Chapter eleven:

"Love, wake up."

Five more minutes…

"Come on, it's time for school." The alluring voice called, eliciting a low grunt from me in response. Sitting up sloppily, and slightly, I rubbed my eyes with the back of my arm.

"Do we have to go?" I complained, as he nodded with a response of:

"Until Marie is in Shinigami custody; then yes." He sat himself on my left side, wrapping an arm around my waist, and he held me closely. I nuzzled into his side. I had wanted to fall asleep again, but if I had, I knew I would have been thoroughly chastised by Sebastian later today. It would just be a waist of his breath.

"Exactly what is she doing, Sebastian?"

"You remember how one demon cannot consume its contracted soul until the wish the human has made is fulfilled?" I nodded lazily as I understood, as he started to dress me into my day clothes. "Well, you see, she's trying to solicit the contracted human into ending their bonds early, so she doesn't have to accomplish any tasks at hand. In turn, she is basically receiving a free soul- which goes against the aesthetics of demon nature. As well as the rules set by Shinigami principle when the first demons were brought forth." he lifted off my black sleeping shirt, and replaced it with a warm, grey, long sleeved turtleneck shirt. "To shorten the definition somewhat, I would have to say that its called an "illegal contract", for lack of a better word." Respecting my space, Sebastian handed me a pair of black pants, and let me get changed into them myself.

As the rest of the nights clothes were tossed about the bed, and I was in my day clothes, I flung my feel off the edge of the bed, letting them dangle, so Sebastian could put my black converse on. Standing up, I decided to examine the full body apparel I was sporting.

The turtleneck was formfitting to my slender, teenage figure, yet it slightly went past my hips, forming around my rear just the slightest bit. The sleeves weren't too long, but they stopped at least a half an inch after my fingertips. The black pants were snug on me, and they looked like a pair of Jean leggings.

"Sebastian?"

"Yes?"

"I look like a girl."

"No you don't Love." He said with a forced smile.

"Do too." I muttered. He threw his arms around me for a second time this morning, as he replied.

"You don't look like a girl Ciel, you just look like the thirteen year old that you are." He whispered into my ear, almost instinctively.

"Whatever." I hissed. Sebastian pulled back, as I walked towards the bedroom door. Pulling it open, as we walked out, someone- something- was waiting for us.

"Sebas-Chan!" Grell squealed pointing to the milky glazed window. "Come look!"

Sebastian grunted, as I walked spaciously over to the window, hoping it was what I thought it was. Looking out as Grell continued pointing, I saw the fresh blanket of pure snow that covered the ground. It had to have been at least a good four inches in depth. The roads were slightly scraped clear, but the snow was still coming down, and in at least another half-hour, the roads would be backed up again.

"It's snowing." Sebastian stated.

Thank you, Captain Obvious.

"Sebastian, I want to stay home and play in the snow." I lied, smiling inside. Could I possibly use this as an excuse to stay home? I only hoped…

"But school is-"

"Cancelled!" Grell chimed in.

I silently stood, basking in the joy that came with being able to stay home today. There was only the slight victory smirk that played on my lips.

Sebastian sighed as I continued to watch the dancing snow outside. Kids out there were laughing and enjoying themselves, only they didn't think about the consequence of the cold numbing their barely covered hands. They only thought about the snow, and the oncoming hot chocolate that their parents or guardians would provide them as soon as they stepped in the door from their long play. Children were making snowmen, snow forts, having snowball fights- they were all having fun. Something that has become completely foreign to me. It was something I so desperately wanted to have again. I haven't had true fun since before that time. Since before that time, whence my life had been hurled into that deep, contorted chasm of depression. Remembering life before that, dwelling in my childhood, all those cheesy, and childish grins- contrasting that to my now scowling face, I want to go back. I'll always want to return to then. But I know it is not allowed. It will never be. It is the past, and the past will never return. Reminiscing in my memories, I hadn't noticed the new figure glaring up at me, into my eyes, as I looked down, and around the white landscape. A blue coat, black boots, and black mitts that were holding up a neat sign. Pale skin with black hair put up in two pigtails, reading the sign written in fancy lettering, I was appalled even further.

I warned you.

Slowly, I stammered backwards. My feet caught over one another, and I tumbled over. I began bracing my posterior for impact with the grey, fuzzy carpet. Though, it had not come, for Sebastian's caressing arms wrapped tight around my waist, keeping me up.

"Ciel?" Came his concerned reaction.

"S-Sebastian, it was Marie." I stuttered, forcing the words out of my mouth, as I regained composure. He turned, and looked out the window.

"I don't see her. All I see are the young neighbors partaking in activities of merriment."

"But, she… She was there! I saw her!" I protested, trying to get it through his thick skull I was not imagining things. He gripped me tighter.

"Of course. Do you still wish to play in the snow Love?" His eyes made contact with my only visible eye. Internally I felt like I was a popsicle, melting on a warm, sunny day.

"No." I replied almost hastily. "I'd like to stay home, maybe have a cup of tea." Sebastian chuckled, probably thinking about all those times that I had him humor my slight tea obsession, yet he knows I cannot smell it- nor can I taste it.

"As you wish." He answered, lightly brushing his lips across my forehead.

"W-W-Wait a moment!" Came an interruption from an unaware Grell. "Is there something going on between you two that I should know about!" He pointed frantically back and forth between the two of us, also trying to manage to put his red coat on.

"I wouldn't say that…" I whispered.

"Hah. Fine, well Will is taking me to star bucks. I'll return in about two hours. Don't do anything that I would do!" And with that, he was off.

Almost 15 minutes passed before anything really happened. I curled up in the living room recliner chair, my knees pulled up to my chest, my arms wrapped loosely around my ankles, my chin resting in my knees. I thought to myself.

Should I ask Sebastian? What Grell said is bothering me. I know he told me that… It was my decision whether or not we become something… But I don't know… I'm not in a good situation here. I mean, I love him, I do. I love Sebastian, Yet I can't help but feel nothing needs to be changed, as well as everything. Because, what happens if… We just stay friends? What happens if we don't? Will we still do what we do now? Live with each other happily? Why is love filled with so much doubt. Why. Why. Why. If things change, will it still feel… like he's always so distant? Speaking of distance, where is Sebastian?

I stood from the comfort of my chair, and looked around. There was no sign of him, but I still kept my voice low, and my steps light, for a sixth sense told me it would be a wise choice. Walking towards the backroom, I slowly and quietly, opened the door. I let my eye peak through the growing slit giving view to the room.

Coiled up on his right side on the navy blue sheets, was a sleeping crow. Faintly, I made my way to the sound sleeper, making sure I wouldn't disturb him. His black hair was slightly crusading down his facial features, making them stand out. His lower lip was pushed out just a fraction, and it was barley enough, to say it was a pout. His eyes were shut gracefully. The boy in front of me was just the most beautiful sight- he looked so innocent- yet I know that he is not. Behind that angelic charade, was where a frightening, tainted demon would rest.

My gaze on him softened, and I - truly, honestly, fully - smiled. I bent to my knees, careful to make no disturbances', as I stared at the butlers face. Still smiling, I used the back of my hand, to brush away and offending night lock of hair that laid strewn across his profile. I craned my head forward, and down, and placed a feather light kiss on the top of his nose.

"Sleep tight, My Love." I sighed, almost inaudible, before exiting the room. Though, I'm almost certain he was well aware of everything that happened.

Sebastian, I thought out to him, I hope you wont hurt me. I don't know if I'll be able to handle it.

I decided since he was asleep, I wouldn't wake him, so I went back out to the living room to watch that picture box Grell was always so in tuned with. Looking up from my feet however, I saw an unwelcome intruder sitting in my char. Jumping back slightly, I never moved my gaze as the person stood up.

"I warned you."

"…Marie."

[A/N:] Kufufu… kon'nichiwa! Nee how did you like this chapter? :3 Left you on a cliffhanger… Hai! Wonder what she want's..? I personally like this, because I think I made Ciel caring… Errr… out of character? Do you think that he was out of character?
o///O what do you think Will and Grell are going to be doing for 2 hours? I mean seriously… who goes to Star Bucks for THAT long?[ Yes, I wrote it, but I needed at least that long to get all the goodness in it.
Hrmm.. Probably magical Shinigami business and all that good stuff. Hee hee hee… I had a delete gasm going through my computer today. I found stuff I didn't like:

Files: Delete, delete, delete, delete, delete, delete.

Folder: DEEELEEEETEEEE.

Anyone know what that's from? Mwahaha. If you do leave it in a review.
Well, Rina-koto, best friend, lol love you[: mmkayz? Don't be too defensive xDDDD I hope you like this chapter ;] Hee Hee Hee… fan service. Delete.
If you want continuation, please review, it gives me inspiration, and motivation which I need more of… I stayed up writing till 6 am because of you guys :') haha. So yeah(^^,).

Disclaimer?: I do not own kuroshitsuji… if I did… Heh heh heh…
Also, star bucks is not mine at all. AT ALL.

Oh well.
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