Chapter 38: Change

"So what's new and exciting in your life?" Santana asked as we sat down.

"Same ol' same ol'." I said before taking a sip from my latte.

"That's crap. The minute I saw you I knew something was up."

"What do you mean?" I thought that I was pretty good at hiding what I was feeling on the inside, but guess not. Good going Sebastian.

"You're smile is forced." Turns out I sucked at pretending I was okay. "Spill it."

"I don't want to talk about it Santana." It's not that I didn't trust Santana to keep a secret, but I honestly just wanted to forget that my life kind of sucked. You shouldn't be complaining. And why is that? There is always someone out there who has it worse than you. Well...I guess.

"Is it about Blaine?" No. Kind of. Well, I don't know. "Because if he has you this way I will go all Lima Heights on his ass."

"Then I'd have to go all Lima Heights on your ass." I said winking at her. "It's not him."

"Then what's wrong?" She was insistent to say the least.

"It really doesn't matter." I said shaking my head. Santana reached over to hold my hand as I spoke. I flinched, not really comfortable with sharing feelings or holding hands, except for a few exceptions. Something about Santana though made me feel comfortable. Safe. Yes, she was a capital b bitch most of the time, but she reminded me of me. We both had things that we hid away from the world.

Santana kept her eyes locked on me. "I'm homeless." I whispered, making sure that no one around us could hear me.

Santana started laughing loudly in the middle of the café. "If you didn't want to tell me you could have thought of a better lie."

"It's not a lie." I was playing with my cup, not wanting to look at her face. The mood drastically changed when it finally hit her that I was literally homeless.

"Oh my god, Sebastian I'm so sorry I didn't mean to laugh. I thought you were kidding." I sighed inwardly before shaking my head; she didn't have to be sorry. No one was to blame but myself.

"It's understandable." I said putting on a half smile. "How does the kid who has, my mistake, had, it all end up without a place to live? I would have laughed too."

"How did that even happen?" I took a deep breath before starting. I explained everything to her; the fact that my father purposefully withdrew me from the dorms, how he left me a note saying I was no longer allowed to live in his house with little to no explanation, and how I currently reside in my car. It's disgusting to be honest. How the hell did I get to where I am? I used to be on top. I had it all. How the mighty have fallen. Yet through it all, I still had Blaine. Sort of. No. He's mine. You're not dating. Shut up.

"That's so messed up. How could he do that?" Santana looked equally if not angrier than me when I found out. "At least it's a fancy rich boy car." She said with a small laugh. "Why don't you move in with Blaine?"

"His dad offered me a place to stay when he picked me up from the hospital but I couldn't accept. Besides, do you have any idea how embarrassing that would be? I can't let Blaine ever find out about this. You have to promise not to say anything Santana."

"Obviously Sebastian. I'm not like that. But let's backtrack. Why were you at the hospital?" That's right, she didn't know about that whole situation with John.

"Oh, I forgot to mention. I work here now, and I decided to go on a date or whatever with a coworker. Turns out he wanted me so bad he decided to drug me seeing as I wouldn't put out. That somehow tunred into a hospital visit."

"Wait, hold on. You work here? You date? You were drugged? You didn't put out? You are definitely not the Sebastian I know." Thanks, I know.

"Tell me about it. I don't even recognize myself in the mirror anymore." That felt like something I should have kept in; Santana's face instantly turned into one of pity. There was nothing I hated more than someone looking down on me.

All of a sudden, her face lit up. "I have an idea."

"What's up?" I asked raising an eyebrow. When it came to Santana, it was hard to predict what she was up to.

"You and I should move in together. Let's get an apartment." This time, it was me who laughed out loud at her joke.

"You think I'm kidding?" She said crossing her arms.

"Did you miss the whole being poor thing? I can't afford an apartment."

"If you just say the word, I'll start looking today. It doesn't have to be anything fancy. At the end of the year, we'll go our own ways. I'm just tired of being at home with my parents all the time. I want a little freedom!"

"I don't know." I said hesitantly. It's not that I didn't want to live with Santana, but it just seemed strange that I was living with Blaine's friend behind his back. Well, I guess she was my friend too…

Santana extended her hand towards me, completely dismissing what I just said. "Fine." I mumbled and took her hand.

"Let the Sebastian-Santana Train Wreck Extravaganza Begin." She said with a smirk on her lips. What did you just get yourself into this time Sebastian?

The bell finally rang and I quickly got off my seat and made my way towards the common room for Warbler's practice, Trent and Thad trailing behind me.

"Sebastian!" I turned around to see who was calling me only to realize it was John. Not necessarily who I wanted to see right now.

"What is it?" I said not stopping to talk to him.

"Are you ever going to talk to me again?" He said putting on a pout and walking next to me.

"Haven't decided yet." I said rolling my eyes. Trent and That both looked at me, confusion written all over their faces.

"Can we talk?" John said grabbing my wrist. There was honestly nothing that I had to say to him, but something about his persistence was intriguing.

"You two go ahead." I said to them, shooing them away with my hand.

"What is it?" I asked, boredom seeping out of every word.

"Give me a chance." I smirked before turning away from him and making my way to the common room. "I'll take that as a no. Will you do one thing for me?" He said stepping in front of me and stopping me in my tracks.

"And why should I do that?" I said stepping around him.

"Please. All I want is to audition." I raised an eyebrow before turning around to look at him. That wasn't what I was expecting him to ask.

"An audition?"

"Yes! For the Warblers!" He said. If he thought he was going to join the Warblers, he was in for a world of disappointment. Not that his ass wouldn't be something nice to look at. Hunter was getting boring. Obviously I wouldn't break Blaine's trust, even though we're not dating, shut up, thats not the point...as I was saying, I wouldn't hurt Blaine, but it was fun to tease Hunter. Especially now that I found out he's still going with the whole "not even remotely bi-curious" thing. "Sebastian?" Right, I was having a conversation with someone...

"Can you even sing? Or dance?" John nodded his head. "We're already going to nationals and it's so late in the season. I don't know what it'll be like if you join; you might mess up the chemistry."

"Just give me a chance." He said smiling at me. "Besides, I want to make it up to you."

"By joining the Warblers?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Anything to spend more time with you." Johns face turned slightly red. Was he embarrassed? "Another singer and dancer won't hurt. As the captain, I think you should at least hear me out." Co captain, actually.

"Last time we hung out it ended badly." I said walking into the common room. "There's nothing in me that wants to spend more time with you."

"You're late." Hunter said without looking up at me and staring at his book.

"Sorry master." I said sprawling myself on the couch and resting my head on Hunter's lap. It was funny to feel him fidget when I got so close to him. I didn't care; I would do whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Hunter on the other hand was more reserved and liked to do things in private. Kind of like Blaine. Blaine. I wonder if he would be mad if he saw me like this? A little jealous looked good on him. I looked up at Hunter from where I was lying down. "I was distracted." I said winking at him.

Hunter gave me a confused look before turning his head to look at John. "Who are you?" The Warbler's really aren't bad asses, but we were close. Well, I was a bad ass. Everyone else sucked. Just kidding, we were a team, and there is no I in team. But there is a me. Anyways, again, as I was saying; new meat walking into our territory warranted for some hazing.

"Hunt, I don't want to rehearse today. Can I just leave?"

"Do you want that solo at nationals?" He said a stern look on his face. His military background kind of made him into a 'no child's play' kind of guy.

"I'm co-captain." I said sitting up. "The decisions are made between us two, so if I want to leave and sing a solo at nationals, then I will." I said yawning. I really wasn't in the mood today. I wasn't angry, I just didn't really care about anything today.

John seemed off, either because he was nervous or he didn't know what he was getting him into. Judging from the glare that John shot Hunter when Hunter looked at me, I was guessing he was actually just jealous. Cute.

"Are you guys being ass holes again?" Nick said walking into the room and sitting on the couch across from us.

"You're late." Hunter said to Nick before looking back at John. "So, what is it that you want?"

"I'm here to audition." John said, suddenly full of confidence.

"Audition?" Jeff asked. "Dude, the season is almost over. We've been practicing for nationals for months now. Maybe next year."

"He's right." Hunter added. "We don't just let anyone join. Why weren't you here for tryouts at the beginning?"

"I didn't have a reason to be." John said looking at me. "One chance. Once it's over then I'll leave."

"Give him a chance." I whispered into Hunters ear. I don't know why, but since I saw John blush I felt like being the arrogant ass hole I once was. Or still am? I don't care. But it was fun getting my way with Hunter and John.

Hunter pushed me away as I laughed and placed my arm over his shoulder. "Do you need vocal back up?" Hunter asked. John nodded, and in a flurry of whistling and humming, John started his audition.

Surprisingly, he wasn't half bad.

I walked into Dalton and immediately realized that the Warblers must have been in practice. As I walked closer I realized that the voice singing wasn't one that I recognized. I peeked inside to see John singing and dancing with some of the Warblers. John? When he had finished his performance, the Warblers were on their feet clapping for him. Why was he singing with the Warblers?

"That was awesome!" Nick said patting him on the back.

"Yeah, who knew you could sing!" Jeff said laughing.

"So, what did you think?" John said an arrogant smile on his face.

I couldn't make out what Sebastian and Hunter were saying, but I did hear when they congratulated John and welcomed him into the Warblers. How was it that he was joining the Warblers? Auditions were in the beginning of each year. Either way, another good voice is not what the New Directions wanted to face at nationals.

"His vocals compare to Blaine's." Hunter said. I furrowed my eyebrows. I'm not one to put myself on a pedestal, but no one had ever said that someone else compared to me.

"Don't push it." Sebastian said nudging him. "Take a 5 minute break guys. Come back here though, we're not done for the night."

The Warblers came walking out of the common room, but I turned the corner so none of them would see me. I was being ridiculous, but I wanted to hear what Sebastian and Hunter were saying so I had to go into stealth mode. I kind of wish I had a super hero costume on…childish, but I thought it was cool. Oh god if anyone heard me say that I would be ridiculed.

"How did you find him?" Hunter asked.

"Long story. But do you remember what I was asking you the other day? About next year?"

"Yeah."

"I was thinking maybe you could move with me to London?" In that instant I felt sick. It felt like someone had stuck a knife into my chest and was purposefully twisting it around. Why would Sebastian be asking Hunter to move to London with him? It didn't make sense. I thought he loved me? Why didn't he ask me? I could feel my eyes starting to sting but fought back the tears; maybe I was overreacting?

"Wait, are you serious?"

"Well, yeah. I mean…it's only an option. I just don't want to move there by myself, so who better to ask then my best friend?" Sebastian said standing up from the couch.

"Why aren't you asking Blaine to go with you?"

"Blaine!" I jumped when I heard someone yelling my name. I was about to turn around to see who was calling me when I tripped and fell straight on my ass in front of everyone.Of course. I looked up to see John running over to me.

"Blaine?" Sebastian asked running to me first. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" Sebastian helped me get back on my feet, worry written all over his face.

"Yeah." I said with a small laugh and scratching my head. "Just being a klutz." I said with a nervous smile.

"What're you doing here?" Sebastian asked dusting me off. It was actually really nice how kind and caring he was being. That is until he must have realized people were looking and backed away from me.

"Well, seeing as I have everyone's attention, I'd like to formally invite the Warblers to McKinley this Friday for a scrimmage between both show choirs. Santana came up with the idea. She thought some friendly competition might help us all better prepare for Nationals."

Everyone started talking at once, but the consensus seemed to be the same. Everyone was ready to showcase their talents.

"We'll be there." Hunter said smiling at me.

"Warblers, you're dismissed for the night." Sebastian said.

"Fuck you." Hunter said rolling his eyes at Sebastian. "It's good to see you Blaine. Warbler's, back in the common room." Hunter said walking away from us. "And you better make it quick." He yelled back at us.

"C'mon Seb." John said grabbing Sebastian's hand and starting to pull him. It felt like instinct; I grabbed John by the wrist and ripped his hand from Sebastian's.

My eyes grew wide as soon as I did; I didn't even realize I had done that. Sebastian looked at me with furrowed brows, probably equally as confused as I was.

"John, I'm so sorry." John grabbed his wrist, massaging it and looking at me. "I don't kno-"

"John, go inside." Sebastian said placing his hands in his pocket and tilting his head, signaling me to walk with him.

"I'll see you around." John said smirking at me and walking inside the common room.

I trailed behind Sebastian, not really sure where we were going or for what. When we were out of sight from the common room, I decided to finally speak. "Why aren't we going to your room?"

Sebastian tensed slightly but kept his calm. "It's a nice day. I was thinking we could sit outside on the field." He said smiling at me.

"I shouldn't keep you from practice." I said, suddenly feeling a little nervous.

"It's okay. I always have time for you, you know that." He said staring straight ahead. When we reached the field I lied down on the floor as Sebastian sat down next to me. "So what brings you to this part of town." Sebastian asked.

"Well, I had to tell you guys about the face off this Friday." I said turning my head to look at him.

"You could have texted instead of driving here, which makes me think something else brought you here." Sebastian said.

"I wanted to see you." Sebastian turned his head to look at me, a small smile on his face. Truth be told, I really did want to see Sebastian. Even if I had seen him a day ago, I couldn't get enough of him.

"It was a nice surprise." He said looking away from me again. "Beats seeing everyone else's faces. And asses." He said tilting his head as if he could check me out despite me lying down. I couldn't help but laugh; I loved when Sebastian was playful.

Then I remembered the fact that John had drugged Sebastian. And that Sebastian had just asked Hunter to live with him but pretended nothing was wrong. "So, what was John doing with the Warblers?" I was going to build up to the question, but it slipped out. Something about John toying with me then messing with Sebastian really set me off.

"He's a Warbler now." He said lying down next to me. We stared at the clouds pass by for a while before either of us spoke again. "Does that bother you?" He said looking at me. If I didn't know any better, I would think he was actually worried about doing something I didn't like. But I knew Sebastian; I knew he was only asking because he liked to see me jealous. "It was kind of hot when you got all jealous and ripped his hand from me." He said winking at me.

"No." I said moving so that I was resting my head on him. "I just don't get why he gets to audition near the end of the year. And why he isn't expelled for what he did to you."

"He's talented. We need talent if we're going to win nationals. And besides, I've done worse than him remember?" I rolled my eyes. He clearly didn't understand I was revolted by the fact that John was on the Warblers. "You're adorable when you're grumpy." He said rubbing my back.

"I'm not grumpy." I said sighing and staring at the blue sky. I didn't really realize it was such a beautiful day. Of course, it doesn't compare to the view that was currently under me. I looked up at him to admire his face, but before I could really appreciate his features, his lips were on mine; a sweet, gentle kiss. A kiss that was hungry nonetheless.

"Sebastian we can't here." I said turning my head, only so that his lips would attack my neck.

"You think this is the first time I've done it on the field?" He said smirking.

"Wait." I said sitting up. I wanted nothing more to kiss him and have him hold me, but I needed to get this thorn out of my side.

"What's wrong?" He said sitting up next to me and looking at me. He seemed worried, as if he had done something to hurt me; technically he did but not the way he thought he did.

"I need to ask you something." I took a deep breath before getting out what I wanted to ask. "Why would you ask Hunter to move with you to London?"

Sebastian stared at me, probably realizing that I had heard him. "B, I…I don't want to leave by myself and Hunter doesn't really care what he does next year so I thought he would be the more sensible option."

"Why wouldn't you ask me?" I wasn't sure whether Sebastian heard me or not, but I was afraid as to what he would say. I wanted to ask that question, but at the same time I wish it never came out of my mouth.

Sebastian stared straight ahead, maybe searching from some answers. "It wouldn't be fair to you. You want to be in New York. Besides, do you have any idea how much your family and friends love you? I can't just tell you to come with me knowing you won't be happy because your heart will stay here."

"That's not fair." I said playing with the grass. "My heart won't stay here. It'll be wherever you are. You should know that by now. It just sucked hearing you ask Hunter and not even once bringing up going with you."

"I'm sorry Blaine. I was only considering what I thought would be best for you and what would make you happier. You don't think I wish you could come with me? Your life is here." Sebastian scooted closer to me, a small smile on his lips. Even if it hurt that he asked Hunter, especially knowing their history, it still made me melt inside knowing that anything Sebastian did was intended to make me happy.

"I still can't believe your leaving." I said lying back down on the grass.

"Hey, let's not think about that right now. We still have a ton of time together. Besides, we have a date tomorrow night to look forward to, remember?" He said playfully nudging me.

"That we do." I said laughing and standing up.

"Where are you going?" Sebastian said standing up and following me.

"I just wanted to come say hello. I'll see you tomorrow though." I was upset, but honestly I had no reason to be. Sebastian didn't deserve this from me, he always tried to make me happy. It was self centered of me to not do the same. I put on a smile before leaning up to kiss him.

"Blaine…" Sebastian said as I let go of his hand and started walking away.

"I'm not upset, I promise. I'll see you tomorrow, okay?" I said waving and smiling at him. I turned around to see if he was still standing there but Sebastian was already walking the other way. When I got into the car, I decided to text Sebastian just to make sure everything was okay before I left.

Wear something that won't be hard to tear off of you tomorrow ;) –Blaine

Does that mean what I think it means? –Sebastian

If you thought that meant that we're going for a swim, then you'd be right. –Blaine

…Jerk. –Sebastian

You love it. –Blaine

That I do. -Sebastian

I started the car and was about to leave when I heard a knock on the window.

"John!" I said realizing it was him. "Listen, I-"

"No Blaine. You listen. Sebastian is too good for you. By the end of this year, I'll have Sebastian in my arms and a nationals trophy." John had a smile on his face, but his words told otherwise. "Bye Blaine." Before I could say anything John had already left the side of my car and was walking inside.

First it was Hunter, now it was John? Not that I blamed them, because Sebastian really was a catch, but still; Sebastian was mine. I would have to make that known. Soon. Despite John bashing on me, I had my music on blast and had a smile on my face. This would be a one sided battle, and I knew I would win.