AN: okay so I know that I have been not updating I'm so so sorry but I have been doing other stuff and I've been busy and it's just been choatic but i finally have two updates one on here and the other on Feliciano's story

Disclaimer: don't own Hetalia

Please tell me if you notice any mistakes seriously

The walls of my room were dark blue.

And I should know. I had been staring at them for the last few hours.

I felt broken cracked inside. I had ignored everybody locking my door even when Carson tried to talk to me but I wasn't ready to face the world. My Fratello was gone. Disappeared and I had nowhere to start looking for him. I felt like destroying something, ripping it to shreds and even then I couldn't replicate what I felt inside like my world had been sent through a paper shredder and then stomped on and left outside in the rain.

I felt like I was about to cry and punch a wall at the same time out of sadness and anger. I must have fallen asleep at some point because I woke up to my door opening,

"What the Hell is your deal!" I could hear Gilbert's angry voice ask as my door slammed open. I sat upright quickly. "You disappear last night then you are back the next morning acting like the world just ended." Gilbert said running a hand through his hair in frustration.

"I told you I have a brother right?" I said staring at my ceiling gilbert's rant abruptly stopped.

"No" he said looking at me; I could barely see him out of my eye

"Well I do, and I was taken from him and he's still out there at the orphanage somewhere. But now the orphanage is just a building and I don't even know where to fucking look!" I ended angrily trying to control my anger enough so that I didn't punch the wall again there already was one to many holes in the wall I sat on the corner of my bed in thought.

"So you went to look for your brother yesterday?" Gilbert asked " and you didn't bring your best friend?" he said grabbing chair from the corner of my room and sitting down watching me as I sat with my hands in my head on the edge of the bed. I knew he wouldn't leave until he had heard the full story.

"I didn't know what to do" I finally admitted after a pause. "It's been so many years and I had begun to have this small little thought that Feli was just my imagination but I pushed it to the back of my mind." I said telling him my deepest fear,

My fear that I was insane and that Feliciano was part of my imagination.

"….I know how you feel." I heard gilbert quietly say from his seat.

"How would you understand!" I shouted at him standing up in anger. "You don't have any siblings you've been a rich spoiled brat all of your life!" I shouted at him then sat down a bit ashamed of what I had said but not enough to apologize but gilbert just looked away not meeting my eyes. But I didn't want to meet his eyes either.

There was a long pause of awkward silence before either of us spoke again.

"….I have a brother out there. And I haven't always been rich." Gilbert said breaking the silence. "I had a little brother named Ludwig our dad died in combat and our grandma and grandpa died the year afterwards when a car hit them. We were sent to an orphanage a while from here. Where I was separated from him." Gilbert said and suddenly I felt like a dick.

"I'm sorry." I said at last. "I didn't know-you never told me." I said looking anywhere but his face as he turned to look at me.

"It's okay I haven't really told anybody so I didn't expect you to know." He said but then his face got all happy again suddenly. "Have you told Winnie yet" he says with a smirk that could rival anybody's and his red eyes flash with mischief as I groan. I didn't even want to think about telling Winnie but I knew I had to because she would find out and I wouldn't probably live to see the morning.

Gilbert laughed leaning backward in his chair but he leaned a bit too far back and tipped backwards. He gave a small screech as he fell backwards. And as soon as he landed on the floor we both burst out laughing. And I fell back on my bed clutching my sides.

It felt wrong to laugh when all of this shit was happening. But at the same time I felt like a boulder sized weight had been lifted off of my shoulders and I felt light and free.

"So what's the plan?" I asked after we finally finished laughing.

"Well first we should probably go tell Winnie and Matthew before they team up and find us and kill us. Then bring us back just so they can kill us again." Gilbert said and I nodded giving a small shiver of fear of Fiona's wrath.

I started to sit up and grabbed the bag of stuff that I had brought along with me last night that had been thrown at the wall when I had gotten home.

"Ready to go" I asked turning to Gilbert. He gave me his best smile. One that probably would make lesser people ready to run in fear of the mischief that, the smile would bring. But I had been friends with Gilbert for so long I had gotten used to it.

"Ready when you are." He said and we walked out of the door making our way down the steps and out to the car I had taken to the orphanage last night. Throwing my bag in the back I climbed in.

On the way to Winnie's house I turned to Gilbert.

"What was your brother's name again?" I asked just to make a conversation.

"Ludwig" Gilbert said offhandedly but the first person that came into my head was a boy with blonde slicked back hair that lay in the bed opposite from mine at the orphanage.

"Did he have bright blonde hair and blue eyes?" I asked and Gilbert turned to me a bit confused.

"Yeah, how did you know?" Gilbert said and I shrugged.

"I think I might know your brother. He was at the orphanage I was at before here." I said and gilbert nodded.

"Well that means this isn't just your quest anymore."