Chapter ten:

"Sebastian?" I asked, rolling on my side to see the crow with his nose in his ever-so-interesting book, while glancing around, the time happened to be twelve thirty-two A.M.

"Ciel, why aren't you sleeping?" He called me out, putting down the tragic tale of "Romeo and Juliet."

"I want to know something." I told the other, flat out, sitting up till I hunched slightly over with my hands in my lap that was covered by the navy blue bed-sheets.

"Of course. What would you like to know?"

The day I had went by so fast - although I remember distinctly every waking detail. The surprising warmth of his lips on mine, the feel of our fingers lacing together, the comfort that came with the sweet embrace of his well-built arms. The feelings all lingered like a gentle flame around inside my body, keeping me warm. To any normal person; it would be painstakingly apparent that we were partners, yet to my child mind, I can't help but feel like he's still treating me like kid. Contemplating my word choice articulately, I decided it was stupid - this question I had. So I merely laid back down, pulled the blankets back up to my chin, and rolled over onto my right side to face the bland white-wall.

"Never mind" I stated, before closing both my eyes.

"Alright Love."

Love? Why would he call me Love? Does… He think that we are officially together after all these years?

"Sebastian?" I asked timidly, without rolling over to face him, and his gorgeous ruby eyes, that would make me melt in an instant with their beauty. I didn't wish to receive that look he always gave me. The one that made me jumpy, yet calm at the same time.

"yes?" He answered back.

"What exactly… are we." I asked, expecting a serious statement or description of this predicament, and relationship.

"Demons?" Came his innocent, chutzpah wisecrack.

"Not on that topic you smart mouth." I snapped, still determined not to face him. "I mean where do I stand with you in this relationship - if there's anything, at least." However, as all good things end, I succumbed to my will, and gyrated over to my other side to view the black crow haired male. In the process of looking into his glorious eyes, I saw there was still the deep, flaming color they had always possessed, but an intruding emotion of confusion was peaking through. I wasn't all-too-sure if I should welcome, or abjure it. It was like he was racking his brain from top to bottom to find some way to acknowledge the question. Reminiscing about the past, I remembered it's not the first time he's given me this look - in fact the first time he had gave me this look of mental disorientation, was when I had first made the contract. How, as I looked into his glossy red orbs for the first time, and told him flat out I wanted revenge, he gave me that look, probably wondering exactly why a kid would want to avenge his family's honor, though he immediately understood after seconds of getting to know me. My pride, my honor, it was all I used to care about. Nothing else came before that. No one else came before that, that is, except for me. On the other hand, that's why I had Sebastian, right? To be safe, while upholding all my glory.

"Well Love, that's entirely up to you." He proclaimed in his alluring, deep-but-not-to-deep voice.

My choice… My Love..? The room's modest interior grew revoltingly silent, for all that could be heard were the ridged rustles of my soft, fluffy blanket as I moved, and Grell's obnoxious snoring from the other room over.

"Marie told me…" I sighed, figuring that I can't hide it, now that he knows about my miniature-after-school adventure. "…That if I had told you, then I can expect the worse…"

"Don't listen to her." He spat out toneless. His sharpness only seemed to make me sink further down into the warm caressing pillows and sheets. I slowly began to only mumble, as I was doubting myself.

"I just got you. I don't want to loose you." I whined, and for almost the millionth time, rolled my body over to the side that wasn't facing Sebastian.

"Love, aren't you overreacting a tad?" He asked boldly, Being here has changed him too..?

"Sebastian, we don't know what she's capable of. She said that she "feels the pain, but it subsides momentarily." Seb, what if she likes pain? You weren't there… You didn't see the malicious, deviant grin that covered her twisted face. She's different; She's…" I couldn't put my finger on the word that best described her.

"She's nothing. It doesn't matter to me Ciel," I heard him stand up out of his seat by the black reading lamp, and then simultaneously felt another pressure on the opposite side of the bed. "I'll always protect you." Strong, familiar, yet completely foreign arms found their way to a place wrapped around my waist through the blanket. Nuzzling closer to his chest, I couldn't help but release all this worry that is consuming me.

"But…" Ciel, why are you being like this? It's like some alien invader has taken over your emotions. Is this what you want Sebastian to do for you? Change you? How do you know that it'll even work- that it'll even be a good change? What if you can't change back to your hard self? Who'll be there to pick up the pieces if he leaves. Who, Who, Who. That's that. There's no one if he leaves, you know that Ciel. Spoke my subliminal self. I purely ignored what it was saying, not caring if it would come back to bite me in the derrière.

"Hush Love. Don't worry, for I am one hell of a butler." I felt him grin into the back of my head.

That's exactly what I fear.

"You cocky crow." I sighed from the tiniest bit of relief I received, but it was just a small sigh that ended up lost in the dark clouds of the room. "Goodnight Sebastian." I finally let myself fall into a pit of slumber.

"Goodnight Love." Was the last thing I had heard Sebastian say that night, before I silently rocked out to my dreamland.

[A/N:] Well, if you haven't guessed, my life's running away from me. P: its not fair. Well Meiko was sleeping when I decided to type this up before I got my computer snatched from me. .hah. Well, I just want to give thanks to my faithful readers who LEAVE comments,(:
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