Chapter Fourteen:

I rubbed the bridge of my nose as Sebastian looked over my shoulder at the page that read the warning.

"Dang it Marie." I sighed underneath my breath.

"That's another nuisance out of our lives." He said into my ear. He wrapped his arms around my waist.

"Sebastian, not now." I spoke, surprisingly mature. He pouted and let go.

"Why do you care so much…" He mumbled.

"I don't, I'm just not in the mood. Marie just continues to piss me off!" I threw my arms up exasperatedly. "really what is she hoping to accomplish!" I placed my hands on the back of my head, twining them in my hair. Sebastian walked away, taking a seat on the recliner facing the television. He mumbled incoherently.

"What?"

"I said I don't see why you care so much." He rested his elbow on the arm rest, then placed his cheek in his palm, propping his head up.

"she's just got something up her sleeve. And I want to know what it is." I scoffed.

"…Don't know what she's thinking." He kept grumbling.

"Are you pouting Sebastian?" He looked up.

"No."

I walked over to where he was sitting, and poked his cheek with a pointer finger.

"Are you Jealous?" I smirked.

"No," He sharply commented, gripping my finger. He stood quickly, and I fell to the ground on my rump. I started to laugh at him, but I was still caught off guard as I looked at his now-close face.

"Sebastian!" I growled.

"Awe, did the poor baby fall down?" He said in a ridiculously triumphant voice.

"Shut your mouth, servant." I shouted at the older. He hunched over me, as I sat still in his shadow.

"That was uncalled for, Love." He coldly remarked. I looked down. Not from guilt, but I just didn't like that possessive look he gave me, the smirk on his face, the glint in his eyes. "look at me." He called, but I didn't.

"You aren't the master here!" I yelled, but not too loud… We had neighbors… He brought a finger up, and hooked it under my chin just right and yanked up. Forcing me to look into his eyes. "Sebas-" I was cut off, mid-sentence, as Sebastian pressed his lips to mine. It was a second of Fiery passion for him; Before I threw my hand up and slapped him. His head rocked to one side with the slap, then lolled back to look at me viciously. I stared, gaping at him.

"Ciel," He tried to reason. I stood, wobbly at first, but after shoving my hands in my pockets and walking a few steps I was fine. "Let me explain-"

"Save it." I stopped him, heading to the front door.

"Ciel!"

"No!" I opened the door as I heard him follow. Tears were tugging at the corners of my eyes as I slipped out.

"Ciel, Wait!"

I slammed the door behind me in a fury.

Why did you walk away? I asked myself walking across the street to the park. I didn't want to stray too far. But this way; Sebastian wouldn't have to worry and go looking for me. Giving me just a few minutes to relax to myself. I know that he cant see me through any of the windows of the apartment. But that didn't matter. None of it did. The field of grass was at an uphill slant and lay behind the park structures. It was there, untouched, and glistening with dew drops from the earlier shower. I sat heavily on the ground.

Why did I walk away? I asked myself again.

Because you know he doesn't love you, Ciel.

Marie? I looked around.

You wont find me. She chuckled. I'm in your head.

What do you mean? I asked

Moron, I can project my thoughts into another's mind.

uh. Okay. Why do you want Grell?

For his Death Scythe, Dear Ciel. Her voice came a bit scratchy.

How much more of a bigger idiot could I have been? The only other thing that could kill a demon. A 'Scythe' of death. Though, I can only imagine the two pairs of scissors that Grell last had. The only person I remember sticking to the actual 'Scythe' theme was The Undertaker. I shiver at the thought still.

Why didn't I realize sooner-

Cause you're just a big moron.

Shut it!

Doesn't matter if I do or not, you'll break either way.

Huh? What do you mean… What did she mean? Break… like an arm? Leg? Or does she mean my mental stability.

Mentally, and to add onto the pleasure, probably physically. I could almost hear the smirk that would plague her lips… wherever in the world she was. I've read his mind Ciel. Things aren't gunna turn out for the better. Well, at least for you. What's wrong with this demon. I could somewhat smell her sadistic pleasure. I wanted it to go away. I wanted this doubt to go away.

GoawayGoawayGoaway. My jumbled thoughts spurred out.

Nope. Came her defiant reply. Don't through a fit over the simpleminded matter, dearest. You could come with me now, or I could continue to… persuade you some more. Break off the contract. Come with me.

And why in God's sake shall I do that? Some tears started to find their way to my eyes.

Because he's not good for you… And as an added bonus, Will gets Grell back! Ta-Da.

Not gunna happen. Who knows what could happen…

I know. He'll leave you. Because he doesn't LOVE you.

Screw you. Back off. Sebastian wouldn't… He wouldn't.

Mhm. Just wait, Babe. Wait and see, the big bad crow will try and convince you to do this himself. Just wait, Babe. Wait and see.

Shut up! I yelled in my thoughts. She laughed, and I laid on my side. Just shut up.

Nah. I quite like doing this, don't'cha know.

Bastard.

Hm, why thank you.

My eyes darted towards the apartments again.

He's coming. The big Nasty-Crow's coming to get his dinner.

"Ciel!" He called finally. "Come on. Please don't be mad at me. I'm sorry." I don't like that tone- that which shows possessiveness.

"Sebastian." My voice created a somewhat formal reply, he was now in an arms-length distance. With a plop he was back at my side. It should've felt right. But as I nuzzled close to him, and he wrapped his arms around my body, it all just felt- wrong. Not the 'It's a sin to love the same gender' wrong, or even the 'Doing this only for attention' wrong, but the genuine, questioning, gut-wrenching, 'What the hell is wrong' Type wrong. It was like a blow to the gut, then a stab to the heart, repeatedly.

"You sure you're not mad?" He questioned, I solemnly nodded. It was wrong. Too wrong. It was like he was a foreign existence to me. Like I didn't know him now. At least, not as well as I thought I did.

"it's fine, forget it."

"Hmph. Fine."

Marie snickered, You're a convincing liar, Ciel.

Shut your face hole.

ooh, I'm so scared.

You should be.

No reply.

He picked me up, Again. I sighed, but nonetheless, let myself get carried back into the Apartments.

There was a pesky weed planted in my brain, not that I cared, I've overcome worse. But it's growing… Growing.. It's getting bigger each second I'm with Sebastian. Why?

Break the contract.

No

Do it.

I sighed for the thousandth time that day.

Repeat what I say, 'When you love something, you let it go. Sebastian, I'm letting you go. If it was your's, it'll come back, if it doesn't, it never was. Sebastian, I'm not coming back."

Not going to- I thought. She had a point. If I broke the contract… Would Sebastian leave me? Would I be left in a shallow pit to wallow in depression if I broke the contract? Once more, tears stained my eyes.

"Ciel?" He asked, setting me onto the couch. "Pull yourself together man, Will's here." He whispered, to finish it off. I looked up.

"What..? "Will's here. About Grell-"

"You two are switched momentarily over to find him… for personal reasons, He's gone, correct?" how could he have been informed so quickly- what personal reasons? I snickered.

"Personal. So you two are together?"

"Not important information." He coughed into his fist, as he started to leave. Just as quickly as he came.

Sometimes I swear, the world simply was high on crack, the way my life is currently bouncing about all over the place. Its unstable. But yeah, he left me and Sebastian alone. It was awkward and tense. I actually wished William would come back here just so I can feel the slightest bit more comfortable. Despite how weird that sounds. I decided to continue with my string of thought from before, and ask Sebastian a question.

"What would you do, if I broke our contract." I said almost breathlessly, as he leaned back in his chair with a gaping mouth.

"What… Would I do?"

I nodded.

"Ah, I think… I'd…" He started rubbing the back of his head. "Well this is un-pleasant. I think I'll go get our things packed to start our search for Grell."

Before he could exit the room, I grabbed onto his sleeve. He was un-expertly avoiding the question. He was just going to leave after it ended, so why not let him enjoy it. Marie… I hope you're happy. I felt my heart, alive or not, shatter to microscopic pieces as the words left my lips: "Sebastian, I- we need to talk."

[A/N]: okay. Long wait, sorry, but heres chpt 14! Eh... I've been having brain farts with all my school, and softball, (10 games, 9won, 1lost) ^^; Well, I'm pretty booked. I AM continuing this story, so no more angry PM's 0.0 gahh!
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