Chapter 50: Now or Never
As soon as I stepped into my bedroom I kicked off my shoes and unbuttoned the top buttons of my shirt before throwing myself onto my bed. I sat up against my headboard and crossed my ankles, placing my laptop on my lap.
A few rings later and my brother was on the other side of the screen. "Hi Coop!" I smiled and waved at the camera, excited to finally see my brother after a few weeks.
"Squirt!" He said, the happiness evident in his voice. I would let 'squirt' slide this time, only because I was excited to talk to him. "Babe! Come here!" Cooper waved over Julie, who appeared on the screen in what looked like gym attire.
"Hi Blaine!" She said sitting on Coopers lap. "How are you?"
"Hi Julie! I'm good! I miss you guys so much." And I really did. Over the time that Cooper was here, we grew closer then we had ever been, and it kind of sucked not seeing him everyday. Although the teasing and constant embarrassment was something I could do without. "Is Cooper still a child?"
"Obviously." Julie said winking at me; meanwhile Cooper stuck out his tongue at her. "What's new in your life, Blaine? How's Sebastian?"
"Keeping busy with work and school but we're doing really well. Oh! Before I forget, what are you guys doing March 10th through the 18th?"
"Nothing that we know of." Cooper said looking at Julie. "Why B?"
"Sebastian and I are on spring break that week and we thought it would be a good time to use the gifts you guys left us. We wouldn't want to come when it isn't convenient for you guys though."
"Definitely! You guys should come. We can both take some time off of work and spend the week with you guys, right Hun?" She said looking at Cooper.
"Yeah! Just let us know the details and we'll have everything ready for you when you come!" Cooper said smiling.
"I'm glad I got to see you, Blaine. I'm really sorry that I have to cut this short, but I was on my way to my yoga class. I'm looking forward to seeing you!" Julie waved and blew a kiss into the camera before kissing Cooper on the cheek and leaving the screen.
"Bye Julie!" I called back as she was leaving. "So how have you been Coop?"
"I've been alright, buddy. Still got my full head of hair." Cooper leaned into the screen and used his hands to ruffle his air, not failing to flip it at the end like they do in the shampoo commercials. I rolled my eyes but laughed, missing the happiness that Cooper always radiated. "You on the other hand, will not be alright when I see you."
"What do you mean?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"I can't believe you didn't call me after what happened at McKinley. Mom and dad thought you had already told me so they didn't even mention it until yesterday."
"I'm sorry." I said shrugging my shoulders. "It's just not something I like remembering. I thought I told you…it must have slipped my mind."
"I almost took a plane the second they told me, first to smack you on the head, and then to hug you. Do you have any idea how upset that news made me? How does someone even bring a gun to school?"
"Coop, I didn't come on here to get scolded." I said letting out a small laugh. "I actually need your advice."
"With what? Hold on." Cooper said putting up his finger, signaling me to wait. Cooper stood up and left the screen. I was sitting on my bed mindlessly reading over what homework I had when he came back. "Sorry. Continue." He said taking a sip out of his coffee mug.
"What do you think I should buy Sebastian for his birthday? It's coming up and I have no idea what to get him."
"Condoms." Coop said nonchalantly.
"Cooper." I said, my irritation evident in my tone. "I'm serious."
"Yeah, so was I." Cooper winked at me, causing me to turn slightly red. The fact that Cooper thought we could freely talk about my sex life was not okay. "I don't know… take him out to dinner."
"I'm making him dinner Friday night and Saturday night we're having a party, but that still doesn't solve my gift issue. It has to be perfect. It's the first birthday we'll be celebrating as a couple."
"Aww." Cooper said, resting his cheek in his hands and holding his head up. "That's cute, but like I said…Condoms. He'll need it for the birthday sex. You are using protection, right?"
"Coop!" I said covering my face; I could feel it turning red. Again.
"Listen little brother, you need to get over this! I'm your older brother. It's normal for us to talk about these things. No need to be so embarrassed. I have plenty of experience. I'm more than happy to share stories with you."
"I'll pass." I said groaning. "It's just…awkward talking to you about it."
"Why?"
"I don't know." I said shrugging my shoulders. "Maybe because you're straight and I'm gay."
"I don't care." He said putting up his finger, letting me know that I had to wait again. He came back this time with a sandwich. "It doesn't make a difference to me. Love is love, and sex is sex."
"Are you being serious right now Coop?" I asked. Cooper nodded his head and muttered something unintelligible. Someone should tell Cooper talking and eating at the same time doesn't really work out that well.
"Why wouldn't I be? Blaine, we're blood. And not that creepy wolf pack crap they pulled in the Hangover, but real blood." Cooper and I almost never talked about sex or me being gay unless he was teasing me about Sebastian. I would never hold it against Cooper, but knowing that he was fully accepting and willing to talk to me about sex made it a lot easier on me.
"Thanks Coop. It means a lot."
"Anytime, squirt. Now, are you top or bottom?" How did we end up talking about this when the question was what should I get Sebastian for his birthday?
"Cooper!" I said, feeling my cheeks warm up again.
"What did we just say?" He said looking in the drawers of his desk for who knows what.
"I'm…bottom." I muttered out. Cooper gave me a sarcastic expression, knowing exactly what I was doing. "I'm…I'm on the bottom." I whispered out slightly louder.
"What?" He said bringing his ear closer to the screen. I knew he was doing this to tease me. "You're on top?"
"I'm on bottom, Coop, okay?" I said a little louder than intended. "Happy?" I said trying to hide the smile that was threatening my lips.
"Hmmm…interesting." He said reclining in his chair and tapping his chin as if he was thinking, a playful grin plastered on his face. "I've got it!" He said snapping his fingers and suddenly looking very excited.
"Oh god." Was all I could say anticipating what his brilliant mind would come up with. Emphasis on the brilliant, and by brilliant I mean completely idiotic.
"Not only will this be an awesome gift for the both of you, but it'll also improve your sex life. And everyone knows that awesome sex is what leads to happy couples." He said reassuringly nodding his head. "Why don't you try being the top this time?"
"I don't th-" I started, but Cooper interrupted.
"Think about it. I'm assuming you feel awesome when Sebastian…you know…" Cooper was raising his eyebrows up and down knowing fully well that I knew what he was suggesting, but instead of groaning and becoming red, I kept a straight face, even though deep inside I was regretting every second of this conversation. "So why wouldn't you want Sebastian to feel the same way?"
As much as I hated admitting this, and believe me, I hated admitting this, Cooper had a point. It never really crossed my mind that until now, I had never…screwed Sebastian. He was always the one on top, and it never really occurred to me that being on top is completely different than being on bottom. Now I kind of feel like a jerk; Sebastian always made me feel amazing when he was…you know, inside… but I had never returned the favor. I was making a mental plan inside my head as to how I would go about it; I wouldn't bother asking, right? I'm sure he would love the surprise. Picturing it in my head was enough to get me excited, and I could feel a tent forming in my pants. My cheeks instantly turned red realizing that I had a fucking hard-on as I was on video chat with my brother. When I focused back in on what Cooper was saying about his self proclaimed genius gift idea, he was talking about sex toys and how I could use them with Sebastian.
"Alright, alright, alright." I put up my hands to stop him. "I get it." I said laughing.
"Good idea, huh?" Cooper seemed pleased with himself, probably a little too pleased. His arrogance sort of reminded me of Sebastian. I was about to start talking when I heard a knock on the door.
"Hold up Coop." I said placing the laptop next to me on the bed and turning my head to the door. "Come in!" I turned my attention back to Cooper and gave him a look, praying that he wouldn't say anything about the conversation we were just having.
"Babe?" Sebastian popped his head into the room and smiled when he saw me on my bed.
"Bas!" I was excited that I finally got to see Sebastian after not seeing him for a few days. I didn't blame him though; Dalton Academy exams were vastly more difficult than the exams here at McKinley. "Come here, I'm vid-" before I could finish talking, Sebastian had me straddled and was licking my lips, begging for entrance.
"Seb-wait." I said, my cheeks turning a bright shade of red. It seemed that was the only color they knew today.
"I've missed you." He said moving his talented mouth to my neck.
"I don't know how I feel about this." Cooper's voice came from the laptop. Sebastian sat up, putting his weight on my crotch and turned his head to look at the screen. I was expecting him to be embarrassed, but Sebastian looked casual as ever. "That's my little brother you're violating." Cooper said, taking another sip of his coffee.
"Hi Coop." Sebastian said half-waving at the screen but not taking his attention off of me. This was literally the most awkward video chat session I had ever been a part of, and I've been on chat roulette. Literally scarred forever after Sebastian forced me to go on it. I was talking to my brother about sex, and now, he's getting a full display of affection from Sebastian. Was I the only one who was completely embarrassed about the fact that Sebastian was sitting on me, pinning me down as Cooper casually continued eating his sandwich on the other side? "Blaine's going to have to call you back later. I haven't seen him in a few days and I've missed him terribly so." Sebastian leaned his head down to start using that talented mouth of his, but I broke free and pushed him off of me. Turns out it only made matters worse seeing as I was now wrapped in between Sebastian's legs and he was on his back, pulling me on top him.
"I haven't seen Blaine in months, so I'm pretty sure I beat you. Plus I'm his brother, so I automatically outrank you." Cooper said covering his eyes with his hand.
"Later." I whispered placing a quick kiss on Sebastian's lips and focusing my attention back on Cooper. Sebastian groaned before rolling off of the bed and heading towards the bathroom.
"I hate you Coop." Sebastian called back before he closed the door.
"Love you too!" Cooper said waving at the screen even though Sebastian didn't even see it.
"Sorry about that." I said, my face on full tomato mode. "Anyways, I need advice on something else too."
"Shoot." Cooper said putting on his glasses and reading the newspaper. He literally looked like an old man.
"I don't know what to do if I don't get into NYADA." I said letting out a sigh. "I haven't heard back from them yet and I'm pretty sure the acceptance letters were mailed out two weeks ago. NYADA is the only dramatic arts school I want to go to, so I didn't bother having a back up plan…"
"You don't need a back up plan, B. You'll get into NYADA, I know it."
"I second that." Sebastian said walking out of the bathroom and sitting next to me. "Hi Coop." Sebastian reached over me to grab two coffees off of my nightstand. When did he even place them there? Sebastian handed me mine before taking a sip from his. "You're welcome." He said stealing a kiss before I put the coffee to my lips.
"Hi Sebastian." He said rolling his eyes. "It's good to see you."
"It's good to see you too. How is sunny Los Angeles?"
"Earthquake ridden, but no big deal." Cooper said shrugging his shoulders. "How was your exam?"
"Aced it." He said giving the camera thumbs up before taking another sip from his coffee. "Where's Julie?"
"She's at her yoga class. Blaine told me you two are coming for spring break?"
"That's the plan." Sebastian said as he placed my arm over himself so that he could rest his head against my chest. I rested my arm on his chest and slipped my hand in between one of the slits between the buttons of his shirt to ghost my fingers over his skin. "You better get ready for a whole lot of trouble. He said smirking into the camera." I was lightly rubbing circles with my thumb around his nipple, and I could feel him becoming slightly turned on. Sebastian tilted his head up to look at me. "That's not even fair." He said pouting. It was funny that what I was doing was off of the screen so Cooper had no idea what we were talking about.
"What's he talking about?" Cooper asked raising an eyebrow.
"Nothing." I said laughing under my breath at how fidgety Sebastian was being under me. I covered my mouth to hold in the laugh that was threatening to come out.
"You're brothers evil." Sebastian said tilting his head to look at Cooper. "I love it."
"I'm so confused." Cooper said scratching his head. "Anyways, back to NYADA. Is there a number you can call to see if you can talk to someone? Maybe admissions?"
"I'll look on the website tonight. If I don't get anything in the mail tomorrow I'll definitely call them. Sebastian, will you quit it!" I said letting out a laugh. Sebastian had been poking me and tickling as payback for getting him aroused.
"Nah." Sebastian said shrugging his shoulders.
"Still confused." Cooper said rolling his eyes. "Have you thought of any song ideas your going to sing at your call back?"
"I had an idea, but it doesn't really work anymore."
"Why not?"
"It's…one of those sad heartbreak songs. It would have worked before, but not anymore." Sebastian looked up at me and Cooper sat there in silence staring at me. "What? I'm really good at singing love songs, I'm sorry."
"But why was it a sad heartbreak song." Sebastian asked.
"I thought of the song idea when we broke up, but it's not applicable anymore." I said smiling at him.
"What was the song?" Why was he being so persistent?
"It doesn't matter." I said, not wanting to admit that I was going to sing either Stay by Rihanna or Just Give Me A Reason by Pink. Sebastian breathed in heavily and let it out before giving me a half smile and turning his head back towards the screen. I knew that Sebastian still felt bad for everything that happened between us.
"Well, whatever you choose I'm sure you'll kill it. Have you guys been notified when Nationals are yet?"
"It's in late may. We have it in the bag." Sebastian said sitting up and placing his arm over my shoulders. "The Warblers are coming back as national champions this year."
"Unfortunately, I'm going to have to put my money on Blaine's team Seb, no offense." Cooper said winking at me.
"You're biased." Sebastian said 'as-a-matter-of-fact'ly. "It doesn't count."
"If you say so." Cooper said laughing. "
"Did you know Nationals are in Los Angeles?" Sebastian asked.
"I didn't. That's awesome! You guys will have to let me know the details before you come here for the competition." Cooper looked down at his watch. "Alright guys, I'm going to have to let you guys go. I'm going out to lunch with my manager. If any new jobs come up I'll let you know. Wish me luck!"
"Alright, good luck Coop! I'll see you soon. Text me later."
"Will do. Bye squirt. Sebastian, take care of him."
"Always do." Sebastian said lifting his hand to wave goodbye. "Take care Coop." The relationship between Sebastian and Cooper was weird. One minute they could go at it, but when it came down to it you could tell that Sebastian and Cooper were close.
"So now that we lost the deadweight…" Sebastian said closing my laptop and placing it on my nightstand. Sebastian lifted my chin with his finger to place a kiss on my lips. I could feel his lips curve into a smile before nibbling on my bottom lip. My hands were roaming up his back under his shirt, feeling the outline of every muscle on my fingertips.
"I've missed you." I said sitting up and taking off my shirt. I pulled him back down after he had taken off his as his hands hurriedly undid my zipper. I looked over at my closed door hesitantly, remembering that my dad was downstairs.
"I've missed you more." His hands were working their way down under my waistband as he spoke, never once taking his lips off my skin. Sebastian was leaving a trail of kisses before stopping at my nipple, biting down lightly and smiling when I gasped.
"You know I'm just going to stop you right?" I asked holding his face in my hands. "My dad is downstairs."
"It was worth an effort." He said leaning down to place a small kiss on my lips before rolling off of me. "I didn't mean to interrupt your conversation with your brother by the way." Sebastian picked up his shirt and threw it over his head to put it on. "Ready to go?"
"No worries." I said getting off the bed and stretching. "Are you sure this is a good idea?" I asked putting on my cardigan and grabbing my duffle bag.
"It was Sam's idea." Sebastian said walking behind me. I turned my head around to find him staring at my ass, yet he didn't move his eyes even after being caught. "Besides," Sebastian said walking next to me and holding my hand. "It's your fault we're doing this. If you had let Sam and I settle this at the wedding, we wouldn't have had to prolong the inevitable." Sebastian let go of my hand as we walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge to throw some water bottles into his duffle bag. Somehow, the arm wrestling dispute between Sam and Sebastian that was never resolved turned into a glee club show off, except this time it was in a game of dodge ball.
"I have a feeling someone's going to get hurt." I said sighing and grabbing an apple.
"That's the spirit." Sebastian said smirking.
"What's this talk about getting hurt?" My dad said walking into the kitchen raising an eyebrow at Sebastian stretching.
"The New Directions. Except Blaine obviously, don't worry Mr. A, I'll protect him." Sebastian said confidently.
"Should I be worried?" My dad started the coffee machine as he spoke.
"To be determined." I said sighing. "I'll be back later dad." I waved goodbye and Sebastian I started our way to the McKinley. Santana said she would take care of getting the gymnasium for us, but something told me we were probably sneaking in.
"It's about time you get here." Santana said as we opened the double doors of the gymnasium.
"Hello to you too." Sebastian said walking to Santana and giving her a sarcastic look. "Alright B, this is where I cut ties with you." He said turning around and stretching out his hand to shake mine. "In this game we're not dating. I can't have anything distracting me from teaching Sam a lesson."
"Are you serious?" Santana said raising an eyebrow and crossing her arms. "You are way too into this."
"So I'm free to do whatever I please with whoever I please until the game is over since I'm technically not in a relationship?" I said smirking at him. Weird, usually he did the smirking. "Hunter looks mighty fine today." I said tilting my head and looking past him. Sebastian turned around to see where I was looking before turning his attention back to me.
"Just don't get in my way." He said waiting for me to shake his hand. "I really don't want to accidently hurt you during the game." Sebastian had that evil half smile that was reserved for when he was scheming. So much for the promise he made to my dad to protect me.
"Ditto." I said taking his hand and firmly shaking it. "Except for the second part." Sebastian smiled as if he was pleased with my response before he turned around to meet with the rest of the Warblers. Sebastian ran over and jumped onto Hunter's back, practically knocking him over and making Jeff and Nick laugh.
"You ready to win this?" Santana said high-fiving me.
"Let's." We walked over to meet with the rest of the team who were already stretching in their red shirts. I quickly changed before making my way back to the gym and plugging in my iPod into the iHome Brittany brought.
"Alright, here are the rules." Santana yelled to get the attention of the Warblers. The warblers walked towards the center of the gym to meet us. "There are none."
"I'm going to die." Unique said turning her head to Marley, who looked equally as worried.
"Let's get this show on the road." Hunter said, earning him a high-five from Sebastian who was just as eager. Each team turned back and went to the line.
"Hit it!" Finn said blowing a whistle, and everyone rushed to the balls in the middle. The balls were divided; Trent, Nick, Sebastian, and Thad had balls, and Santana, Brittany, Sam, and Jake had the balls on our team.
Jeff was the first to throw his ball, but Santana used her ball to bounce it back straight into Trent's face. "What the hell!" Trent said throwing the ball on the floor and making his way off the court.
Joe was the first one out on our team, but for most of the game it was back and forth. At one point it was Santana and Sebastian. "Give it up smooth criminal." Santana said waving her finger as if to tempt Sebastian. Sebastian smirked before charging up and throwing the ball; I thought it was going for Santana, but it hit Sam right where it hurts. I cringed before walking over to Sam.
"You okay?" I asked squatting down to see Sam in pain. I looked back up and Sebastian made a gun with his fingers, closed one eye, and pretended to shoot Sam down. Child. Right now he didn't even care that I was giving him a look for hurting Sam. In the corner of my eye I could see Hunter charging up to throw the ball right at me but I knew I wouldn't have time to move. Luckily Britt stepped in front and bounced the ball away with hers. "Thanks Britt." She winked at me before helping Sam up.
Kitty threw the ball and it bounced directly off of Thad and hit Beat as well, taking out two of the Warblers at once. Santana looked at Kitty and raised an eyebrow. "What? I use dodge ball to relieve stress so I got good at it." Kitty said shrugging and crossing her arms. Kitty saw one of the Warblers getting ready to attack and quickly jumped behind Marley, turning her around to pretend to have a conversation. Poor Marley wasn't anticipating the ball she got straight to the back of the head.
"Ow." She said rubbing the back of her head. Jake ran over to her and quickly kissed her head, smiling at her and promising to get her back into the game.
Balls were flying everywhere, people running back in and out of the sidelines, depending on if we caught the ball.
It was Jake, Sam, and I currently left in the game against Hunter, Sebastian, Nick, and Jeff. "Give up now." Sebastian said walking closer to us with one hand extended to shake our hands and call it a victory, and the ball in the other.
"Dream on." Sam said pointing straight at him. "I still have a score I need to settle."
"I like the attitude." Sebastian said smirking and nodding his head. Jake and I threw the ball at the same time, and both of our balls hit Jeff. Hunter took the opportunity to throw the ball, hitting Jake in the chest. Jake balled his fists but walked off the court.
"Get me back in! You two stand no chance." Britt said from the sidelines. I knew Sebastian wouldn't try to get me out just yet, so I prepared myself and when he threw the ball directly at Sam, I jumped in front of him and caught the ball, getting everyone on my team to cheer. Santana ran over to us and Sebastian looked right at me.
"Sorry Bas, but your streak is over." I said pointing to the sideline with my thumb. He had played the entire game, not once getting hit by any of the balls we threw at his direction. I looked at Hunter before throwing the ball low and getting Nick out by hitting his legs. I knew Hunter would take the opportunity to try and get my out, but I quickly sidestepped and missed being sidelined.
"Time out." Sebastian called, getting an argument from the entire team. Sebastian waved his hand, completely dismissing anything the New Directions had to say. Sebastian walked over to Hunter and whispered something in his ear, getting a head nod from Hunter. Sebastian walked off the court and Hunter picked up one of the balls on his side of the field. It was Hunter against Sam, Santana and I. Sam threw the ball first but Hunter lightly reflected his ball into the air, dropped his ball, and caught Sam's in his hand, getting Sebastian back on the team. Sebastian took no time, instantly running back onto the court, picking up a ball, and eliminating me all in one move. "Sorry Blaine." He said smiling at me.
"Yeah, we'll see." I said pretending to glare at him but letting a small laugh come out. Before I even walked off of the court, Hunter had pretended to charge up and throw but passed it instead to Sebastian who quickly threw the ball and eliminated Santana.
"That's crap!" Santana said throwing her ball harshly at the floor and walking over to where most of the team was.
"You could avoid feeling of this ball against your face if you just give up now." Hunter said stretching his limbs, mocking Sam.
"You wish." Sam said, his eyes intently on both of them. Sam picked up two balls, spinning around and launching the ball way past either of them. Sam's plan was working; the ball bounced off of the back wall and was coming directly for Hunter. The ball hit Hunter and while Sebastian was distracted looking at Hunter, Sam threw the ball, this time for Sebastian.
Unfortunately, Hunter pushed Sebastian slightly, saving him from being eliminated; the ball passed centimeters from Sebastian's face. Before Sam had time to react to our almost victory, a ball hit him square in the face.
The Warblers erupted in cheer and went to lift up Hunter and Sebastian. Sam looked at the team and sighed before looking back at the Warblers. "Fine, fair game. You won." He said shaking hands with Sebastian. Sebastian put his arm around Sam's shoulder and pulled him with him. I didn't know what he was saying, but chances are he wasn't being very nice. And if he was, it was probably to mock him.
"Good game guys." I said walking over to the Warblers. Each member of the teams shook hands before we headed to the locker room. I had just lifted up my shirt when I felt two hands snake their way around me and around my navel, both hands working on going past my waistband and into my pants.
"You're not too mad about me getting you out, are you?" Sebastian asked in a sweet tone, but I knew what he wanted. Sebastian's mouth was centimeters from my ear whispering seductively as his hands made their way lower into my pants.
"I don't know." I said stopping his hands and sideways glancing at him. "I might forgive you but it'll take some convincing."
"Oh, I have my ways." Sebastian said his hands sneaking closer and closer to my length. "If you want me to, I can do something to take care of him down there."
"That was so much fun!" Sebastian jumped back and I stood up and hurriedly went threw the locker when we heard people coming in. That would have been just a little too awkward for me. My face flushed just at the thought of someone walking in on Sebastian's standing behind me, his arms around my waist and his hands driving me insane.
"Good game." Ryder said sitting on the bench next to me. "You're really red. A cold shower might do you some good." He said standing up and patting my back. He had no idea. I glared at the back of Sebastian's head when he snickered at Ryder's comment.
I was going to shower but decided that I really wanted a bath instead, so I would wait till I got home. I'm sure Sebastian wouldn't have a problem with that. After we said our goodbyes to everyone, we made our way back to Sebastian's car.
We were almost at the school when Sebastian started looking through his compartment for something. "What's this?" He said opening the folded paper. His eyes scanned over it and he instantly burst out laughing.
"What is it?" I asked taking the paper from him. "Seriously?" I asked shaking my head. At the top of the paper was written 'Reasons Why Kurt Is A Loser and Blaine Should Be With Me'. "When did you make this?"
"Hunter and I got pretty drunk at Scandals one night and somehow ended up writing this." Sebastian said laughing. "I completely forgot about it."
"Does he even know Kurt?"
"No." Sebastian said smirking. "It was hilarious at the time."
"Number 6: Blaine doesn't know what sex is until he does it with me. I could show him a much better time than Kurt." I turned my head to see Sebastian trying hard not to laugh. "At least you're confident." I muttered.
"Stop reading them." Sebastian said trying to take the list from me, a smile on his face.
"Number 12: Kurt's face is reason enough to not want to have sex with him. Number 13: Kurt has a small penis." I couldn't help but laugh at some of the reasons Sebastian listed, ranging from being sexually inadequate to some that made no sense at all. "And how would you know? Actually, he might have you beat." I said winking at him.
"I'm not that stupid." He said turning his head and glaring at me. "I know it's not true."
"I guess you'll never know." I said not giving him a second thought and reading down the list.
"Blaine… that's just mean. You're trying to hurt my ego."
"Aw, don't let it bug you that much." It was funny working him up like that, but truth be told Kurt had nothing on Sebastian. "I never thought of that." I said reading number 24. I pointed to the number to show Sebastian what I was referring to.
"Yeah, he's literally a loser."
"Sebastian, be nice." I said rolling my eyes.
"I'm serious. Not the mean meaning of loser, the actual meaning of loser, as in not winner. His sophomore year he was in the New Directions and they lost at regionals. When he joined the Warblers junior year, you guys lost at regionals, and when he rejoined the New Directions that same year, they lost Nationals. He also lost the presidential election against Britt."
"But he was part of the New Directions when we won Nationals, remember?" Yes, I did use the national champion card. "How do you even know all of this?"
"I did some snooping." Sebastian admitted casually. "And yes you won Nationals but only because the New Directions added new members to make up for his lack of talent."
"That's really mean, Bas." I said folding the note and handing it to him. "He's still my friend."
"But you want to know what his biggest loss was?"
"What?" I asked sideways glancing at him.
Sebastian waited until we were at the stop sign before turning his head to look at me. "You." Sebastian half smiled at me before putting his attention back on the road. "But like they say, one mans loss is another mans gain. Will you look for the auxiliary chord?" Sebastian asked when we reached a corner, his head turned to make sure he was in the clear to enter the main street. "It's in the compartment."
I opened the compartment to find the cable, but a single CD caught my eye. "What's this?" I asked taking it out and showing him.
"Oh." Sebastian said his eyes faltering slightly. "It's uh… it's a CD that my manager gave me. Supposedly it's from my father but after everything that happened I forgot about it."
"After what happened?" I asked putting it into the CD player.
"I got it the day of the shooting…" Sebastian said hesitating slightly at the last word.
"You've had a random CD from your father this long without being curious enough to want to listen to it?" I asked raising an eyebrow.
"Technically it was made for me a while ago seeing as my manager had it for a few weeks." Sebastian said shrugging. "Like I said, things happened and I forgot."
"Do you mind if I play it?" Sebastian didn't take his eyes off the road when I asked him but instead just shrugged his shoulders. "I won't if you don't want to." Sebastian took a breath before pushing 'play' himself.
"Hello Sebastian. I guess there's really no point in beating around the bush so I'll just get to it… I… I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry."
Sebastian's eyes made a quick glance to the radio as if he were expecting to see his own father saying it. I looked up at him but his face was expressionless; either because he didn't know if this was real, or because he knew too well that I would try to read him.
"I know there's no excuse for what I did, so I'm not going to beg you to forgive me. I just want you to know that I regret it. Everything. I know I can't do anything about the past, but we have the whole future ahead of us. If you allow it, of course. Sebastian, I'll be leaving for a while." There was a short pause. "I'll be staying at the Westerville Rehabilitation Center. I'll be able to get the help I need there for my… alcoholism… and I'll be getting professional help to deal with my anger. The least I can do for you after everything I've done is to try and get the help I need to be a better father for you. I don't know how long this will take so I don't know when's the next time I'll see you."
Sebastian remained silent. His eyes focused on the road ahead of him. "I know you have an apartment, but the doors to the house are open for you. Please call your grandparents when you hear this, I've already told them everything. I asked them to come stay in Ohio while I'm gone so that you won't be alone. Respect them Sebastian, and make them feel at home here, it's a long way from Paris. So, I guess this is it. Finish your senior year strong, okay?"
When Mr. Smythe spoke, he sounded as he always did. Cold. Direct. Yet there was something about the way he was speaking that told me that behind his words laid the truth. Something that I didn't believe Mr. Smythe could do.
"I…I love you Sebastian." Since the recording started, Sebastian hadn't said a word. The only thing that spoke was the single tear that trickled down his cheek. It seemed out of place; his face was hard and showed no signs of sadness, yet everything he wasn't saying or showing could be read by the lone tear making it's way down his cheek.
"Seba-" I said reaching for his hand.
"No." He said shaking his head and using the hand I was going to hold to rub his eyes. "I'm fine." He said letting out a small laugh. "I'm glad he's getting the help he needs." Sebastian said looking out his window. That was the only thing he said and he left it at that. Even if I tried reading what he was feeling, his eyes were impossible to decipher. Sebastian turned on the radio and rested his elbow on the armrest and ran his hand through his hair, holding his head up against his closed fist.
"Don't think you're going to get away with hitting me with the ball just because you're sad." I said nudging him as we arrived at my house, hoping to lighten the mood. I couldn't tell whether he really didn't feel anything about his father, or if he just didn't want to show it. Sebastian turned his head towards me and had that bright smile he always wore when he was in a good mood. "You still have a lot of convincing to do to make up for tonight."
"Don't you worry." He said smirking. "I'll get my way." Sebastian reached over to take out the CD and put it back in the compartment. He cupped my face and placed a quick kiss before getting out of the car.
We were walking towards the house when I took a misstep and twisted my ankle, resulting with my ass on he floor. "Fuck." I said holding my ankle, wincing at the pain. This is embarrassing…
"Babe, are you okay?" Sebastian said getting down on his knees and looking at me with a genuinely worried face. "What happened? Are you hurt?"
"Yeah, I'm fine." I said turning slightly red at how embarrassed I was. I was about trying to stand up to no use; my ankle was definitely twisted and I couldn't put pressure on it. "I'm sorry." I said wincing again at a new surge of pain.
"Why are you saying sorry?" Sebastian said half smiling. Sebastian brought my arm over his shoulder and let me place all my weight on him so that I could stand up. I managed to get on my feet but I really couldn't take a step.
"Get on." Sebastian said squatting down in front of my and signaling me to jump on his back.
"No! Bas it's fine I can do this. I'm not a little kid, you don't have to carry me." I said trying to take another step.
"You can barely walk." Sebastian said tilting his head and frowning. It was cute to see Sebastian genuinely worried for me. "Don't put any weight on it, come on." He said before squatting down in front of my again. Before I could protest again, Sebastian had already picked my up piggyback style. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he supported my weight by placing his hands under my legs.
I rested my forehead on his shoulder, closing my eyes hoping that somehow that would make my situation go away. Neighbors were out for a walk and saw Sebastian carry me towards the house, even though I knew Sebastian had a big smile on his face. "Sorry."
"Stop it." Sebastian said slightly hurt. "I enjoy doing things for you Blaine, I'm your boyfriend. If you get hurt, of course I'm going to help you. There's no reason to apologize to me." Sebastian kissed the side of my head when he finished speaking.
Even though my ankle was killing me, sharing a moment like this with Sebastian was something that I loved. I knew he really cared for me and was willing to do anything. I hugged him more tightly and nestled my head into his neck, placing a kiss on his skin and smiling against it. I literally looked like a child, but even if I was hurt I was happy. Oh well.
When we got inside, no one was there. Sebastian gently placed me down on the couch but didn't sit down. "Do you have any bandages?" He asked taking off his sweatshirt.
"I think we do. Check the closet." Sebastian left the living room but quickly returned with a pack of ice, a first aid kit, and painkillers. Sebastian squatted down in front of me and rolled his sleeves up before untying my shoe. "Sebastian, you don't have to do this. I'll be fine."
Sebastian didn't answer but instead shook his head and smiled. He apologized when I winced as he was taking off my shoe and sock. With tender hands, he gently touched and looked at my ankle, which was already bruising and clearly swollen. Sebastian leaned his head down, placing a kiss on my ankle letting his lips linger on my skin, effectively making me turn instantly red, either because I was extremely embarrassed or because of how caring and gentle Sebastian was being right now. I had never been in a situation where Sebastian had to take care of me. Seeing Sebastian immediately take action and take care of me with such care and love was just another thing to add to the list of things I loved about him. Sebastian's fingers ghosted over the skin on my ankle, his hands gently examining it. Sebastian took out bandages and slowly started wrapping it around my ankle. While the entire time pain was running through my ankle, it wasn't unbearable.
"Is it too tight?" Sebastian asked looking at his work. "Let me know if you don't like it."
"It's perfect." I said smiling at him. Sebastian stood up and brought me a water bottle so that I could take the painkillers. "Take these, if you're still in pain let me know." Sebastian took the things with him to put them back to where they were. He came back this time with a pillow, a blanket, and what seemed like a change of clothes.
"Bas, really. You're doing too much."
"So you're telling my you wouldn't be doing the exact same thing if this had happened to me?" He asked taking off my shirt. He smirked when he saw the face I gave, admitting to the fact that I would react the same way. "Are you sure you don't want to go to a doctor instead? I don't really know what I'm doing." He said scratching his head, a light smile on his lips. I shook my head; I didn't need anyone else right now. After helping me change, he gently lifted my foot and placed it on the footrest on top of a pillow. He wrapped the ice pack in some paper towels before placing it on my ankle, eliciting a wince out of me. He apologized again before throwing the blanket over me before leaving once again. He came back and lied down next to me, resting his head on my lap and looking up at me. "Do you need anything? Maybe a foot massage would make you feel better?"
"No." I said smiling. "You don't need to do any more convincing by the way, I forgive you." I ran my fingers through his hair, staring at his eyes and his lips that were curving into a smile. Sebastian lifted his head so that I could kiss his lips before he rested his head on my lap again. "How could I not when I have the best boyfriend."
"Yeah you do." He said winking and rubbing my cheek with his thumb, a look of pure happiness on his face.
My parents came back an hour later to find me watching TV with my hurt foot up and the icepack on it. Sebastian was fast asleep, his head resting on my lap with his face tilted at me. "What happened?" My mom asked furrowing her eyebrows and walking into the living room.
"I got hurt a little earlier but I'll be fine." I said signaling for her to keep it down.
"Did you go to the doctor? I didn't actually think someone was going to get hurt at the game." My dad asked looking at my ankle.
"No, I didn't need to go I don't think it's broken. Sebastian took care of me." My mom smiled as I continued running my fingers through his hair and massaging his scalp. "What's worse is it wasn't even a cool injury like getting hurt at a game. I twisted my ankle walking on the driveway."
"You need to be more careful." My mom said, a worry written all over her expression. "Do you need anything? Are you sure you don't want to go to the hospital?"
"No, I'll probably head up when this show is over. You guys go to bed."
"If your foot is still sore in the morning let me know and I'll give you a ride to school." My dad said putting his hand on my shoulder.
"Thanks dad." They said their goodnights before heading upstairs.
A few minutes later and Sebastian shot up. "I'm sorry B, I didn't mean to fall asleep." He said in a groggy voice as he rubbed his eyes.
"It's okay." I said smiling at him. "You look cute when you sleep." Sebastian placed his arm over my shoulder and kicked up his feet to rest next to mine on the footrest. He cross his ankles and settled into a comfortable position next to me before kissing my cheek.
"Let me know if you need anything or if you're ready to go to bed so I can carry you upstairs." Instead of answering, I slipped my fingers in between his and rested my head on his shoulder. I wouldn't mind staying like this forever, even if I had a messed up ankle.
"What do you mean?" Hunter said raising an eyebrow.
"You heard right." I said sitting back in my chair and crossing my arms. "I guess he's at the rehab center near here getting help."
"So you haven't spoken to him? Are you going to visit him?"
"I don't know." I said letting my mind wander and staring at nothing in particular. I grabbed his muffin and bit off a piece before giving it back to him.
"Sebastian, the top part of a muffin is my favorite." He said pouting and looking at his muffin with a predominant portion of the good part now gone. Hunter sighed and shook his head as he reclined back in his chair and brought the cup to his lips. "Anyways, I think you should go see him. If he's willing to recognize and get help for his problem, it must mean something, right?"
"I never know with my father." I said shaking my head. I was glad my father was getting help, but I needed to know if he was actually doing this for me, or was this just another part of his lies? "I'm leaving. Cover for me in last period." I said standing up from the table we were sitting at outside.
"Wait, Sebastian you have Warblers practice. You better not skip." Hunter reminded me.
"I'll be back before then." I quickly grabbed my things and waved goodbye before heading to my car. I had made an executive decision. I would find my father and he would tell me the truth.
As soon as I made the decision to see my father, my body went into autopilot. It wasn't until I was standing outside of a large building with a sign that read 'Westerville Rehabilitation Center' that I realized I had no idea what I was going to say or do when I saw him. Suddenly this felt like a very bad idea.
After mustering up the courage to walk inside, I got the room number from the woman at the front desk and made my way to the designated room.
I stopped outside his door with my hand on the doorknob. Snap out of this, Sebastian, you can do this. It's all or nothing, just open the door and get the answers you need.
I twisted the doorknob and slowly opened the door.
It's now or never.