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Over the next two weeks John and I were pretty distant. The only time we really saw each other was when John was doing shows for RAW and we were at the show. We hadn't really talked about the whole engagement incident because neither of us knew what to say. At least that was my problem. I'm not sure what John's problem was but I'm sure he was pretty upset about it. We talked at the RAW shows but after RAW was over with I went back to Dave's hotel room to stay with him while John went back to our hotel room to stay. I'm sure most people would think that was the end of our relationship but it wasn't. We were just having a rough time but I actually enjoyed it. I know that's mean of me to say but I really enjoyed us being apart like that. For the last 16 years it was always Tessa and John. I needed the break from him.
You would have thought that was my biggest problem but it wasn't. For the last week I had been waking up sick. I couldn't eat anything or drink anything without getting sick. It was really bad. Then it would die off for a few hours then come back around the same time everyday. Certain smells made me sick and believe me there was NOTHING that I couldn't smell. It was like my sense of smell had increased over the last couple weeks. That morning I woke up and it was no different. Dave was making pancakes as I got out of bed. I put on one of his t-shirts and walked to the small kitchen in his hotel room. I took a seat on the stool and I was not feeling well at all. I could feel the nausea and the smell of the pancakes wasn't helping at all. "Morning, Tess," he said with a smile. "How are you feeling today?"
"Horrible," I said putting my head down.
"Sick again?" he asked flipping a pancake.
"Yes," I said. The smell from the pancakes was too much so I excused myself and ran to the bathroom. I was spending a lot of time throwing up in the bathroom lately. It was pretty much my new morning ritual and my early evening ritual. I washed my mouth out, brushed my teeth and splashed water on my face when I was finished.
I walked back to the mini kitchen and took a seat. "Are you okay?" he asked. I could tell he was concerned and it made me feel a little bit better knowing that he cared.
"For now," I said. "I don't know how long this is going to last."
"You want any pancakes?"
"I think I'll pass. I think I'll just eat some crackers. Sorry," I said.
"Gotcha," he said handing me a pack of crackers.
"Wow.. You were ready for that one," I said.
"I kind of expected that," he said. "I think you should go to the doctor."
"I don't need a doctor," I said. "It's not a stomach virus." I knew that for a fact. I had an idea of what it was because Nattie had been telling me everyday for the last week that I was pregnant and showing signs of pregnancy. That would also explain the breast tenderness I was having lately too. That's another thing Dave had learned to expect. Every time we made love over that last week my breasts were hands off because the slightest touch would hurt. Nattie was getting me a pregnancy test that I was going to take later that afternoon before RAW.
"Okay," he said. It amazed me how oblivious he was to the whole thing. It was like he had no idea and I would have expected him to catch on at some point. I mean he had to have lived through it before when his ex-wife was pregnant with Max. I was pretty sure I was pregnant if I wasn't then something terrible was going on with my body. "Do you want some water too?" he asked handing me a bottle of water.
"Thanks," I said with a smile. "You know me so well."
"I try," he said. "So what's up with you and John?"
"Don't know. We're just going through it right now. I think he's still upset over the whole engagement thing."
"You did the right thing, Tess. You didn't want to be engaged. You did the right thing. It's okay if he's upset. He should have expected it. You told him you didn't want to get married."
"I know but I do feel kind of bad. I shouldn't have embarrassed him like that."
"And you also asked to speak to him in private but he insisted you talk in front of his friends. That's his problem so the way I see it, it's his fault he's embarrassed. If he would have talked to you in private there wouldn't have been a scene. Don't feel bad for that."
"I know but he went through so much to get the ring and I just feel like a horrible person for giving it back to him."
"Don't, Tess, you did the right thing," he said sitting down next to me with his pancakes. He grabbed the syrup to put on them and I started to get sick again. "What's wrong?" he asked looking at my face.
"Be right back," I said as I ran to the bathroom. I was not too fond of the smell of syrup and the smell of pancakes apparently.
While I was in the bathroom Dave came in and squatted down by the toilet with me. He pulled my hair back with one hand and rubbed my back with the other. "It's okay, Tess." I thought it was a sweet gesture on his part. If it had been John I would have been left alone in the bathroom and he wouldn't have cared at all. He would have been scared he was going to get my sickness. Anything that would keep him from wrestling scared him. As I finished I got up and thanked Dave and he said, "you okay?"
"Yeah. Thanks," I said before rinsing out my mouth and splashing water on my face again.
"So are you coming back here after RAW tonight or going with John?" he asked.
"I don't know yet," I said. "Probably back here. I'm not sure though."
"All right. I hope you come back here," he said as we walked back to the kitchen. "Why don't you break up with him, Tess?"
"I want to but it's hard. How do you break up with someone after 16 years?"
"I understand where you're coming from. I know it's difficult but we can't keep doing this. There's no way."
"I know," I said, "I will do it soon."
"Okay," he said. "What are your plans for today? Want to hang out?"
"No actually, I'm meeting up with Nattie in a little bit. We have some stuff to discuss."
"Oh. Okay," he said. "I guess I'll just go to the gym then to work out."
"All right," I said with a smile.
After we were done with breakfast, I helped him clean up his mess from the pancakes and then we took a shower together. We had a little extra time together because John was still in a different state or on his way to the state we were in for RAW after doing Smackdown shows. Dave and me enjoyed those extra days together. I will admit those were the days I was happiest whether I was sick or not. Once I was dressed I gathered my luggage to head over to the hotel John and me were staying in so I could meet up with Nattie. "All right, Dave, I'm getting ready to meet up with Nattie. I will see you at the arena."
"All right, Tess. I will see you later," he said kissing my lips softly.
"See you later," I said with a smile before walking out of the room and heading to the other hotel.
When I got to the other hotel I checked in to mine and John's room. I took my luggage up to the room before going to Nattie's room. I was very happy with the fact my sickness had gone away but I was kind of upset that Nattie was staying on the same floor as John and me. That would make it harder for me to lie to John so I could be with Dave. I knocked on Nattie's door and she answered it almost immediately. "I've been waiting for you. Were you with Dave again?" she asked as she let me in.
"Yeah, did you get it?" I asked.
"Yeah. I got you three," she said.
"Three?" I asked.
"Yes. Just in case you mess up on the first one," she said.
"I just pee on a stick. I don't think I can mess that up. How much do I owe you?"
"Don't worry about it. It's on the house."
"Are you sure because I can give you some money for them," I said. I didn't want her to have to pay for my pregnancy tests. I was more than willing to give her the money for them. After all it wasn't her that was sleeping with two men and got pregnant. I thought she was doing enough by keeping my secret from John.
"No. Don't worry about it," she said. "Just take the test," she said handing me the first test.
I looked at it and said, "EPT. Aren't these pretty accurate?"
"Supposed to be," she said. "Go take it."
"All right," I said as I walked into the bathroom. I took the test out of the box and took stick one out of the plastic. I read the directions on the back of the box and did what it told me to do. I let it sit on the sink when I was finished as I waited for the results. I wasn't too nervous about being pregnant but I was hoping that I wasn't. Being pregnant wasn't something that I really wanted. I only agreed to it because of John. If I was pregnant I would have bigger problems on my hands than worrying about John finding out I was sleeping with Dave. If my calculations were correct I would have gotten pregnant that weekend John was away and I stayed home with Dave. It would have been some time around that weekend. I guess anytime from Friday-Tuesday. I had no idea what I was going to do if I was pregnant but I wasn't going to worry myself until I was 100% sure that I was pregnant. I remember sitting down on the side of the tub waiting. It was probably the longest two minutes of my life. I tapped my foot as I waited and I probably checked my cell phone at least 50 times in those two minutes. When the two minutes were up I took a deep breath, got up and walked over to the sink. I prepared myself for what I was about to see. I picked up the test taking a deep breath and then looked down at the stick. Two lines, "I'm pregnant," I said to myself. I guess I didn't want to believe it so I took the second one for a second opinion I guess you could say. I waited another two minutes and when I picked up the test I saw another two lines. I was pregnant. There was no doubt about it. I was having a baby and I had no idea who the father was.. Although I had an idea just wasn't sure.
I grabbed both tests and walked out of the bathroom. "So?" asked Nattie.
"Two positives," I said.
"So you're pregnant?" she asked.
"I guess," I said sitting down on her bed in shock. I think I was feeling more shock than anything at that moment. "I don't even know what I'm going to do. I don't want to be pregnant, Nattie."
"Um," she said as she sat down next to me, "I don't think you have a choice right now."
"I don't want it," I said. "I don't want to be pregnant."
"You should have thought about that before you had unprotected sex," she said.
"I know," I said. "I didn't think it would happen this quickly. It took John's sister-in-law years to get pregnant and it only took me 2-3 months. I don't even know what to do."
"At least you and John are going to have a baby. That might release some tension between you two."
"About that," I said.
"Tess, don't tell me that Dave is the father of this baby. Please tell me."
"Well, it's a possibility."
"Tessa," she said with disappointment. "You had unprotected sex with Dave?" The only way to describe the look on her face was sadness mixed with disappointment.
"Once.. Or twice.. Maybe even 3 times," I said.
"Tessa, what are you going to do?"
"I don't know," I said. "I need to figure this out before I do anything or tell anyone. Promise me you won't say anything to John or Dave."
"I promise," she said. "Wow.. You're pregnant."
"Yeah. I know," I said. I don't think I could have said it with any more bitterness. That bitterness soon turned into sadness and confusion. "Nattie, what am I going to do. I don't know what I'm going to do," I said as I broke down crying. "I can't do this."
Nattie wrapped her arms around me and comforted me, "you can do this. I know it's hard right now but it will be okay. You will figure something out. No matter what you choose to do I will support your decision. I am here for you every step of the way. I promise. It will be okay, Tess," she said as there was a knock on the door. "I'm going to get that."
"Okay," I said as I continued to cry. She answered the door and I could hear John's voice and I heard her invite him in. I hid the pregnancy tests under Nattie's pillow and wiped away my tears. John came into the room and said, "Tess, what's up? Were you crying?"
"I was but I'm okay now. What's up?" I asked getting up.
"I just wanted to apologize to you for the way things have been between us lately. I was just really upset but I know I shouldn't have made you do something you didn't want to do. I knew you didn't want to be married so I pushed it just like I pushed you having a baby. I know you don't want to be a mother so I'm going to leave that decision up to you. I love you enough to go through life without kids and being married to keep you. I really love you, Tessa, and I will do whatever it takes to make us work so do you forgive me?" he asked wrapping his arms around my waist. I wish he would have came to that revelation a month earlier and then maybe we wouldn't be in that predicament right now.
"I don't even know what to say," I said. I had no idea how to respond to that. The damage was already done and there was nothing I could do to change that. AT least I needed to think about what to do with the pregnancy but I wasn't going to tell John at that moment.
"Just tell me that you forgive me," he said.
"All right. I forgive you," I said with a smile. "I love you, John."
"I love you too, Tessa,' he said before he kissed my lips. "So why don't we get out of here and go spend some time together."
"Actually, I think I want to hang out with Nattie for the day," I said. I didn't want to be with John at that time. I didn't want to be with Dave either. I just wanted to be with my best friend and talk to her about what I should do even though it was my decision.
"Okay. All right," he said. "I guess I will see you later."
"Yeah," I said. "See you later," I said before I kissed his lips.
"See you later," he said before walking out of the hotel room.
As soon as he was gone I sat back down on the bed. I had no idea what I was going to do. I had tons of options but I didn't know which one to choose my first job was to call a local OB/GYN so I could at least go to get checked out. I decided I would go there to make it official and then I would go from there on what to do about the whole thing. I just hoped I would make the right decision in the end.
*A/N: So what did you think? Please review and thank-you for taking the time to read. = )