Author's note: hello guys this is my first fanfic and I have the first 15 chapters layed out... will add as soon as I figue out how to upload new chapters... see yah!

(ps. don't swear plz)

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Chapter one: Obi wan's per.

Obi Wan looked around horrified, the bed was made, but obviously hadn't been slept in for a few days, besides Anakin's blood-shot eyes confermined what he feared. There was still a half-eaten meal residing on the table from the past few days, and Anakin looked too thin to have eaten anything recently anyways. He was still in the same position Obi Wan left him in last night. "Anakin- have you slept, or even eaten at all in the past week?"

Anakin gave no sign as to having heard him. He just sat there, standing blankly at the floor. Finally, after almost a full minute, Anakin rasped, "no."

"Have you moved at all since yesterday morning? Have you even drank anything since it happened?"

Again, Anakin sat there for almost a full minute before replying, "I got up. Once. to get a drink of water." Anakin sighed, knowing the last sentence he was about to say would outrage Obi Wan. "some time… last week."

"...Anakin… you know what I have to say."

Another minute passed. "That I have been neglecting my needs, and yatta yatta yatta. Pretty much the gibberish that I neither have the time, nor wish to hear."

"You don't have the time? All you've done is sit here mindlessly staring at the floor! You're literally doing the definition of nothing!"

Another half minute, at least his brain was working faster. Anakin then mumbled something quietly, but in the tone of a harsh growl.

"What was that?"

"Go. away… I don't need your consistent perstreing…"

Obi Wan sighed and sat down next to his former padawan. "I know this is hard, it's been hard on all of us. Most of all you. But Ahs-" Obi Wan stopped sort of saying her name, with a dark look from Anakin thrown in his general direction. "She died almost a week ago, during which you haven't slept, and only ate half a meal a few days ago, when I force feed you. Force! Anakin- you haven't even moved!"

"So? Why should I care about myself when it was my fault she- died?" Anakin's voice gave out on the last word, but Obi Wan didn't notice.

"It is not your fault- we've been over this before-" Obi Wan stopped short, Anakin… was crying. Calming down, Obi Wan set his hand on Anakin's Back and rubbed it lovingly… they always had too strong an attachment for each other. "Anakin, at least let me call one of the healers and let them deal with your burns."

Anakin shook his head. "She took it all. I'm not hurt."

Obi Wan looked at Anakin, eyebrows raised. And I am supposed to believe that it's not your actual leg that is covered in Burns? Or that that's really- what- a rash? Oh, or did you just get soot on it during the explosion?"

Obi wan rested his hand on Anakin's shoulder, and felt pain shoot into his force signature as Anakin pulled away, quickly, putting up heavy walls again. The surprise of having a wound pushed on had distracted Anakin long enough to break his concentration. His cover was blown.

"Let me see it, Anakin."

Anakin pulled further away, tucking his head into his knees as he did. Anakin Started shaking.

"Anakin, let down your barriers…" When Anakin didn't respond, he added firmly, "now."

Slowly the mental barriers came down, then suddenly crumpled. Obi Wan yelped and put up his own mental barriers… Anakin… was much more hurt than he thought.

Anakin crumpled to the ground.