One never gets used to it by Bookworm El V

One never gets used to it

One gets used to everything.
To pain.
To humiliation.
To loneliness.
One should think so.

One should think
that the pain loses its sting.
That the humiliation loses its power.
That the loneliness loses its bitterness.

But as she steals away my mask and screams
I realize
that I am fooling myself.

The pain is worse than ever
because it is her who causes it.
The humilitaion is stronger than ever
because for her I wanted to be beautiful.
The lonelinesss seems almost soothing
because it promises to spare me pain and humiliation.

When her scream makes my ears ring
I realize:
One never gets used to it.