time we got to my house, my parents were already asleep judging from the lights that were all turned off. "You can stay the night, you know?" I said, wishing that he would stay here with me. I opened the door and stepped inside, hoping that he would follow my lead.
"After what happened tonight, I don't think we need anymore temptation." He said putting his hands in his pocket. "So, uh. I guess I'll see you soon." He said with a nervous smile. Kiss me. Please.
"Y-yeah. I'll see you later." We both went in for a hug, only to end in an awkward position. I closed the door after his limo was out of sight and made my way to my room. It was only 11, so it wasn't actually that late, and I wasn't even tired. I changed into some comfortable clothes before lying down on my bed, letting my mind wander and think about everything. Mostly, my thoughts were about Sebastian. And even when I thought about other things, it somehow managed to end with Sebastian. I put on my headphones and played the song he and I had sung earlier this evening. An hour had passed of just lying there wide awake listening to music when I felt my phone go off.
"Hello?"
"Hey killer." Sebastian!
"Hey! What's up?"
"Nothing much. Guess what? Hunter has some guy over. Except his snoring isn't letting me sleep."
"I told you to stay here." I could hear Sebastian chuckle on the other side before sighing.
"Not that you would let me sleep any better."
"Shut up." I wasn't that bad! A while passed without either of us saying anything; If it wasn't for the light breathing I could barely make out, then I would have assumed that he had knocked out. "Penny for your thoughts."
"Just thinking."
"About?"
"You." I could feel my heart rate speed up. That one word sent me over the edge. That one simple word.
"Oh really? What about me?"
"Well, if you must know, I was just thinking about what I would do to you if I got my way back at the dance." He said in a seductive voice. I knew where this was going, but I was too weak to try and stop it.
"What exactly would you do to me?"
"I'd start by ripping your clothes off and lifting you so that your legs would be around my waist. I would be so desperate, that I would barely prepare you. But we'd have to be quiet, so I'd place my hand on your mouth so that you wouldn't scream my name and get the whole schools attention." I could feel my shorts become tighter as I rubbed against the mattress. " I would slam you against the wall before bending you over and thrusting into you until you couldn't take it anymore." Before I could grasp what I was doing, My short were already around my ankles and I was pumping myself; my eyes were closed and I was picturing exactly how it would happen. "You'd moan with my length inside of you, loader than you have ever moaned. You'd beg me Blaine. You'd beg me to fuck you. I'd pump your dick, sucking at your neck and playing with your nipples. It would be hot. So hot."
Sebastian continued telling me everything that he would do to me. I could feel myself getting close. I had to bite a pillow so that I wouldn't moan out loud, mostly not to wake my parents, but also because I didn't want to give Sebastian the satisfaction that I was touching myself thinking about him. Sebastian continued narrating how it would go down; his voice husky and seductive. I couldn't stop the quiet moan that escaped my lips when I came. Even if it was just phone sex, it still felt amazing. I heard Sebastian chuckle on the other side. Crap, did he hear me?
"What's so funny?" I asked, half knowing why he was laughing.
"Oh nothing. What're you doing?" He asked in a teasing voice.
"Nothing, I just kind of zoned you out. I'm actually reading this really interesting book."
"Oh really now? What's it about?" I could feel myself turning red. It was kind of embarrassing that I just masturbated to the fantasy of what Sebastian would do to me. And what's worse is that Sebastian probably knew.
"I'll explain tomorrow. I have to go, bye Sebastian." I hung up the phone before he could say anything else. I groaned realizing that I had to get up from my comfortable position to clean myself up. When I got back in bed I saw that I had a text.
You're welcome. –Sebastian
For what? –Blaine
For helping you get some relief ;) -Sebastian
I don't know what you're talking about... -Blaine
Crap. He did know. But this wasn't enough. It didn't come close to how it actually felt when Sebastian did those things to me. In a moment, it was decided; I would lose the bet. I would crack first. I put on pants and a hoodie and grabbed my keys before quietly making my way downstairs. I didn't care if I had to drive all the way to Dalton. I needed Sebastian. I wanted him. I would give in to him. It kind of felt like a booty call, but I didn't care. I wanted nothing more than to have sex with Sebastian. When I reached downstairs, I wrote a quick note saying that I was spending the night at Sam's. Telling them I would be with Sebastian would only add fuel to the fire that Cooper had started.
I quietly opened the door only to be shocked to see someone standing outside. "H-hey." No way. This wasn't happening right now.
"Kurt..."