The Reason

by BehindTheseEyesx

Everyone has an idea of how they want to live their lives ; what they want to do, where they want to be, and who they want to be with. But the greatest stories are written by the unexpected events that change and mold our lives. It's a matter of letting the pieces fall into place. This is the story of how Blaine and Sebastian find love and face the challenges that come, together.

41. Chapter 41

Chapter 41: Swan Song

A/N: Let me start off by saying thank you to everyone who has reviewed and followed me throughout this entire journey! I know lately I've been getting reviews that my story is straying from how it used to be and I know that I've let some of you down. I have taken every single critique into consideration, and hope that it shows in this chapter that I am trying to improve. This chapter is definitely the longest one I've written thus far because I felt that cutting it off at any point would only serve to make everyone hate me more or lose faith in me! I wont sugar coat it for you though; this chapter is probably one of the hardest ones to write, but I think you'll be happy with the outcome. I'm really excited for you all to read this, but I'm even more excited for the chapters to come and the future for Sebastian and Blaine. I tried a somewhat different writing style, but I hope you all enjoy. So, without further a do, I present to you 'Swan Song'.

Everywhere is still
Everything is restless in my heart
I hate the way this feels
Suddenly I'm scared to be apart

It was a normal day. How I ended up on the brink of life and death, I don't know.

What's going to happen?

Couldn't tell you…

The days are dark when you're not around
The air is getting hard to breathe
I wish that you would just put me down
I wish that I could go to sleep

I knew he was on his flight back home and that I probably wouldn't be able to see him anymore. The things I never said. The things I should have said. The things I want to say.

It's too late.

Loving you is suicide
I don't know should I go or should I stay
I'm trying to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

"Sebastian? Sebastian, can you hear us?" Santana? Brittany? What are you two doing here? I could feel something tears falling on my face, but I couldn't move. I couldn't tell them I was okay.

I thought I closed my eyes for just a second, but when I opened them again I was in a completely different place. I saw a light from a flashlight pass by my eyes. "He's unresponsive, how far away are we from the hospital?" Everything was a blur. I wasn't sure what they were talking about, but from the sound of it, something wasn't okay.

Who were these people? Where was I going? Why couldn't I move? Why couldn't I breathe?

Everything was fading; I could feel myself slipping in and out. Everything seemed as if it was hectic and fast, yet everyone was moving slow. I knew people were yelling, but it could have been a whisper for all I knew.

But I heard you say you love me
That's the part I can't forget
And I wish that you'd come save me
Cause I'm standing over the edge

"Get an IV ready. What are his vitals?"

"His heart rate is dropping and he's hypotensive. Working on his O2 levels now."

And then it hit me; It was too late. I wouldn't get to spend the rest of my life with him. I wouldn't be able to tell him how much I loved him. How much he meant to me. How he saved me.

Blaine. It was over. My last memory of Blaine would be him getting on a plane and leaving. My last memory of Blaine wouldn't be a kiss. It wouldn't be a touch. It wouldn't be his smile. It would be his back to me. Leaving.

I guess that's just how it is, right? Life sucks. And then you die.

I should let you go
Tell myself the things I need to hear
But my brain is wired wrong
That's why I'm loving you when you're not here

"Is there anything else?" I said placing the stacking the last few boxes together. We had finally finished moving everything in and unpacking after almost a week. "And I thought I had a lot of things." I said rolling my eyes.

"Don't be such a girl." Santana said hanging some of her clothes in her closet. "All my things are set up. Didn't you say there are a few things left at your place?"

"Not much, but I should probably go pick it up today." I said throwing myself on her bed.

"I just made the bed!" She said groaning. I couldn't stop the laugh the escaped my mouth; this week had been a good one so far. Living with Santana was a lot better than I had initially expected.

"You can make it again." I said winking at her. "Isn't Britt supposed to come over anyways? I'm sure the bed will be made into a mess then anyways."

"Yeah she should be here soon. Don't take too long. We still have to go pick up Blaine tonight." How could I forget? I've been waiting for this moment the second he left to New York. "There you go again with that dopey look on your face." Santana said with a smile on her face.

"Shut up." I said standing up. "I'll be back in an hour."

Feels like I drown in your every word
And every breath that's in between
Somehow you got me where it really hurts
It's killing every part of me

"Grande caramel latte please." I said handing the barista some cash.

"Right away." He said handing me back my change. I walked over to where the coffees were handed out when someone tapped me on the shoulder.

I turned around to see someone I didn't recognize smiling at me. "Hey there."

"Hi." I wasn't exactly sure who this kid was. Had I seen him before? "Do I know you?"

"Are you seriously saying you don't remember me?" He said putting on a pout.

"Can't say I do." I said shrugging my shoulder and grabbing my coffee. I started walking away but he followed after me.

"How's your father?" I stopped in my tracks when he said that. How did he know my father? "I'm hurt you don't remember me." I turned around to face him, my eyebrow raised.

"You're the guy from Aural intensity…" I said suddenly remembering his face from sectionals. "What's up loser?"

"So you do remember." The devilish smile on his face was kind of unnerving. He pulled out a CD from his backpack and handed it to me.

"What's this?" I said looking it over only to find that it wasn't labeled.

"Watch it. Tell your dad that he messed with the wrong family." Before I could ask him anything, he was already making his way to his car.

"Wait! What is that supposed to mean?" I said chasing after him. Before I could reach him, he was already gone.

Loving you is suicide
I don't know should I go or should I stay
I'm trying to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

I was thankful that Maria wasn't there when I arrived at my old home; I didn't want to put her in a situation that would make her uncomfortable. I walked inside and up to my room to see if I had much left. Luckily, it was only a few things.

When I finally brought all my stuff to my car, I remembered that I had the CD that the kid gave me; I put it into the DVD player before sitting down on my bed.

When the video started playing I instantly felt sick; it was a video intended to damage the reputation of my father…a video that had pictures of me. Pictures of me at Scandals. Pictures of me with guys. Pictures of me doing everything my father didn't want anybody to find out. Pictures of Blaine and I.

It was a video outing me to everyone.

I didn't care; I wasn't ashamed of who I was. But I was terrified. Terrified because I knew my father would see this. Terrified because I knew what that meant for me.

But I heard you say you love me
That's the part I can't forget
And I wish that you'd come save me
Cause I'm standing over the edge

I pushed the DVD player onto the floor, letting my rage take over me. Why would someone do that to me? I knew it somehow revolved around my father…but what did he do to make someone hate him enough to destroy his reputation. Why would they use me to do it?

I was nothing but a tool in this war my father had with whoever it was that made this video. That's all I ever was to my father. A prop. I ran my fingers through my hair, my eyes starting to sting. What was I supposed to do? Was the video going to be aired, or was it just black mail?

And then I heard him; I froze in my spot when I heard the door lock behind me.

"Hello Sebastian."

Loving you is suicide
And my world's about to break
And I had as much as I can take
And love is a long way down

I knew it was coming. I don't even know why I tried pretending maybe it wouldn't.

I knew the moment his fist made contact with my jaw that I wouldn't be making it out of this one. This time would be my last. It wasn't the force behind the punch that made me think the worst…it was the hate that I could feel radiating off of him.

His rage would consume everything. It would consume me. Whatever light I had left in me, his darkness would overwhelm.

Each blow was accompanied with a flurry of words meant to tear me apart. It was his words that really broke me. The punches, the kicks, the slaps; they were nothing compared to his words. His hate.

"Do you have any idea what this means?" He said throwing me against a wall. "I told you I didn't want to see you with that fucking homo." He said punching me in the stomach causing me to lose my breath and bend over in pain. "And now, everyone is going to find out that my son, a Smythe, is nothing but trash."

Loving you is suicide
And it's getting harder every day
I'm trying to keep myself alive
Knowing there's a chance it's all too late

Blocking out his words was the only condolence I could find. It's funny how the mind works; it focuses on the strongest pain, completely blocking out everything else. I guess his words were cutting deeper than anything he could throw my way.

I found relief when he broke the bottle of alcohol against my head. As hard as I tried, my eyes wouldn't stay open. Once they were closed, I didn't know what would happen next.

I'm sorry Blaine.

And I'm way past every moment
But I'm still determined to fight
And I know it's taking all my strength
To give emotions alive
Loving you is suicide

I realized then what was happening. It was as if the mental barriers that were keeping me safe all came crashing down; in an instant, my entire body was coursing with pain.

I started thrashing, trying to somehow find an escape from what was happening. Was there no escape to this pain?

"Sebastian! You're in the hospital, calm down!" I could feel several hands forcing me to go down, but I was not about to be pushed down without a fight. I tried to find words, words that would tell them to let me go; Blaine would be coming back soon and I was supposed to pick him up. He would never forgive me if I left him stranded at the airport.

"What do you mean we can't go in? He's our friend we're not leaving him." Santana said.

"Sebby! Sebby wait for me!" Britt said. I could hear their voices fading in the background; the voices, the yelling, the beeping…it all became white noise.

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Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

It was a little disappointing seeing no one waiting for me once I made it through customs, but I wasn't particularly mad. I was about to take a seat when I saw someone running over to me.

It wasn't until he was close that I realized who he was. "Cooper?" I asked standing up, "What are you doing here?" Cooper stood there staring at me; his eyes were red and his breathing was heavy. "What's wrong?" I suddenly felt as if my entire body turned cold. I knew in that moment that something was wrong. "Cooper." I said looking at him straight in the eyes.

"I'll explain in the car." He said grabbing my bags. His voice was trembling, which only served to make me feel even more uneasy.

Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

"What is it? Cooper tell me." I said when we got in the car.

"Little brother, I need you to promise me something." He said not taking his eyes off the road. Cooper was speeding and swerving through the traffic. I felt my stomach church and my heart drop; it was bad. Whatever it was…it was bad. "I can't have you overreact when I tell you. Promise me Blaine you'll stay calm."

"Just tell me Cooper!" I yelled. I was getting aggravated that something horrible must have happened yet he was here making me promise I wouldn't freak out.

"Sebastian…Se-Sebastian's hurt."

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

"What do you mean he's hurt? Is he okay?" I was trying my best to remain calm, but I could feel my worry seeping over the edge.

"I'm not one hundred percent sure. I got a call from some of your friends telling me that they needed me to pick you up from the airport because Sebastian was being taken to the hospital."

"He's in the hospital? Cooper, how bad is it? What happened?" I could feel my heart beating so loud that I thought I could hear it. It felt as if I wasn't breathing; holding my breath in anticipation for what was coming next.

"I'm not sure." He whispered. "They think he might have been assaulted. He was found at his house unconscious and extremely beat up."

"No." I said turning my eyes away from him and looking out the window. "No. It can't be. No." I didn't even try to stop the tears that were streaming down my face. "No, no, no. He's fine right? Tell me he's okay."

I couldn't look at Cooper. I was too afraid that looking at him would give me an answer I didn't want to hear. All I felt was Cooper's hand holding mine tightly.

Oh, take me back to the start

Who would do this to Sebastian? Who hated him enough to leave him to die? Who had that much hate inside of them?

And then it struck me. It hit me like a ton of bricks crushing me; it was his father. Sebastian's father had done this to him.

"Where did you say they found him?" I could feel myself getting angrier. I wanted more than anything for my suspicion to be a lie. Please don't let it be his dad that did this to him. Sebastian could only take so much.

"His house." Cooper said looking over at me. "Why? What're you thinking?"

"It was his father."

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart

"Blaine, you can't just say things like that." Cooper said sideways glancing at me. "What makes you think that?"

I suddenly realized how naïve I had been. How foolish I had been for thinking that Sebastian would be okay if he just avoided his father. I was stupid for not speaking up for Sebastian when he couldn't...

"It's not the first time it's happened." I breathed out. "Oh my god." I rested my head in my hands. "Oh my god. I let this happen. I didn't say anything when I found out his dad was abused him. This could have been avoided."

"No." Cooper said holding my shoulder. "This isn't your fault. This isn't Sebastian's fault. If what you're saying is true, then there's only one person who should be blamed."

I spent the rest of the way to the hospital trying to make myself believe that I had fallen asleep on the airplane and was having a horrible dream; a dream that I couldn't wake up from. This was all a joke or something right? This wasn't real. Sebastian and I would spend the rest of our lives together. We've made it this far. We can't go back now. There's no chance that will happen. Everything will be okay. This isn't as bad as it seems.

Foolish.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

"I'm looking for Sebastian Smythe." I said when we reached the front desk.

"Are you family?"

"I'm his boyfriend." The words came out of my mouth so certain that I even had myself convinced. He was for all intents and purposes my boyfriend. The love of my life.

"Right this way." A nurse opened the door for us and was leading us to his room, but I couldn't take it anymore. I ran ahead until I saw him lying on a bed.

I stopped outside of the room, a million different things running through my mind. Santana and Brittany stood up and walked over to me, hugging me tightly before walking outside and standing with Cooper. I couldn't find a single word to say to Santana or Brittany.

I took a step closer but felt as if my body would fail me at any moment. I could feel my hands trembling and my vision blurring from the tears. Sebastian…

Sebastian was lying on the bed completely still. The only noise coming from him was the oxygen mask placed over his face. That face that I could recognize from miles away was completely covered in bruises and scrapes. His head was bandaged and he had a cast on his arm.

This wasn't the Sebastian I knew. This wasn't the Sebastian that I loved. My Sebastian was strong. My Sebastian would never let this happen. My Sebastian would have defended himself.

My Sebastian was lying in the hospital bed fighting for his life.

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

My entire body was shaking. My mind was racing back and forth. It felt like everything that could go wrong, did go wrong.

I felt Cooper's hand on my shoulder. After the first step I took into the room, I couldn't move any more. Something had me frozen in that spot. Something was preventing me from moving.

"Little brother." Cooper said holding me tightly. Those words snapped me back from the haze I was in.

I turned around to look at the nurse. "What's his condition?" I asked. "Will he be okay?"

"Sit." Cooper said pulling a chair for me.

"No." I said pushing the chair away. "Tell me he's going to be okay." I said walking closer to her and grabbing her hand. "Please."

"I'll get the doctor." She said squeezing my hand. I walked back into the room and sat at the chair across the room from him. Why couldn't I get closer to him? What was holding me back? I covered my face with my hand, hoping that somehow I would find an answer.

"Doctor, how is he?" Cooper said when the doctor came in. I stood up when I heard Cooper talking to him.

"Are you family?"

"We're the closest he has to family." Cooper said putting his hand on my shoulder. "You can tell us."

"When Mr. Smythe came in he was slipping in and out of consciousness. He had some internal bleeding and obvious superficial wounds, but we were able to thankfully bring him back to stability. Unfortunately, he's been unresponsive since shortly after arriving at the hospital."

"What does that mean?" I asked, hesitating slightly, afraid of what he would say.

"It's strange." He said walking over to look at his monitor. "He's not in a coma, and signs indicate that he isn't in a vegetative state, but we're not sure why he's not awake." The doctor turned around to look at us. "It's too early to determine his state. It seems as if his body is protecting him by staying asleep."

"But he'll wake up, right?" Santana asked.

"I can't say." The doctor said giving us an apologetic look. "We have to keep him here for observation. We're running some more tests, but we'll know more tomorrow."

I knew it was inappropriate, but I couldn't stop the sarcastic laugh that escaped my lips. "This isn't funny anymore." I said walking over to Sebastian. "Wake up Seb." I said shaking him. "You're not funny. Get up so we can go home. I'll make you dinner and we can watch a movie."

"Blaine." Cooper said grabbing my arm.

"Let go of me." I pushed Cooper away and started looking for Sebastian's clothes. I could feel that losing control of myself. I was cracking. "This is what you get for always throwing your clothes everywhere. Now I can't find it."

"Blaine, stop." Santana said, but I wouldn't listen.

"I need help with biology actually. I have another exam coming up! It's on the reproductive system so I'm sure you can think of ways of making me laugh at all your sex jokes. Oh, and I was thinking we could maybe work on a duet and we could perform at the Lima Bean. I'm so excited to live with you in London next year." I walked back over to Sebastian and lightly grazed his face with my fingers. "Sebastian, c'mon. Just wake up, please?" I could hear my voice cracking, and I knew I must have looked like an idiot, but this was the only thing keeping me sane right now. "Sebastian, get up. C'mon I'll help you." I slipped my fingers through his and held his hand tightly. "Get up, Bas." By this point, I was sobbing and gasping for air. "Don't do this. Don't do this to me Sebastian. Don't do this to us. Wake up. Just open your eyes. Look at me Sebastian. Look at me." I was shaking Sebastian, hoping that somehow that would wake him up.

Denial. Pretending that this wasn't actually happening probably wasn't the best way to cope, but right now that's all I could do.

It'll be okay.

I'm going back to the start

"Blaine." Cooper said pulling me away from Sebastian and wrapping his arms around me. Even if I tried to push away, Cooper was holding me so tightly that I could barely move. All I could do was silently let the tears fall from my eyes.

"Tell me he'll be okay Cooper."

"Everything will be okay." He said holding my head with his hand. "Look at me." He said cupping my face and looking at me in the eyes. "I need you to be strong. For Sebastian. He needs you right now."

"I'm not the strong one." I said moving his hands away from my face. "The strong one was always him."

"Now it's your turn." He said letting me go.

"How am I supposed to accept the fact that he might not wake up Coop? How?"

"Blaine." Britt said resting her head on my shoulder. "Don't be sad. I know everything will be okay."

"Thank you Britt." I said kissing her forehead. Santana grabbed my hand and squeezed it tightly, giving me a gentle smile. "I need a minute with him." I said letting go off Santana's hand and turning to face Sebastian.

Everyone walked out and I brought a chair over to sit next to Sebastian. I grabbed his hand with both of mine and kissed his hand. I wasn't sure what I was supposed to do now. Wait and pray for something to happen? Hope for the best? That's all I could do.

"You know me." I said letting out a small laugh. "When I don't have the right words to say, I sing. I know you can hear me Bas."

I took a deep breathe before I started.

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're the king of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
To steady your hand
You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

I lied down next to Sebastian, wrapping my arm around him and closing my eyes, wishing more than anything that everything would turn out fine. "I won't let you go Sebastian, so don't let me go either. Fight. Fight for us."

There's one sound you never want to hear when you're in the hospital, yet that was the only sound I could hear.

Flat line.

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So this is what it's like when you reach the end. Nothing really prepares you for what happens. It just comes at you and in a second, everything changes. The entire night, I wasn't able to comprehend what was going on, but now, everything was clear. Everything made sense. I looked around the room before my eyes stopped on me. That was me. Lying on the bed. Blaine, don't cry. There really is no reason to. Not anymore. I never thought that it would be like in this, but I guess you never really know what to expect. Is this the final step? I thought it wasn't true when people say they have an out of body experience just before it's too late.

Doctors and nurses rushed into the room, doing who knows what to my body. There were various hands on me, doing whatever they could do to keep me alive. Blaine's parents had just arrived as everything was happening and they held Blaine back. I couldn't move from the position I was standing in; I was staring at Blaine, wanting more than anything for him to not be so upset. Blaine was trying to push past everyone, his hand extended out towards me, reaching to grab me. I lifted my arm, hoping that maybe for one last time I could hold his hand, but it was no use. I couldn't reach him.

Despair hit me when I heard the music playing. I didn't know where it was coming from, but I knew it was for me. Was this my final chance to get out what I needed to say? Was this my swan song? If I had to fit everything I wanted to say into one last song, then this was it. Listen carefully Blaine, because I mean every word. If this is the end, then just know that you're the reason. The reason I know what it means to love, and be loved. The reason I found happiness. The reason I will fight till the very end.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I knew what it would mean to close my eyes. I knew if I closed them, chances were that they wouldn't open again. I tried looking at everyone; the people who had grown closest to me, but my eyes were fixed on one face. Blaine's.

I smiled as my eyes started closing. Even now, I was happy. Happy that the last person I would ever see was him. Blaine. I didn't mind it; it was a beautiful way to end a life. Staring into the face of love.

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"Blaine, you're next." Finn said. I stood up from where I was sitting next to Brittany and Tina to make my way onto the stage. We were trying out something new; we would all perform to see what numbers we felt should be sung at nationals. At the end, everyone would vote on two group numbers and a solo. Everyone was quiet, either anticipating what I was going to sing, or unsure of whether or not I could do it. Every time I tried singing, I couldn't finish. I couldn't find my voice anymore. It was gone.

The music started playing, but I couldn't get myself to sing. "I'm sorry Finn, I can't do this." I walked off the stage, not really sure where I was going. All I knew is that I wanted to hide. I didn't want to be seen. I shouldn't even be here; I should be with Sebastian. Somehow I ended up in the choir room; it had only been my choir room for a year and a half, but this was home. It was a safe haven.

"Blaine wait!" I turned around to see Finn running after me.

"I tried Finn. I wanted to do it for you, but I just can't." I said resting against the wall, letting myself slide to the floor.

Finn sat down next to me. "You know I'm here if you want to talk." Finn said looking at me.

"What is there to say?"

"You wouldn't be taking this so hard if there wasn't something bothering you…"

"Sebastian is still unconscious and it's been a week. What if he's like this forever? Why won't he just wake up?" Finn placed his arm over my shoulder and brought me in closer.

"The doctors said that the worst was over, right? Now it's just a waiting game. Don't lose faith in him."

"I don't want to wait anymore. Each day feels like a thousand years." I whispered out. "But thank you Finn. You've gone out of your way every day to make sure I was okay. I appreciate it."

"What're friends for?" He said smiling at me. "I know you'd do the same."

"I can't do a solo at nationals Finn. I don't have it in me anymore. I can't even find good songs."

"Your performances are impeccable, but not nationals materials." He said nudging me. "You've gone from Kelly Clarkson's Cry to Florence Welch's Sweet nothing. We haven't hit the nail in the head just yet."

"I must be the worst company this week." I said shaking my head. "I literally feel the entire mood change when I walk into a room."

"It's only because the glee club cares about you."

"I don't know where I'd be without you guys." I said looking at the ground. "You guys are the only reason I'm making it through right now."

"What're you doing today?" Finn asked standing up.

"I always go to Sebastian's hospital room right after class. If it were up to me, I wouldn't even come to school but my parents make me. Luckily either one of them or Cooper and Julie stay with him while I'm not there."

"What if we all go with you?" Finn extended his arm to lift me up from the ground. "We probably won't be able to stay long, but if all of us are there it might make it a little easier on you."

"Y-yeah." I said brushing myself off.

"What do you say you take a break from all the stares and whispers, and eat lunch with me in the choir room. My treat?" Finn said. Finn was like a second brother to me; he always had my back and was there for me whenever I needed. Even if I wasn't with Kurt anymore, Finn never stopped being my friend. I smiled and nodded to him; I really was getting tired of all the stares and the insanely loud silence that seemed to follow me wherever I went.

"Sounds good to me."

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"Hi Betty." I said walking up the front desk. The nurses and most of the staff were used to seeing me at the same time everyday.

"Hi sweetie." She said smiling at me. Her eyes grew wide when she looked past me and saw everyone from the glee club.

"Sorry." I said scratching my head. "There are a lot of people who want to see him. This is the glee club." I said introducing them as everyone waved to her.

"Another one?" She said raising an eyebrow. "Another glee club just arrived. They were all dressed in blazers; they called themselves the Warblers or something?"

"The Warblers are here?" I said somewhat surprised.

"Yeah. That might be too many people, but you know what, I'll make an exception." She said a bright smile on her face. "You guys can't stay for long though, okay?" She said opening the door for us. Everyone started cheering and hollering. Betty shushed us and shook her head. "You have to be quiet!"

"Sorry." I said giving her a small smile. "They're like that."

"Hey." Hunter said looking over at us as we walked into Sebastian's room. "Well, now that you guys are here we should get going."

"You don't have to leave." I said making my way through saying hello to everyone.

"There's a lot of us." Nick said hugging me. "We can come back again tomorrow."

"Yeah, we just wanted to stop by and see how he was doing." Jeff said half smiling at me. This was hard on all of us, the Warblers especially. I could tell just from the way they were talking that this was hard on them.

"You need to let us know if he wakes up." Thad said. "It's killing us."

"I know." I said placing my hand on his shoulder. "I will."

"Wait." Finn said. "I have an idea." He walked out of the room and came back with Betty. "Since there are so many of us, what do you say we take turns visiting everyone on this floor?" Finn said looking at Betty. "We're all members of glee club. We sing, it's what we do. We can go sing to the kids on the floor and hangout with anyone who's alone."

"We'll try not to sing too loud." Britt said.

"Yeah!" Sugar said clapping and jumping up and down. "I want to go visit the kids."

After everyone started agreeing, Betty finally gave in. "Fine! But I have to let everyone on the floor know first." She said walking out of the room.

"What about you guys?" Santana said to Hunter. "Care to join in?" If Hunter and Santana were being friendly and seeing eye to eye, I knew that what happened to Sebastian only served to bring us closer together.

"We're in." Hunter said smiling. It was agreed upon that everyone would take turns visiting Sebastian in small groups so that he wouldn't alone while the rest visited all the other sick patients. It felt good using what we did best to help in whatever way we could.

"I'll stay here." I said pulling up a chair and sitting next to Sebastian. Everyone nodded and the hospital-glee-club-visit-extravaganze began.

"Do you see this Sebastian?" I said looking over at him. "Everyone who came here loves you. You have so many people waiting for you finally wake up." I grabbed his hand and held it tightly. It was an amazing experience watching how the floor suddenly filled with life. I could hear various groups singing and the kids laughing and singing along. Even the nurses and doctors were getting in on the action. "The Warblers and the New Directions seem to be friends now." I knew it was silly, but I found comfort in talking and hoping that Sebastian could hear me. "All the credit goes to you." I said laughing.

At one point, it was just a nurse in the room with me. "Anything new?" I asked taking a sip from the coffee Marley and Jake had brought me.

"Not yet." She said sighing. "He's a strong one though. He always seems to be at his strongest when you're here." She said smiling at me.

"I wish I could stay all day." I said playing with the cup. "If it wasn't for my parents forcing me to go to school, I wouldn't leave this spot."

"You're lucky, you know?" She said taking his blood pressure. "It's clear that you have an amazing group of friends." She looked outside where Santana and Brittany were dancing with three little kids. I couldn't help but smile. My friends really were the best.

"I'm blessed." I said squeezing Sebastian's hand. "Can I ask you something? Why is his other hand constantly clenched into a fist?"

"We haven't been able to figure that out." She said laughing. "There's no physiological reason for his hand to be clenched. It's as if he's holding onto something."

"Hey Blaine." Unique said walking into the room. "We have to get going." Joe, Sugar, Marley, Jake, Kitty, and Ryder followed in after him. "But we want to do one last thing before we go." The remaining members of the New Directions gathered inside the room.

"This one is for you Sebastian." Brittany said kissing his cheek. "I hope you like it."

(Brittany and Santana)
Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain, we all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

(Marley and Kitty)
Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on

(Jake and Ryder)
Please, swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you won't let show

(Sam and Artie)
You just call on me, brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on

(Unique and Joe)
Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need somebody to lean on

(Tina and Sugar)
You just call on me, brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on

(New Directions)
If there is a load
You have to bear that you can't carry
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load
If you just call me
Call me

"Thank you guys so much for coming." I said standing up and walking towards them; everyone came in together for a group hug.

"We'll try to stop by again soon." Marley said, hugging me and reaching to touch Sebastian's hand.

"I'll keep him in my prayers." Joe said fist bumping me. "Keep your head up."

"Thank you." I said bumping fists with Ryder and Jake.

"You better not stay asleep too much longer Sebby." Britt said.

"Yeah, or else we'll be stuck with Blaine." Sam said, a fake look of horror crossing his face.

"Shut up!" I said punching his arm and laughing. "I'm not that bad"

"We need to get going too B." Santana said hugging me and walking over to Sebastian. "You better get up soon if you want the Warblers to even stand a chance at Nationals." Santana smiled before turning around to join the group.

"Bye Blaine. Bye Sebastian." Tina said hugging me and waving to Sebastian. It was strange that everyone was actually going along with it and pretending he could hear us. Who knows, maybe he was.

"I'll let Sebastian know you were all here if he wakes up." I said smiling at them. "I'll see you guys tomorrow."

When everyone had left, I sat back down in the chair and turned my head so that I could look at Sebastian. I felt helpless. There was nothing I could do but wait. And waiting sucked.

"Hey." Hunter said walking in with the Warblers. "So, from what I hear, Sebastian sang this song last year at regionals. Of course, you guys lost," He said turning to look at the Warblers. "But, it's a good song." Hunter walked over to stand next to Sebastian. "You want to hear what real talent sounds like Seb?" He said smiling. "Take some notes, cause I'm sure as hell you can hear me."

Come on, 'n stand, up again
Stand, you're gonna run again

Don't give up,
You're gonna see tomorrow
That you'll be on your feet again
Sometimes the world's gonna knock you over
But you will see who you are your friends

Come on, 'n stand, up again
Come on, 'n stand,
Stand, you're gonna run again

Your faith and patience will be your soldiers
To guide you through your troubled times
Just put one foot in front of the other
The battles are inside your mind
You have the power to face your demons
No matter how they go on time
And rid yourself of your fear and weakness
So you can start to live your life

Come on! Stand, up again
Come on, 'n stand,
Stand, you're gonna run again

Come on! Stand, up again Stand, Yeah!
Come on, stand, You can make it!
Stand, you're gonna run again

Pick up your will
And put on your face
If you need to, just take my hand
It's time to demonstrate, don't hesitate
Just get up and say Yes, I can

Come on! Stand, up again Stand, Yeah!
Come on, stand, Come on, You can make it!
Stand, you're gonna run again

Stand you're gonna run again

Come on, stand, up again Stand up yeah!
Come on, stand, Oh, come on baby!
Stand, you're gonna run again

Stand, you're gonna run again
Stand, you're gonna run again

I knew the moment that they started whistling and singing what song they were going to sing. It was the song that Sebastian had sung to Karofsky last year when he tried to commit suicide. Thinking back to then was bittersweet; I missed the old days, but I didn't regret anything up until what happened to Sebastian. Maybe if I had stayed this wouldn't of happened. The Warblers all said goodbye to Sebastian before they left.

"I can stay with you if you want." Hunter said entering the room. I jumped a little, not thinking that anyone who came to see Sebastian was was still here.

"You don't have to do that. I'm just going to work on some homework." I said pulling out a book. "Are the Warblers gone?"

"Yeah, Jeff and Nick are waiting for me outside. I just wanted to see if you wanted company."

"Thank you." I said smiling at him. I noticed that Hunter was staring at Sebastian, his eyes filled with sadness. I always knew Hunter had some feelings for Sebastian, but he also had feelings for me at one point so it was kind of confusing. "I'll make sure to text you if he wakes up."

"Thanks." Hunter left without another word.

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I'm picking you up today, so wait for me. Don't take the bus. -Cooper

Okay! I'll see you later. -Blaine

"Do you want to hang out after school today?" Sam asked as we paid for our food.

"I can't." I said pointing to where our friends were. "I have to go back to the hospital."

"You're going to stretch yourself too thin." Sam said as he switched my chocolate milk with his skim milk, acting as if I didn't witness the entire thing. "Take a break. Come hangout with just the guys."

"Rain check." I already missed enough time with Sebastian when I was in school. I didn't want to miss anything that might happen while I wasn't there.

"B, you have bags under your eyes and no offense, but you look like crap."

"Sam!" Tina said smacking his arm.

"I said no offense!" He said rubbing his arm. I couldn't help but laugh at the show these two were putting on. In all reality though, I didn't think I looked that bad. Yeah, I was tired and a lot more lethargic now, but I was still Blaine.

"I haven't been getting much sleep." I said yawning. "I wake up at any movement thinking it might be him."

"That's why I think you should take a break." Sam said again, taking some of my fries.

"I'll be okay." I said giving him my fries and taking his carrots. "Why do you get food you aren't going to eat? You just end up taking mine." I said rolling my eyes, causing everyone to laugh at our table. The rest of the day was spent fooling around and pretending we were focusing in class. When the final bell rang, I walked outside of McKinley and spotted Coopers car waiting for me.

"Hey Coop." I said getting in.

"Hey little brother how was your day?"

"It was okay. Where's Julie?"

"She's at home. Which is where we're going."

"What, why? I need to get to the hospital?"

"Mom and Dad want you home." Cooper turned to look at me. "I want to spend as much time with you as possible these next few days. It's all we have left together."

"A few days?" I asked raising an eyebrow. "What do you mean?"

"Well, since the treatment isn't horrible, I'm going to continue it in Los Angeles. It's about time I get back to work anyways, and Julie has spent enough time here as it is."

"I don't want you to leave. We just got things back to normal between us and now you're leaving?" Cooper was one of my biggest supports right now, and losing him would take time getting used to. I didn't want to say good bye to my brother.

"I'll definitely be back to visit soon." He said putting out his pinky. "I promise."

"This sucks." I said groaning. "I got used to you and Julie being with us all the time, and now it'll go back to the way things were."

"Don't worry." He said smiling at me. "I'm leaving you in good hands."

"What does that mean?"

"You'll see." Cooper had a bright smile on his face. Was I missing something?

When we arrived at my house, I noticed that mom and dads car were in the driveway. "They aren't with Sebastian?" I asked looking at Cooper.

"They are." Cooper had a smile on his face as if he was expecting something awesome to happen.

"What's going on Coop?" As we got closer to the door I could hear the piano being played and someone's voice singing. The voice felt familiar. It felt comforting. Was it... No way. Was it him? Was it really him?

I opened the door and walked inside and could hear the singing coming from my living room. I walked in to find a tall figure standing next to a piano; Julie was on the piano playing the music.

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

It was him.

"S...Se-Sebastian?" Sebastian turned around with a bright smile on his face. Normally, Sebastian was composed and would never show weakness in front of anybody, but tears were escaping his eyes and slowly trailing down his face when his eyes met mine. I ran up to him and threw myself onto him, causing him to stumble back. He wrapped the one arm that wasn't in a cast around my waist and held me tightly. I don't think I'd ever been so happy in my entire life as I was right now.

"Hey killer." Sebastian moved away slightly so that he could look at my face. I couldn't stop the silent tears that were streaming down my face. "I've missed you." Sebastian lifted my chin with his finger and placed a chaste kiss on my lips.

"Please tell me this isn't a dream. You're really here right?" I pressed myself against him again.

"If it wasn't for these pills I'm doped up on I would assume that this hug would be incredibly painful." He said smiling against my neck. "It's real life Blaine. I'm here." Sebastian pulled me in so tight that it felt like we were one. I rested my head against him, wanting more than anything for this moment not to end.

It was him. Sebastian.